My wife can buy it

Chapter 208 [Extra: Li Tianqing's father]

"I still don't understand such a simple question, are you a pig?"

Li Tianqing's father, Song Cheng, reprimanded the teenage Li Tianqing helplessly and contemptuously.

As a teacher for many years, Song Cheng's nature is to teach his children whenever he is free, or when the students are on vacation.

Li Tianqing looked at a bunch of numbers in front of him, one head and two big, and he couldn't take it seriously at all. His attention was basically under his father's urging and attitude, and he became very nervous.

When I was nervous, I was even more anxious when I couldn't think of anything.

He was always afraid of being scolded by his father, called stupid, a pig, etc. These were all commonplace, and these words came out of his mouth as if they were very common terms.

Even if I know, I don't want to adapt, but when faced with those questions that I just can't solve, I always hope that I can do well and get my father's approval.

Talent is always hard to control. Apart from being good at writing essays, I really have no chance to understand the secrets of mathematics.

"What did you do? Is it my daughter? Am I trying to make me vomit blood?"

The father tapped the number of the wrong answer given by Li Tianqing, and continued to complain.

Even if I really don't want to do it, I really don't want to do it, I still have to obey orders and sit on the small table every day.

On normal weekends, I actually don't even dare to be loud, because whenever my father is happy or unhappy, he will call Li Tianqing over and spread out his homework.

Even if you have done everything, just follow the next steps.

It does not depend at all on everyone's freedom, but on his personal interests.

As a father, teaching children is actually a very normal and obligatory thing. Li Tianqing herself knows that in many cases, the fear in advance makes many things become obedient to her, and she is absolutely obedient to orders.

Li Tianqing didn't think there was anything wrong with studying, but his father had a special thing that he couldn't understand no matter how he looked at it when he was a child.

Father felt that he was stupid, and in front of Li Tianqing, he just talked about it calmly, and at most added a look of contempt.

But when facing his wife and his mother, his tone was eccentric.

"It's really impossible to compare with others at this level, it will be worse in the future." And so on.

Immediately afterwards, whenever the mother's fiery temper was aimed at Li Tianqing, the topic was always other people's children.

How do other people's children learn so much in one day.

Other people's children don't want to go out and play during the summer vacation. They read books very consciously.

Then it was out of thin air to make a fuss about Li Tianqing, saying that he only wanted to fool around every day, and wanted to rely on them to live when he grew up.

Or you can only cook chicken or something.

For those ugly words, Li Tianqing resisted from the very beginning to being insensitive at the end, because she knew that every time she resisted, it would not weaken her mother's fighting spirit and the authenticity of her words.

It is more tenacious when the forewarning is fierce, and the words are even more jaw-dropping.

When these disputes happened, my father would watch quietly from the sidelines.

Until the mother is tired, the father will hand over a glass of water and say: "Children today are like this and so on."

When junior high school was close to high school, Li Tianqing failed the exam and couldn't help crying in the room.

At that time, there happened to be a student of his father who was three years older than Li Tianqing. He had just finished the college entrance examination, and today he came to give away tuition fees. Thank you by the way.

When I came home, I saw Li Tianqing's mother standing at the door scolding Li Tianqing, so I watched a big show by mistake.

"I'm ashamed to cry when I got such a bad test, who are you crying for!"

"I tried my best..."

"Come on, you're the only one who knows how to work hard every day when you play tricks. Do you know how to write these two words?!"

"I want to be admitted to a good school, why don't I work hard, why do you say that about me..."

"Then where have you been working so hard?"

Li Tianqing stopped talking, and at this moment, his father just stood aside with a little stunned student and watched calmly.

Suddenly, he said suddenly: "Didn't you even look down on the XX high school that I, a student, was studying at the beginning? Why would you want to go to a better school?"

The atmosphere suddenly fell into embarrassment, including the little brother standing at the door, Li Tianqing was dumbfounded all of a sudden.

She didn't know what her father meant by saying such a sentence at this time?
She never said such a sentence, why would she forge such a sentence to say that she said it.

There was no extra thoughts to think about more, no resistance, no explanation, just standing quietly.

The mother's abuse continued.

"Paying so much tuition for you is simply raising you for nothing, and you can't expect anything from you."

Wait, every time it starts, it lasts for more than an hour without any interruption.

The mother's entire menopausal outbreak was all sprinkled on Li Tianqing's body.

As a junior, apart from a deep sense of powerlessness, I don't have any strength or confidence to refute.

In fact, it's not that Li Tianqing has never rebelled, she has resisted and confronted each other, but in fact it doesn't have much effect at all, and it's just herself who is sad and sad.

The husband and wife are not considered harmonious, and they have never stopped on the road of quarreling.

When she grows up, Li Tianqing even feels that she still has her own existence, otherwise the two of them might kill each other.

My existence is not to fight against them, but to serve as a buffer, allowing them to vent their negative life to her.

If we balance things like this, we can continue to live together in peace and harmony.

After that, Li Tianqing went to college and avoided going home as much as possible. She went back once every two weeks. She didn't even dare to take more living expenses and worked on her own to make money.

His father's need for control still occasionally caused trouble, but his so-called control seemed to Li Tianqing like a machine that he didn't want to get rid of.

There is a machine that balances your home to vent negative emotions.

"Are you mentally ill?
During a phone conversation with his father, the two broke up without knowing what the fuse was.

