I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 188 Time Goes Too Fast
The bad weather made me want to keep Ye Zhi, and I said to her, "It's raining too much! Otherwise, let's live here tonight. Anyway, there are many houses, so I will stay here later." When the rain subsides, I'll help you go to the hotel and bring your suitcase."

"I didn't plan to come to the ancient city, so I booked a hotel in Xiaguan. It's more than ten kilometers away. It's inconvenient to go back and forth. I'd better go back by myself."

As Ye Zhi said, she took out an umbrella from my sundry box.

When she was about to leave, I stood in front of her and asked, "So, you really stopped in Dali for a day? You live in Xiaguan for the convenience of going to the airport, right?"

"Yes... a developer here has repeatedly invited me to Dali for a meal. I just stopped in Dali for a day, and I will fly to XSBN tomorrow afternoon."

I didn't believe it, so I took out my mobile phone and checked it. There was indeed a direct flight from Dali to XSBN, and it was the afternoon Ye Zhi said, and then I was a little lost, but my reason was always there, so after a little silence, I said to Ye Zhi: " That's fine, I won't delay your trip, I'll find you a thicker dress to wear... don't catch a cold."

"I'm fine."

To be stubborn, Ye Zhi is really a stubborn woman. After she finished speaking, she opened the door of the house and walked into the wind and rain against the darkness.

I just froze on the spot, and then I felt an inexplicable feeling. Not only me, but Ye Zhi was also very inexplicable. We are very sensible people, this kind of thing really shouldn't happen to us.

I found a very thick down jacket from the closet, and I chased it out. Although I ran all the way, I still couldn't catch up with Ye Zhi's footsteps... After leaving the Jiulong Residence, all I saw were hiding under the eaves Yu's strange face... It seemed that Ye Zhi's walk into my world this night was just an illusion.

……

When I got back to my residence, I was still in a foggy state. It wasn't until I saw an umbrella missing from the glove box that I was convinced that what happened just now was not a dream, but a real thing.

I opened the window, and the damp and cold air came in from the outside. I moved a chair, sat facing the window, and became more and more awake...

I took another cigarette out of my pocket and lit it. I couldn't help but think of that night when I went back to Shanghai alone. If Ye Zhi and I had met that night, what would the situation be like now?

If she has shortcomings, I think she is too smart, so the lies I told couldn't fool her, and I did make a special trip to Shanghai to see her.

……

In a daze, the phone vibrated. I took it out of my pocket and looked at it. It was a photo sent by Yang Sisi... She asked me in a voice: "Do you still remember this photo?"

Of course I remember, because when we took this photo, it was when we first came to Dali. In order to make money, we were tricked by Tie Nan and Director Ma to take a group of artistic wedding photos... In the photo, I held back A branch, and the other hand held Yang Sisi.

This was an extremely dangerous moment. Yang Sisi almost fell into the cliff because of a sprain...

After reminiscing about it for a while, I finally replied: "Remember, Director Ma took the photo for us... That day, we both almost died!"

"Tell me, if we had all fallen, wouldn't the grass on the grave be two meters high now?"

"Death is such a serious matter, can you stop making it so funny?!"

"I'm not being funny...every time I turn to this photo, I'll just think about it...thinking about what will happen after I die...Do you think, if I die, will I go to heaven or go to hell?"

"Except for your bad mouth, everything else is fine, so you should go to heaven."

"What about you, where are you going?"

"I don't go to hell who goes to hell."

"So, even if we die together, we are not on the same road, right?"

I was stunned, and it took me a long time to avoid the seriousness and reply: "Isn't it okay to live well? Why are you discussing whether you will die or not?"

"Don't you think time goes too fast?... We met this summer, and now I recall it, it still seems like it happened yesterday, but now it's already half a year later!"

"You treat half a year as one day, if you want to say that, we are really not far from death!"

This time, after 10 minutes, Yang Sisi returned the message, and it was another voice message. Her voice was very low: "Mi Gao, I am now at the airport and have received my boarding pass... Leaving in this way... I always feel that I still have a lot to say and a lot of things to do..."

Having said that, she choked up.

I continued to put the phone to my ear and listened: "I'm wearing the pair of shoes you gave me now... It feels good, but it's a bit hard... Maybe it's because it's a new shoe, so it will become soft after more wear?"

I also sent back a voice message: "Sneakers are like this, the more comfortable you travel."

"Well, the shoes are all in pairs, but why do I always live so lonely?... I really don't understand!"

