Apostleization begins with pirates

Chapter 515 The Lifetime Wish

When Long Ao heard that he wanted to talk alone, he felt an unusual feeling.

You must know that apart from the time when he and Kahn talked alone when they first met, there were other people around in their later contact.

But it was rare to have a private talk with Kahn, of course Long Ao couldn't refuse and stood up.

Across mountains, rivers and seas in one step, Long Ao came to Kahn in just a few steps.

"How did you come?"

Long Ao looked at Kahn in front of him, paused, and said.

Even Long Ao himself didn't pay attention. When facing Kahn alone, he looked a little nervous.

"Jiutianmeng and I have already decided to choose a date for our wedding soon."

"Before the wedding, I think we must have a chat."

"Find a quiet place where you won't be disturbed."

But Kahn's feelings were very obvious. When Long Ao communicated with him, his temperament seemed extremely kind, even flattering, which made Kahn sigh inwardly.

Long Ao's true character had already been revealed when he faced the enemy before. Long Ao was a terrifying powerhouse who was domineering to the bone.

Even in the face of more than a dozen great emperors, Long Ao would not be afraid when he was furious, and threatened to kill them, and as the ninth generation of Dragon Ancestor, Long Ao also possessed sufficient strength and influence.

Kahn knew very well that those great emperors did not leave immediately, there must be a reason for being targeted by Long Ao.

It is rare to gather enough strength to fight against the real dragons. As long as they don't escape and there is a chance to turn the situation around, if they escape because of temporary fear, then there will be no way for them to retreat in the heavens and myriad worlds in the future.

That's why those great emperors were able to escape, and they all chose to face the battle head-on, eager to kill the real dragon clan directly.

If it were a woman in such a desperate situation, she might secretly agree with Long Ao's full support.

It’s just that he is not a woman, and has always regarded himself as a man, although he can indeed consider himself a woman, because whether it is Biyana’s battle god or changing into Puxia, his appearance will completely become a woman.

But whether it's Biana's transformation or the ancient incarnation, they are all moves that Kahn himself would not be able to use unless he had to.

But Kahn himself also understands that it is precisely because Long Ao knew the deepest secret he hid at the beginning, and after time has fermented, Long Ao respects him and at the same time pays more attention to his female body. And produced many fantasies.

Kahn knows that admiration is the farthest distance from admiration and understanding, and fantasy is even more of a fantasy.

Because Long Ao had never seen his female body, he had endless fantasies.

In fantasy, there are those who think about the malicious side, which will make the maliciousness infinitely magnified, and those who think about the good side, which will also cause people to be deified.

Long Ao was obviously looking for the good, which caused Long Ao to face him neither like a normal friend, nor like a close friend of his own, but as if he saw a A woman in need of care.

But no matter whether he has always regarded himself as a man or a woman, he never needs the care of others.

Kahn is not someone who likes to trouble others, and he has to find a way to solve everything by himself.

It's just that Long Ao's kindness is unilateral and has crossed the line. If Long Ao's kindness troubled him greatly, and even caused irreparable mistakes.

He can also reject Long Ao's kindness very decisively. Considering some friendship in the past, he will not kill Long Ao, but he will directly injure Long Ao, and the two will part ways from now on.

But the kindness released by Long Ao did not harm him.

When he was under siege, Long Ao didn't know that he had already broken through to the top of the Dao, and he didn't know how terrifying his hole cards were. It was his fault that he didn't make it clear to Long Ao, which led to Long Ao's eagerness to save people made him need to find those enemies hidden in the dark in the future.

But after all, this only slightly disrupted some plans, and did not cause any irreparable mistakes.

So Kahn couldn't directly reject Long Ao's kindness, that would hurt the friendship between him and Long Ao too much.

It's just that he will marry Jiutianmeng soon, so he didn't make it clear to Long Ao that there must be a boundary between the two.

In the future, some irreversible things may happen because of Long Ao's feelings for him that have crossed the line.

"It's a good thing that you and fellow Daoist Jiutianmeng are going to get married on a certain day."

"If you just invite me to attend your wedding banquet at that time, I already know about it, and there is no need to talk about it alone."

Long Ao heard Kahn's words, felt Kahn's eyes, his heart sank, felt the hidden meaning in Kahn's words, and said with a smile on his face.

He knew that it was inevitable for Kahn to marry a woman, but even if Kahn got married, it shouldn't affect some of his thoughts about Kahn.

