I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 519 Like a Relief

When I chatted with An An, I had already relieved a lot... In fact, Lu Jia is not hateful, what is hateful is human nature... I also have reasons. I thought about staying there with her.

As I said myself, I don't love her anymore, and my feelings for her are only based on my previous gratitude, so it's hard for me to burst out that kind of regardless of passion in her.

It is said that women are sensitive, and it is impossible for Lu Jia not to realize this, so it is inevitable that she will be disappointed with me; this is how she had a night of indulgence with that man.

I shouldn't be angry, because the root of the problem lies with me... There shouldn't be that agreement between Lu Jia and me. It was this agreement that gave her hope, and it was hope that gave her the pain of being restrained...

As for me, because of this agreement, I have many constraints.

From this point of view, the current ending seems like a relief... I am free, and she is also free.

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An An is a pretty nice woman. She not only came to see me, but before I left, she helped me get a bowl of my favorite preserved egg porridge in the hospital cafeteria; she said that she had more time, if If you need to buy something, you can ask her for help.

Even she could see that I was an unpopular person, so there was no one around who could help me.

……

Not long after An An left, I fell asleep... I was woken up by the ringing of the phone. Before answering the phone, I checked the time. It was already 11:[-] in the middle of the night. This call was from Lao Mi , Don't think about it, I know what he will say to me.

There is no need to evade this matter, because between Lu Jia and I, there is always a result... My idea is very clear, if Lu Jia doesn't tell them the real reason, I will take all the responsibilities.

After I let out a heavy sigh, I pressed the answer button; Lao Mi's voice was very deep, and he asked: "What's the matter with you and Lu Jia... We called her, and she said, you have already broken up." , we asked her why, but she refused to say."

"Dad... I want to say that our three views are different, and we are not people who can live together, do you believe it?"

"Believe in your evil...you can't live together, you were still talking in Shanghai for three years?..."

"I knew you didn't believe me... I don't know how to tell you about this... I made a mistake, I was sorry for her, and I failed her."

"What the hell did you do?"

After pondering for a while, I replied: "When she was not around, I couldn't bear the loneliness... I slept with another woman... That woman found her... She felt that she couldn't accept it, so we broke up."

Lao Mi on the other end of the phone was silent for a longer time, and then scolded angrily: "Why are you so shameless... Just like that, Lu Jia still defends you and refuses to tell us anything... Just you Is this beast worth it?"

"You can scold me if you want... After scolding, I hope you can understand, understand me..."

"Don't talk to me about these farts... Think about Lu Jia, how he treated you back then... If you still have a conscience, find someone to apologize... You write a letter of guarantee, and you will never do it again next time." Do such a stupid thing!"

"Dad, is an apology useful?... There are only zero and countless cheating times... My heart is no longer on her."

"Aren't you afraid of lightning strikes?"

"Now the relationship between a man and a woman is not as simple as it was in your time...Dad, you really have to understand me!"

"I don't want to talk nonsense with you on the phone... I heard from Lu Jia that you were hit by a car, and your mother and I will leave for Dali tomorrow..."

"If you want to scold me, then don't come..."

My mother, who kept silent all this time, probably snatched the phone from Lao Mi, and then said to me with sobs: "Son, let's not talk about the matter between you and Lu Jia for now... Your father and I are just worried about you. , you are the flesh that fell from us, there is no reason not to feel sorry for you."

I am silent, tears are already rolling in my eyes... The reason why I am so entangled and dare not let go is because I am afraid that I will let down their love... But I am really tired. Struggling in the emotional vortex... So, I turned myself into a bastard in front of them; in my heart, I really had no choice but to still hold the idea of ​​living with her after Lu Jia betrayed her .

I should be free.

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By the time I finished talking with Lao Mi, I lost sleepiness. I kept thinking about three or four o'clock in the morning, and then I fell asleep again... When I woke up again, it was already 10:30 in the morning.

I sat on the edge of the bed, and then pulled out the urinal from under the bed; it was empty, probably the nurse came to help me pour it again, the nurse is really a good person, much better than those friends with dead friends up.

I'm particularly disappointed on Wednesday, even if he was angry with me because of Yang Sisi's departure, he wouldn't treat me like this... I really don't have the ability to take care of myself, and his indifference really ruined my mood .

He didn't use it anymore, because before night, Lao Mi and my mother would go to Dali, and they couldn't be like these friends, completely disregarding my life or death.

I'm very hungry, and I'm embarrassed to ask An An, who came to visit last night, to buy me something to eat... I just take her words as polite words, because she is a woman with a man, and we walk too diligently between us, and it is easy Caused a misunderstanding, so she came to see me once, and I was already grateful to her.

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I called Nicole, she said she went to Lijiang, because she was going to start the opening of the bar there; she called Chen Jin again, he was busy with the decoration of the bar, so he didn't have time to come.

I feel like they agreed to isolate me together during this difficult time.

I had no choice but to order a takeaway with my mobile phone.

While waiting, the nurse came to fetch me water as usual... In the meantime, I asked her: "You work in the hospital, you should know many professional nurses who work as escorts in the hospital?"

"I know you, what's the matter?"

"I'm sorry to bother you to help me empty the urinal every day...I'd better find a nurse, I have to stay in the hospital for a long time!"

The nurse was stunned for a moment, then looked at me and replied, "You think too much... how can we help the patient empty the urinal?!"

"It wasn't you who poured it...then, who could it be?"

(End of this chapter)