Fast travel strategy: the host is the black lotus

Chapter 308
Seeing Xia Liang's collapse on his face at this time, Dongyang couldn't hold back and lowered his eyes sadly.

"I know that I did something wrong, and I also know that I shouldn't ask for your forgiveness, but I have been living in self-blame and guilt for so many years, and I will not kidnap you morally, because of my sadness. Let you forgive me."

"I know that I did not consider this matter very well, and I also know how much the deliberate alienation at the beginning hurt you."

"I have no other intentions, I just want to be friends with you. Over the years, I have always regretted the hurtful words I said to you before, and I don't know why I was so dizzy that I made that decision. , I don’t know why we have to say those words that hurt you to judge our relationship.”

"But I was too young at the time. I didn't know how to distinguish between pros and cons, and I didn't understand that doing this would hurt others."

"I'm too selfish. I was only thinking of myself at the time. My feelings for you were wrong, so I tried to stay away from you as much as possible, not to disturb you, not to affect you, so I did a very selfish thing. Decide."

"I should get to know you first before making these decisions, or I should tell you directly. Even if the two of us are far apart by then, I won't be so guilty or blameful, nor will I feel sorry for you. .”

"I never thought that you have had no friends for so many years, just to wait for my apology."

"I never thought that what I said before would make you unwilling to forgive me for the rest of your life. In fact, I knew that I made a mistake, but at that time I stubbornly thought that you would bow to me first, and you would Talk to me first, because you have always been like this, because you have paid too much to me, so I think you will always give to me and be good to me."

"I take myself too seriously, I'm really too proud, that self-esteem that I don't know where it came from hurt you, and it hurt me too."

"But I see you escaping every day. When you look at me, my heart really hurts. I know what I did was wrong, and I also know that I should apologize, but I can't lower my head. I know, I should be the one who bowed his head, but I don’t know why at that time, I just refused to bow his head.”

"Actually, when I think about it, it seems that the two of us have been angry for so many years, and we just need a chance to apologize. We are obviously such good friends, and we should participate in the most exciting moments of each other's lives, but we often miss it."

"That summer when you went to my grandparents' house, I thought a lot. I thought about our day and night together, what you promised me before, and how good you were to me every minute and every second."

"I regard these as my own, so I won't feel guilty when I use them. I even feel that you will always stand firmly on my side. Of course you will also stand firmly on my side." side, but I pushed you away."

"When I knew I liked you, I was so sad that I almost couldn't breathe,"

"It's because I pushed you away directly. Actually, I never thought of pushing you away. I just wanted to hug you tightly and tell my friendship, but I didn't at all. Dare to do this, because I know you will hate me."

"You really treat me as a friend, but I don't really treat you as a friend. My mind is full of thoughts that I can't express and actions that I can't take."

"When I see you getting close to others, I even want to hold you tightly in my arms, so that everyone can't see your goodness, and let you stay by my side forever, forever Stand by my side, I want you to be by my side forever."

"But I know that I am not qualified, not only because of that silvery love, but also because you are my friend, my best friend, so how could I bear to watch you fall into the dust with me? "

"Xia Liang... I really really like you very much."

"Among the wonderful times you and I missed, I wanted to spend every minute and every second with you."

"Not only do I want to spend time with you, but I also want to hold your hand, hug your shoulders, and put you in every important moment of my life. You will always be on my mind."

"When you are not around, I will imagine you by my side. What will you say to me? When I fall into the trough, I will also imagine that you will be by my side to comfort me."

"But it's just a dream."

"It's just an extravagant dream I had."

"After waking up from the dream, there is nothing left, so I never want to wake up, but I know it is not good to escape from reality like this, because I know you are in reality, waving at me, but I am one step away. Take a step back,"

"You stepped forward bravely, took my hand, and wanted to lead me forward, but I shook off your hand and ran backward by myself."

"I admit that I have been doing wrong for so many years, and I also admit that my humble secret love will not have too bright results, but I still want to apologize to you, because I have thought clearly, it is worse than the two of us If you're so disgusted, it's better to deal with it directly."

"Every time I pass by you, I want to say something to you, I want to lock my eyes firmly on you, and I also want to see the smile you once bloomed next to me, but I know it's out of the question."

"Every time you avoid me, I feel very sad. I don't know what's going on, but I really feel like my heart is being gouged out."

"Seeing your sad look, I really want to hold you in my arms."

"I don't know what you will think, maybe you will laugh at me who likes men."

"But I finally figured it out today. I want to tell you the truest emotions in my heart, because in this way, there will be a turning point between the two of us."

"It doesn't matter even if you don't give me a chance. I will continue to work slowly and hard to eliminate the resentment in your heart and the grievances you have suffered over the years."

"I think I owe you an apology."

"I'm sorry, Xia Liang, I really, really love you."

Listening to Dongyang's blurted words, Xia Liang finally couldn't hold back his tears and hit the ground drop by drop.

What he had been looking forward to for so many years finally fell apart at this moment.

(End of this chapter)