Even if those fantasies are almost impossible to achieve, he doesn't want to cut off his fantasies about Kahn, so he doesn't want to talk about that with Kahn.

"You should know that I'm not here just to tell you about my wedding."

"If you still want to see me in the future, we must talk today."

"If not, we might not even be able to maintain our friendship in the future."

Kahn saw Long Ao's smile, but the emotion in Long Ao's heart was very nervous. He obviously realized something and wanted to try his best to avoid this matter. He felt helpless in his heart and could only look calm. Said.

"follow me."

When Long Ao heard Kahn talking about this, he opened his mouth and wanted to justify something, but Kahn asked him to talk in another place, probably because he wanted to save him some face, so Long Ao still held back and immediately The urge to speak, to speak.

Kahn didn't respond when he heard the words, but just left with Long Ao.

In the distance, Long Xiao couldn't hear what Senior Kahn said to his father, but Long Xiao could tell that his father's interest seemed a little low.

When his father mentioned some past events with Senior Kahn, he was in a good mood, but anyone can see it.

It's just that Long Xiao didn't know why it happened suddenly now.

The other Dragon Ancestors in the temple didn't eavesdrop on them ignorantly, but saw from a distance that although there was no dispute between the two, Long Ao's mood turned sharply, and they guessed something.

Others don't know, how could they not know what Long Ao thinks about Kahn.

But the pursuit of beautiful things is very normal for them, so it's not that they can't understand Long Ao's mood.

If Kahn's strength is not so strong, their entire clan would be no match for them. The four generations of Dragon Ancestor Long Yaoyang would like to imprison Kahn directly by force, and then turn it into a treasure that can be rewarded.

The stronger the strength, the desire will gradually fade as the strength increases and the knowledge is too much, but when something interesting appears, it will arouse the desire hidden deep in the heart. Once aroused, the thoughts will quickly The expansion, and the practice will be more paranoid.

It was only limited by his strength, so he had to give up this idea.

Obviously, Long Ao also has different thoughts, but Long Ao's approach is not as extreme as his, but it is difficult to give up.

Kahn didn't know that the eight dragon ancestors in the temple had so many associations, but even if he knew, Kahn wouldn't care as long as they didn't take action.
Kahn followed Long Ao to a secluded valley that looked like a fairyland on earth.

As soon as he stepped in, a golden light enveloped the valley, seeming to be isolated from the world.

There is a not-so-big manor in the valley, but there are all kinds of exquisite works of art here. It is obvious that this is Long Ao's private place when he comes back occasionally.

Long Ao led Kahn into the manor, crossed the quaint arched bridge flowing through the small river below, and came to a mansion made of sacred wood.

The mansion exudes a refreshing fragrance, combined with the incomparably secluded atmosphere apart from the sounds of nature, it has to be said that this is a good place for a person to be quiet and relax secretly.

Kahn looked around and came to a hall all the way.

Above the hall is a large table carved from divine wood. On the large table are some wooden scrolls. The fonts on the wooden scrolls have some signatures from different races.

Obviously, this should be where Long Ao occasionally handles some official business.

Long Ao needs to manage the Real Dragon Realm, and some appeals and petitions from other races can only be implemented through Long Ao's hands and with Long Ao's consent.

But these things are troublesome to say, but at the beginning he heard Long Ao say that this is the responsibility that Long Zu should bear.

And occasionally doing some official business is also a fun thing to pass the time for the real dragons who have a long lifespan.

"Sit down and talk."

Long Ao didn't mind Kahn's observation of his surroundings, so he spoke.

Afterwards, Long Ao sat on some seats in front of the big table, and did not wait for Kahn to sit down before looking for a seat to sit down.

Originally, if Kahn didn't say that he wanted to talk to him alone, but he brought it up, he must have waited for Kahn to sit down, then sat in a seat close to Kahn, and then chatted slowly.

But it was proposed by Kahn, he already knew some of Kahn's ideas, so he couldn't do that again.

"Long Ao, I don't know if you realize that the relationship between you and me has crossed the line because of your relationship?"

Kahn sat on a soft seat at a distance of more than ten meters from Long Ao, at the opposite position, looked up at Long Ao, and said.

"Although my thinking is out of bounds, my approach should never have caused you any trouble."

Long Ao heard some bitterness on his face and wanted to explain.

