Infinite Doomsday Survival System

Chapter 86 The Last Hope
When did it start?

Already forgotten.

It seems to be after coming back, maybe it seems to be before coming back... Haha, how could it be before coming back.

When I first came back, everything was normal, very normal, and everyone still wanted to be the same as before.

Although I have experienced many things, after seeing them, all the haze in my heart disappeared.

But why did it become like this?
Yu Yue couldn't help asking herself.

He can be sure that he has never done anything to be sorry for them, but why do they say that about himself?
hypocritical?hypocrite?I have never done anything false, why did I get these titles?

I still wonder from time to time whether I am really a hypocrite.

If not, then why would they say that about themselves.

I don't understand, I really don't understand.

It's just that the power has disappeared. Why is it like this?
Fortunately, there is a final place of redemption.

Bi'er is still the same, although she is not good at dealing with her, but at least no matter what she becomes, she is still the same, still so gentle, and her heart is so pure, without any falsehood.

Even the current self will treat himself so tenderly and sincerely.

This is my last pure land... It was originally like this, but why did it become like that.

"Just because of you, you seem to be close to Master Bi'er. It's wishful thinking. Get lost!"

The feet that stepped on the face were so heavy, although I knew they were like this from before.

It's just that I didn't expect that after knowing that I had lost my power, it would become so excessive, I didn't expect it at all.

But it doesn't matter, as long as I can see Bi'er again, this humiliation is nothing.

I thought so at the time, now that I think about it, I’m really stupid, why do I think so?
Perhaps in this world full of falsehoods, Bier's so real existence has attracted me. I have hoped for that reality, and I want to get this hope.

But that's impossible, hope is always so tempting.But the more hopeful you are, the greater your despair will be when you realize it.

Bier was real, and everything around her was real, and so was the fist that landed on her.

pain?Not very clear, where is the pain?Is it the heart?or the body?

I don’t know anymore, I don’t know everything anymore.

I don't know when I realized that the more I look forward to the arrival of hope, the more hurt I get.

If I give up this hope, will it not hurt?

Thinking of this, I left the infirmary and stopped going to the infirmary.

As long as you don't meet the last hope, all the damage will disappear.

On the first day, it was just an experiment. I wanted to see if I would be hurt after giving up hope.

In fact, it is true that you will not be hurt anymore, you will not hear anything, you will not see anything.

Those guys disappeared, everything disappeared, it was so refreshing.

From that day on, I rejected hope even more, unwilling to see her, and even reluctant to leave the room.

I clearly know that this is not acceptable, but I can't resist my body.

The body has already made an instinct, instinctively afraid of the outside, no longer willing to take a step out of this room.

That's right.

Staying in the room, I couldn't help but sigh with emotion.

This feeling, everything around has disappeared, and it only belongs to my own world.

No more harm, no more hope, everything around me disappeared.

What a sense of security, what a sense of comfort, this is a feeling I have never felt before.

I was addicted, addicted to this false sense of security, addicted to the point where I couldn't extricate myself.

My sister's voice sounded outside.

Are you trying to persuade me to go out?It is true that it is not good to stay in the room all the time, but is it okay to go out?
What's out there? !What exists outside? !What a treat out there!
Can't go out, can't go out, don't want to go out at all.

I don't want to see their faces anymore, I don't want to be hurt anymore, I don't want to... Why is it always me who gets hurt?

I don't know how long it has passed, and my stomach is already growling with hunger.

There was also the aroma of food coming from outside.

Obviously the food is right in front of you, only a door away, but I don't know why, why it becomes so far away?

What is this door to me now?Is it a door?Or a wall?Or is it a barrier, an impassable barrier?

Who knows, I don't have any strength anymore, and my arms haven't recovered until now, maybe they won't recover in the future.

What about recovering?Now that I have lost my ability, can I return to my previous life?
It might be better to say that living now is a burden, without any ability, and unable to make a good contribution, being properly is a burden.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help laughing, maybe it's a good choice to end this life like this.

End it, end this ridiculous life.

How many days have passed?I don't know, when I woke up again, I was so exhausted that I couldn't even stand up straight.

My whole body is weak, and now I don't feel hungry anymore.

This may be a good thing. Not feeling hungry means that you will never have to eat again. This is a good discovery.

I won't have to eat anymore, I won't be wasting food, and I won't cause trouble for anyone, which is really good.

"Yo! How does our great savior feel now?"

The familiar voice that came out of his ear, obviously mocking, sounded so indifferent, he didn't have any interest in anything in the world... No, it might be better to say that he was disappointed in everything in the world.

This guy knew it from the beginning, he knew it was going to happen from the beginning, he knew the human species from the beginning.

Haha, that’s it, that’s it, he knew everything from the beginning.

I'm so naive, I actually listened to what he said, and said such naive words.

Seeing my former self now, I am so disgusted that I want to vomit.

After all, I still don't know anything, no matter what it is, I don't know anything at all.

How could he believe in the human species so easily? How could he deny a being that was ten thousand times better than human beings so easily?

Now I can understand, I finally understand.

When Yu Ling said [maybe being a monster would be happier], he finally understood.

Maybe being a monster will make you happier than you are now. You don’t need to think about anything, just focus on what’s in front of you.

Maybe monsters are more like humans than humans.

"...I..." His throat was so dry that he couldn't utter a single word. He exhausted all his strength just to utter a single word. It was really miserable.

Maybe this is what I deserve.

To do such a thing on your own, to believe in human beings without authorization, there is nothing worthy of your own belief, but you still believe it foolishly, it is really stupid.

"I..." Even so, I have to say the last sentence to him here: "I...!... I'm sorry."

I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I did something like that without authorization, and said those words even though I didn't know anything. I'm really sorry.

I have no qualifications, no qualifications at all, I am really sorry as a human being.

I'm the one who shouldn't exist, and I've never done anything wrong.

Tian Lan, who was standing aside at the moment, saw Yu Yue shed the most regretful tears, and she didn't know what was going on in her heart.

"Why give up? Even though human beings haven't done a good thing so far, they still have their own meaning of existence. Do you want to just give up your identity as a human being?"

Giving up is indeed a good choice, but not everyone can do it.

Family, friends, yourself.None of this is something that can be simply given up.

If they just give up, what will they do.

But now Yuyue can't think of those things anymore, he has completely lost hope, his body instinctively rejects hope, and instinctively wants to stay away from hope.

Looking at Yuyue whose vitality gradually dissipated in front of her, Tian Lan sighed and put her hand on his head.

At this moment, a large amount of information flowed into Yuyue's mind, and various fragments were like revolving lanterns, constantly replaying in his mind.

This is all that Bai Zhi has encountered in the recent period, and some of the things she has encountered.

Maybe human beings are really hopeless, but they still have hope.

It is impossible to survive in society by remaining innocent, and everyone is forced to put on a mask.

But in this sad society, there is still the last hope, and that is children.

They are so pure from birth, spotless, completely a piece of white paper.

They are easily stained by grown-ups and break easily.

But even so, there is still a last hope in them.

The last hope to end this ugly era.

Yuyue's vitality is slowly recovering, maybe all of this is correct, maybe all of this is wrong.

But what he does next, even if it is wrong for this world, he must firmly believe that it is right.

Hope has been lost in humanity.All the good things disappeared at this moment.

In its place will be a brand new self.

Thinking about it now, what Tian Lan said before was quite reasonable, if that's the case, let's act according to that sentence.

(End of this chapter)