Yunding Ranch

Chapter 421 At a loss
The air became quiet. Joel's departure did not seem to break the peaceful framework. Lily, Ronald, and Lawrence just stood there. No one moved or spoke. I can't lift it anymore.

Lawrence looked at Lily full of longing, his deep eyes revealed earnest sincerity, but Lily didn't speak, just looked at Lawrence like this, his eyes were full of emptiness, and the vivid expression faded little by little, Finally, it became black and white; this made Lawrence's eyes dimmed little by little, and the gray of despair gradually seeped out like a drizzle, and finally all vitality was defeated, and his eyes were filled with tears.

Lu Li and Cole exchanged glances, both of them were a little dazed and at a loss.Lu Li tried to leave, leaving this place to the McCartney family, he was still an outsider after all.But then Lu Li realized that he had missed the best time. He should have followed in Joel's footsteps and left together. After that, the atmosphere became silent and dignified. Let alone Lu Li, even standing Cole behind Lily couldn't find the time to turn around.

Neither forward nor backward.Lu Li and Cole seemed to be stuck in a quagmire.

Lily stared blankly at Lawrence, covered her mouth in disbelief, shook her head lightly, then shook her head again, tears could not stop falling down, wet the back of her hands, wet her cheeks, All the emotions in the eyes became blurred in the scorching tears, and they were struggling with pain, but they couldn't express it in words after all.

"Mom." Lawrence called softly, trying to step forward, but Lily seemed to be frightened, she turned around, strode forward, and fled.

This simple action almost defeated Lawrence. He stood there at a loss, grabbed his hair angrily, but finally took a step forward and chased in the direction Lily left, "Mom .”

Cole and Lu Li exchanged glances, then turned and walked into the room.In the blink of an eye, only Lu Li and Ronald were left at the door.The turn of events was unexpected.

Looking at Ronald in front of him, Lu Li was not sure. He didn't know what he should do, and he didn't even know whether he should take action.But turning around and leaving like this didn't seem to be the right choice. At this moment of hesitation, Lu Li saw Ronald staggering, almost unable to stand still. Lu Li quickly stepped forward and supported Luo. Nader.

After holding him up, Lu Li realized that Ronald barely had the strength to stand still, all his weight was under him, and the force of the gravity of the car made Lu Li hardly stand still. He looked around and could only look up. Backed away, reluctantly supported Ronald to sit down on the swing, the whole swing felt the weight, and began to shake violently, the creaking sound in the dark night, there was an inexplicable sadness.

"Ronald, do you need me to get a cup of hot water?" Lu Li was a little flustered, not sure about Ronald's state, and asked worriedly.

Then Lu Li saw Ronald's eyes, not the furious one he imagined, but a dazed one, like a boundless mist, enveloping the surface of the deep blue sea, apart from the monotonous color, he couldn't see anything. There is only a daze, and it seems that even the soul has lost its direction.

"Fourteen, what should I do?" Ronald's heavy voice made Lu Li's nose ache, and the intricate emotions were hard to describe in words, but it was hard to describe them in words. "I... I don't know anymore, what should I do? This is a sin, this is a mistake, this is not allowed by God! This is wrong! Now, I watched him in this wrong I keep walking on the road, what should I do? What else can I do?"

As he spoke, Ronald's voice choked up, he raised his hand, and finally put it down weakly, and it fell heavily on his thigh, at a loss, with nowhere to rest.

Lu Li fell silent.He can say a lot of truths, but those hard and cold truths can't heal those injured and broken hearts.

"Ronald, you know, when I first came to the United States, I encountered many strange looks, which I had never met in China." Lu Li said in a calm tone. These irrelevant words made Ronald De turned his head, showing doubts in his eyes, but his anxious mood gradually calmed down because of the shift of attention.

"At first, I thought it was just because they were not used to seeing Asians. After all, among a group of blond people, I am a yellow-skinned black-haired person, so I really stand out." Lu Li had a faint smile on his face. Not too heavy, nor too angry, just narrating those old stories, "But then I gradually discovered that things are not like this, there is malice and violence hidden in those eyes. More importantly, those Disgust and hatred, not because of who I am, but because of my race."

