Deer in deep forest

Chapter 46 I have already shown all the feelings of my previous life, what do you want from me?

The weather on this day was not good, the light rain turned cloudy, and the ground was wet early in the morning.

The dance room on the fourth floor of the school is very lively, rehearsing a classic drama, "Thunderstorm" by Cao Yu.Zheng Mingming and a few classmates in the class faced the lines, and their affectionate and slightly exaggerated voices came from the window.

"I am alone, sitting quietly at the table alone. In the yard, there is not even the sound of the wind blowing the leaves. Have you slept? Is your breathing even? Is your soul temporarily safe? Do you know, I With tears in my eyes, talking to you in the middle of the night?"

"I gave you my love, my body, my soul, and my whole body! But you just let go!"

"We should have walked together to find the light, but you left me in the darkness!"

"If I had a cup of poison by the mirror tonight, I might have been in Elysium."

……

Xi Guang lay on the railing of the corridor, her ears were poisoned, she didn't realize it, her eyes were looking at the square not far away.There gathered some seniors in academic gowns, posing for pictures.The youthful smiling face is completely unaffected by the standing water on the ground.

"Xi Guang, why don't you come and give us a review?" Zheng Mingming poked his head out of the dance room and warmly greeted her to enter.

Xi Guang turned his head and smiled, and said, "It sounds good to me, you guys go on."

She seemed too lazy to move, she was still in a slightly hunched posture, and she didn't intend to move.Zheng Mingming felt bored, so he went back to discuss the script with others.

Time passed slowly, almost twelve noon.

The traces of water on the ground were quietly evaporated without leaving any traces.The sky had been gloomy all morning, and it gradually cleared up, the clouds dispersed, and thin sunlight shone down.

There was another batch of people taking graduation photos in the square.

In the team that came this time, there were mostly boys, and the scene of standing together was quite spectacular.In the last row by the side, there was a tall and straight young man who was still eye-catching.

Xi Guang narrowed his eyes, trying to see clearly.He seemed to have come from somewhere suddenly, and he didn't have time to change into the financial system one's bachelor's uniform. He was wearing a linen cotton shirt and black slacks.The light sunlight outlined a vague and thin silhouette behind him.

Xi Guang looked at him, as if he was very close.Reaching out is a distance that is far out of reach.

She said softly, "Yanshu, happy graduation."

The photographer is in the position directly in front of him, adjusting the angle of the camera, "Come on, students, look at the camera here, remember to keep smiling..."

"Three, two, one! Eggplant!"

Gu Yanshu looked back at the last second as if sensing something, and looked behind him blankly, all he saw were dense holly bushes and a few scattered teaching buildings.

Looking across, he didn't see the familiar figure except for the laughing and playing strangers.

The photo freezes at this moment.

From nowhere came the thunderous tune, which sounded familiar, like the background music in "Thunderstorm".

After the group photo, it was time to take pictures freely.

Everyone anxiously grasped the last tail of youth and worked hard to make a concave shape.They are in groups of three or four, with their shoulders hooked and their backs hooked, all of them baring their teeth and claws at the camera.

Gu Yanshu didn't leave right away either, and stood talking with the gray-haired old professor in front of the flower bed on the edge of the square. The crowd next to him was noisy, but only that corner seemed silent, with the red rose sticking out its branches.

Even the girls who have been in the same class for four years only look back at him frequently with their mobile phones, not daring to really go up to him, asking for a group photo as a souvenir.

Xiguang squatted under the outer wall of the corridor, her heartbeat was disordered.

Knowing that at such a long distance, Gu Yanshu must not see her when he turned his head, but he hid himself reflexively.

Zheng Mingming came out to get some air, holding milk in one hand and bread in the other. Seeing that Xiguang was still outside, he said in surprise, "I thought you had left early. Why are you squatting on the ground, do you feel sick to your stomach?"

Xi Guang shook his head and said, "No."

Her left foot was numb and she couldn't stand steadily. Zheng Mingming freed up a hand to support her.

