His little girl is not good again

Chapter 46
For several days in a row, he didn't dare to contact Jiang Beining, and Jiang Beining never took the initiative to find him.

He still remembered that after he kissed her forcefully, besides being angry, her face was more frightened. She raised her arms, but didn't hit him.

She bit her lower lip and looked at him for a few seconds. She turned around and fled without saying a word or asking.

He didn't feel like thinking about it any more, he would rather her slap her down and she would get angry at him than be silent like now.

He was afraid that after the silence broke out, it would end in silence and darkness.

Shangguan Zhengxun went to the hospital to separate hematopoietic stem cells for Xichen for the fourth time, and also drew blood for Shangguan Xichen to use as a backup.

When he got home, his back hurt, his head was dizzy, his sharp face was bloodless, and he was a little unsteady when he walked.

The whole person presents a kind of sickness.

But when he saw the torn admission notice in the trash can, he knelt down like a thunderbolt, frantically picked out the broken pieces of paper from the trash can and put them together. The four words of university, when you see your own name on it.

"Ah~" he roared heart-piercingly.

"What are you arguing about! Get out and make a noise!" Qi Yun yelled as she came down from the stairs.

Shangguan Zhengxun held the scraps of paper with trembling hands, and stared at her with scarlet eyes.

Qi Yun brushed her hair with her hands, and said disapprovingly: "It's useless to stare at me, I tore it up, if you have the ability, you can sue me."

Shangguan Zhengxun leaned on the sofa and got up tremblingly, and said in a trembling voice, "Mom, do you know how long I have worked hard for this admission notice?"

His eyes were red: "In order to be able to go to college with my beloved girl, in order to be worthy of her, I study until four o'clock in the morning every day, eat and sleep for less than five hours a day, and I am holding plaster casts in the hospital. I am memorizing words, I study day and night, do you know how much I have paid behind a piece of paper? You are like this, destroying it and destroying me.”

Qi Yun was silent, staggered his tearful eyes, and said lightly: "You shouldn't have got this, all of this should belong to Xichen, you murderer shouldn't get it."

"Then call the police!" Shangguan Zhengxun roared angrily, "You should have locked me up and sent me to jail!"

He exerted too much force, his blood supply was insufficient, and he felt dizzy, and the next second, with a "bang", he fell to the ground unexpectedly

It took a while before I came back to my senses.Qi Yun didn't go to help him, but still stood at the original position, Shangguan Zhengxun looked at the ceiling, tears silently rolled down his cheeks: "Mom, for so many years, apart from being in prison, what I deserved or not Enough is enough, if you are still not relieved, you can call the police..."

Qi Yun didn't make a sound.

Shangguan Zhengxun lay on the ground, turned to look at her, and asked tearfully, "I really want to know, if one day, you find out that I didn't do everything, will you regret treating me like this?"

"Impossible!" Qi Yun lost control of her emotions, "Except you! There can be no one else!"

She didn't wait for him to speak, and ran upstairs as if she was fleeing.Perhaps, she didn't dare to think about it, and didn't dare to face such a possibility.

Shangguan Zhengxun laughed for a while, the smile was full of sadness, and he closed his eyes feebly...

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Waking up again, he was in the hospital.

Shangguan Liewen stood by the bed, his back turned to him as if he was in deep thought.

"Dad..." Shangguan Zhengxun's voice was as hoarse as a broken gong, and he tried to get up.

Seeing that he woke up, Shangguan Liewen hurriedly supported him: "Don't get up, your body is too weak, and you are severely anemic, so lie down properly."

Shangguan Zhengxun didn't insist anymore.

"Zheng Xun..." Shangguan Liewen held his hand and patted the back of his hand heavily: "Dad knows that you have been wronged all these years, and your mother has done too much, but after all, she is Your mother, don't blame her."

Shangguan Zhengxun was silent.

It's always like this, no one cares how much he has been wronged, and they always tell him not to mind and not to blame her.

Shangguan Liewen sighed deeply: "Since the matter has already happened, don't pursue it anymore, Dad will make up for you, I will send you to study abroad, come back to work in the company directly, and Dad will let you be the vice president directly. "

Shangguan Zhengxun's heart suddenly became cold, and he slowly withdrew his hand. He said lightly, "No, I won't go abroad."

"That's fine, just come to the company to work, and Dad will take you with him personally."

Shangguan Zhengxun smiled suddenly, he had a lot to say, in the end, he didn't say a word, just shook his head.

Shangguan Liewen frowned, and his tone was a little impatient: "You don't do this or that! What do you want to do? Let me ask you, what else can you do? Just like you, will you work for others in the future? Or Go back to your old job to play games? What do you use to support yourself with that dishonest career?"

Shangguan Zhengxun smiled wryly.

It turned out that in the eyes of his father, he was so unbearable, he was just a mediocre person with no talent from the beginning to the end.

The career he loves, the dream he puts all his eggs in one basket for, are all classified as immoral in his eyes, and e-sports may be nothing more than playing games in his eyes.

He finally understood why his eyes were full of disdain when he showed the championship trophy to his father again and again.He also finally realized that in this world, no one loves him, no one understands him.

In the eyes of his father, he is just a successor to take over the career he has worked hard for half his life, and his existence is only to prevent the country he has worked so hard from falling into the hands of outsiders.

He swallowed everything, and said lightly: "Dad, you don't have to worry about me. All these years, when I need you, you will always be absent. Now, don't plan my life anymore. Whatever I want, it's up to me." choice, please do not interfere."

"You?" Shangguan Liewen couldn't believe it: "I am your father!"

Shangguan Zhengxun raised his eyes to look at him, his eyes were sharp and cold: "I was lying alone in the ward for two weeks during the operation, and there was no one around me except the nurse. Why didn't you think you were my father?

When my mother knew that I was afraid of the dark and had claustrophobia and shut me up in a small dark room, why didn't you feel that you were my father when you watched me screaming helplessly?

When my mother was hurt again and again, you didn't stop me once, but told me not to blame her, don't make a sound, and endure after I endured everything. "

His eyes were horribly scarlet, and his voice became a little louder: "Back then, you knew that I didn't cause my grandma's fault. Now, you take my forbearance and silence as a matter of course, as your acquiescence? I bear all the blame Do you really think I'm a sinner?" When the grief and anger that had been suppressed for a long time broke through the restraint, he couldn't control it, and finally he yelled out.

Shangguan Liewen was choked and speechless. After a long time, he opened his mouth and said: "Father knows I'm sorry for you, but Xichen has been in poor health since he was a child, and now he has cancer. You are brothers, you should take care of your brother. Mom has already decided that you killed your grandma, if you tell the truth now, she won't be able to accept it, so if you bear with it, Dad will try his best to make it up to you!"

Shangguan Zhengxun laughed, loudly.In this way, others cannot hear his heartbreaking voice.

His smile was full of bitterness, and his tone was as calm as water: "I endure it for the sake of brotherly love, mother-child love, out of morality, and dedication to this family. I recognized it at the beginning, and now I have nothing to blame. , I don’t need you to make up for anything, I voluntarily, I just hope that you don’t interfere in my life, that’s all.”

Shangguan Liewen wanted to say something more, but Shangguan Zhengxun turned around and closed his eyes, not listening or paying attention.Shangguan Liewen sighed helplessly, turned and walked out of the ward.

(End of this chapter)