my dream adventure

Chapter 230 Signing Session ([-])
He remembered that in 18 or when, a female writer also wrote a book with a similar theme called "Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise".

At that time, he was still working in a psychological clinic. His colleagues recommended this book, and he also held a discussion meeting on the theme of childhood trauma.

The childhood that Fu Que described gave him the first impression of the grove after the summer rain.

Full of damp air, the bad smell of rotting leaves, dark, somewhat gloomy evening, no lights, no fireflies, no fire, only the sound of a little girl screaming and shuttling through the woods.

The picture is not clear. In the dark woods, there are only the chirping of gnats, rustling in the ears, tinnitus rustling, sweating, restlessness, and hot and humid soil on the soles of the feet.

Dirty clothes, blood-red scars from struggling, trembling panting sounds, nervously turning left and right eyes.

Fu Que's childhood, and the nightmare she narrated, unfolded along with all of this.

People can't empathize with each other, even if they understand each other, Lin Yuan is not sure that he can release Fu Que and get rid of her nightmare.

Being betrayed or even bullied by someone you trust the most is a huge childhood trauma.

It was like cutting a knife on a young tree, a deep, deep knife.

It also means that she will continue to live with this scar in her future life.

An author can transform their own pain into motivation and inspiration for creation, but then, they will soon find out.

How stupid and futile it is to try to win the approval and understanding of others.

She couldn't really let another person understand her pain, and even pretending to be understood was completely deceiving herself.

The bigger problem is that Fuqu is constantly tearing while repeatedly chewing on painful memories. The wound that was about to heal makes the wound bleed again, continue to rot, continue to infect, and continue to deepen.

The final result.

Definitely not perfect.

Fu Que said that Mu Yuan often wrote her life as a negative example in the book, and Lin Yuan could understand Mu Yuan's thoughts to a certain extent.

He hoped that Fu Que would realize that it was absolutely impossible to heal the original pain by constantly tearing the scar open.

She didn't let go, didn't try to change her thinking, let alone start a new life.

Fu Que was puffing at the side, and Lin Yuan gave her advice.

But she sneered and said, "Do you think I'm weird? A woman like me, who is willing to degenerate, is so dignified and elegant in front of outsiders, like a spokesperson for independent women in the new era."

"I don't think you are ridiculous at all, everyone's life is precious." Lin Yuan's tone was extremely firm.

Fu Que was stunned for a while, as if hearing such words from Mu Yuan for the first time, "In the early years, you persuaded me to see a psychiatrist. That female doctor's name seems to be Wen Suxin. You recommended it. , I went there once, and never went again.”

Lin Yuan's heart skipped a beat. He had seen the name Wen Suxin in Muyuan's address book before, and it turned out to be a psychiatrist.

This Muyuan is really a social butterfly.

"What's your dissatisfaction with that female doctor?" He asked cautiously.

"I'm not dissatisfied. It's just that she is so beautiful that I can't help but start to fantasize about her slender swan neck, what kind of expression will appear when I hold her slender neck hard." Fu Que said seriously.

Lin Yuan swallowed unconsciously, but it revealed his nervousness at the moment.

This Fu Que's mental problem is no longer as simple as depression.

"Doctor Wen is not to your liking, you can switch to another doctor, there is always someone who is more professional in this area." Lin Yuan replied.

Fu Que shook her head, "No need. Anyway, they can't possibly understand me. I'm already like this. The first half of my life is over. Whether it's a disease or not, it doesn't matter if I change or not."

Lin Yuan sighed and did not speak.

Gift her a signed new book in the bag.

He took Fu Que's sample book with him, and read it carefully after the event.

The girl who greeted him before the backstage hurriedly ran to inform the two of them that the event was about to start, and asked Mr. Fu Que to come on stage first to enliven the atmosphere in the venue.

Fu Qu wiped away the teardrops from the corners of her eyes with a wet tissue, and quickly adjusted her state.

In less than a minute, her temperament returned to the original dignified and elegant posture, and her emotional control was extraordinary.

After she left, Lin Yuan was led to a position close to the front of the stage, waiting for the signal given by the host to go on stage.

At this time, bored, he stood in the gap to observe the audience in front of the stage, and found that there was an extra row of seats, and several well-dressed men and women were sitting there.

Just when the staff came over, he asked casually.

"What is the origin of the few people over there, are they also readers?" Lin Yuan pointed to one side.

The girl looked in his direction, "Those are the new book for you, outsiders who have written recommendations, including journalists, well-known musicians, painters, and a recently popular dancer. Or, she is so pretty, that girl with the sky blue scarf. It is said that she came here specially from the magic capital."

"Oh. I didn't expect me to be so famous." Lin Yuan whispered.

