I'm crazy

Chapter 517 Diary
December 12, snow

Three days have passed.

I feel like three years have passed.

I'm really not exaggerating.

I used to scoff at the saying that not seeing each other every day is like three autumns, but I didn't believe it.

But now all my behaviors are self-destructing my previous views.

The taste of missing is not all sweet.

There is also a little bit of bitterness in it, but the bitterness is only a little bit, and it is very short-lived, followed by sweetness.

I would love to call her, but sadly I can't.

We had just met after all.

I don't want to appear too frivolous in front of her.

In the face of everything about her, I am extremely cautious, for fear of making the slightest mistake.

Maybe it was because I looked at my phone too frequently, so my mother also looked at it and asked softly what was going on.

I didn't answer, just took it with me.

My mother didn't ask any more, she has always been gentle and respectful to me.

I don't want to share her with anyone.

I sighed low.

I seem to be getting more and more timid.

December 1, snow

Today is New Year's Day.

I flipped my phone on and off, not thinking about the meeting at all.

I also saw the surprised eyes of the managers and executives sitting below, but I didn't care.

It's not an important meeting after all.

Besides, my ability to double-task is pretty good.

In this way, I have been hesitating, hesitating until the end of the meeting.

I ended up sending the message anyway.

I have been talking for a long time.

I just thought about that short sentence for more than half an hour.

Once again, I regret that I didn't study Chinese in college, otherwise why would I be in such embarrassment.

But when I thought about it again, I felt that even if I had learned Chinese at the beginning, I might not be of much use when facing her.

I kept looking at my phone after the text message was sent.

I don't want to miss a second of her news.

I know how long it has passed, but I just feel that my heart can't calm down.

All my energy-raising efforts over the past few years have been in vain.

A message came, and I hurriedly opened it.

I don't know how to describe my mood at that moment.

It seems that the flowers that have been buried under the ice sheet for thousands of years suddenly came out and bloomed quietly.

She accepted my invitation.

I hurriedly responded to the message, and then hurried out of the office with the car keys.

My first day of the year was so lucky.

I drove the car to her door. She lived in a quiet Chinese-style villa area.

The greenery is very good, the environment is quiet and antique, which is her favorite style.

I didn't wait long, but she came out in a few minutes, which happened to be the time we agreed upon.

I asked her gently where she wanted to go.

Sitting on the co-pilot, she closed her eyes slightly and said casually that it was up to me to decide.

Her spirits are not very good.

Perhaps it should be said that she has always looked so lazy, lazy and indifferent, and doesn't care about anything.

I adjusted the temperature in the car to the most suitable one, and played a piece of pure music, which was the gentle and pleasant natural sound of the forest and ocean waves.

She leaned on the car seat and closed her eyes, as if she had fallen asleep.

I didn't disturb her aloud.

She said let me decide, and I knew she was too lazy to care.

Naturally, I won't take her casually.

I did my homework in advance and asked the secretary to list the restaurants with a suitable and delicious journey, including century-old crafts in deep alleys, and star-rated restaurants in the center of shopping malls.

I have eaten it in my family, and I have confirmed that it tastes delicious.

When I think about it carefully, she should like the quietness and safety in the ancient dark alley.

Then I drove to the store that had been open for decades.

The store is in an alley, so cars cannot enter it.

Fortunately, I still have some money. I bought a house next to the alley after eating the food in this store. I can just put my car in the house, and I don’t need to make her wait for me to find a parking space.

She and I got out of the car and walked for 3 minutes to the store.

The name of the store is very common, it is called "Food House". Standing outside the store, you can smell the delicious food.

I saw a little interest in her.

I was secretly happy.

She and I entered the store. Although the store is not as bright and luxurious as a star-rated restaurant, it is also very clean.

After ordering, she smiled and said, I can't see that you are also a person who enjoys life.

I answer softly.

In fact, no, I didn't pay much attention to appetite before.

Any food really doesn't make a difference in my opinion.

Maybe it's also because the food is not bad all the time.