Ronald didn't speak.For a Texan native, Lu Li couldn't understand what he said.Ronald didn't know whether Texas was the state with the worst racial/racial/discrimination/discrimination, but he was sure that the situation here was not minor.

"Fortunately, I didn't encounter anyone who shot directly." Lu Li's black humor failed to make Ronald laugh this time, "So, the first time I came to the ranch, I met Cole, met When I arrived at Lili and met you, I was very surprised by your enthusiasm and kindness, the rumored Texas is not like this."

Ronald slightly hooked the corner of his mouth, but then dropped it, and let out a heavy breath.

"I never think that being a yellow-skinned Chinese is a mistake. On the contrary, I am very proud that I am Chinese; similarly, I never think that choosing to come to the United States to study and live on a ranch is This is a mistake, this is a nation of immigrants, and the world is opening its arms to people of different nationalities, cultures, races. So, whose fault is it?"

Lu Li didn't deliberately emphasize his tone, but those simple words weighed heavily on Ronald's chest, "Sometimes, men discriminate against women; sometimes, white people discriminate against black people; sometimes, rich people discriminate against poor people; Of course, sometimes, New Yorkers discriminate against Texans." This sentence made Ronald chuckle, but the laughter dissipated like smoke in an instant, "Other times, straight people discriminate against homosexuals, trying to deprive A person's right to love another person. Whose fault should it be?"

"But what about God? What about the Bible? Don't these things matter?" Ronald finally retorted, earnestly and excitedly.

Lu Li spread his hands, instead of confronting him head-on, he smiled, "I haven't read the Bible, so I can't answer it. But I believe that God loves every one of His people, and He loves His original appearance." .”

Ronald's words were cut off in mid-air without landing, and he knew that what Lu Li said was correct.But, but... Ronald's mind is full of all kinds of thoughts, in a mess, he has persisted in the things of his life, the beliefs of his life, and the ideas of his life. It changed drastically within.

Lu Li knew this, but couldn't empathize with it.Because, after all, he is not the party involved.He didn't know what Lily and Ronald were enduring, and he didn't know what Lawrence and Joel were enduring. As a bystander, the opinions he could give were really limited, but there was one thing he was certain of, extremely certain.

"The most important thing is that he is your child, the child of you and Lily." Lu Li could tell that Lily loved the two children deeply. Even though Lawrence's choice deviated from her belief, she still There is no way to give up.Perhaps, so did Ronald. "Ronald, the whole world is against him now, and he needs you on his side. Because if you and Lily give up, he'll have nothing."

Such a simple sentence caused Ronald's shoulders to tremble slightly, and he looked at Lu Li with a face full of shock. It began to be fragmented, and despair and pain, bitterness and sadness seeped out bit by bit, "You...you mean..." Ronald's breathing was a little short, and his sentence was broken into countless fragments, and he said intermittently, "Joe El... Joel..."

Therefore, at the beginning, Joel fought hard for Lawrence; therefore, at the beginning, Joel chose to leave Texas like Lawrence; therefore, at the beginning, Joel refused to communicate with Ronald, which was irreconcilable.

For Lawrence, Joel was all he had.

After realizing this, all the anger, all the sadness, and all the despair surged up from Ronald, stuck in his throat, almost out of breath, and finally turned into a sigh, and let out a long, long He spat out a long time, his shoulders drooped, and he looked straight ahead blankly.

The snowflakes seem to be getting bigger and bigger, and the mighty goose feathers and heavy snow cover the sky all over the place. All the scenery in the sight disappears in the continuous white cotton, and the rich night seems to be dyed with a layer of White becomes bright and clean.Christmas night gradually began to deepen.

Lu Li and Ronald didn't say anything more, they just sat quietly. After an unknown amount of time, the two returned to the room. Joel and Cole were sitting in the dining room, chatting briskly; Lawrence was standing in the kitchen , holding a glass in his hand, but he couldn't tell whether it was tequila or plain water.Lily's figure has not been seen for a while.

Finally, Lu Li found Lily in the bedroom. He gave Lily a big hug, and then said goodbye to Cole and left.

Walking through this blizzard, Lu Li and Cole didn't speak, but let the sound of the wheels crushing the snow and the roar of the engine intertwine, echoing under the endless, silent sky, like a symphony, quiet And magnificent.

(End of this chapter)