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Chapter 178 I Killed Them
"...Well, I will consider it." He Nan was a little hesitant when Watanabe said this.

indeed.There was some truth to what she said.

"So I feel that New York will not get better after the new mayor takes office." Yuri Watanabe then whispered while flipping through the files: "...I'm afraid it will be another bloody turmoil. I don't mean the new mayor. The adaptation period that the mayor will inevitably go through after implementing the New Deal is instead all kinds of turbulent struggles."

"Hmm..." He Nan fell into deep thought.

He was thinking, if he had to join an organization, would he be able to adapt to the atmosphere of the Avengers, and would the Avengers accept his behavior?

In fact, when it comes to organizations, he prefers to join the Detective Union.

That is to say, the organization that he was automatically eligible to join from the moment he got his detective certificate after graduation.

...But this organization has to pay a monthly membership fee after joining, and he earns little, so he is not willing to pay it.

After all, even after spending money, this organization can't do anything to protect him.

The organization's influence in New York is too weak, so weak that it has almost no ability to shelter the team members.

They're still good in DC, Boston, Hub City, Gotham City, etc.

And he will not go to these places for the time being.

...It's really embarrassing.

An organization that is most suitable for him, but there is no need to join because the organization is useless in the local area.

If you join in, you will get more money every month, and you will not be able to enjoy the benefits of being a member.

Then, He Nan thought of what Yuri Watanabe said to him.

...Thinking about her past experience, the more he thought about it, the more reasonable it became.

Yuri Watanabe was spotted by Tony Stark two years ago when the eight major gangs competed for territory and launched a street battle with heavy casualties, and tried to support her to become the director of the New York General Administration.

However, in the power struggle, they were defeated. The aspiring police officers who were willing to follow Yuri Watanabe to clear up the chaos in the police station suffered heavy casualties, and those who survived were either fired or transferred to posts far away from the power struggle.

... The good police who had the courage to change the dark status quo in the police world were almost wiped out at that time.

Afterwards, the rest of the police did not dare to fight anymore.

Yuri Watanabe just directly persuaded the forensic officer Cohen to resign, probably because he was deeply affected by that painful memory.

Originally, all the comrades around her suffered miserably for supporting her just cause. I'm afraid she put everything on her own head, thinking that she had harmed them.

Now she doesn't want to see anyone else die because of her.

... This is quite similar to Stark, perhaps one of the reasons why Mr. Stark chose her.

If something went wrong when I was fighting with my comrades, I felt that it was my own fault, because I failed to do XXX.

If you carry all the blame on your body, you will be overwhelmed sooner or later.

Stark can be sassy, ​​slap people with humor or sarcasm, and at worst be able to let go of all the burdens and just be a happy playboy to spend his life-although that may not be what he wants, but it will never be. It is one of the options, and it is a retreat that has been reserved.

But Yuri Watanabe did not.

Her personality is more serious and dull, and she can't see evil.Without the identity of a policeman, he is just an ordinary person.

Her pressure is constantly accumulating. Seeing that the righteous cause she fought for has no way out, and her proud identity is becoming stigmatized day by day, she doesn't know how hard it is to suffer.

If the pressure is not released, it may have a huge negative impact on people's psychology.

…He Nan was a little afraid that she would start to go to extremes in the future.

It's hard to predict what kind of terrifying scene it will be.

This kind of person who keeps running on the road of pursuing justice without looking back, and finally finds that the road is getting darker and darker is likely to fall.

...Maybe that would have a positive effect on purifying this society, but that kind of ending is really painful.

He Nan has always felt that breaking one's faith is the cruelest punishment.

…referring not to religious beliefs.

It is the goal that has been firmly believed in and fought for in life.

Not everyone can kill evil people with peace of mind like the Punisher, and the more they kill, the more vigorous they are.

More people will feel more and more empty, small and painful.

Because if you persist in killing evil people and find that society is getting cleaner, then you may be motivated and proud of what you have done.

But what if you can't kill evil people no matter how you kill them, and you find that your actions are useless?
...The frustration brought about by that is not ordinary.Many people question their actions.

"Watanabe Yuri." He Nan spoke heavily after thinking about it.

"...Any new discoveries?"

"No, I'm still waiting for the report. How can there be new discoveries." He Nan said helplessly: "I want to ask you, have you considered quitting this job?"

"……No."

"Because you think you can change the status quo of the police station?"

"No."

"...Then, have you ever thought about actually doing something that can uphold justice?"

"That's not within my consideration." Watanabe Yuri stopped turning the pages in his hands, bowed his head in silence for a moment, and then said: "I don't leave because if all the policemen like me leave, the police The bureau will be completely corrupted. As long as one person like me remains, it means that the police are still defending their beliefs and the justice represented by the police badge...Since I don’t want the police to continue to rot like this, I You should lead by example, so of course you can’t give up.”

"But you were still trying to persuade Cohen to leave, weren't you?"

"That's different. It's too dangerous for him to stay here." Yuri Watanabe took a deep breath: "I know what you want to say. If there is no continuous addition of new blood, then the change of the police station is out of the question But in fact, I just can’t demand others by my own standards. I’m just saying something irresponsibly, and the other party gave me a life... I don’t have the ability to protect them, why? Nan. In fact, even if I had, I would not force others to take risks."

"I just hope you have a good talk with Cohen and give him the right to choose, instead of directly suggesting that people go. Because if you don't form your own forces in the police department, you will never have the protection of newcomers who want to be a good policeman Ability. A bare-handed commander can’t start any revolution.” He Nan persuaded: “You are driving people away, Officer Watanabe. You also said that you must stick to the police’s beliefs? Maybe he wants to be such a person, but he lacks Just a bit of encouragement. You said you don’t want the police to be so rotten, you have to lead by example and never give up, right? But why did you give up and change it?”

"...I have thought about everything you said. I wanted to change the police station, but I failed, and the price I paid was too heavy." Yuri Watanabe's eyes were extremely tired: "You won't understand."

(End of this chapter)