At this time, the host on the stage just read Mu Yuan's name, and the girl handed him the microphone and pushed him onto the stage.

The applause immediately sounded, and the whole venue echoed with a warm sound like gongs and drums.

Standing on the stage, Lin Yuan really felt the mood of all the attention. To put it simply, his legs began to tremble.

He hurriedly sat down on the small sofa to hide his nervousness.

Fu Que was sitting opposite the small sofa, looking at him with a smile on her face, waiting for him to speak.

Unexpectedly, after two seconds, he hadn't brewed it yet, so he could only warm up the scene by himself.

"Welcome to our Mr. Muyuan, who took time out of his busy schedule to come to our venue." Fuyu showed a professional smile, "It seems that everyone loves Mr. Muyuan so enthusiastically, the applause can't stop. Let's calm down a little Put your emotions down and listen to what Mr. Mu Yuan wants to say."

The audience stopped applauding cooperatively.

He stared at the two people on the stage with piercing eyes.

Lin Yuan greeted with a smile, "Hello, everyone. I'm Mu Yuan. I'm very glad to be able to participate in this event held by Xinhua Bookstore United Publishing House. I heard that Teacher Fu Que has answered the questions and will stump me, right?"

He quickly entered the state, and Fu Que was a little moved by his amiable appearance.

Unexpectedly, Mu Yuan, who is not very good at words, has such a lively side.

"Haha, I didn't expect my plan to be discovered so quickly. That's right. Before our event, we collected a lot of questions from readers on our website. I personally selected some representative questions to test us. Mr. Professor." Fu Que quickly responded freely.

Lead the topic to the first link.

"Since it is a question that readers want to know, I am also obliged to answer it." Lin Yuan nodded.

"Mr. Mu Yuan is really a responsible author, but our question this time still revolves around two aspects that everyone cares about. One is that the fan group wants to know some interesting things about Mr. Mu Yuan's personal life. For example, Mr. Mu Yuan is superficially rational. Serious and upright, you have been a golden bachelor all these years, and there are quite a few female fans, but they are very curious about your mate selection criteria." Fu Que said here, deliberately making a mischievous face.

The audience laughed cooperatively, successfully enlivening the atmosphere in the venue.

"The other part is also a question that I am personally concerned about. Why Mr. Mu Yuan has been tirelessly paying attention to the topic of special families for many years? What does it have to do with your childhood experience or your philosophy of life? You are writing "Native Family" What are the beliefs we hold when reading the book "The Tragedy of Death". I and many readers and friends are very concerned about it." Fu Que finished speaking step by step.

At the same time, it also officially introduced the theme of today's event.

The audience present was quiet and focused on listening to the host's speech, apparently also very interested in the content of the interview.

"It seems that everyone is curious about these questions, so let's start with a lighter question. In the process of writing, do you have any little habits that help you think?"

"Well. I usually read a lot of newspapers, and I will cut out the interesting news I see and write them down in a thick notebook. This can help me collect information and make it easy to look up. I usually have a flash of inspiration, It will also be recorded in the notebook so that it will not be lost." Based on his preliminary understanding of Mu Yuan's behavior pattern, Lin Yuan made some reasonable inferences.

"Mr. usually writes, do you like to go to the library or the coffee shop? Before the preparation work, do you have any small habits?" Fu Que seems to deliberately guide in the direction of entertainment.

"Haha. There's nothing particular about it. I usually stay in my own study room, where it's relatively quiet, and prepare a cup of homemade coffee. Occasionally, I'll take my notes with me when I'm on a business trip, and study while I'm free." Lin Yuan replied fluently.

In his notes, he saw that Muyuan had recorded various methods of making coffee, so he guessed that Muyuan was really interested in coffee.

By the way, he shook his wits and said that he likes to drink coffee, and Fu Que's guidance just now inadvertently mentioned the word "coffee shop".

As a friend of Mu Yuan, it is natural to unconsciously tell Mu Yuan's usual hobbies.

"It's unexpectedly ordinary. It turns out that the life of a great writer is similar to that of ordinary people." Fu Que teased.

"I'm just an ordinary person. It's no different from the fans and readers here. How my personal life is does not affect the series of stories I write. I also hope that everyone can pay more attention to the story. The kernel itself, not the mediocre author behind it." He smiled slightly and paused for a moment.

The audience in the arena applauded quickly.

Fu Que was a little shocked by his sudden speech, and did not expect Mu Yuan to respond so directly, asking about his personal information.

Looking back, I was right, it was obviously a book signing, and the discussion was also a very serious topic, why must it be guided in the direction of entertainment.

But she, the host, didn't do a good enough job.

(End of this chapter)