"Indeed, you have never caused me too much trouble."

Kahn didn't deny Long Ao's words, but directly agreed with Long Ao's words.

He has always been seeking truth from facts, Long Ao really caused him trouble, he would just say that if there is nothing, it is nothing, so he will not deny it.

"In this case, why can't I continue to keep some of my fantasies?"

"If you are worried, I will cause you some trouble after you marry Fellow Daoist Jiutianmeng."

"I can guarantee that I will never do that kind of thing."

Hearing Kahn's approval, Long Ao looked at Kahn, who had a handsome face, and whose height and figure seemed a little dainty in front of his eyes, and asked.

Long Ao's height in human form is not high, but it is more than two meters tall. Kahn is only about 1.6 meters tall. In front of Long Ao, he always looks very small.

If Kahn's monstrous reputation and terrifying strength are stripped away, no matter in terms of his handsome appearance, fluffy white skin, slender unmasculine shoulders and small and exquisite height, it seems that he is Somewhat feminine.

It was only because of Kahn's vicious name and strength, and the terrifying majestic eyes that surrounded him all the time, that Kahn looked like a man.

Long Ao had held Kahn's shoulders before, the kind of weakness that seemed to break if he touched it lightly, and Kahn's personality was cold on the outside and hot on the inside.

After knowing that Kahn can change gender completely, Long Ao has always had some illusions in his heart.

Kahn is indeed dominated by a male heart now, but Kahn may one day be dominated by a female heart.

After all, life is so long. After experiencing all kinds of things in life, Kahn may seek some stimulation, change into a woman, and temporarily regard himself as a woman.

If there is such a time, then he will have the opportunity to express the somewhat abnormal feelings in his heart.

"Long Ao, I want to solemnly explain to you that I have always regarded myself as a man, and I will always consider myself a man in the future."

"It's impossible for you to imagine a certain time in the future. I might consider myself a woman."

"So your fantasy can never come true."

Kahn heard Long Ao's words, knew what Long Ao was thinking, sighed, and said slowly.

Kahn has always understood that no matter whether he transforms into the Battle God Biana, the War Spirit of Ishtar, or Pushia who has not changed, no matter whether there are different changes in the outside, there is one thing in common. The characteristic is that he will be in an absolutely rational state.

For him in that state, he doesn't care about his own gender and appearance at all. What he has in his heart is how to kill the enemy quickly, and he can't transform if he doesn't kill the enemy.

Therefore, he will never be able to appear as Long Ao. In his fantasy, after he becomes a woman, under the long-term changes of the years, his heart will change because of this.

"The road to the future is long and long, with countless possibilities, and you may identify yourself as a woman is one of the possibilities."

Hearing Kahn's determined tone, Long Ao spoke in his heart with a bit of bitterness and helplessness as he had been fantasizing about things that had been completely declared impossible by the Lord.

"I know myself better than anyone else."

"I have known you for more than 2000 years now. Although I don't know what you think, I have always noticed the kindness you voluntarily released and the care you took for that little girl Xi Muxue."

"Others don't know, but you know I'm only 2000 years old."

"You're one of the people I've known the longest, so I count you as a friend."

"Although because of my own particularity, my body is more feminine than that of a mountainous, masculine male."

"So much so that I can't do honest things with my male friends, such as soaking in hot springs together, and I need to cover my body even when I wear clothes."

"The purpose of doing this is not to cause unnecessary trouble."

"I don't even want to arouse my resentment because of some gazes from others, and lead to wanton killings."

"That's why I can talk about my ideals and ideas with a little distance from each other. This is the boundary between me and my friends."

"You and I should be like this, but you have already crossed the line."

"But as long as you stop thinking and acting beyond the line, we can still be friends."

"I hope you don't make it difficult for me. If I continue to make mistakes, it may turn into a future where you and I can no longer meet."

"Don't let your fantasies about what I can't achieve turn into obsessions similar to demons."

Kahn heard Long Ao's words, looked straight into Long Ao's eyes, and said slowly.

This is the first time he has voluntarily admitted to other people that his body is biased towards women.

He has always been dominated by a male heart, but his appearance has become like this because of the reconstruction of the ectoplasmic fluid.

He has been actively covering up the situation, and there has been no trouble caused by his appearance, but Long Ao is still affected by it.

Apart from Long Ao's over-the-line and abnormal thoughts towards him, Kahn thinks Long Ao is a very nice person.

