I'm crazy

Chapter 515 Diary
September 9, sunny

Perhaps the sun in the sky also indicates the next unstoppable destiny.

I met a guy on this day.

Forgive my poor language for not being able to tell her, and forgive my clumsy hands for not being able to describe her.

I regret not studying languages ​​or art in college so I could write or draw her.

But thinking about it carefully, this is an offense to her.

I can't offend her without her permission.

October 9, overcast

The foggy and dark weather is not beautiful at all. Originally, I like to watch this kind of weather because I can stay at home all day.

But now I have changed.

I waited all day at the restaurant yesterday and didn't see her again.

I'm not in such a good mood.

I admit, I was thinking a little too much.

Fate can be met but not sought.

Obviously I can hit the nail on the head when it comes to other people's problems, but I am so stupid when it comes to myself.

September 9, sunny

I didn't see her.

I regret.

I should have walked up to her seriously and gentlemanly at the first time, and introduced myself to her solemnly and reverently, maybe I could get a contact.

May 9, rain

Naturally, I am naturally unworthy of her.

I knew it the first time I saw her.

Because I saw glaciers and abysses in her eyes, which were beyond my reach.

Maybe I don't believe it myself, but God can testify that I really think so.

I don't have any innocent ideas, I just want to know her, that's all.

Although I don't believe in God, please believe in my seriousness and earnestness.

I don't like to joke around.

September 9, sunny

From a secular woman's point of view, she is not perfect.

But I would say that this view is bullshit.

Sorry, it's rare that I didn't control my emotions. After writing this diary, I have to practice calligraphy quietly.

Why do you say that?

Because the so-called secular views are completely the shackles that bind women.

It says women should be thin because thin looks good.

It says that women should be white, because white looks good.

It says that women should be virtuous and take care of their families.

It says that women should be gentle and virtuous.

It says all kinds of requirements.

In fact, the essence is restriction and discrimination.

They are all formulating what they think the rules are with aloof looking up.

I certainly don't agree with these farts.

Sorry again.

She cannot be described in any words. Even when I saw her, I felt from the bottom of my heart that she should not appear in this world.

Perhaps it should be said that she does not belong to this world.

She is like a god who occasionally comes to play in the mortal world, and wherever her eyes go, she is full of laziness and indifference.

Trust me, I'm not exaggerating, and I'm not losing my mind.

Although she is perfect in my eyes.

I surrender to her arrogance.

October 9, overcast

Of course I know I've only seen her once.

I don't have any disease, and it's not my imagination.

Please believe that such a person really exists in this world.

Seeing her, you feel like you've seen a god.

I hope to see her again, maybe the second time I will have the courage to go up to her and introduce myself.

I want to know her.

In fact, I can find her in some ways. After all, I am fortunate to be sheltered by my parents, so I still have some ability.

But I didn't do that.

I don't want to offend her.

I'm serious.

Undoubtedly earnest.

October 9, overcast

I don't really know how to explain my feelings.

Because I don't have those hot, possessive, intense... emotions.

I am very calm.

Not even my heart was beating faster.

I once wondered if I had mistaken my heart.

But it doesn't.

Because of the existence of missing, I still want to know her very much.

Intense, but at the same time, calming.

Sound contradictory?

But it's good for me to understand.

September 9, sunny

It was a rare sunny day and I was pruning my roses, which are doing well, grown by myself.

I don't like anyone touching my stuff.

The same is true of roses.

I'd rather have every year's roses fall to the ground than give them to anyone.

But when I was pruning the roses, looking at these beautiful roses, I wanted to give them all to her.

It's not that I don't know what roses represent, but I really don't have that meaning.

I just wanted to give them to her, that's all.

But my wish may not come true for a while, or even forever.

Because I still haven't seen her again.

September 9, sunny

I found the most beautiful rose, and I decided to make it an eternal flower.

I deliberately found a master to learn how to make eternal flowers. It may take a lot of time. I am looking forward to its final appearance.

September 10, sunny

Preserved flowers are finally ready.

very nice.

Maybe I also have a lot of talent in manual work?

Work has been very busy recently, because there are many companies in my family, and they were all handed over to me at once.

I don't like it, but I need to do it.

Maybe I should start cultivating an heir from now on. Fortunately, there are many children in the family, so I can slowly observe.

September 10, sunny

Tonight's night is extraordinarily dark, but the stars dotted in it are extraordinarily bright and beautiful.

I looked at the night and suddenly thought of that poem.

"Thousands of miles share beauty."

Maybe someone is watching the moon, the scene, and the night with me.

Or maybe she...

Thinking of this, I subconsciously glanced at my reflection on the glass window.

Sure enough, the corners of his mouth curled up a little.

I feel very happy.

Just such a simple thing makes me feel joyful and fulfilled.

May 10, rain

Originally, I could not go out.

But because a subordinate made a mistake that couldn't be solved, I had to go to the company.

I'm not in a good mood.

I don't like people and things that disrupt my plans.

Except she is the only exception.

I can be sure.

It took a while to fix the bug, and I unbuttoned, rolled up my sleeves and started brewing.

I fell in love with winemaking three years ago.

But I don't drink alcohol myself, and certainly don't smoke.

I just recently made some wine and sealed it in the cellar.

It suddenly occurred to me that maybe she would like wine, not necessarily.

I found that I seemed to think of her in everything I did.

I shook my head and smiled helplessly.

Then focus on it.

September 10, sunny

A paradise appeared in my heart.

It was quiet and peaceful, beautiful and joyful.

May 10, rain

I am going on a business trip tomorrow.

The place to go is relatively far away, and I should not see her even more.

I asked the secretary what delicious food was available in the place where I was going on a business trip, and the secretary looked at me in surprise.

I don't understand.

What's so surprising about that?
October 10, overcast

I bought a lot of local things, which are said to be delicious.

I looked at the several large bags of food in the living room, and I rarely had a headache.

subconscious behavior.

So now I don't know what to do.

I seem to have lost my IQ a bit.

But I am very happy.

I laughed again.

(End of this chapter)