The dance studio was empty, with scripts and props scattered on the floor in a mess.The other students have all gone out for lunch, and they have made an appointment to continue rehearsing after two classes in the afternoon.

Xiguang asked Zheng Mingming: "You don't go to the cafeteria to clean up at noon, do you want to lose weight?"

Zheng Mingming took a bite of the bread, picked up the script, and said seriously, "I'm already so slender, is it worth it? I stayed here to do serious business. There are too many lines in the script, and I haven't memorized it yet. Work harder, the show is going to be bad."

Xi Guang gave him a thumbs up and said: "The revolution has not yet succeeded, comrades still need to work hard."

"You..." Zheng Mingming pointed to Xiguang and said, "Comrade, you have to contribute every bit of your light and enthusiasm to the class. If you have nothing to do now, come and accompany me in the dialogue."

Xiguang agrees: "Okay."

Xiguang flipped through the script, skimmed through it, and heard Zheng Mingming ask: "Xiguang, are you and Gu Xiaocao together now?"

"Many of us are wondering what happened next after Gu Yanshu made a vigorous confession on the radio that day. Did you eagerly nod in agreement with him, hug him, and kiss him furiously?"

Xi Guang said, "Yeah, I can't wait for him."

Boys sometimes gossip, Zheng Mingming asked nervously: "And then?"

Xi Guang smiled, and asked back: "Does this kind of thing have to happen?"

"That's for sure, and then shouldn't you guys date like glue?" Zheng Mingming thought about it and said, "Show affection on campus together, blind everyone's eyes, and cause [-] points of damage to everyone who is single or not. I'm so envious of you." The majority of teachers and students, many years later became a legend of E University, spread in every corner of the campus..."

Zheng Mingming looked at Xi Guang, and asked questioningly: "Why is the situation different from what you imagined? You are more like a broken love now, and you are here alone."

Xi Guang said indifferently: "I'm not idle, can someone accompany you to recite the lines?"

Zheng Mingming was disappointed, raised his hand, threw the milk box into the trash, and silently searched for a breakthrough point in the script.

Sitting on the cotton pad on the floor, Xi Guang leaned against the entire glass wall, with the script resting on his knees, and gradually became dazed.

Looking a lot like a lovelorn?
It seems that I really fell in love.

This relationship, before she came to her senses, had already ended abruptly.

That day, after confessing, hugging, and kissing, Gu Yanshu received a call.

In less than half a minute, he hung up the phone with a gloomy expression and no expression on his face.He said to her: "Xi Guang, my mother... committed suicide..."

"The housekeeper said that she only saw you today."

Xi Guang's pupils shrank suddenly, and for a moment, she was stung by his complicated and obscure eyes.Suddenly his face turned pale, but he remained calm, his back straightened.

The entrance of the alley was silent, the sun was about to set and disappeared on the gray wall, the surrounding light was gathered, and the night swallowed them.

Gu Yanshu didn't say anything else, he never questioned Xiguang, never doubted her, and never accused her, but at this moment, the life and death of his mother lay between the two of them, leaving them relatively speechless.

Relatively silent.It's a real tragedy.

"I'll go to the hospital first." Gu Yanshu said to her at the time.

Qing Huang's slender back gradually drifted away.

Xi Guang stayed where he was, with a stiff face, not knowing whether to cry or laugh.

She was forcibly invited to the Gu family, and she said to Lu Wanliang, I like Gu Yanshu, and I want to be with him, as long as he doesn't give up, I will accompany him to the end and walk with him forever.

Lu Wanliang said sarcastically, what you young people say is nice, but it is often vulnerable.

After hearing this, Xi Guang didn't take it seriously, and she was very determined in her heart, believing that she and Gu Yanshu still had a long future.She made such a big determination to be with him.

But it was just a phone call, and it almost knocked her down.

Regarding Lu Wanliang's situation, it was Song Yusheng who finally told Xiguang.

"Aunt Lu had a deep gash on her wrist, and she was not mentally stable after waking up, so the Gu family has not let her out of the hospital... But you don't have to worry too much, she will get better gradually, it's just a matter of time... "

Xi Guang felt that it would never be better.

