my dream adventure

Chapter 465 The Butterfly Effect (231)

"Sister Zhang, I'm fine. I just walked outside for a while, and I'll go back soon. Don't tell others about my departure. In the near future, I may need to leave for retreat. It was originally agreed that you would go on a trip to a tropical island, so I guess there is no way to accompany you there. Sorry, next time, I will find time to make up for it next time. I need to go to some places to relax, and I may not be able to come again in a short time. I'm back in Shanghai." After Hu Die finished speaking, she didn't care what Sister Zhang would say next, and quickly hung up the phone.

Sister Zhang is also considerate of her, maybe after the stage play, her mood seems to have changed a lot, so some things may need to be done by her alone, if this is the case, then Sister Zhang will not embarrass Hu Die.

Hu Die stood alone on the porch of her villa, looking at the huge oil painting. She stared at the oil painting. The woman in the red dress posing and dancing on the oil painting was Hu Die when she was young.

The oil painting was given to her by the teacher. It was many years ago. She has kept the oil painting. It is said that after the teacher secretly took a picture of her, he sent it to an artist for him He has kept this painting specially for Hu Die, mainly because it is too big, and it seems a bit troublesome even if he wants to throw it away.

But in the final analysis, why she kept it, in fact, the most important reason is that she has never let go of the relationship between her and that person.

If she was able to let go, she wouldn't spend so much thought on this matter at this moment. It is precisely because of her inseparability that she feels such pain. On the dividing line of love, it feels extremely painful.

"A woman like me must be the most despised woman in the world. I have hurt so many people. From this point of view, my life is a complete failure, because there is still one person in this world for me. What's the point of living in this world if I feel so much pain?"

Hu Die muttered to herself in front of the portrait.

The eyes of the woman in the painting seem to have magical powers. As long as you look at her eyes, your whole life and spirit will be attracted to the world of that painting.

She seems to have disappeared completely, merging into the world in the painting, but this is just one of the illusions of life.

And she knows that this is just an illusion, she will not be immersed in the illusion, because she knows that if she is immersed in the illusion, life will still not have any growth, just like staying in the past, then she will always be in the past The captive can only stay in the past forever and cannot take a step forward, so how can she change herself, and the fate of others, and how to make life happier.

"Looking back at what Lin Yuan said, most of them are actually correct. He has completely seen through the life pattern of me, fully understands why I feel so painful, and why my life is such a failure. The reason is that I always stay in the past and cannot extricate myself. If I can be a little flexible and forgetful a little bit, maybe these pains will not be multiplied on me, maybe life will not always be It is necessary to use this method to bring back memories, so why should I live in the kind of pain that my past fabricated for me, I don’t want to live this kind of life anymore.”

Butterfly talked to the portrait, then she turned around and walked to the kitchen, picked up a knife and a bucket of oil, walked to the painting, stared at the painting for at least 30 seconds At the time of the clock, he picked up the knife and pointed at the portrait, and slashed down one by one, cutting the painting to pieces, then took the huge portrait from the wall, and moved it to an empty space in the yard. Fang poured a bucket of oil straight on the painting, lit the fire, and the whole painting began to burn.

The flames flew straight into the sky. What's interesting is that the fire didn't burn to other places in the yard, but only started to ignite on the painting. The smoke from the fire was very black at first, and then slowly turned white. The raging fire at the beginning turned into small fires burning little by little, and the whole painting was burnt clean, leaving only a pile of white dust.

Hu Die stared at the painting, slowly burned the mirror, then took a bucket of water from the toilet and poured it on, and immediately there was a creaking sound, and a lot of water vapor came out. It was very interesting, Hu Die had an expression all the way They were all extremely calm, with no change in expression at all.

She sat down in front of the door of her villa, looking at the dense trees outside the yard. This villa was built by her bit by bit. In the past, she worked so hard to dance on the stage and slowly accumulated wealth. Slowly building a place for herself to live in, and after so many years, she felt that everything seemed so absurd, as if she had had a long, long dream, but this dream did not belong to Her own, which belonged to the self-phantom in this dream.

"If I don't know the truth, maybe I won't be so painful. Once I know the truth, the pain about the truth must be borne by me."

She seemed to understand why Lin Yuan wanted to erase her memory, because erasing her memory could prevent her from facing the current predicament. At first, she was the one who stalked the other party to tell her the truth. Is it something she wants to do?Did you really get what you wanted?

If you don't know the truth, will everything change in any way?Although she said that she seemed to be open-minded in front of Lin Yuan, she was not open-minded at all. When she said she was open-minded, she was just lying. There were many thoughts in her heart that she would not express to others. I know, and I will not let outsiders know that she is such an insecure person.

"If they all know that the place they are in is a dream, will they fall into an absurd state like I am now, will they want to break free from this dream, and if they want to break free, how can they do it? able to break free."

She asked herself bit by bit, and asked these questions, and then she thought, if the world is built by her spirit, then if she destroys herself, the dream will end ?
(End of this chapter)