I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 194
Ye Zhi's message, like a hand playing a piano, plucked the deepest string in my heart.Loneliness, melancholy, and the desire to live without wanting to die are all movements in my hands, but the form in which they should be performed does not depend on me, but on Ye Zhi's hands, whether they are light or heavy.

When I was thinking this way, another gust of wind passed through the trees and blew towards my face. What I saw was a dull self.

I finally returned Ye Zhi's message, and I asked her, "Should I pick you up at the airport, or wait for you at the same place?"

"Wait for me where I am."

I asked, "How long?"

"If you're in Dali, two hours... If you're not in Dali, I'll wait for you instead."

I didn't think too much about why Ye Zhi said that, I just replied truthfully: "I'm in Dali, I'll wait for you."

"Then send me a position."

Even though the inn has been demolished, the precise location is still preserved on the map... I sent this to Ye Zhi, and I know that if I wait for her here, she can easily find it without navigation , because this is a kind of inheritance and a kind of subversion, her hotel will be built on the ruins of the inn.

……

Leaning against a raised reef, I lit a cigarette and started this short but long wait. After a while, the moonlight replaced the afterglow of the setting sun and became the only light source illuminating the Erhai Lake.

I just stared at the brightest place in the middle of the Erhai Lake in a daze...

I was thinking in a daze: I am now experiencing the world by sight and hearing. If I have a sixth or seventh sense besides the five senses, will the mountain be sunken?Sea water is salty but sweet, wind can quench thirst, water can boil water, fire can sail boats, people have mind before body...

The five sense organs may be a lock made by the creator for human beings, rather than a key to truly open the world. Therefore, being born as a human being, crying when sad, and laughing when happy is based on instinct, and there is no cure for it.

Because we can only contact the world with five senses, which is already a kind of limitation... So we can't see the air, and we don't know why kind people are kind and why bad people are bad!

……

I thought about this with a gust of wind, and after the wind stopped, I called Director Ma, not for anything else, but simply wanted to chat with him for a while.

After waiting for a short while, Director Ma connected. His voice was still so low, and he was still not good at speaking, so he just said "Hello", but he didn't ask me why I called him suddenly.

I asked him, "Where is it?"

"On the way to the bar to sing."

"I mean, which city did you end up in?"

"Rely on LS, a small county seat."

"how are things?"

"It's quite empty to live just for three meals a day!"

After a short pause, Director Ma asked me again: "How about you, are you going well?"

He asked this, which proves that Tao Zi and Tie Nan didn’t tell him the troubles I encountered. They definitely didn’t tell him. If he knew, he would definitely call me and ask me, because he is the most like-minded person in Dali. Bros.

I smiled and replied: "My side has been going well... That day, Tao Zi and I talked about you and Bai Lu, we agreed to make a good fortune during the Chinese New Year, and then we will open a sea view hotel together, waiting for you Come back with Bai Lu."

Director Ma smiled, did not speak, and remained silent, which just showed that he felt something in his heart, but he was not good at expressing it, and then I heard the sound of him lighting a cigarette.

I was also silent, and after a while, I said to him: "Sing a song for my buddy...something inspirational."

"Broad sea and sky?"

"That's it."

As soon as I finished speaking, Director Ma hung up the phone. When he was wondering, he sent me a video invitation. After I accepted, he had already arrived at the bar. He probably fixed his mobile phone on a bracket. Then he appeared in the camera holding the guitar.

With a cigarette in his mouth, he looked at a young man sitting next to a drum kit, and said to me: "I formed a band with some new friends. This is the sixth drummer, and the bassist is sitting there picking his feet. Hu lucky……"

As he spoke, he pointed the camera at another blue-haired young man with tattoos all over his arm. He was picking his feet. Seeing Director Ma pointing the camera at him, he took a drumstick and threw it at Director Ma. ... He said that he has the burden of being an idol, so Director Ma can't bury him when he picks his feet. "

Director Ma smiled, and then began to adjust his guitar...

During this gap, I lit another cigarette for myself. Although the wind by the sea has not stopped, I seem to be sitting in that tavern guided by horses. There are guests in twos and threes, but the stove is fully powered. It warms these people who travel far and wide, and also warms their soul-stirring youth.

After Hu Ji and Lao Liu were all in place, Director Ma finally said: "The first song at the opening today, "Broad Sea and Sky" from Beyond, is for you and for my friends far away... I hope tomorrow will be better !"

"Watching the snow drift by in the cold night, drifting away with a chilled heart; chasing after the wind and rain, unable to distinguish traces in the fog, the sky and the sea are wide, you and me, how many times, facing cold eyes and ridicule, Never give up on the ideal in my heart..."

Familiar songs, familiar friends, strange taverns, steaming stoves...

As I nodded, my heart was surging... Although I have not experienced any extraordinary years in my life, I am more eager to stand up tenaciously after falling... Maybe, I live like a cockroach, but behind the humble , There is also a strong desire to survive!

I squeezed the cigarette in my hand tighter and tighter, then stood on the reef closest to the sea, and sang loudly along with the horse guide in the video...

Fortunately, there is only my seaside in this piece, and there is no one watching with cold eyes, only my wanton swaying and release.

Just like that night, a strange man knelt on the Erhai Lake, crying heartbreakingly, it was also a release, and it was also a madness that could not be broken!
……

When I stopped singing, I realized that the video over there had been cut off due to poor signal. The world suddenly became quiet after I entertained myself... I was half excited and half lost...

If possible, I really hope to have a drink in the tavern where Director Ma is singing, and go to the world with him.

Suddenly, there was applause, and I looked back, it was Ye Zhi... She was wearing a white bag and a light blue long dress, as if she had melted into the gentle moonlight...

I'm so smart, the originally difficult two hours were spent in this way without realizing it.

……

Ye Zhi and I approached each other and met under the tree where the motorcycle was parked. This time, although I don't know why she came here, I want to treat her to a good meal even more than last time .

This time, Ye Zhi spoke before me: "Did you sing like that just because you were bored waiting, or...?"

I asked back: "When you need motivation in your heart, don't you think this song is very suitable?"

Ye Zhi looked at me: "When you sent me the location, I knew you must be in a bad mood... You seem to regard this as a place where you can place some of your emotions."

I smiled and replied: "You're only half right. This time, I didn't come to this place because of my mood... My dad always uses this address to send me things, so I came to pick up the express delivery of."

After a short pause, I said again: "Last time I couldn't treat you to a proper meal, I felt regretful, I must give me a chance tonight...Although, I don't know why you came this time, but I want to The idea of ​​inviting you to dinner is very strong!"

"Because you are a person who is particularly afraid that you owe others..."

"Probably so."

When I said this, I suddenly realized that at this moment, I was so embarrassed that I didn't even have the money to treat Ye Zhi to a good meal, but I had already said the words. I have always kept a good face So I can't do such a repentance, but if I bite the bullet, how will it end?

(End of this chapter)