Lu Xiguang is the only confidant in Lu Wanliang's generation who suffers the most. She is a thorn in her side and a thorn in her flesh.Lu Wanliang's life has been full of storms, and she knows how to take steps at every step, and also knows how to strike first, so she can take the lead, and there is nothing wrong with it.

Xi Guang knows that some things will never get better, and staying there will be a permanent dark wound.

Zheng Mingming waved his hand in front of Xiguang, bringing her back to her senses, "Hey! Hey! Xiguang, are you ready?"

Xi Guang withdrew her thoughts, opened the script to the designated page, and said, "Let's begin."

The role played by Zheng Mingming is Zhou Ping in "Thunderstorm". He has a lot of lines, especially the relationship with his stepmother Fanyi, which is intricate.It is very difficult to express the deformed love between mother and child through oral language.

Xiguang cooperates with Zheng Mingming and reads Fanyi's lines.

Xi Guang (Fan Yi): "I hope you are still as sincere as you used to be. It is best not to imitate the cynical attitude of ordinary young people today. You know that I am suffering without you in front of me."

Zheng Mingming (Zhou Ping): "So I'm leaving. Don't ask us to meet each other, remind each other of the things we regret the most."

……

Xiguang (Fanyi): "You owe me a debt, and you are responsible to me; you can't see the new world and run away alone."

Zheng Mingming (Zhou Ping): "I think the words you use are simply terrifying..."

After half an hour, my mouth was dry.

"I'm dying of thirst." Xi Guang said.

Zheng Mingming threw the script and dragged her up from the ground, "Come on, let's go eat something!" The two walked to the small coffee shop next to the teaching building according to the principle of proximity.

Zheng Mingming helped Xiguang order a cup of strawberry ice cream and two Portuguese egg tarts, and criticized her: "I can only stop here today, I think you are absent-minded, reading a line is like a junior high school student reciting a letter of repentance under the national flag, without true feelings Honestly, it’s not impressive at all.”

Xi Guang said helplessly: "I have already given away all the feelings of my previous life, what do you want from me?"

Zheng Mingming said: "Maybe you were with wood in your previous life."

Xi Guang yawned and said, "That's right, even my grandmother said I was dull by nature."

Zheng Mingming said with emotion: "Yes, you are usually in a daze, and only when you hear Gu Xiaocao's name will your eyes light up, your hormones will surge, and your emotions and desires will be aroused."

Xi Guang pressed his forehead and asked: "Mingming, why don't you leave Gu Xiaocao in ten sentences? Sometimes I have to wonder if you are interested in him."

"Hahaha," Zheng Mingming laughed, and a few forehead lines appeared on his forehead, "Lu Xiguang, if I'm interested in Gu Xiaocao, can it be your turn?"

Xiguang: "..."

The waiter handed over the brown glass bowl containing the ice cream, Xi Guang took it, paused, and put his fingers on the cold edge of the bowl.

The wall in front of him was covered with white tiles, which were as bright as a mirror, clearly reflecting the two figures passing by the store entrance.Boys have a handsome silhouette, simple shirts and slacks.The girl was wearing a pair of big sunglasses, lightly holding his arm, looking up and talking to him with a smile.

——Yongshu and Xie Nuo.

"Xi Guang, why don't you try ice cream?" Zheng Mingming asked her, "Do you think it tastes bad? Do you want to order something else?"

"No, I forgot to eat." Xi Guang said.

Zheng Mingming beat his chest and stamped his feet, rolled his eyes and said, "I really admire you. I just joked that I was interested in Gu Xiaocao, so you don't have to be so depressed, right? You are so sad that you can't eat?"

Xiguang laughed silently.

Zheng Mingming was taken aback, "Why are your eyes red?"

Xi Guang still smiled and said, "The wind is too strong."

"Damn it, there's no wind here." Zheng Mingming dismantled her.

Xiguang's eyes turned redder.

Zheng Mingming quickly assured her: "Did I say something wrong again? OK, I won't say anything."

Xi Guang sniffed and said with a smile, "You should have shut up a long time ago."

(End of this chapter)