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Chapter 69 [Pure Love] Past Life Episode 02
As long as he knew that he had woken up and that he was still alive, Chu Wei would definitely come to see him.

Even if you don't come to apologize, but at least, you will come to see him.

Bai Chunfei thought and believed so, so he did not transfer to the hospital, but was still waiting in the hospital. Every day, from the moment he opened his eyes in the morning, he started looking for Chu Wei's figure, from being lost to waiting, to Looking forward to [Ah, as expected, I didn’t come today either].

And then: How could Chu Wei come to see him?
In the end, Bai Chunfei transferred to another hospital and moved with his father to another city, where he cultivated. After recovering, he re-entered the third year of high school, concealed his homosexuality, and lived an ordinary life.

It's just that Bai Chunfei is in the new school, but he can no longer return to the sunny and smiling past.

He became the guy who didn't talk much in class and looked very gloomy and difficult to get along with. He had no friends and didn't bother to make friends.

Chu Wei did not show up in the end.

This is how they end up.

I knew from the beginning that there would be no good results, but when I really found out that there was no such person by my side, I still felt lonely.

Bai Chunfei is handsome and has excellent grades. Although he looks gloomy at first glance, he is as popular in the new school as he was in the early stage of the previous school, and many girls confess to him.

So many people confessed to him, but he could only think of Chu Wei's face in his mind, and Chu Wei was the one who couldn't confess to him and betrayed and hurt him.

Bai Chunfei skipped school and went back to his original high school. In fact, he didn't hold out hope, because he thought that Chu Wei had already gone to college, and even if he came here now, he would definitely not see him.

He just couldn't give up that feeling no matter what, and wanted to come and see no matter what.

Bai Chunfei stayed outside his original high school for a whole day, not knowing what he was going to do, as if he looked like Chu Wei to everyone, but knew that no one was him.

Just when he was thinking [it's better if he doesn't see it] and was about to turn around and leave, he saw Chu Wei.

Chu Wei's appearance has changed a lot, he looks more energetic, his whole body brightens up, he has friends around him, with a smile on his face, and a girl is still holding his hand.

Bai Chunfei followed Chu Wei, followed him carefully, and walked a long, long way. In the end, he wandered the street all night by himself, and fell asleep on the side of the road when he was tired.

Chu Wei changed.

Because he left, Chu Wei changed, reread the third year of high school, and became an excellent student.

He had never seen Chu Wei's relaxed and casual smile, as if full of expectations for life.

He had never seen Chu Wei like this before. After he left, the other party felt relieved?
Originally, it was just dissatisfaction in my heart. Although I hated it, it was not such a strong hatred.

But ever since he returned from school to see Chu Wei, Bai Chunfei has changed completely.

Chu Wei's world wished to be without him, whether he was bullied or dying, Chu Wei never cared.

He transferred to another school, and Chu Wei changed his image. He became the new Chu Wei who was relaxed, laughed and loved learning. He was surrounded by friends who also loved learning, and he also had a girlfriend.

After Bai Chunfei went back that day, he found all the wine in the house and drank it clean, then tortured himself into the hospital again.

He thought that even if he didn't love him, Chu Wei almost killed him, at least, even if it was a little bit, he would feel guilty or afraid.

Because Chu Wei is a coward.

But no.

Not only that, Chu Wei seemed to wish that he would not come back to life.

He completely disappeared from Chu Wei's world, and the other party would never think of him again.

Bai Chunfei knew it, knew Chu Wei's life, knew that he entered a good university like an ordinary top student, knew that he was doing well in college, knew that he met a beautiful girl in college, Know that he married that girl.

Now that they are all married, he will have a child soon.

The more he knew about Chu Wei's life, the more unbalanced and disgusted Bai Chunfei felt.

He hated the self who never forgot about Chu Wei.

Bai Chunfei spent more than ten years cultivating himself into a scum with a distorted personality.

After despair, I don't know what is the point of living, but I just don't want to die.

He started going in and out of gay bars, where he flirted with all kinds of people, and developed distorted relationships with all kinds of scumbags like him.

What he can't stand and look down on the most is that kind of stupid face immersed in love, which makes him sick.

In the final analysis, love is just a ridiculous thing, and it has no meaning of protection at all.

Because it's not Chu Wei, because it can't be Chu Wei. Since it's not Chu Wei, it doesn't matter to anyone.

Bai Chunfei met a guy in the bar, the other guy like him could be anyone, they would make do for the night when they had no company.

Absolutely don't talk about the physical relationship of emotion. It can be ecstasy when you roll into bed, but it's irrelevant when you put on clothes.

They would occasionally sit and have a drink at the bar.

That person asked Bai Chunfei: "Do you hate love so much? Have you ever been hurt? Uncle told you that love is very sweet."

Bai Chunfei sneered, and Chu Wei's shadow seemed to flash in his mind, but there was a beautiful woman beside that shadow.

"Don't you think it's disgusting? I can't understand that kind of stupid behavior anyway."

Chu Wei has been married for three years. He must have a child. Is the child like him, or more like his wife?
Chu Wei is very kind to his wife, he must love her very much, it is the same as what Chu Wei told him in high school, they are different.

Chu Wei has always been a person who only likes girls.

For so many years, if it's just a physical relationship, Bai Chunfei has never been picky. As long as the lights are turned off, it doesn't matter to anyone.

He once thought that the kind of exchange of body temperature between each other could not be done without Chu Wei.

He used to think that whether it was love or hate, he would never be able to give it to anyone other than Chu Wei.

But it turned out that the fact turned out to be so ironic. He really couldn't only have the idea of ​​"it doesn't matter" to anyone other than Chu Wei, but he could do it physically with anyone.

Not everyone can, but everyone does not matter.

No one is him.

Bai Chunfei was already like this. Sometimes he would think that since anyone could do it, he might as well go to Chu Wei and rape him.

But no matter what, he couldn't get in front of Chu Wei, and couldn't let himself see Chu Wei's face.

To this day, he still loves that person.

The more he knew that the other party loved his wife deeply, the more Bai Chunfei felt that he had fallen in love with a good guy, and the more he tortured himself.

(End of this chapter)