I also fell in love with food after I got to know her, and I liked the process of looking for food and tasting food.

I find that good food really brings a sense of joy.

But I understand that the biggest reason is that I think about her and look forward to being with her in the process of looking for delicious food and tasting delicious food, so I feel so much happiness.

We chatted briefly.

Talk about any topic.

She is extremely casual, and usually says whatever comes to her mind.

Once again, I am glad that my reading volume is not bad, and I can pick up on her topic.

I'll also mention a few things about myself.

She looked lazy and arrogant, but I knew she was listening.

I gradually became more and more aware of her character.

After all, if she really didn't like to hear what the other party said, she wouldn't sit with the other party at all.

I talked to her about some business stuff.

I've been a little confused lately.

She solved my problem in a few words.

She is extremely good, no, maybe it can't be described by these two words at all.

She is omnipotent.

I found that there is really nothing that can bother her.

No matter at any time, she is always calm and lazy.

This is something revealed from the bones brought about by great strength.

When I confront her, it is never just as a person who admires her.

I looked up to her and surrendered to her.

But I don't feel inferior.

It can be said that others cannot understand.

My emotions are pure.

Pious and pure, calm and hot.

The atmosphere between us was very peaceful and indifferent, without the slightest sense of awkwardness and ambiguity when single men and women are together.

I'm glad I didn't make her uncomfortable.

The food is ready.

I observed her demeanor and found her liking, she raised the corner of her mouth and said lightly, yes.

I was as happy as if I had been praised.

After eating, I drove to another place again.

I didn't choose any project like watching a movie amusement park, I believe she didn't like it very much.

We went to a concert.

It is a concert of renowned musicians in the industry, not only foreign instruments, but also domestic ones.

At the concert, she was sitting on a chair, watching the performance on the stage with her black eyes lazily.

Don't say how much I like it, but I don't hate it anyway.

I quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

I found out that she has very few hobbies.

And these hobbies are also dispensable.

It's like fine dining.

She likes it, but it's not a big deal if she doesn't.

To her, it seems that the existence of all things is dispensable, and it doesn't surprise the slightest wave in her eyes.

I walked out with her after the recital.

There were tiny snowflakes fluttering in the air and gently falling on her black hair, as if they were attached to her and were reluctant to leave.

She was still dressed very thinly.

When I came out, I took a piece of clothing on purpose, so I naturally wouldn't put it on her directly.

Because we may now be defined as friends.

And friends are not for that.

I asked her if she was cold, she shook her head lightly, and I didn't speak again.

Then we went to the bookstore and she bought some books, which I found out were novels.

It turns out that she also likes to read novels.

Then I found another restaurant for dinner, and I sent her home.

Unexpectedly, she invited me in to sit down.

I naturally complied.

I would not and would not refuse any of her requests.

There was nothing to do after entering.

She just poured me a cup of tea, and I took a sip of the blue-blue tea with a hint of white mist.

I swear I'm not exaggerating.

This is truly the best tea I've ever had.

I also like the tea ceremony, and there are naturally many top-quality teas at home, but I have never drunk such a good tea.

After I finished drinking this cup of tea, she stood up and said lazily, cleaning the cup, and then you can go.

I smiled.

She is really a good-natured and unrestrained person.

Like the starlight hanging high in the night, like the unfettered breeze.

She has a wanton, free and easy that the world doesn't have.

No trade-offs, no tact.

The end is a willful and casual romantic atmosphere.

I carefully cleaned the cup, which I knew was worth a lot at a glance, then carefully closed the door and drove away.

Along the way, my mood is satisfied and joyful.

September 2, sunny

I don't seem to have written down my thoughts seriously.

I don't think there's anything wrong with my behavior.

I also really hate the so-called "dog licking" in modern society.

If you like someone, don't you have to take action?

Why is there such an ugly vocabulary?

I am an adult, and all my actions exist on a voluntary basis.

No one has ever pushed me.

Besides, strictly speaking, I think that I am actually very selfish.

