Raised a house of obsession

Chapter 81 May You... Always be a Youth
A moment of light, a thousand years of Huabiao.

It's time to go to primary school, and the classes are gradually getting busy. There is not so much time to play, and there is not so much free time to be in a daze.

The younger brothers who followed behind also formed their own circles.

The villain is still the sensible villain. His grades are very good, but there are always a few competitors in the class, so he can't secure the top spot.

Zooming in to the entire grade, there are even more competitors. No matter how hard he tries, he has never been the first in the grade.

The world seems to have more and more constraints, and the gravitational force is getting heavier.

When the villain grows up, everything changes.The world's indulgence to him is getting smaller and smaller, not as cute as when he was a child, he has become more and more cautious, afraid of saying the wrong thing, worried about doing the wrong thing, and caring more and more about what others think of him.

Intercourse with the opposite sex is no longer as pure as it used to be, or in other words, in order to reduce troubles, I stopped communicating at all.

There are several cute girls in the class. In the past, they could play mud games together, but now it is impossible.

The villain knows that he is only a little bit smarter than ordinary people, just a little bit, and there are too many people in this world who are smarter than him.

You must work hard to improve yourself in order to take a breather in the competition.

At this time, he no longer has the self-confidence of "I am the center of the world".

He became an ordinary little man.

There are tens of thousands of such little people in the world.

……

The next memory became the memory of ordinary children going to school, and it became less and less exciting.

There are laughter, tears, and one's own emotions, and the troubles of life come one after another.The older you get, the more trouble you have.

Worry about the grades, worry about not getting good grades in the parent meeting.

I am happy for a game console; I quarrel with my brother for toys.

He is just an ordinary little person, where is there any light in his eyes?Even the light that bursts out occasionally is so short that he doesn't even know it.

Even when he started...maybe, probably...not too ordinary?
At that time, he was still young and had invincible self-confidence. He believed that he was the center of the world.

But now, this idea has long since disappeared.

……

Childhood memories are like revolving lanterns, they come and go quickly.It was almost the end here, Zhou Yi, as a bystander, actually felt a sense of heaviness that was about to come.

Because he knew that the little person in the picture was himself.

He sees a change.

The changes brought about by growth, some changes are good, and some changes are not good.

When I was a child, I was pure in heart, full of self-confidence, and believed that I was omnipotent.

However, as he grows older, when he is deeply involved in the world, when he encounters setbacks and tribulations in a complex and chaotic world, his sense of right and wrong in many issues becomes blurred, his judgment of good and evil becomes confused, and his perception of beauty and ugliness becomes blurred. The definition is blurred.

He is more and more surrounded by the complex and chaotic society, and even gradually abandons or forgets his original self-confidence, and becomes more and more selfish, sophisticated, smooth, greasy, mediocre, even wretched and ugly.

Such a process of change is actually more similar to the process of mediocrity of a person.

And this process is considered by many people to be mature.

……

At the end of the memory scene, at the mother's birthday party, the little man presented a card made by himself, a little shy and laughing, and took the card as a birthday present.

"Happy birthday mom!"

Mother opened the card and saw a few words crookedly written on it: "Mom, I love you!"

There is also a big love heart and an ugly smiling face painted next to it.

She smiled slightly, but she was really a tsundere villain.I have never said this sentence in my mouth, and I have to write it on paper before I am willing to express it.

"Mom, make a wish! Make a wish! Make a wish on your birthday!"

The mother with a slightly literary temperament blew out the candles, closed her eyes and made a wish.

"Mom, what wish did you make?!"

"Prefer not to say."

"Speak! Speak!"

Mother thought for a while, then said with a smile: "May you... be a teenager forever!"

"Ah..." The villain's eyes widened and he scratched his head, not understanding what it meant.

"I just hope you are happy every day."

……

But Zhou Yi at that time didn't understand, but Zhou Yi, who was watching on the sidelines, burst into tears and couldn't hold it back anymore.

He knew what his mother's words meant.

People, how can anyone be happy, happy, and confident all his life?It is often the peak at the time of birth, after which it is a slow decline.Mom has been through this journey herself, and naturally hopes that her son will not follow the same path.

Most people are not inherently mediocre, but gradually become mediocre.The torrent of history is like the Yangtze River. Most people are only carried forward by history. Only a small number of people can jump high from this Yangtze River, like a single drop of water, and become themselves for a short time.

……

The memory scene was shattered, and a cold moonlight poured into the room, faint and cold.

Zhou Yi had already burst into tears.

The man does not flick his tears easily, but he never thought that a piece of white rabbit toffee from childhood can have such a strong lethality!

After a long time, Zhou Yi wiped away his tears, collected his emotions, and murmured: "Mom, don't worry, I will have a good life here."

"must!"

His eyes were a little blurred, and he fell asleep in a daze due to the exhaustion of his mind tonight.

……

It was already eight o'clock in the morning when I woke up the next day.It's definitely the last day to get up. Since today is the weekend and I don't have to go to work, it's okay to be a little later.

But when you miss your morning exercise, there will always be an instinctive sense of guilt.

After Zhou Yi finished washing, he found that his mental state was simply not in a good state.

There seemed to be a raging flame burning in his chest.

This is the soul flame from childhood memories!

There are two ways to practice psionic energy. The first is to cultivate the mind, that is, to understand life and consolidate one's worldview.

The second is mind cultivation, that is, strong emotional fluctuations.

And this opportunity allowed him to re-experience the past ten years of life, and he gained a lot of experience for no reason.Although it is the experience of childhood, it is not very valuable, but it is better to have a lot of money. For more than ten years, there are too many forgotten memories!

After breakfast, Zhou Yi simply stayed in the dormitory, closed his eyes, struck while the iron was hot, entered a meditative state, and began to practice spiritual energy.

Sure enough, the effect may have increased by more than 10 times.

He finally understands why penance is so popular in this world.Psionic fluctuations are caused by emotional fluctuations. After being abused, can the emotional fluctuations be small?
(End of this chapter)