Not in love upgrade system

Chapter 350
Up to now, the figure of my brother is still intact in my mind, and it becomes more and more clear as I miss it day and night.

Before I talk about the fact that I have no blood relationship with him, I hope you don't misunderstand——

The girl named Jiang Quan is not a brother-in-law.

The so-called brother control refers to having feelings for people who can be collectively referred to as "brother". In other words, righteous brothers and so on can also be included in the scope, which is why I don't want to consider blood relationship.

Anyway, he has always regarded me as his younger sister, so as he wishes, I will be his younger sister.

However, if I could spit out a few words with my mouth, I would definitely not say the word "brother" happily.

reason?reason?
I don't know, I've been thinking about it for a long time, but I can't explain it.It’s just that as a deaf person who can’t hear the slightest sound, I occasionally imagine that I have finally learned to speak through special courses. When the time comes, I must talk to my brother, right?

Then, the problem came——

In terms of address, do you just call him brother?
To my surprise, my subconscious immediately rejected this question without any hesitation, and this fact also surprised me.

"After all, I'm not brother and sister with him." ——In the end, I can only use this to muddle through the matter.

Ah, yes, one thing bears repeating: I'm not a bro-con.

I do think about my brother every day, and think about him in another city. As for whether he misses me the same way, I can confidently give a negative answer.

It's not that I'm a woman who loves to be entangled, or that he's too cold-blooded and ruthless, it's just that there are some things that are different - he is different from me, and he can always find new challenges in a new life. Feeling negative.

And me?

I try not to judge myself biasedly: whether I am sad or happy, I am always immersed in the fragments of my past life.

At the end of the day, I'm just a kid who can't open the door and get out of the room without a pull.

Of course, this is not my fault.

Look at me in the mirror--

A fair face between a round face and an oval face, slender and tender limbs, and his hair has completely covered his shoulders because of his unintentional words "Your hair is cuter" at the beginning, except for the slightly protruding chest Not surprisingly, I look like an ordinary cute ordinary girl and an ordinary high school student.

I look so ordinary, but I don't have the despicable thoughts that are good at treating myself as a victim.

However, it is true that I became a victim when I had no relationship with the "perpetrator".

You can't blame me for being born, right?I didn't hinder anyone, did I?But from that moment on, I couldn't hear the sound, and even the first whine after I was born was compressed into an ugly and soundless embarrassment.

Not being able to hear has become a powerful obstacle to my contact with life, and learning to speak is almost impossible for me.

After all, it took me nearly ten years to understand language alone.Hey, how many years did it take?Sorry, can't remember exactly.

There were so many things that happened at that time, watching the two named parents complaining to each other and then hysterical, and then being rejected and discarded by them, remembering and trying to accept these, I have exhausted my energy.

The not-so-glamorous past, stayed where it was, and turned into a small, dark house, trying to accept it all, I tried my best, so next, I don’t plan to go out, in fact, I don’t either Strength went out.

That small room was very cold and dark, and slowly, I was almost corroded by the coldness and darkness, and merged with them. Therefore, I am really grateful to him who can pull me out without authorization, so, When I was told unilaterally, "From now on, you will be my sister and I will be your brother", I didn't have the slightest thought of resistance.

I am very grateful. I always feel that I need to give something back. Although we are now relatives, if I don’t do something, I can’t feel at ease.

But in the face of him who is omnipotent, I can't do anything. Day by day, in this way, in my own powerlessness, I am immersed in this brand new life out of the darkness, and I haven't come out yet.

Well, there's no need to go out.

Since this thing makes me feel that life is finally a good thing, then why do I have to run away in a hurry against my will?
Speaking of this, everyone should understand the reason why I said that I am not a brother-controller, right?
It's not because I like it that I miss it all day long, it's not because I like it that I want to be together, I just...haven't passed that time before.

The little sister who is doted on by her brother says she will marry her brother when she grows up, and the little daughter who is doted on by her father says she will marry her father when she grows up, but when they grow up, they will find that some better people are also They will pamper themselves, so they easily walked over and changed their minds.

I can't, except for him, I can't find anyone who can make me walk again, so, I can't, I'm still there.

More importantly, I can't stay by his side now, and I can't guarantee that I can stay by his side in the future. At this moment, if I don't work hard to stay by his side in the past, then I will never Can't move forward either.

In the past few years when I was separated from him, even if my longing made me unable to sleep peacefully on a moonlit night, I never took the initiative to contact him. What a coincidence, he never contacted me once.

The reason on my side is that I can't trust the black and white words, these words that can be mixed with lies at any time. Sometimes, I am afraid that it is false, and sometimes, I am afraid that it will become true.

On his side—let me guess—it must be because trying to live is already hard enough, and there is really no time to care about me, a person who can live alone.

But no matter what, I still want to meet him very much. For this reason, the winter vacation when I can meet him, even if the sky is covered with snow, I feel colorful.

Tomorrow, my brother will be back...

In the last year of the orphanage's existence, he will definitely come back, and he told the dean's mother-in-law that he will arrive tomorrow.

"Brother, come back quickly."

I stood in the empty yard, and the orphanage that my younger brothers and sisters had left one after another seemed to have grown several times or ten times larger all of a sudden, and the empty space made people feel a little creepy.

The dean's mother-in-law is coaxing the last little girl who is not taken in, Sakura, and hopes that she can eat more.

Brother will come back tomorrow.

Oh, by the way, I heard that the vice president's aunt, the mother-in-law's daughter, will bring her daughter back tomorrow. It seems... her name is Wakazuki Asami. According to their habits, she should be called Mami-chan.

Unfortunately, I can't pronounce this lovely name.

But it doesn't matter, starting tomorrow, this place will become lively.

Alright, alright, it’s almost over, next is the annual customary wish——

I hope my brother will not bring his girlfriend back.

Heck, although he doesn't seem like the kind of person who would think about such a thing for the time being, I'll make another wish for now.

Otherwise, my dream of "My brother has never been able to find a girlfriend, there is no way, although I am disabled but still cute, I will marry him and stay with him forever~" will be shattered, and my mood will also be destroyed. It's going to get pretty bad for this.

That's not okay, I want to spend this time, the time I can be with him, smiling.

Finally, let me say it again, as my brother's sister, I am not a brother-controller.

(End of this chapter)