Zhu Mie: This swordsman's surname is Uchiha

Chapter 134 Unchangeable
After listening to these words, Uenohua immediately broke down emotionally, her eyes were full of tears, and the light was flooding. Tears poured out of her eyes and covered her entire cheeks. The crying also echoed in the empty room, making people weep involuntarily .

Die Die Ren and Zhu Shi knew that this would be the result. After all, her father, Ueno Qiangxun, had died. No one could accept such news, and anyone who heard it would cry bitterly. Such a thing is really It's too sad, it's too painful, let alone what happened to Shang Yehua.

She is the eldest daughter and the only daughter in the family.

She is the only heir of Ueno Qiangxun, and she has devoted a lot of effort and energy to being popular enough for Ueno Qiangxun.

And Uenoka was also loved by her father since she was a child. Her mother died of illness more than ten years ago, and only her father accompanied her when she grew up.

Her father gave her full comfort during these times, gave her everything she wanted, gave her everything she dreamed of, and created an absolutely warm and safe environment for her.

In short, Ueno Qiangxun protected her daughter extremely safely, and gave her all the best things she could give. It can be said that she has put in a lot of hard work for her daughter.

Uenohua also really felt her father's love, her father's intentions, and her father's efforts.

She is extremely grateful and grateful for these things. In her opinion, her father is the best man in the world, someone she can never betray, and who she can never abandon.

But now she fell into a coma, and when she woke up again, such a big change had taken place. It was like an earth-shaking change overnight, everything changed, and everything became devastated.

This was such a blow to Uenoka's mind and spirit that even she couldn't control her emotions.

Born into a political family, she has been educated about politics since she was a child. She has learned about the darkness of human nature, all kinds of intrigues and intrigues, the turbulent undercurrents in the bright world, and the disputes in this peaceful world.

She knows the true colors of this world, she knows that this world is neither white nor black, it has always been a touch of delicate gray.

It is a coexistence of black and white, there has never been any absolute light, and there has never been any absolute darkness. There will always be a slight deviation in any absolute. This is the principle of the constant cycle of the world.

After learning about such a cruel world, Shangyehua's mind has undergone earth-shaking changes.

She doesn't cry over things that normal people would feel sad about.

She has a deep understanding of this world, so her emotional shock ability is also extremely high, which is beyond ordinary people when facing ordinary things, she will not even have any emotional fluctuations, but now facing her father's death, she But it was unacceptable, and even her spirit and heart collapsed, because her father was one of the few people in this world who once brought her light, warmth, and beauty.

She knows that this world is cruel, everything is like this, even people, whether animals or humans, have a cruel side, if you want to survive in this world, you must keep climbing up, and in order to climb up, you must always climb up. There will be people who will use unscrupulous means, and in order to deal with these unscrupulous guys, you must also arm yourself, an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.

And her father was like this, he armed himself in the political world, he used methods to deal with those who used methods, he used his cruelty outside, he used his psychic schemes to the extreme, but he never revealed these darkness at home s things.

He gave himself his warmth, his light, his happiness and beauty, he gave her what he could, the best things he could give, and tried his best to create a happy life for her. a wonderful setting.

Now the father who brought her these things has left this world, and during this period she even fell into a daze of nothingness, she didn't know all of this at all, and she didn't even look at her for the last time before her father died, This is the saddest and most heartbreaking thing for Uenohua.

She was shaking all over.

Crying and the sound of wind and rain generally make people feel empty.

"Father. Where is father now? I want to see her, please."

After the crying, there was a choked sound, and Uenoka wiped the tears from her face and looked at Butterfly Shinobu and Zhu Shi.

The two looked sad, lowered their heads, and said nothing.

Among them, Butterfly Ninja's expression is the most winning, because she knows that all of this is because of her. If it weren't for her, the current situation would not have appeared at all. The responsibility for Ueno Qiangxun's death lies entirely with her. She, because she put everyone in such a situation, deprived him as a father from Shangyehua's side.

And Miss Zhushi didn't tell Uenohua about these things, because telling such things now would cause great conflicts to people.

In such a strong emotional conflict, it may be difficult for Uenoka to maintain her xinxing, and she will definitely pour all her anger on Butterfly Shinobi wantonly, and the conflicts caused by then will be extremely bad.

Therefore, considering these circumstances, Zhu Shi did not tell Uenohua about this matter, but found a random reason to prevaricate the specific situation in the past.

She thought about telling Shang Yehua the truth after she was emotionally stable.

Of course, there is another reason, Zhu Shi believes that Butterfly Ninja would never do such a thing, she must be mentally controlled by her, which led to the current situation.

If Butterfly Ninja did it herself, it was her own will.

It is absolutely impossible for Zhu Shi to hide this matter, and it is absolutely impossible for Zhu Shi to continue to sit here and have a long talk with Die Die Ren.

Having done such a thing, I have already abandoned the essence of the ghost killing team and the responsibility as a pillar. The duty of being born as a ghost killing team is to kill ghosts, but even though it is killing ghosts, the greater responsibility behind it is to protect human beings .

Protecting human beings from evil spirits, being able to sleep peacefully at night, no longer living under the haze of ghosts, no longer being in constant panic, no longer worrying about your own safety.

This is the duty of the ghost killing team, and killing ghosts is also to protect the safety of the entire human race.

And as Zhu, she shoulders such a heavy responsibility. She is the master. She wants to protect the human beings and protect thousands of innocent people from being harassed and attacked by evil spirits. kill.

If this is abandoned, then she can no longer be regarded as a swordsman of some ghost killing team, let alone a pillar.