That's why he wanted to talk to Long Ao to dispel Long Ao's thoughts.

According to Long Ao's talent and character, as long as he finishes dealing with the things he still cares about, he should be able to break through to the peak of the Dao in the future.

But as long as there is a heart demon, it may be difficult for Long Ao to survive the Dao Heart Tribulation in the future.

He didn't want to see Long Ao fall because of his inner demons.

"..."

When Long Ao heard that Kahn had voluntarily admitted that his body was somewhat special, he knew these secrets that Kahn should hide in his heart.

He also knew what Kahn meant by demons.

According to the previous situation when the Fudo Emperor broke through to the peak of the Great Dao, people can have several opportunities similar to rebirth.

If his inner demons are not dispelled, he may have other thoughts because of this in the future when he gets through that catastrophe.

Because he knew that Kahn's strength took nearly 2000 years to grow to the strength of the Invincible Emperor today.

When Kahn met him for the first time, Kahn's strength could at most not be afraid of him, but as long as he awakened the dragon ancestors of the past, Kahn's strength was not enough to completely stop him.

If he has too much obsession with Kahn, he may do some paranoid things.

His heart is extremely transparent, he knows the consequences of the obsession that he can't let go of, and he also knows that his thoughts are wrong, but he has a feeling that he can't let go.

"When I touched your shoulders at first, it did make me have strange thoughts, but that was not the key to my obsession."

"The reason why I became so persistent is that I only started to have fantasies about you after I learned that you can really change gender."

"I have imagined what it will be like after you become a woman with your cold personality, and imagined what your appearance will be."

"Because I don't know, I have always had fantasies in my heart, and even had various abnormal thoughts in my heart, which made me a little abnormal without knowing it."

"So can I ask you to grant me a request, let me see you transformed into a female body once."

"This is my greatest wish besides seeking the True Dragon Emperor."

"If I can't see it, even if I promise you to let go of your obsession, it will be my biggest regret."

After Long Ao was silent for a while, he looked at Kahn with a nervous face and a trembling voice.

He didn't know what Kahn would think of him when he said these words, whether he would look at him with disgust, or just part ways with him and never get in touch with him.

But what he said just now is the root of his obsession with Kahn.

If this wish cannot be fulfilled, even now because he doesn't want to say goodbye to Kahn and wants to keep the relationship as a friend, he willingly agrees.

Because this matter has some regrets, when going through the catastrophe in the future, because of the opportunity to come back again, it may turn into a demon, and become the biggest suffering on the way of rebirth.

"..."

Kahn looked at Long Ao's appearance, and fell silent.

When his strength was still weak, transforming into the Battle God of Biyana was his strongest trump card. Only by becoming like that could he be able to enhance his strength to the greatest extent.

In order to avoid encountering an enemy he couldn't defeat, he couldn't control the power of Biyana's battle god, so before he would look for a secluded place, transform and release, and constantly adapt to the power of Biyana's battle god.

But after possessing the power of the Ishtar War Spirit, because the appearance does not change much, let alone turning into a female body, there is no burden to use it.

Now his strength is no longer what it used to be, so he never considered becoming the Battle God of Biyana.

This is also the secret he kept deep in his heart, but when Long Ao asked him suddenly, although he didn't respond directly to Long Ao, whether he could or could not, Long Ao guessed it immediately through his reaction.

Kahn admits that he is not a kind-hearted person. Normally, if the deepest secret is discovered, he should be killed and silenced. However, since he met Long Ao, Long Ao's naked looking eyes at that time made him have some feelings. Apart from the discomfort, he had not unleashed any ill will on him, so there was no reason for him to act so cruelly.

I just didn't expect that when Long Ao discovered his secret, it would turn into Long Ao's obsession, and he would even say something like his lifelong wish.

In the past few years of getting along, Long Ao had been very nervous towards him more than once when he was displeased with some of his actions, but never to the point where his voice was trembling.

Long Ao obviously knew that saying these words might arouse his disgust, and even never see each other again, but he still insisted on saying it.

"If you can promise me that you will never say anything outside, and after reading it, let go of your inner obsessions, I can fulfill your wish."

Kahn looked at Long Ao who was so nervous that he didn't dare to look directly at him. His eyes were a little complicated. After thinking about everything in his heart, he finally agreed.

(End of this chapter)