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Chapter 395 [Resonance of Masochists]

2023, April 4.

The popularity of "Twilight Saga" is on the rise. Whether it is the attack or the romantic love of vampires in the novel, this novel released simultaneously worldwide continues to take revenge on the society, but Bao Shiyi no longer wants to wait any longer. Updated and published the latest novel "The Life of the Disliked Pine Nut" on Weibo.

In the eyes of many netizens, this seems to be Bao Shiyi's response to the constant attacks and abuse by netizens on Weibo.

Now he is despised.

This has made countless netizens and readers curious about this novel, and they will naturally read this story out of curiosity.

Just like the hesitation of Xu Wanqing, a large grain producer, they have been deeply hurt by Shiyi many times, but every time they still read the new book written by Shishi.

Eleven abused them thousands of times, but they still treated Eleven like first love.

Because of this, netizens readers actually already have a premonition in their hearts, and it is obvious that this "Life of the Disliked Pine Nut" is another heart-wrenching story.

But to everyone's surprise, they thought this story was sad, but they never thought that this story would be so sad.

That's it, netizens and readers began to watch the story of "The Life of the Disliked Pine Nut".

Then they knew what Songzi's life was like.

What surprised netizens even more is that the novel "The Life of the Disliked Pine Nut" has the unique name Shiyi.

The story begins with Shiyi’s father who suddenly came to find Shiyi one day, told him that an aunt he had never met had died, and told him to clean up his aunt’s house.In the dilapidated hut by the river, Eleven gradually began to understand what kind of life the aunt his father spoke of had.

This surprised many netizens, because netizens and fans knew very well that Eleven was an orphan. He grew up in a welfare home and had no father at all. Naturally, he would not have a so-called aunt.

But now Bao Shiyi actually uses his own tone to tell this story, telling the story of Aunt Songzi, which makes netizens feel the truth of the story, even as if Bao Shiyi is standing beside them, telling them about her aunt in a low voice. The story of pine nuts.

It's like a real story that happened.

……

Then, what followed was a feeling of sadness. Under Bao Shiyi's narration, a life that was rejected was recalled again.

Before that, of course, the death of pine nuts first.

Song Zi died suddenly in his humble rented house.Nephew Eleven got to know this aunt he had never met because he was in charge of packing up the relics.

Before her death, when her aunt Songzi was very young, Songzi often had dreams like Snow White, but in the end she just died alone in the rented house.

“When you’re young, everyone thinks their future is bright, don’t they? But when you grow up, nothing happens.”

It seems that such a sentence began to tell about Songzi's life experience.

Because Songzi's father only had his sick sister in his eyes, the neglected Songzi started his life like this. He had to make funny faces in childhood to get a little smile from his father.

When he was a child, he worked hard to make funny faces to attract his father's attention. Due to the lack of fatherly love, Songzi worked hard to find love and maintain love all his life, even if he lost his self-esteem.After graduating from university, Songzi became an ordinary teacher, but was dismissed by the school for covering up students who committed theft.

Later, because she ran away from home, her love life began to be ups and downs, and she lived with her boyfriend who was determined to become a best-selling author. After that, her boyfriend committed suicide, and she became the mistress of her boyfriend's friend.Afterwards, she found out that her boyfriend's friend was just using her all the time, so the angry Songzi began to give up on herself and become a bathroom girl, becoming the most famous prostitute in the area.Later, as the times changed, the bathroom closed down, so Matsuko lived with Ono, the man who struck up a conversation with her, "to make a lot of money".

Half a year later, Ono found out about Ono's betrayal, and Ono wanted to keep the money he earned with him. During the scuffle, Ono was killed and fled to Tokyo.Song Zi, who originally planned to commit suicide, met a simple and honest local barber and lived with him, but the police chased him so that Song Zi had to leave his lover and began an eight-year prison life.After being released from prison, Songzi saw that her lover had another new love and gave birth to a child, so she left silently and worked in the hairdressing industry in another barber shop.

