you amaze me the whole time

Chapter 9 No Regret Medicine

Then, he said: "You didn't do it on purpose. Your seat is over there, and the water dispenser is over there. I really can't find any reason to believe why you want to go this way. Could it be that your brain is not normal?"

"Hey! Look, what I said just now, isn't someone going to deal with her now? We just need to watch a good show."

The time after class is always so short.After a while, the class bell rang.

The teacher stepped gracefully and walked into the classroom unhurriedly.

"Okay, students, hurry up and sit down in your seats. We are about to start class. It is said that every inch of time is precious, and we should make full use of the morning time." He opened the textbook in his hand and ordered.

Then, the sound of reading was heard in the classroom.

Afterwards, the teacher came to Gu Lian and asked what happened.Gu Lian didn't want to make things serious, and said it was fine.

In fact, she just didn't want everyone to worry. She was afraid that the teacher would call her parents to the school. She was afraid of seeing their disappointed expressions, and she didn't want to see their distressed expressions.

She knows that they have worked very hard, she should be sensible and not cause them trouble.

This world has almost formed a theorem: "The less capable a person is, the more he likes to bully the weak and fear the hard. The weaker the person, the more he has to pay the price." This has never changed.

Just like Gu Lian, didn't he also pay the price.

They intensified, from verbal attacks to physical violence.

Gu Lian lives carefully every day, often crying in the dark.She has learned to be sensible. She will not bother others when she is happy or unhappy.But she could no longer find happiness.

Gu Lian felt that he could not hold on any longer!She often doubts the meaning of her coming to this world, to survive the catastrophe?

She desperately wants to escape from this world, but the world is so big, but there is no place for her to stay.Wanjia is brightly lit, but none of the lights are lit for her.None of the smiles on the faces of millions of people is because of her.

Gu Lian laughed at herself, "Hehe, it's better to say that she is dead than that she is still alive."

The idea of ​​"suicide" not only appeared in Gu Lian's mind countless times.

Today, she couldn't bear it anymore.She told herself that she didn't want anything, didn't care about anything, and cared about the consequences.

Gu Lian said to them loudly: "Don't you hate me, don't you want me to die? I tell you, I will fulfill you. If I can't forget it in this life, all of you don't want to forget it. I want all of you , I have lived in guilt all my life.”

At night, when Gu Lian came to the lake, she wanted to jump down, so that she should be free.Never again, don't be so tired.

Gu Lian approached the lake step by step.

Just as she was about to jump down, she hesitated again.If she died, what would the parents do, they would die of grief.

Gu Lian didn't know what to do, she hugged her head on the ground and cried bitterly.

"Why did I come to this world, why am I different from others, and why fate is so unfair."

"Every one of us came to this world for a reason, maybe for someone, maybe to experience life. It's just that yours happens to be bitter, and what others have is just sweet. In fact, what you get is the same, both Life.

As long as you change your mindset, you will find out.Bitter or sweet.Bitterness can make your willpower stronger, and sweetness can make you enjoy all the good things in this world. "The sudden voice aroused Gu Lian who was in a daze.

"But why mine is suffering"

"The first half of life is bitter, maybe it's for the second half of life to be sweet."

I don't know how long it has passed, but I only heard the sound of the wind, the shadows of the trees swaying on the lake, and the petals falling in my hands.

Since then, Gu Lian has changed and become more indifferent, she has also learned to protect herself, and they dare not bully her casually.The surface relationship is getting better and better.

She learned to smile at everyone, even though she was unhappy.

Gu Lian is also a sophomore in high school, and many things have happened in the past few years.

For example: "Her dear father died, and her gentle mother became violent."

Weekend, as always.Gu Lian walked back home.

The difference is that she saved someone on the way.She is still as kind as before, but Gu Lian didn't protect it with sharp teeth, making it worthless.But now, everything is different.

I won't be sad for a long time because of one or two words from others, and I won't feel wronged because of being wronged by others.

Those who hated and liked her all dissipated with the wind like a cloud of smoke.

Walking near the house, I heard my mother and younger brother arguing.Gu Lian felt sad for a while, and tried to tell himself that this is no longer a surprise, not sad.

Gu Lian had to believe: "Mother has changed, she is not as beautiful and gentle as before, and the years have left traces on her."

Although Gu's mother has changed, Gu Lian still loves her deeply, even more than before.

Gu Lian clearly knew that she loved all of us, but she was not good at expressing it.

However, what Gu Lian still couldn't believe was that his father actually listened to other people's rumors and betrayed his wife who had been with him for 20 years.

He had a good face, but he couldn't bear the blow of life, so he committed suicide by taking medicine.Gu Lian watched him leave with his own eyes, and he said to his mother: "I regret it, I don't want to part with you, and also our children." How pitiful.

However, there is no regret medicine in this world. In life, if you make a wrong step, you will make a wrong step.As the teacher often said: "If the process is wrong, the result will be wrong."

(End of this chapter)