I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 258
The smoke was burning between Yang Sisi's fingers. She was not yet capable of enjoying smoking, so she frowned every time she took a puff, and suddenly choked. When she recovered, she looked at me with tears in her eyes. Cursed: "You also like such rubbish things, I really don't know what you think!"

"Most men do."

"That's why there are so many stinky men... Don't you think the smell of cigarettes is really stinky?"

"The stink is the mixed type of smoke. The flue-cured tobacco you smoke now doesn't stink."

"What is a mixed type of smoke?"

"Marlboro, Zhongnanhai, etc., it's okay if you don't order them, but there will be a smell of stinky feet after you order them."

After finishing speaking, I looked at Yang Sisi. I never thought that I, who has been particularly irritable recently, could calmly talk to Yang Sisi about the types of cigarettes; patient.

"Mi Gao, do you remember such a night, you chatted with a woman from cigarettes to stinky feet at the Erhai Lake?... Although it sounds a bit vulgar, I like this feeling very much... How should I put it? Like It's two people who talk about everything, spending time together, as for what happens outside, it has nothing to do with us."

I smiled, took out a cigarette and lit it.

Yang Sisi looked down at the half-smoked cigarette in her hand, then threw it away, and replaced it with a piece of chewing gum, which she chewed casually...

I wanted to sit for a while longer, but the 15 minutes I gave myself had already expired. I had to go back to "Jiulongju" and face the temporary inn where a lot of things had been put on hold.

I said to Yang Sisi, "Do you want me to take you back to Cao Xiaobei's place?"

Yang Sisi asked back: "Do you think I lived with him?"

"I didn't mean that. I think he must have found a place for you to live... After all, his family has so many houses in Dali."

"If I had a gun in my hand right now, I'd kill you."

"You probably don't know how terrible the law is!"

"Why are you such a person?"

"What happened to me?"

"You don't ask me why I want to kill you, but you talk about the law with me. Don't you know that there is a sequence between killing and the law?"

I took a puff of cigarette, squinted my eyes and said, "Then tell me, why do you want to kill me?"

After pondering for a while, Yang Sisi replied: "Because you made me look down on myself... I don't know why I foolishly ran back to Dali, I seem to have become a very stupid woman... It's like a moth to a flame... It's a bad feeling, but I can't help myself..."

Yang Sisi seemed to have only spoken half of what she had said, she lowered her head.

After a long time, she said softly again: "Actually, sometimes you are very kind to me... You are probably like this, with a particularly bad mouth, but you always have others in your heart, and you are willing to think of others; but sometimes , I hope you can be selfish, so that people around you can know you more clearly... At least I don't hope that you are a philanthropic person... because I am very selfish, I only hope that you treat me alone Good people."

I replied, "Honestly, I don't know what you mean."

"I don't like Cao Xiaobei, I was forced by you... You say, I am a stupid woman to do such an immature thing."

My heart tightened, but I pretended to be calm, and then said: "You are not stupid, you are just a little wobbly."

"Hehe, that's right... If I'm really a vacillating woman, why didn't I have any relationship experience before this... I've also reached the age to fall in love."

"You want me to take the blame?"

"Don't dare... I just feel a little bit of complaint in my heart, and I don't want to vomit."

I took another puff of cigarette, and then replied: "When you talk to me in this tone, you feel a lot more mature."

Yang Sisi was silent for a while, and then said to me with a jump in her mind: "I really want to stay abroad and never come back... This way I don't have to see you and Cao Xiaobei, you are not good people."

"Why is Cao Xiaobei not a good thing?"

Yang Sisi cried...

"Did he bully you... If he did, tell me and I'll kill him."

"No one in this world can bully me."

"Then what happened to you?"

Yang Sisi sobbed and said: "All he did will make me feel that I owe him a lot...all the people who put me under psychological pressure are not good things."

I sighed: "After a long time, I still have a child's temper... He likes you, so it should be good to you."

"Think about it differently, what did I do wrong? I just want to be nice to you...but you always don't appreciate it and treat me as a burden. Am I so low?...Sometimes, I also think , if I hadn't met Ye Zhi on the highway that day, would the situation be different now?... This question really entangled me for a long time; it wasn't until these two days that I realized that when I actually thought so At that time, it has already lost a mess."

I don't speak.

Yang Sisi said again in a low voice: "Forget it, what's the use of talking so much except making yourself look like a bitter woman? ... If your inn is really busy, I'll take care of you for a few days, and you don't If there is something inappropriate, just treat it as friends helping each other... Anyway, I won’t stay in Dali forever, and I don’t know when I’ll come back next time, so there’s only so much I can help you with.”