"You say I'm mentally ill?"

"Yeah, just like your mother, she's a psychopath."

"If this is the case, you can leave me alone in the future, so as not to ruin your reputation."

"Okay, since you said that yourself, I won't care about you anymore. Everyone is a different person, and they go their own way. I don't allow any history of mental illness in my family."

How ironic and ugly these words sounded. After such a long period of time, Li Tian got used to it early on.

What can be left after these disputes is just a pale feeling of powerlessness, nothing more, nothing less.

The only thing that has changed is that since then, his father has spoken much less to himself.

It's just that I don't know whether this change is good or bad. The object of my mother's attack and venting has become like a miss.

Sometimes when I go home, even if I do something, I am in a cautious mood, which makes people look for excuses and reasons on her, and there is no gap to exploit.

In the face of the two parents who have to get along almost every day, friction and contradictions began to intensify.

Those seemingly insignificant little things can explode into huge wars at any time.

I remembered that when I was a child, I had intervened during a fierce quarrel between the two, rushed between them despite the wind and rain, and then shouted hysterically: "Stop arguing!"

What I got in exchange was not any good results, just the slap on the face that I got used to.

Father has no balance carrier, and facing the time when he is about to retire is slowly approaching, in fact, no one can really understand how much fear has swept through his heart.

Speaking of which, it's not surprising that Li Tianqing's family doesn't seem to have much love.

The fear of family may be much lighter than that of my father, because after all, I have been slowly adapting to all this since birth.

But the father is not, he is his own choice, and the family he established after growing up will have more emotions to bear.

In my own impression, in the atmosphere where there is no more laughter and laughter day by day, the unbearable emotions in the air are like the most anxious insects in summer, and there is no way to stop shouting on the tree.

After every quarrel, the mother's magical operation is to habitually go on a hunger strike. As a child, I am very used to it.

When I was a child, I remember one time when my mother was on a hunger strike and she was sleeping in bed. My father seemed to be unable to bear it any longer and walked to the room while Li Tianqing was doing homework.

"I'm ready to go, and the baggage is ready."

"Where are you going."

"I don't know, I should go back to my hometown, and I don't know when I will come back."

"You go, if you can be comfortable for a while."

"Then you will be responsible for this family from now on."

Li Tianqing didn't think about anything, she simply felt that if she could make her father happy, then everything would be worth it.

It can be seen that my father was slightly moved and happy at that time. He felt that Li Tianqing was very responsible and sensible.

But in the end, my father didn't make it, because my mother got up to eat that night, so my heart softened, so I didn't leave.

Now, when Li Tianqing returns home, her home is empty. Her father is no longer here, not dead, but gone.

In fact, he was not present even at Li Tianqing's wedding, and his mother's blessing was not visible.

In fact, Li Tianqing didn't need it either, because before she got married, the relationship between the two of them was completely cleared up.

After getting married, I will often recall those things, question myself, and worry about what happened.

But more, I think about my past life and why my family is like this.

So when Li Tianqing got married, the first thing she decided to think about was that she would never become such an adult.

Manage with heart little by little, and cultivate the relationship with Zhao Youqiang with sincerity.

She wants to overthrow everything in the past, she must build a loving family, and she doesn't worry about her own sacrifices, because it is her own choice.

Knowing that now, she feels that God is fair, because she met Zhao Youqiang.

After slowly relieving my heartache, I would want to understand my father.

As a man, the first thing you want to consider for him is face.

Especially with his father as a teacher, he feels that his own image may be more important than the people around him, false love, and the so-called fate.

Those who can't see behind don't need to care and maintain at all.

But even so, Li Tianqing also understood that his father still had a lot of self-esteem. He once said that in his own home, he lived like a dog.

When speaking such words, what is shown is not calmness, but cynical, unwilling and unwilling eyes.

After retirement, my father still keeps applying to his original school. Students who occasionally need to make up classes can come to him at any time.

Unlike his mother, he didn't care about the amount of money, but how much time he had to escape.

Even in that era, as a teacher, my father was able to get on the stage, but to my mother, it was an official, a person with social authority, who was qualified to speak loudly.

Of course, to people of Li Tianqing's generation, it may be a joke, and they also feel that the mother's vanity is too arrogant.

Every time she hears her insulting her father as inferior to others, she also feels uncomfortable, but as a junior, who has the right to say anything.

If we understand it from the perspective of their era, it is actually not impossible to understand.

Because the generation of my parents was also poor and frightened.

Try to understand that a pair of poor and frightened people are not only sensitive to other people's eyes after experiencing the devastation of years, not only want to get rid of their lowly status.

If you can't do it yourself, you want to get it through others or relying on others.

I often think of my father's words: "It's difficult to be a man. You have to make money to support your family, and you have to take care of your family."

Sometimes looking at modern news and people's self-reports, it is more difficult to see women themselves, and men are less likely to express their grievances in a pussy.

But that doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

Li Tianqing feels that, in fact, it is not easy for everyone, and it is not easy to find someone who can support each other and love each other.

Cherish the present and understand the past.

When I return to that so-called home without warmth, although my heart will be empty, I will also deliberately forget certain things and emotions.

I don't know when, my father returned to his hometown by himself, and I don't know when he will come back again.

Even if it was his father, he had already lightly erased it in his heart.

(End of this chapter)