He ran into a cellmate by chance and reunited with Long Yang who was his student. Although Long Yang had joined the underworld and became a gambler at this time, Song Zi fell in love with him.In the end, Long Yang could not escape the fate of being in prison. Thinking that he could not bring Song Zi happiness, or even bring pain to Song Zi, Long Yang decided to leave her after serving his sentence, but Song Zi always dreamed of staying with Long Yang until the end of his life. old.

Since then, Songzi no longer believes in love, nor does she love others.

She went away alone, living a secluded and closed life alone.Because she no longer had a goal in life, she gradually turned into a lazy, obese, and mentally abnormal "smelly old woman" who gave up on herself.

In the end, the hope of life was rekindled with great difficulty, but he was beaten to death by the gangster for teaching the little gangster who did not return home at night.

Beside the dried up river, people found Songzi's cold body.

This is such a life, such a story.

……

Obviously knowing that Bao Shiyi is an orphan, without a father or an aunt, but just watching "The Life of the Disliked Pine Nut" like this, readers still feel the cruel reality.

Because like the last chapter of the story, what Eleven said——

"I can't guarantee that I won't encounter the same experience as Aunt Songzi in the future. I, like Aunt Songzi, will grow old with time and will die one day."

It should be said that no one can guarantee, and no one dares to say that he has not encountered the same experience as Song Zi, or that he is experiencing the life of being rejected.

It can be said to be an instant, just as the name of the story was disgusted from the beginning, and it was lonely from the introduction. Under the narration of Eleven, what came to the face was not the story of pine nuts, but the sad negative energy.

Under the shroud of the thick negative energy atmosphere, everything is so sad and hopeless.

After reading this story, readers and netizens were all poked by this story, or they were depressed.

Because everyone is terribly afraid that their lives will become like this, but now Eleven is putting those fears and nightmarish fantasies about life naked in front of everyone.

……

Netizen readers don't know how to describe the sense of desolation and desolation in their hearts. When they read Songzi's life, they may only think of the book "Disqualification in the World" written by Bao Shiyi.

This time, Songzi also mentioned the phrase "I am sorry to be born as a human being".

The real thing is the indescribable depression and indescribable madness. Perhaps only Songzi's grimace and smile repeatedly appear in the readers' minds, and the rest is the pain covered with bruises.

Originally it was only the negative energy of the story, but now such a negative energy is like an introduction, drawing out the negative energy in the readers' hearts one after another, the negative energy of strong sadness, despair, pain and sorrow is just like that Spread out on the light curtain panel.

"When Song Zi, who was full of wounds and exhausted, was about to return to his hometown, and when Song Zi wanted to heal his scarred heart through the remaining warmth of family affection, Song Zi's younger brother, Shi Shi's father, rejected his sister. This kind of indifference and selfishness in human nature gave Songzi the final blow, and also shattered Songzi's remaining hope, so everything was shattered."

"Songzi always thinks of ways, even some weird and ridiculous ways for ordinary people to face unfair life encounters. This novel makes me so fucking depressed. Eleven He wrote it like this on purpose, really heartbroken."

"This is a book that you can't put down once you pick it up, and you can finish it in one go. The two perspectives of Songzi and his nephew 11 are parallel and parallel. The life of the disliked Songzi unfolds directly under this unique narrative technique, which makes people unbearable to look directly at. I can’t wait to know the story from beginning to end, which makes people feel sorry for Songzi but also denounces Songzi’s weakness, and also makes people sigh, why the pursuit of happiness is always difficult.”

"This is more than Songzi's life alone. I really feel like I'm living like her, and I'm still desperate in the end."

"It's really hard in my heart. Song Zi is obviously looking for love like that. No matter how humble he is, he doesn't want to be alone. He also wants love. Even if he is beaten, it doesn't matter even if he goes to hell."

……

"When Songzi was holding a fire-like rose but was beaten by Long Yang and asked himself softly in the snow why, the tears couldn't be controlled. What made a woman so gorgeous and so miserable."

