I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 517 I Want You to Hate Me

Lu Jia walked to my bedside, she put the shopping bag on my bedside, took out a pear from it, then smiled and said to me: "Let me peel a pear for you... You always smoke, eat more pears, it can clear your lungs."

I still looked at her with cold eyes.

"Why are you looking at me like that?!"

I finally spoke to her and said, "Don't peel the pears, let's talk to you about something."

It was probably because my tone was so cold that Lu Jia paid more attention to it. She put down the fruit knife in her hand and asked me, "What do you want to talk to me about?"

"I want to talk about your life abroad... No, let's talk about me first... I have to put myself in your shoes and consider your situation, so it may be easier to understand what you are doing!"

After a short pause, I continued: "This year, I have been quite lonely... Especially at night, I really hope to have someone by my side, and I also have physical needs. After all, I am an adult, so I I don’t think this is a difficult thing to talk about... We have an agreement that if there is a more suitable person around us in such a situation, we both have the right to pursue better happiness... This is very good , even if we are not together, we have respected and tolerated each other...but you didn't do this, I think you hurt me, and you fucking disrespect me...why did you do this?...while When I can still calm down, you'd better give me a reasonable reason... I'm not sure that I can talk to you with such restraint in the next second."

"I do not know what you're talking about!"

"Look me in the eyes and repeat what you said."

Lu Jia seemed very disturbed... She is a smart woman, so she didn't choose to respond positively. She just said to me "go out and make a phone call" and left the ward; After I got the answer, her call must be to that man... As for what they will say between them, it is not important to me anymore.

It doesn't matter if she doesn't deny it, I don't have to show those unsightly photos to the court. It's not decent, and it makes me feel sick.

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Five minutes later, Lu Jia came back to my hospital bed, her expression was very low, she stood for a long time, and then she said to me: "I was drunk that night... Yes, I admit that I am very lonely, and I also have physical needs ...So, I didn't reject him...I regret it now...I didn't mean to play with you...So, on the first day after finishing my studies, I went back to my country...I...I am very clear, myself The one I love is you."

"How do you think I'll feel when I say that?"

"I wish you could ask me... why I was drunk that night."

"I won't ask."

"Yes, you will think that I am looking for a reason... I will not not bear the consequences for what I did wrong. I also know what kind of character you are, and you can't forgive me... But I still want to put some of myself I will tell you how I feel... Otherwise, if I keep it in my heart, it will be the most regrettable regret in my life!"

"If you want to say something, just say it."

Lu Jia looked at me, but didn't speak for a long time.

Finally, she wiped away the tears that were rolling in her eyes, and then said to me with a smile: "Forget it, no matter how much you explain, if you are wrong, you are still wrong... Why can't you be more chic? Why do you men let me down?" Woman, why do you have to let all women revolve around you... If you think there is a love relationship between us this year, then I cheated physically... I cheated on Mi Gao behind your back... Then what? how?"

"Who wouldn't say something that hurts someone?... Hehe, I never felt that there was a love relationship between us this year... All the promises between us, and everything I did to you, were based on guilt... ...I don't love you for a long time...So whether you cheated mentally or physically, it doesn't stand for me...I don't care...On the contrary, I have to congratulate you for finding someone who loves you so much A man...in order to be with you, he really dares to use all kinds of indecent tricks..."

"Isn't that what you really mean?"

"You can understand it any way you want."

Lu Jia stood there for a long time. She lost her mind for a while, shed tears for a while, and finally set her eyes on the supermarket shopping bag she had just brought back. She laughed at herself and said, "Why did I buy you pears?... Listen It's like parting... I went to Chengdu, and I still have my career there... Regarding the relationship between us, since I can't win your heart back... then I will be a woman you hate... You will hate mine……"

After a short pause, she choked up again and said, "Before you really hate me, I still want to peel this pear for you...you have to remember to eat it."

After finishing speaking, Lu Jia picked up the fruit knife and peeled it bit by bit... Her emotions were so turbulent that she cut her finger too... She didn't care at all until she peeled all the pears, and then Put it neatly on the cabinet.

She dragged her suitcase and left...I never thought that when we met a year later, we would only be together for half a day.

I punched the wall and my head buzzed...why did I say such nasty things to her? ... Isn't it easy to get together and get away?

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After Lu Jia left, I deleted all those ugly photos, and I didn't want to argue with that man, so I sat on the bed alone for a long time... I felt exhausted physically and mentally, and I didn't know how to deal with the follow-up things , at least, I want to give Lao Mi and my mother an explanation, what should I say?
If my parents asked Lu Jia about it, what would she say?
For a moment, I inexplicably thought of some scenes when I first met Lu Jia. At that time, she was still a pure girl... Looking at it now, I am quite sad, although I never regarded her as my own. , but thinking of those revealing photos, I really feel bad!

In my consciousness, only I have possessed her body.

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Towards evening, Chen Jin came to the hospital with the prepared chicken soup. After he put the chicken soup down, he asked me, "Where is Lu Jia...why I came twice and didn't see her?"

"She has gone to Chengdu."

"You're half-dead here, can she go to Chengdu?... You're kidding me!"

"I'm not kidding... Do you have a cigarette? Give me one."

(End of this chapter)