I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 497 You Will Look Down on Me

Before I knew it, it was already 12:[-] in the middle of the night. At this time, the people who called for supper were either drinking or were too empty to sleep... Dealing with these people made me feel like I had entered another world, half The children are feasting and feasting, and half of them are deserted and lonely.

Food delivery is like this. When all kinds of people watch too much, they will become God's perspective, and then ignore all emotions, but they can see the indifference in their hearts.

At 01:30, I finally relaxed again.

I bought a can of beer from the barbecue stall opposite, and matched it with the cigarettes in my pocket. It was like loneliness with nowhere to rest met loneliness, but this feeling was what I was after...

What Yang Sisi said is right, when I light a cigarette and hold a can of beer, I feel that the whole world is sorry for me.

Why can't a talented person like me get what he wants?
In the midst of anger, I suddenly thought that all four things are empty, and I will become a Buddha immediately, so I feel pleasure, feeling that my realm is superior to others, and I can ignore loneliness and enjoy loneliness.

As for time, it was just a little bit wasted away, but in fact, these thoughts or feelings are meaningless, because the realm has not been improved at all, and I am still a vulgar person who cannot be vulgar.

I miss my parents, those friends who have gone away, and I want to have a beautiful girl who can sleep with me and spend the long night together.

……

At two o'clock, I finally finished the night shift. Instead of going back to rest immediately, I ordered fried rice and some messy skewers at a barbecue stall near Shanshuijian.

The physical hunger made me very attentive. After the boss delivered what I wanted, I kept my eyes on it until I finished eating.

When I was about to check out, the boss told me that someone had done it for me.

I looked around, and the woman who asked me to call her Ann was sitting at the table behind me... I was quite surprised.

She smiled, and then said to me first: "We are destined, and I have been looking for a chance to invite you to dinner..."

I also smiled: "Thank you, thank you...I just got off work, how do you...?"

"I couldn't sleep, I wanted to go out for a drink...but after walking around for a long time, only the barbecue stall was still open."

I just nodded, because I didn't know him too well, so I didn't know how to answer the conversation for a while... I was simply ready to say hello and leave.

She seemed a little hesitant, but before I spoke, she still said to me: "If you are free, can you have a few drinks with me?"

"Uh……"

"If you want to refuse, it's okay, I know you've been busy all day and are already very tired... Go back and rest early."

I always feel that this woman is a little gloomy, and I feel sympathetic. I moved a bench, sat down opposite her, and said to her: "There is still time for a few glasses of wine...but you have to go back early Go to bed, it's getting late!"

"I'm fine... Anyway, I don't have to work, I can sleep until any time tomorrow."

"That's what I said, but women always stay up late, which is not good for the skin."

She glanced at me, didn't respond, then picked up the glass and drank the wine inside.

I also had a drink with her, but it was quite embarrassing, because as soon as I sat down, there was nothing to talk about... To be honest, her personality is a bit like Ye Zhi. Although she is not as cold as Ye Zhi, she is still a good person. A woman who loves to talk too much.

After a while of this silence, she changed the subject and said to me, "I don't think you're like most food deliveries."

"why?"

"You have a temperament that is neither humble nor overbearing... People are willing to get along with you on an equal footing... I don't know if I'm right?"

"Occupation does not distinguish between high and low...Although food delivery is a service industry, the duty of work is also to benefit other people. Why should you feel inferior?"

"But in fact, many food delivery people feel that they are eliminated by society...they look at other people's eyes without confidence at all."

I smiled, and then replied: "But watching them come and go in the wind and rain, everyone who enjoys their services still respects them very much... I feel that the current relationship between people is too Lack of honest communication... If everyone who ordered food could say thank you and express their respect to the delivery guys afterwards, they would definitely recognize themselves."

"You said that the takeaway boy is them... have they been exposed?"

I smile.

She shrugged and said, "From what you're saying, it seems that you regret the lack of honest communication between people...but you are also one of them who refuses to communicate."

"Haha... I always thought you didn't like talking, but I didn't expect that when you really talk, it's a set routine."

"It's boring, we have to talk about something."

I nodded, and felt a lot more relaxed, because she was willing to take the initiative to find topics to talk about, so I didn't have to worry too much... In fact, she is different from Ye Zhi, she is cold on the outside and hot on the inside, while Ye Zhi is cold in heart Yes... because she rarely even smiles except when she is in love, but I really want to see her smile.

And these are all obsessions in my heart. I will compare other women with her, and I will assume some things that she cannot do, and what it will be like if it happens to her.

After being in a daze for a while, I said to An An: "I really don't regard food delivery as a way of making a living, so I will be more relaxed in my mentality... I also enjoy this process, because I can get in touch with different things every day. It's like re-choosing your life... You know, once a person falls into the trap of his own life, it's very depressing... So, coming out to deliver food can be regarded as a kind of self-destruction and salvation. "

She looked at me, and after a long time, she whispered to me: "Your words really touched my heart... I am living in the trap of life now, and I can't get out... I am really depressed! "

"We are strangers, and we don't know each other's details. You can say whatever you want...it will be much more comfortable to say."

"It's hard to tell!"

As she said that, she took another sip from her wine glass... and out of curiosity, I began to speculate about her experience.

In fact, there is no need to guess, she will definitely say it, because there is no one more reliable than a stranger. I am just a listener, and there is no common circle to spread her life experience... I can feel that she must be It's very uncomfortable, otherwise she wouldn't be running out to drink alone at this point in time, what she needs is to talk and complain.

Finally, she lowered her head and said to me in a very candid tone: "Two years ago, I was a student in a certain film school; once, I was brought out by a producer to have dinner with a client, and I met a boss... this The boss liked me so much, he took me away that night... I know it's not good, but this is the way it is in this business... If you don't make some sacrifices, you won't get the resources you want... But this Boss, he showed his true feelings to me. After that night, he stopped me from contacting this circle... He gave me money and various jewelry to maintain our relationship... I got something from him What I want... I think, I also like him, because he has the charm of a successful man, which can give me a sense of security... So, after graduation, I listened to him and came here Dali..."

After a short pause, she held her forehead with her hands, and said to me in pain: "But, his reputation in Dali is too great, he can't give me a title...in order not to affect him. I can only live in shame because of his reputation and his family relationship... I am really grateful to you, but I can't enter the owner group you gave me, and I dare not participate in their activities...Because this community Inside, there are all famous local people. It is inevitable that there are his friends. If we get in touch too frequently, maybe one day the relationship between me and him will be exposed...he will be unhappy..."

At this moment, I can only see her long hair, and cannot see her face clearly...

She finally raised her head, pinned her messy hair behind her ears, and said to me with tears in her eyes, "You will look down on someone like me, right?"

"Whether I think highly of you or not is not important at all. What matters is whether you feel better after you say it."

"much better……"

"That's right... I won't say more... Let's finish the remaining bottle of wine and go back to various places... You have to rest early and recover your energy before you can have fun...Actually , Dali is really nice, it is a place especially suitable for self-entertainment.”

After speaking, I drank all the wine in the glass, and then filled another glass for myself and her.

After about ten minutes, all the wine was cleaned up.

Without procrastination, we went our separate ways.

……

I don't know if this woman named An An will be able to sleep soundly after returning home... But I am liking this profession more and more, because life is all in my eyes, and I see it more , inexplicably gaining a sense of control over life.

(End of this chapter)