Data rivers and lakes

Chapter 258, lost

I'm crazy too.Fortunately, a well-informed friend from the rivers and lakes rescued me.

My friend who is still in Daoist gave me the power to find me a fast horse!I held her by force and mounted my friend's horse.Three people sat on one horse!

In the medical hall, she still refused to cooperate with the treatment and was struggling desperately, even though she was already very weak.
I pressed her forcibly and asked the old doctor to treat her and give her medicine.

For the next period of time, I gave up all my business and stayed with her every day, fearing that she would do something stupid again.But we rarely talk.Because I don't want to deceive her, if I don't tell lies, I have nothing to say.I can't tell the truth anymore.I just want to show with actions that I want to accept you.

At first, she would still resist treatment.But I was on the sidelines, and as soon as she resisted, I immediately grabbed her.

I told her, I said, as soon as you recover, I will take you away.She smiled and said that you are willing to give up your current achievements and go to a strange place with me to start again?I said yes, and she smiled again.I said, believe me, I will not hurt you anymore, I will take you with me for the rest of my life, give me another chance, the last time.She smiled happily, like a flower, which made me feel a little overwhelmed.

Half a month has passed.

She was close to recovery, she was not resisting during the period, she was very docile, the same as before.She looked fine and in a good mood.

A wealthy businessman came with a large and profitable business and found me in the medical clinic.But I didn't do it and stayed with her.She advised me to let me go, not to worry about her, saying that at that time, it was just her impulse.No more suicides!Let me rest assured that I will spend more money after I make more money.I said, well, wait for me to pick you up in a few days.Then I went, after all, that single business can make a lot of money if it is done!I still can't bear it after all.

After a few days, I guess she was almost fully recovered. I went to pick her up, and the old doctor told me that she left in the morning.I asked who I was with, and the old doctor said he left alone.She's "home" and I know her.I rushed to Dongxiang Pavilion immediately!
When I returned to "home", the house was still so messy.And since no one lived there for a long time, there was a light layer of dust.I went to ask my mother, and my mother took the trouble to tell me that she didn't know either.Let me find it myself, I searched for her everywhere, but she just evaporated as if she had disappeared.Maybe she went to relax, she will come back, I know her.

I found the old doctor and asked her if she had left anything behind when she left.The old doctor was busy boiling the medicine and shook his head.

I think she will come back, I know her.

I am back to busy things, but I miss her all the time.

It's been a long time, I should go back to "home" and check it out.I found that the house has become very tidy and spotless.I'm so excited that she's back!I was waiting for her "at home", I knew she would come back, I knew her.

But she never appeared again.

I was disappointed, and I also thought about looking for it. Where can I look for it in the vast sea of ​​people?
I'm prosperous again, but the richer I get, the more empty I feel.I just realized that I really have nothing.I am alone.And I can't bear this loneliness more and more.I try not to think about her, but the more I do, the more her shadow surrounds me.

The more time I have, the more lonely I feel. I am like a body that has lost its soul, living a mechanical life, working hard to make money, making money, not allowing myself to be idle, paralyzing myself with alcohol, paralyzing myself.

She never came back.Maybe I don't know her well?She just left?Gone with nothing left?Not even a note was left behind.Where did she go?Can that city take in a woman like her?How about living without relying on her?Are you still being lied to?
You can no longer lie to yourself.I need her.I went to find her, in the town where she was born.It was a small town.I found her home, but only saw his old father.Not long ago, he was also released from prison. I asked him, but he didn't know. It seems that he is also a little confused!Because he was already a very bad old man.

Maybe before long I will too.

I even found the person who lied to me, and I dealt with him severely. He cried and told me to let him go, but I couldn't find her.I used means to buy the original "home", and there is actually a house that belongs to me in Dongxiang Pavilion!There, I was stroking the portrait of her, and there was a pot of flowers on the table, which was her favorite orchid.And a very eye-catching note.

I go there almost every day to water the pot of flowers. Every time I open the door full of hope, my hands tremble. When the door opens, everything in the house is still the same as before, but I have to search for something that excites me. trace.Nothing but disappointment and helplessness.

Lost to treasure.Only people who have lost before will understand how I feel.I want to say: If God gives me a chance to come from my heart, I will, but I will never have the chance to say it!
I owe her, and as she said, I can't pay it back, and I will never be able to pay it back!I can't breathe under the weight of this debt!

Flowers died, died for unknown reasons.I know, I'm dying too!I am over 60!I don't have years to live!

I don't think I can go on like this anymore.I'm going to find her!I need her!I sold all my property, entrusted relationships, and found friends, but there is still no whereabouts.After all, it's been too long. It's been too long. The family property has been wiped out, but there is no news about her!I can only find out by myself!
two years!I said to myself, or find.I would be happy to die!If I can't find it, let me die on the way to find it! "

The old man took out the old picture scroll in his arms again, weeping with tears, caressing the beautiful face on the picture scroll.

After hearing what the old man said, there were also tears in the cabin.Whether it is a bitter woman or a vicious couple, everyone is moved by it.The boatman wiped the corners of his eyes, quietly walked onto the bow, patted the old man on the shoulder, then picked up the bamboo pole inserted in the river, then supported the boat, and started to go to the other side of the river!

The boatman supported the boat, and sang a melodious and sad song from his mouth!Floating towards the entire river!In the cabin, there are only slight crying sounds, and a broken dream of a man!
(End of this chapter)