"Crying like a fool, really crying with a headache... for love paranoia, for love madness, time and time again for love, but hurt again and again. In a relaxed and bright tone, finish the life of this pine nut's suffering, from comedy The tragedy of life is played out from a different perspective. One wrong step, one wrong step, life cannot be rewound. I am sorry for being human.”

"In order to please others, Songzi constantly gave her money, body, soul and everything, but the changes in her life made her constantly shattered and shattered, but she still stood up again and again, applauding Songzi, and also grieving for herself."

"It's embarrassing to use music to complement sadness. I really feel sorry for Eleven's aunt."

"Life seems to be like this. Whenever I think I've come to a dead end, I give another chance, but when I really want another chance, I give it a dead end. Every time she loves pine nuts, she is too sincere and persistent. Too hot to keep up, and die with that weird smile on my face."

……

There were sad comments on Bao Shiyi's Weibo, and netizens were deeply depressed by this story.

Because it seems that Songzi has experienced all the misfortunes in the world that he can think of.But she is persistent, stubborn and foolish, she gives a man God-like love, but what she gets is punches and kicks and scars all over her body.

She was lonely all her life, and even before she died, she sadly wrote the last words of "I'm sorry, I was born to be human".

Of course, some readers also saw persistence from this story, and saw that they faced life with an invincible spirit.In their view, Songzi died tragically in the end, but so what, Songzi has been working hard in life to ask to be loved and loved, and has never given up.

……

But it's more like the original "No Place in the World", sad to despair.

That is a kind of resonance, the resonance of these masochists for Songzi's life.

Songzi lacked love when he was a child, and his father ignored Songzi. Songzi was not alone in this kind of indifference.

Song Zi is not the only one who is full of desire to love and be loved, but is extremely humble.

Life is always unfortunate, then give hope, then give opportunities, but finally come to a dead end, and Songzi is not alone.

As a human being, it is not only pine nuts and Ye Zang who are sorry.

……

Netizens feel uncomfortable not only because of the pine nuts, but also because of themselves, who are getting more and more depressed, sad, and desperate because of their own lives.

There's always going to be a lot in this grief that will overwhelm someone, and whatever the cause, there's always going to be masochism that can't be tolerated.

Many readers and netizens said that after reading this story, they died of depression, sadness, discomfort, crying, and despair.

However, regarding these comments, at this moment, what Bao Shiyi wanted to know was whether there would be someone who couldn't think about it, and was really desperate to death.

It's not exaggeration, nor is it venting, but the real overthinking, the real crying death, the death of despair.

This is the real revenge society.

……

Many people now read this novel and listen to the true story of Aunt Songzi told by Eleven, and then, as masochists who have been abused again, they have been abused by life all the time. In their opinion, this story is full of negative energy , but also a resonant story of their masochists.

They have also been disliked, and have always been disliked, just like pine nuts, living a life of being disliked, flattering, and humble.

In this case, under such sad negative energy, should I choose to continue to yearn to be loved and loved like a pine nut, willing to live even if I am beaten, or I am not willing to be abused by the despised life, and I am not willing to bear it anymore .

Bao Shili really wanted to know the answer to this question.

Looking at those comments on the Internet, and the negative energy values ​​constantly refreshing on the light curtain panel, Bao Shili's eyes kept falling on those comments about crying, despairing, and suffering.

It is the current "Life of the Disliked Pine Nut", he deliberately uses himself as the tone to tell about his aunt's life, in order to resonate with those who were revenged.

So, if there is a resonance, who will be Songzi and who will be Yezang?
Bao Shiyi was looking forward to it.

Then, Bao Shiyi looked at those flashing crazy negative energy values, and the black swan in his heart smiled strangely.

The symphony of masochism becomes more crazy and intense with the breath of negative energy.

The black swan began to dance crazily under the masochistic symphony. Below the standing stage was the abyss, and below it was an endless abyss. A voice came from the abyss——

"Sorry, I'm sorry too."

(End of this chapter)