evening light

Chapter 238 Disappointment
He hurried outside, opened the umbrella to search in the rain, he looked at many places, but there was no sign of her.He looked at the door of the store, at the shelter from the rain.

She waited for a while, and finally gathered enough courage. She finally lost the boy, and she shed tears in the rain just like she was when she was a child.

She thought she had grown up, but now she knew that she still hadn't grown up, she was still too young, and her mental capacity was still so fragile.

The rain will cry, it will cry very sadly,

And laughing inexplicably, Yu is just like her,
Yu is still lonely, the sky is dark, Yu can only wander around in the empty city alone.

In the grassland far away, there must be such a sea of ​​flowers.

A sea of ​​flowers blooms one after another, dancing with the rain;
They danced and laughed together, the sky cleared, the rain stopped, and the flowers withered.

She finally rushed into the rain, pulling her suitcase and running wildly. In the rain, the wind left behind by the running wind made her teeth chatter.

She laughed, and tears flowed joyfully, hahaha, how did she make herself so embarrassed.

How could she be too scared to say a word,

She is afraid of being let down by her sincerity, and Hei is afraid of being unkind to others,
Afraid of the bored look, afraid of clearly agreeing for a lifetime,

But it can't match reality.
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Cowardly, incompetent, inferiority complex.

Probably it's time to stand up and face the storm and suffering that should belong to her.

How could she, Guo Hongjing, be defeated so easily, she is a strong person, and she wants to live happily in this heartless world.

She is tired of others looking down on her eyes, one day, she will come back strong, how can she keep prostrate at others' feet.

What's wrong with being poor, what's wrong with being born in the countryside?
She deserved to be worthless and looked down upon by others?
No, this is not her life,
Children from poor families should be more ambitious,
Even if success is difficult, even if life is full of haze.

Is it hard to get what she wants?
She lingers on at the bottom of reality.Leave the sadness to time, she will survive from a desperate situation.

She wants to create her own world, but she is not reconciled.

Winning or losing does not matter?
How could she be beaten and become decadent, living a mediocre life.

Who said that women are inferior to men, who said that it is difficult to produce children from poor families?
There was wild ambition in her heart, so what if she was born in a rural area?Deserving to be trampled underfoot?is prejudiced?
One day, she will blind everyone's eyes. She has decided that she will be the first in the grade, and she will never admit defeat.

She can also soar for nine days, three years, ten years, 20 years, she can wait, she runs wildly in the rain, and her tears retreat unconsciously.

It was still so cold, but the fire in her heart made her braver.

How could she be looked down upon like this.

She finally ran to the station, she wiped the rainwater off her face with her hand, and wiped away the tears without blending into it.She bought a ticket and went home.

He searched outside for a long time but didn't see her. He thought she must have left.

He went back with the unopened umbrella in despair. When he got home, he took off his shoes and put on cotton shoes.

He lay flat on the sofa again, and he never got what he wanted.Why can't his life be in his own hands.

He clenched his fist tightly, punched the sofa hard twice, and yelled a few times, he was in such pain.

He didn't feel any pain, but the sunken hand made him weak all over.

He was lying slumped, his stomach growled, and he didn't want to move.

He saw the text message Su Feng sent him with his mobile phone, and had a good meal.

He didn't reply, clicked on the song, and began to loop a sad melody.

The voice inside made him feel dazed for a while. In this life, what do people live for? Is it for money?Is money so important?

Why did everyone only care about money? He swiped his phone and opened his photo album, which contained his clean appearance.

So many years have passed, what has he got?What have you lost?
But no matter what, life has to go on.

In this way, they basically lost contact. Ye Yaoyang never looked for Guo Hongjing again, and Guo Hongjing never took the initiative to look for Ye Yaoyang.

Guo Hongjing clicked on his profile many times, but she still didn't have the courage to add him.

She was angry at home alone, she found out every bit of the diary about what happened to them and tore it up, every time she tore up a little bit, she had a heart attack.

She was almost done tearing it up, and all the pieces fell in one place. Looking at these scraps of paper, she just kept on doing nothing, lit it with a lighter, and burned it like this.

She looked at the scraps of paper in the flames, and she was stunned. It turned out that so many things happened to them, but it was just a fire and it disappeared?
The photos in her mobile phone are well preserved. She set the password of the mobile phone as his birthday. She remembers his phone number and his QQ number.

She thought a lot, but she was still reluctant to delete the photos on her phone, after all, this was the only proof that he had existed in her life.

She took many photos of herself, each with a bitter face.

She seemed unable to learn to laugh anymore, she always saw him in her dreams, he still smiled and said, Xiaojing, come back to me now, okay?

I've been waiting for you for a long time, and she dreamed that he was holding her, the same as before.

"Little mirror, I made you suffer. Promise me, we will be good in the future." She smiled when she woke up, and she knew it was fake when she woke up, but she was still very happy.

She checked her phone, but he still didn't come to her.She was lost again, she just looked at her phone every day.

In the first few days, she picked up her mobile phone to watch as soon as she thought of it. Later, she slowly began to give up, and she might not be able to wait any longer.

This thought gradually became clear, and she really couldn't wait any longer.

She rarely dreamed of him anymore, his existence was really like a dream, as if he didn't exist.

School is about to start again.It's Valentine's Day again, and this year she's still a nobody.

She had been looking forward to Valentine's Day for so long, but in the end she still didn't accompany her.

She studies desperately at home. Only when she is studying can she feel more relaxed, and she won't think of him all the time.

She felt that after learning so much, she finally had a little understanding of these questions. Sometimes she could guess some difficult multiple-choice questions after analyzing them.

She has made great progress, she is very happy, she will live for herself in the future, she can be strong.

School was about to start again, and she was suddenly looking forward to it, did it mean that she would be able to see him.

Even if she just looks at him, she really misses him, she is looking forward to the start of school, she must get good grades in the test, and when the time comes, she must surpass him.

To impress him, she is not bad either.

(End of this chapter)