Such a betrayal of the true essence of the Ghost Slayer Squad, betrayal of the dogma of protecting human beings will inevitably be severely punished by the Ghost Slayer Squad, that is, the Zhuzhong Trial.

Even Zhu can't escape, everyone in the Ghost Killing Team is treated equally, whether you are a swordsman who has just joined the Ghost Killing Team, or a famous swordsman who has already become Zhu, it is the same.

As long as you betray mankind, dogma, and faith, you should be judged, and such people will definitely be spurned by everyone.

When you join the Ghost Killing Squad, you have sworn your own identity to fight for what you believe in. Those who betray their beliefs are depraved, impure, and evil, and they will be punished.

Zhu Shi believes that Butterfly Ren will not do such a thing. Her kindness is obvious to all, and it is also the reason why everything will help Butterfly to hide the truth of the matter.

Butterfly stayed silent, she didn't even dare to raise her head to face the wild flower, her tearful eyes made people feel sad.

She knows that she caused all this, no matter what the reason is, it is because of her that she caused the current situation.

The toxin is a toxin that she is extremely familiar with, even the ingredients of the preparation, she knows it by heart, and there will be absolutely no mistakes.

It was she who caused all these situations, whether consciously or unconsciously, the person who inflicted this disaster was herself, and it was she who caused all this with her own hands.

This made Butterfly unable to face it, unable to face such a self, let alone face the current Ueno Flower.

She lowered her head and clenched her fists, her whole body was trembling slightly, Ueno Flower flashed in her mind, and her tearful appearance also flashed the appearance of her father Ueno Qiangxun. It's like a piece of ice.

This result was caused by her.

She once vowed to kill all the evil spirits in the world to protect the safety of human beings, but she actually caused the death of others by her own hands. She witnessed the life and death of a family, which made Die Die hate herself very much.

She clenched her fists and let her nails embed into her palms, and the blood flowed out, and then the bright red blood, the stinging and burning nerves, transmitted to her mind, but she didn't respond in the slightest.

She clenched her teeth tightly, her eyes were a little red, and gradually she shed tears.

This appearance was seen by Zhu Shi and Ueno Hana.

Zhu Shi naturally understands the feeling of Butterfly Ren now, she knows such a painful and cruel feeling, the feeling of remorse at the end, Zhu Shi can empathize with it.

As early as the Warring States Period, she was thrown into the abyss by Wu Mi through various means.

Because of extreme hunger, Zhu Shi, who became a ghost, sent her own parents to the abyss of death with her own hands under the arrangement of Wu Mi, an insidious and cunning guy. Hate, hate myself like that.

Even at that time, she did all this only because she fell into the trap of Wu Mi, lost her consciousness, and completely reduced to the bestiality of a ghost and a beast.

Zhu Shi still couldn't forgive herself, no one could forgive such a thing, she couldn't accept it, she couldn't tolerate it.

Once she even thought about ending her own life, but as a ghost, she couldn't die unless she was exposed to the sun.

She tried it before, but she was so tormented by the severe pain that she didn't dare to take another half step.

Zhu Shi hates this kind of self, a cowardly self, on the one hand, he is afraid of death, the severe pain of being exposed to the sun, and on the other hand, he wants to escape that painful experience through death. memory.

But the thing has already happened, it is a done deal, no matter what you do, it will be useless, what's the use of escaping?Can you redeem everything you have done if you die?Can you assuage your guilt?

Does not.

But why do you want to do this?

For Zhu Shi, she was in too much pain at that time, almost every day and night she would live in the endless cycle of nightmares, returning to that bloody and inhumane day, thinking of the horrific scene.

Zhu Shi would tremble uncontrollably, she couldn't accept herself like this, she couldn't accept such a painful past, she couldn't accept what she had done.

So she wants to escape through death.

At that time, she just wanted to escape blindly, to escape from this endless cycle of nightmares, to escape from this truly horrible past. She had wanted to put herself in the sun countless times, and let herself melt away in sheer pain. Flying ashes and disappearing into this world, she thought that perhaps this was her own redemption, her repayment for her past painful experience, a compensation for what she had done, and a begging for forgiveness for her biological parents.

But the pain of being exposed to the sun, burning her body and soul from body to soul, made her unable to bear that feeling. She felt that life was worse than death.

She has never endured that kind of pain, it hurts her heart, it seems that every cell in her body is crying and screaming, gathering together like a tsunami, unstoppable like a erupting volcano, the pain is burning crazily all over her body , crazily gathered together, then exploded, and finally washed away her entire spiritual will.

She almost lost consciousness, and instinctively returned from the sun to the shadows. That feeling even made her cells feel fear and howling. No wonder this is the only deadly thing for ghosts, and it is also the ghost that fears the most. The most frightening thing, the most talkative thing.

After the first attempt, she hated her cowardice, hated her greed for life and fear of death.

She blamed all of this on her cowardice, as long as she died, she would be fine, but she was afraid of that pain, she hated that kind of herself, and then she tried several times, but still failed, she He wanted to die, but every time he was defeated by that absolutely painful mark.

after that.

Zhu Shi was not trying to expose himself to the sun, to redeem his inhuman, innocent and unforgivable actions through death.

Because she wanted to understand that it is not advisable to escape reality through death.

Even if she dies, so what? What happened has already happened, and it really cannot be changed. No matter how painfully she dies, her parents will not be able to return to this sunny world, and neither will she. In the face of my parents, I can never go back to the past. It is an indisputable fact that everything has happened to me like that.

(End of this chapter)