Because I took the initiative to approach her, take the initiative to know her, and take the initiative to express that I want to be friends with her.

From another perspective, all my actions are to make myself happy and meet my own needs.

I am perfecting myself.

And how innocent is the other party?

She has no such obligation, nor should she come to satisfy my own selfishness.

I admit my selfishness.

So I don't understand the so-called "dog licking" even more.

Feelings are one's own business, and all actions taken in feelings are voluntary and active, so naturally one has to bear the consequences.

If the other party refuses to agree, he will laugh at himself and say that he is a dog licker.

Not only did he insult the other party, but he also underestimated himself and his feelings.

What's more, if the other party refuses to agree, he will speak ill of the other party everywhere, which is even more distasteful to the extreme.

I like her, but I also know that there is no possibility from beginning to end.

So I want to get to know her and be a friend of a gentleman.

This is naturally mixed with my selfishness.

I hope that she will not regret knowing me, and that she will still remember my existence when she thinks of the word friend. This is all my selfishness.

October 2, overcast

I saw the words love at first sight today.

And there are many people who say that love at first sight is just love at first sight.

I disagree.

But do not know how to refute.

I can't seem to use myself as an example.

Because she is very good-looking, the only good-looking in the world.

So my example doesn't seem to work.

But I still want to say something.

I don't think I fell in love with her because of her looks.

When I saw her for the first time, what I noticed was not her appearance, but her demeanor, that abyss sinking into the sea, ethereal and proud.

As for her appearance, to be honest, I only saw it seriously later.

But I also understand people who make other remarks.

After all, love at first sight sounds beautiful, but when you think about it carefully, there is really no basis, just like the moon in the mirror in the water.

The only thing that can be relied on is indeed appearance.

It's also reasonable to say that it's just because of sex.

But I know I can't.

September 2, sunny

Many days have passed in the past year, and today I want to write about this year's year.

In fact, there is nothing to write about the process.

After all, it's been like this every year since I grew up, and I don't have the expectations and longings I had when I was a child about the New Year.

Especially after the age of 20, various relatives have to ask some commonplace and boring questions every Chinese New Year.

It's annoying.

Fortunately, the relatives in my family still have a sense of proportion. I am also "in charge of the power alone" now. They are still more afraid of me and dare not ask me these annoying questions.

I am looking forward to this year.

Because there are people to look forward to.

I control the rhythm, and I don't look for her often, for fear that she will find it troublesome.

But slowly getting to know her better.

She lives alone and has no relatives.

Naturally, I don't have any so-called sympathy.

She doesn't need to.

And that's offensive.

In this world, not everyone needs relatives and friends, some people like to be alone.

Respect is the most basic truth.

I want to invite her to my home for the New Year.

But she refused, and I thought in a blink of an eye that she didn't like excitement, and then thought that if she came to my house, she would definitely receive some stares, even if there was no malice, it would not be a pleasant thing.

In this way, I bought some things on New Year's Eve and brought them to her home.

My culinary skills have improved a lot. Although it is not as good as a great chef, it is still in the range of delicious food.

What I prepared was the simplest hot pot, so I had a warm hot pot meal with her on the [-]th night.

Then I clean up and play games with her.

My operation, sucks, I'm a little embarrassed.

It's the level where I need her to save me all the time.

But she is very good at playing games, even with me as a game killer, she can win.

I was a little embarrassed after it was over, but she smiled lazily and said with great interest, it was very interesting.

I understand what she said, she has been playing alone all the time and has been winning all the time, but in fact it is very boring and has no technical content.

But with me as a fool, it is rare to increase the difficulty a little bit, and I can play more happily.

I am no longer embarrassed, and I am a little happy that I can use it a little bit.

There's a reason why I don't work well.

I have been learning all kinds of homework since I was a child. I have never played with these things that many children have played with. My childhood was actually very boring.

This is a rare experience for me.

Falling in love with her is really the luckiest thing in my life.

(End of this chapter)