If you are well, then all is well

Chapter 40 Her Questions Are Too Private

Mo Fei felt that Shen Jiaxi's words were not accurate: "It's me and Xia Xueling who don't know each other!" After all, it was Xia Xueling who came to find trouble first that day.

"After rejoicing with friends, you two will start getting to know each other again, right?"

"This...he didn't know me these two days, it was Su Embroidery Workshop!"

"It doesn't matter, anyway, let's just say it like this!" Shen Jiaxi hated iron but steel, "If you take down Mr. Tang in one fell swoop, Xia Xueling, Bai Xiaoman, don't they all have to stand aside? Let me tell you Ah, when you and Mr. Tang get married, you invite them to come, and then..."

"..." This is everywhere!

It's fine for Shen Jiaxi to tease her, but unexpectedly, H also messed around with her.When Murphy started the live broadcast at night, H asked her straightforwardly: Are you going to be with Mr. Tang all the time for the past two days?

"How is it possible!" Shen Jiaxi made Mo Fei nervous, and when she heard the word Mr. Tang, she quickly denied it, "We don't know each other well, why should I stay with him all the time? Besides, Mr. Tang He's also very busy, and it's hard to meet him!"

H: That's true.

I don't know whether h said "this is true" in response to Murphy's unfamiliarity with Tang Mingxuan, or in response to Tang Mingxuan's busyness.Tasting it carefully, it seems to be both.

Hey, why does this h sound so similar to...

h: What do you think of Tang Mingxuan?
"Him?" Murphy was surprised, "You are quite interested in him!"

h: I just heard you scold him all the time before, and I want to know what you think of him now.

"Me? Is there?" Mo Fei chuckled, pretending to be stupid, "I guess not? I have no grudges with Mr. Tang in the past, and we have no grudges today. Why should I..."

h: 10-06-13:14.

"what is this?"

h: The time you scold Mr. Tang.

"..." Do you need to be so precise and specific!
h: It will not rain in Suzhou tomorrow.

"so?"

h: It will be a sunny day, I believe you will have good luck.

"for example?"

h: Didn't you love telling the story of "The Little Prince" before?Why haven't you talked about it recently?
When h mentioned this, Murphy couldn't help feeling a little embarrassed.

When she first started live broadcasting, she was very inaccurate about her positioning.Not knowing what to talk about on the radio, she simply read "The Little Prince" at night and became a children's anchor.But after reading for a while, she found that the effect was not good, so she gave up.The content of the chat became more and more casual, and then we simply talked about daily life.

h asked her about "The Little Prince", Mo Fei smiled awkwardly: "You said that! I recorded that casually to put children to sleep."

h: works great.

"How do you know the effect is good?" Murphy's heart skipped a beat, "You didn't let it go when coaxing the child, did you?"

In that case...

h: I listen to it myself.

"Are you trying to say that you are a baby?" Murphy laughed.

h: I often can't sleep.

Murphy's laughter stopped suddenly.

Seeing what h said, Mo Fei suddenly thought of Tang Mingxuan... I don't know if he can't sleep either?

Murphy stood by the window of the homestay, where he could just see the river downstairs.It was already dark now, and red lanterns were hung outside the houses on both sides of the river.When the night wind blew, the lanterns swayed.The red light and shadow are projected on the river surface, shadowy and indistinct.

"I have a question to ask you." Murphy thought about it, but said, "What does it feel like to not be able to fall asleep?"

H didn't speak for a long time, worried that he might misunderstand, Murphy explained: "I'm not trying to inquire about your privacy! I'm just curious about how it feels... I've suffered from insomnia once when I was growing up. As a result, I still don’t feel well. If I have frequent insomnia, wouldn’t it be very uncomfortable?”

h: Do you mean psychological or physical.

Uh... is it so detailed?
H: Very painful.

What is painful is not just the insomnia itself, but its effects.

Obviously the body is already very tired, but the spirit is very clear.

A person's body seems to be divided into two parts.Excited and desperate.

Between the two extreme emotions, you can only endure.

Stay up until you are completely sleepy, stay up until you slowly collapse.

Staying up until dawn brings misty and hopeless expectations.

Insomnia is like a monster with its bloody mouth wide open, it works hand in hand with the night.

They run rampant and wanton.

Polish your enthusiasm for life little by little, and consume your expectations for life.

You watch them go on a rampage, but there's nothing you can do about it.In despair you loathe yourself and find no redemption.

Boil, pain.Hate myself, hate life.

H is not a talkative person. After getting along for more than a month, it was Murphy who talked endlessly most of the time.Now suddenly seeing so many h posts, Murphy was very surprised.

Murphy read carefully and read carefully.When she finished reading all of H's words, she felt heavy and uncomfortable.

H: Why didn't you talk?

It was only when the message came in that Murphy came back to his senses.Reaching out and touching her face, she didn't know when she was crying.

Murphy couldn't figure out why she was crying, and she didn't understand what she was crying for.Perhaps h was very calm when she said this, what right does she have to cry as an outsider?

But Murphy just wanted to cry, she felt uncomfortable.She just suffers from insomnia for one night. How much pain do those people who suffer from insomnia for a long time have to endure?
I dare not think about it, nor can I imagine it.

Mo Fei wiped away her tears, not wanting H to know that she had just cried, she pretended to be innocent and said with a smile: "It turned out to be like this, then..."

H: You are crying.

Murphy coughed dryly and said, "Have you seen a doctor?"

Knowing that Murphy wanted to change the subject, h replied cooperatively: I have read it.

"Does the doctor have any suggestions?"

h: The doctor prescribed me sleeping pills.

Sleeping pills, Murphy didn't know much about it.But in her understanding, this is a medicine for tigers and wolves.Everyone mentioned that eating will be "addictive", it will cause great harm to the body, and the dependence is very strong...

"How long have you been eating?" Murphy asked.

h: about three years.

"Eating it for three years...will it lead to drug dependence?"

h: How do we understand the word "dependence"?
how to understand...

h: Aren’t psychological dependence and drug dependence both a kind of dependence?It's not a bad thing to be able to rely on something in life, right?
Why?Why does what he said seem to make sense?and a little more...

Pitiful.

"Don't you have anyone you can rely on?"

H sent a smiling expression...is it disgusted by her question?

Also, her question is too private!
(End of this chapter)