I'm waiting for you in the wind and snow

Chapter 175 The result is more important

The night is getting darker, but there are more and more people on the street. Taozi and I just drowned in the crowd, looking at each other speechlessly... But, I can feel the loneliness in her heart at this moment. Will sell bags and jewelry that I regard as treasures.

After another group of people passed by us, Tao Zi finally spoke to me and said, "You know how difficult Tie Nan is now, as the closest person to him, if I don't help him share, who will help him. "

"He's just too anxious..."

"Isn't he anxious for our future life... No matter what the outcome of this matter is, I won't blame him."

I was a little speechless, but I was moved by Taozi's no complaints and no regrets. She is really similar to Wang Lei. Once she gets serious, she doesn't care about them, but the world has many misunderstandings about them...

I didn't want to say any more words of blame, but asked her in a light tone: "How much money is there now?"

Tao Zi replied casually: "It's not too much money."

I calculated in my mind again: If the cost of Jiulongju's business is minimized, how much more money can I make?After calculating the result, he said to Taozi: "I'll give you [-] yuan first, I don't know how much it will help...but you must accept it."

"No need...you are doing business in Jiulongju, and I feel guilty for not being able to help you. How can I still ask for your money!"

I didn't talk to Taozi, and directly transferred 2 yuan to her via WeChat, then snatched her mobile phone and forced her to accept it. In order not to make her feel guilty, I smiled at her again, I signaled her to be relieved; but Tao Zi still asked me worriedly: "Isn't there a shortage of money in your place? Now that you have given me so much, isn't the gap even bigger?"

"The landlord of the shop I rented in Jiulong didn't ask me for the rent. He wanted to participate and share part of the profits, so my pressure would not be so great... Otherwise, I really don't have any extra spare money for you. "

"Well... are you sure about this matter? But don't make a loss!"

In order not to worry Taozi, I deliberately exaggerated and said, "At least [-]% sure."

"That's good... I believe you can succeed this time... You are different from Tetsuo, you will think about doing things, and he is just relying on enthusiasm..."

I smiled: "I talked to Director Ma before... In fact, Tie Nan has changed a lot compared to before; you don't know, when he first came to Dali, he was completely in a state of eating and waiting to die... …Whether it’s impulsive or not, at least he has the awareness to work hard for the future… For a man like Tetsuo, this is definitely a remarkable growth!… If he is really betting right this time Now, your life in Dali can be regarded as a good start... Hehe, I think you are a woman who can change him, and he can change you too... Really, this feeling of changing each other for a better life, really It's pretty good...really!"

In the end, I was a little incoherent, because I thought of the loneliness I experienced... I don't know what the three years I have been with Lu Jia are.At this moment, my heart is full of desolation...

I suddenly gave up the idea of ​​going back to Shanghai to see Ye Zhi, it wasn't because I didn't care enough about her... It was because I was touched by certain circumstances and circumstances, and returning to Shanghai was just asking for guilt.

The most urgent thing is that I should make a good career in Dali, which is right.

I took out a cigarette and lit it, thinking that my mood would be cleared up because I let go of this thought, but I didn't want to, and the feeling of irritability increased.

At this time, Taozi asked me without warning: "I want to ask... where is the woman who can change you now?"

I signed it, and then smiled and replied: "I am such a perfect person...Do I still need to change?...Don't make fun of me."

"I want to say that I know how to be cold and warm, isn't it kind of rude?...But what I want to express is this..." After a short pause, Taozi said to me meaningfully: "Mi Gao, your current mentality is wrong ...You really can't go on like this...unless you think you haven't missed enough women!"

"I don't know what you mean by that."

This time, Tao Zi replied very bluntly: "It's fine if you missed Wang Lei...and now you miss Sisi...Do you really not feel sorry at all?...or is it only Lu Jia's kind A very realistic woman is the one you never forget?...A woman who is sincerely devoted to you, but you don't know how to cherish it?...If this is the case, everything you are enduring now is your own fault!"

"It's not what you think... It's because I've been with Lu Jia for the past three years... that's why I hate this kind of fruitless love... Before, I always felt that the most important thing in love is the process... But now At this age, you can truly understand...the result, maybe even more important...because you don't have the ability to bear the same pain a second time."

"If you don't even dare to ask for the process... Isn't it superfluous to talk about the result?"

I exhaled heavily, not wanting to argue with Taozi anymore.

While I was silent, Tao Zi received another call. Listening to her conversation with the other party, she probably came to find her for shopping... Sure enough, after Tao Zi finished the call, she deliberately avoided me and went to the woman and The place she promised...

Almost in a blink of an eye, on the street with people coming and going, I was facing a group of strangers again, and I didn’t know anyone, and the feeling of loneliness just took advantage of the void, making me think, In the entire Dali, the entire ancient city, there is no one who is more depressed than me.

……

I didn't leave the ancient city, but just found a very quiet alley, and ordered a dozen "Fantasy Flowers and Snow Moons" to amuse this seemingly peaceful night, but it made my mood very complicated.

After I drank two bottles of beer, I lit another cigarette. After smoking half of the cigarette, I played with the lighter. I thought this would divert my attention, but I still remembered the city of Shanghai and how it was related to me. All the right and wrong about it.

I have to say that the fate of this world is really ingenious... Before I met Yang Sisi and Ye Zhi, there were Wang Lei and Lu Jia in Shanghai... After they left in different ways, Yang Sisi and Ye Zhi came back in different ways. Arrived in Shanghai.

It seems that in the past, present, future, and Shanghai, there are all things I can't let go of, not necessarily about a certain person, but about the things we experienced together.

I took a deep drag on the cigarette and forced myself not to think about everything related to Shanghai. I focused all my attention on the female singer who was singing in the bar opposite. A waiter and a bartender, and it was just her and the bar owner sitting by the window smoking.

She has no real audience, but she is still very dedicated to sitting on that very dim stage. At first glance, the guitar in her hand looks like a toy rather than a musical instrument.

After one song was sung, she presented another one. Before she sang, she said to herself: "This is a song that means a lot to me. It comes from Zheng Jun's "Elopement"... I don't know How many people, like me, eloped to Dali with another person? I don’t know how many people are different from me. Even though he has already left, he still chooses to stay in Dali alone...Staying in Dali is not to wait for anyone, It's because the energy in my heart is still there... If there is a man who can satisfy me in this life... I am still willing to elope with him to find happiness in life... This is what I have in my heart Jiner... If you love him, you must be with him, no matter how difficult it is!"

After saying this, she began to sing...

The feeling of a woman singing this song is definitely not as strong as that of a man, but there is also a kind of charming tenderness, I can't help but listen to it fascinated...

(End of this chapter)