"I don't want to cause conflicts between you and Cao Xiaobei, that's what I mean, do you understand?"

"Everything between me and Cao Xiaobei was caused by you, and you are still afraid of such a small conflict... Where did your broken-hearted spirit go?"

After a while of silence, I opened my mouth and said to Yang Sisi: "Okay, if you think it's right for you, I won't be hypocritical... Tonight, a guest checked out, and there happened to be a room for you... But, There is no hot water."

"It's okay, no matter how cold the water is, it's not as cold as what you did to me, but I can bear it all."

Just as Yang Sisi said these words, the fireworks exploded across the sea again. Compared with the warmth of small fireworks, this kind of large fireworks whose sky is rendered even more romantic and shocking.

Yang Sisi and I looked up together...

Amid the crackling sound, I heard Yang Sisi saying, "It's even better than the fireworks I watched yesterday at the reservoir... Who set this off for whom?"

"Such a large-scale fireworks must have been released by the government for the common people to see."

Yang Sisi smiled slightly and said, "The love between fish and water is so romantic!"

……

Riding a little ninja, he brought the owner of the little ninja back to Jiulongju. He didn't have a moment to spare, and started to deal with the troubles that the guests encountered... There was a room in which the toilet was blocked, and the toilet was not good at all. So, in the end, I was wearing gloves and opened it with my hands and wire.

Yang Sisi vomited for a while, and so did I, but I can only do this kind of thing, and Yang Sisi, who saw this scene, even more disagreed with me using the money I earned to atone for Tie Nan, because she saw how hard it was for me to make money .

And I also really saw her love for me, but there are some feelings that I really can’t discuss or show to others. I can only be like a log, doing things like a log, and talking like a log. .

The most painful thing is that I understand everything in my heart.

……

I was busy until 12 o'clock at night, and Yang Sisi and I were able to relax and eat something. It was a takeaway ordered by Yang Sisi, a coke chicken wing, a spicy crab, a green pepper fried shredded pork and two bottles of beer; the boss had more A plate of peanuts was presented to us.

I asked Yang Sisi, "Didn't Cao Xiaobei ask you even after you stayed outside for a whole day?"

"I asked, but he knows he can't control me, so it's useless to ask."

"I... I really think this thing is weird."

"Don't be too weird, you just have to remember that I will go back to study abroad in a few days... This is the biggest fact."

"What's the situation with you and Cao Xiaobei now?"

Yang Sisi tore open the red canned "Feng Hua Xue Yue" beer, took a sip and said to me: "Cao Xiaobei said that no matter how long he will wait for me... But I think it is enough for me to be his girlfriend for a day. I have no regrets, and I have no burden."

"What the hell, a girlfriend for a day?"

"Can't you?"

"It's like filming a TV series...especially the kind that spills blood."

Yang Sisi smiled disdainfully: "Then why don't I suffer from a terminal illness or something, and be more bloody?"

"It's Chinese New Year, say something unlucky!"

"These are all things I learned from you... It's better to be more realistic when dealing with feelings. Although we will all be dazzled by something at a certain moment, after we calm down, we still have to think carefully about whether the two of us are right. Appropriate..." After a short pause, she continued: "Didn't you realize that Cao Xiaobei and Edison Chen look alike? I don't believe that he will be waiting for me for a man with such a sweet face. , and after a few years, I don't necessarily want to go back to China, since there are so many disbelief and choices, what do I need this vain relationship for?"

"You... have turned bad!"

"Learn from a dog."

I almost spit out the beer in my mouth, but Yang Sisi didn't think it was a funny sentence, she looked at me blankly, and I was in a daze under her gaze...

A few days ago, I thought that Lu Jia would stay here for the New Year; going forward, I also imagined that Ye Zhi would live in Jiulongju; but in the end, they all left Dali and here because of some things.

Because of this, I stopped fantasizing and prepared to accept the loneliness of being alone, but Yang Sisi appeared out of nowhere... and in the end, she turned out to be the one who lived in Jiulongju.

I don't want to over-interpret anything, but at this moment, I really feel that there is such a shoulder beside me. Although it is very weak, it also drives away my loneliness and inner fear... If one day, she really Completely gone from my world... I will be sad, very sad.

She learns everything from me, just like my shadow.

She's also very funny, whether it's high or low, or angry, it's so funny when it comes out of her mouth.

(End of this chapter)