"Loneliness is human nature, you have to learn to bear it."

"I can't bear it, I just imagine this pair of shoes as you, stepping on your feet every day, ravaging you a thousand times."

With strong dissatisfaction, I replied: "Do you have a taste?...Didn't I give you other things, you have to imagine me as a pair of shoes!"

"It's over... I'll take you, a country bumpkin, to see the most beautiful scenery in the world... I'm leaving, take care of yourself."

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Five minutes later, I tried to send Yang Sisi another WeChat message, but she didn't reply, probably because she had already boarded the plane... I was half lying on the chair, and my mind was full of what I had experienced when I was with Yang Sisi in the past six months screen.

I am very sad, but it is undeniable that she went abroad so soon, to a large extent, I made her leave...

I think this is her life... But now, my expectation has come true, but I'm not happy at all, all I can see is the distant future, everything is far away...

Another 5 minutes later, for the first time in my life, I posted a Moments update related to Yang Sisi... I simply said "goodbye".

It may not be necessary to say goodbye, but she must have a good life!

And that's what I want most from her.

……

Sitting on the chair, staring at the dark window for a while, then fell asleep... so that when there was a knock on the door outside the house, I didn't know how long it had passed.

Opening the door, standing outside the door was Cao Xiaobei, with a cigarette in his hand and a complicated expression.

I asked dejectedly, "What's the matter, you came here so late!"

"Let's fight, right now."

I'm used to his nervousness, so I just looked around the room, and then replied: "No, the ground is too small, I can't even use the Eighteen Dragon Subduing Palms."

"Do you think I'm joking with you?...I'm not fucking joking..."

Before Cao Xiaobei finished speaking, I grabbed his right hand, pinned it firmly behind his back, and said fiercely: "If you are not joking, then I will strike first."

"You are a goddamn grandson... There is a kind of open-armed fight!"

"With your body, I'm afraid I'll kill you by mistake... Tell me, it's late at night, and you want me to be crazy."

"I'm just so angry that I want to hit you idiot."

"Then you have made progress. You didn't call dozens of people, and you dared to come here alone... But, I don't understand. I earn hard-earned money, eat coarse grains, and live a law-abiding life. Days, why do you always look at me unhappy... Is it possible that we had an enmity in our previous life, and we haven't finished it?"

"We didn't have any enmity in our previous life, but in this life... you fucking let go of me, today either you will die or you will die."

"I understand, I can't live no matter what, can I?"

I let go of Cao Xiaobei while I was talking... Cao Xiaobei suddenly became weak. He sat on the steps, then took out a cigarette and lit it. After a long time, he said, "Sisi is gone... really... Gone...I don't even know why..."

Speaking of which, he looked up at me, and then said angrily: "Knowing that she is gone, I will think of you trash... You forced her to go."

"Which eye of yours saw that I forced her to leave."

Cao Xiaobei yelled at me: "You don't need to see this matter with your eyes...you understand it better than anyone else."

"I don't understand... But if you really want to fight with me, don't choose tonight... I'm in a bad mood, and I'm afraid I won't be able to control the severity of my hand."

Cao Xiaobei threw away the cigarette and clenched his fists until they creaked.

I turned around and went back to the room, and then I took out two bottles of the old village chief from the refrigerator, I handed one of the bottles to Cao Xiaobei, and said: "There are many ways to vent, I think drinking is more manly than fighting." ... If you really have the guts, drink me down right now."

Cao Xiaobei took it from me.

I was the first to unscrew the bottle cap, and drank half of the bottle as soon as I raised my head, then smacked my lips and said to Cao Xiaobei: "There are enough wine pipes in the house...it's your turn...whoever gets down first is the grandson."

……

This rainy night was very dark and humorous, I failed to keep Ye Zhi, but provoked a Cao Xiaobei... This guy really can't drink, he only fought with me for two bottles of 125ml baijiu before he fainted past.

Put him in his room, and I went to the next room.

But when I was really lying on the bed, I had insomnia, and I thought of Ye Zhi and Yang Sisi at the same time... I met them on the way to Dali. I have to say, this time flies so fast, as if it was just a moment , Yang Sisi went abroad; and Ye Zhi, who had respected each other for a long time, was also inexplicably angry with me.

Ugh!
Failed man, failed night.

Compared with frustration, sadness is more real... I seem to be more confused about the relationship between people because of this.

(End of this chapter)