I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 360 Do You Miss Me?
As Chen Jin and I looked at each other, the newly installed street lamps in the commercial street lit up like shooting stars strung together; suddenly, red light and blue light intertwined to fill the emptiness of the entire street , so the loneliest stone roads and streams seem to have changed their character, becoming smart and lively.

In such a situation, I lit a cigarette for myself, and I watched in a daze, and my mood also changed...a trace of vicissitudes, a trace of longing, but I couldn't tell what I was longing for.

I finally opened my mouth and said to Chen Jin: "I'm not reconciled... I don't believe that a good person disappeared just like that... Before the accident, she went home with me once and met my parents... On the road that day, I was indescribably at ease and satisfied, and even for a moment, I even thought of our child's name."

Chen Jin looked at me, and after a moment of silence, he replied: "I can understand you, after all, you left so suddenly that no one can accept it... But you can't live in this pain and torture yourself, right? Time to get out."

I forcefully smiled: "...do you know?...You said just now that the person behind the Cangshan Yishu project was Ye Zhi, and my heart was beating wildly...it was like...that kind of feeling is hard to describe …I think back to the first time we met, we were standing together on the observation deck of the highway, she was absolutely gorgeous… I’m not exaggerating, she was gorgeous… We were strangers at the time, so to me For me, that time was the farthest we were apart on a psychological level, but just recalling it, I feel that we have never been as close as that time... If there was no meeting for that time, everything that happened later would not have happened matter……"

I stopped in the middle of speaking, and then looked at Chen Jin, my brain was habitually short-circuited.

Chen Jin waited patiently for a while, then asked again: "What exactly do you want to express?"

I was silent for a long time before I replied: "Whether it's life or death, I want to know her news, even if it's just a little bit."

Chen Jin sighed: "The outside world is so wonderful, but you always keep yourself trapped in a cage, don't you feel regretful?"

"I'm not sorry, but it hurts..."

"Really don't suffer...Look at what we have now, not to mention the wealth, at least it is enough to enjoy life?...Why can't we try to start a new life?...For example, find a new one Girlfriend... No one will blame you, after all, you broke up before her accident... You have no obligation to stand still for her... You will have a new life, sooner or later... Then why not sooner ?”

"New girlfriend?"

"That's right...for example, Lu Jia..."

"You're talking nonsense, that's my ex-girlfriend."

"It's been almost a year since the two of you broke up, and if you get back together again, there will be something new; if there is something new, then it's a new girlfriend... Think about it, why you broke up in the first place."

"I don't want to talk about that."

Chen Jin smacked his lips: "You seem to be affectionate, but you are also ruthless!...Why is it that Lu Jia has been with you for three years, and in the end, you are not even willing to talk about him?...Yes, Ye Zhi's The ending is a bit tragic, but it can't be used as a reference standard for the foundation of feelings... You have to face up to Lu Jia's devotion to you, that is her best youth."

Chen Jin said that I was ruthless, but I couldn't refute it, or rather, I didn't have the mood to refute it... So, I chose to remain silent.

Chen Jin continued: "At the beginning you broke up with Lu Jia because your financial foundation was not solid...but the situation is completely different now?... Lu Jia has a high salary in a clothing company, and you have nothing to say Yes, the future will definitely be a wealth harvester...then what is the problem between you two?"

I still don't speak.

"Can you say a word?...Sure, let me ask you one last question. Did you break up with Lu Jia because you didn't love him anymore, or was it forced by real life?"

"There is no love... After the breakup, I also suffered for a long time."

"After clarifying this point, why can't you look up and look forward?...Brother, let me tell you something from the bottom of my heart. I have met several women around you...I think Lu Jia is the most suitable for you. ... She is really good to you, especially when we were in Shanghai, we all noticed; she is a native Shanghai girl, it is really good to be able to do this!"

I got up and said, "I've been sitting in the studio for a long time, and I'm a little bored. I'm going out for a walk."

"Did you listen to what I just said?"

"I've listened to half of it, and the rest, I'll think about it when there's no one at night."

When I said this, people had already walked outside the door, and Chen Jin shouted behind me: "Marry Lu Jia... If you want to change your current state, this is your only way out... ...Even if you don't think about yourself, you still think about your parents..."

"The same thing, I will give it to you."

Chen Jin muttered: "I'm married to Lu Jia, isn't that a bastard...that's your ex-girlfriend!"

I turned around and stared at Chen Jin...

Chen Jin said with a cheeky smile: "Just kidding, kidding... I know what you want to express is the second half of the sentence... I should also calm down so that my parents can rest assured."

……

I only walked halfway on the road out of the commercial street, and I stopped at the door of the inn that Cao Xiaobei was renovating... I was concerned about the progress of the renovation at this time.

As far as Cao Xiaobei is concerned, he is really willing to pay for Yang Sisi, because of the few words Yang Sisi said to him when he left, he was so hard-hearted that he insisted on opening the inn in Jiulongju... For this reason, He sold one of his favorite motorcycles, and that's how he got the money for the upgrade.

Listening to the sound of the decoration inside and looking at the extremely simple lamps hanging on the wall, I was inexplicably lost... Then there was another gust of wind, and I felt chilly.

I suddenly lost my way...

Where shall I go before night falls?

Even the woman with the accordion that could give me some comfort is gone... I seem to have become a money-making machine, working hard for the business of the commercial street every day, but other than that, I don't know what else to do What...or else, to numb yourself with alcohol.

……

Suddenly, the wind blowing head-on brought a scent of a woman... I subconsciously looked...

……

Her expression of life and emotions is still as enthusiastic as ever... After putting down the suitcase, she hugged me firmly...

That's right... It was Yang Sisi who came back, as always, in such a surprising way.

I squeezed, and then gently hugged her waist...she is so soft!So, what followed was a particularly comfortable feeling.

She choked up in my ear and said, "42 days, I miss you so much...do you miss me?...Mi Gao."

The wind in the alley is almost blowing in a straight line. With such force, half of her hair floated on my face and fell on my shoulders... My heartbeat speeded up inexplicably... Then I fell into this comfortable feeling again, and was in a trance for a while.

But the person I love is obviously Ye Zhi... How can I be moved by this feeling?
Or do some emotions happen subtly?
In short, everything was so sudden that I couldn't figure myself out...Yang Sisi is obviously much simpler, she is the most direct expression, as always.

I know, she just misses me very much, like these lights flashing in front of her eyes, both psychedelic and real!

(End of this chapter)