in love

Chapter 7 The Secret That Can't Be Said
In his heart... what is she?
For a long time, Gu Zeyu thought that it would not be Yan Qing who was struggling with this problem, but only himself... In her heart, what is he?
If there is any difficulty or concern, he will never take the initiative to let him know.He was kind to her, and he didn't dare to be too ostentatious and obvious, and he didn't even dare to let her know!Because she will pay back the full amount, and if she can't pay it back, she will mercilessly refuse.

When she is happy, she will give you a smiling face, and when she is unhappy, she will poke at the heart of your heart.

Many times, Yan Qing was so cold that he couldn't help asking himself... After all, has he ever been in her heart?Even if it's just for a moment, such a small area!

But he happens to be a bitch.She smiled at him and said a few words of concern to him, and he felt that the whole world was bright.Even if this woman really stabbed him with a knife, as long as she shed a few tears later, even if there is such a little bit of distress and concern, he would feel that even if she really died, it would be worth it!

He remembered that Han Yufeng said more than once: "Gu Zeyu, you are crazy!"

Yes, he thought he was crazy.But what can he do, maybe since he met that girl named Yan Qing a long, long time ago, everything has been decided...

Gu Zeyu has a secret.A secret that he hides in the deepest and softest place in his heart, and he absolutely does not want to share it with anyone.

It was about his cleanest and dearest little Bailian.

Gu Zeyu is actually a person with extremely boring hobbies.

Before meeting Yan Qing, there were basically only two joys in his life... making money, making a lot of money.Although he never lacked that thing.And the other one is mountain climbing, on the most difficult and dangerous snow.

However, the winter four years ago, one of his few hobbies, almost cost him his life.But it also allowed him to meet the most beautiful little Bailian in his life.

In the winter of that year, the weather seemed to be extraordinarily cold.After several consecutive heavy snowfalls, the whole world seems to be white as far as the eye can see.

Gu Zeyu took care of the company's business and just had a few days to spare.Sitting in the hotel, looking at the silver-clad world outside the window, my whole heart suddenly flew up, so I immediately packed my bags, booked the nearest flight ticket, and went to Sichuan.

Gongga Snow Mountain is known as the "King of Shu Mountain". Gu Zeyu has been to it several times before, but unfortunately it is not in winter every time.

He has been to almost all the open attractions and interesting places nearby, so he joined up with a few young angry youths he met halfway, and went to explore the restricted area together.

It's just that no one thought that that day, God probably felt upset after losing the Landlord, and played a trick on everyone.When a group of people went out in the morning, the sky was still sunny, but not long after they went out, the weather turned a little cloudy.

At that time, two less courageous people proposed to go back the same way and come back at another time.But Gu Zeyu relied on his rich experience and well-equipped equipment, so he didn't listen to the advice.His navigation and wilderness survival equipment are from the most cutting-edge inside the army, and his special mobile phone and mountaineering watch and watch are equipped with emergency call devices and tracking and positioning systems.Even if you encounter something, you will send out a distress message at the first time and be found.

Gu Zeyu is a born leader with an innate and convincing charm.

Seeing his fearless look, the rest of the people followed him into the mountains.

But in real life, this is often the case... Those who drown are those who can swim, and those who are unlucky are those who are daring and unbelieving!
As their footprints deepened, the weather got worse.

The temperature is dropping little by little, and there are scattered snowflakes in the sky.The white fog gradually thickened, and finally wrapped everything around.When the visibility was at its lowest, even with the searchlights on, it was only a little over one meter.

Gu Zeyu's equipment is indeed top-notch, and there are still no quality problems under such circumstances.But when modern civilization is separated from human society, it is really worth studying how much it can play.

With blurred vision and difficulty walking, a group of people finally lost their way in the mountains.

Gu Zeyu was also a little panicked at this time, but years of killing decisions in the mall and rich field experience kept him calm.He activated the emergency system on his mobile phone, and made the most accurate judgment at the first time... Find the nearest place suitable for shelter and rest, stop immediately, and wait for rescue.

But it just so happens that "blessings never come singly, misfortunes never come singly", when the group of people were walking up a steep slope, a young cynic next to Gu Zeyu slipped and fell to the ground and rolled down the slope .

At the same time, almost instinctively, Gu Zeyu grabbed his arm.He took two steps forward, but when he was about to pull someone up, he didn't want to step on a rock.Then the stone loosened, and before everyone had time to save them, the two rolled down the slope together.

Gu Zeyu hit his head while falling and fell into a coma.When he woke up, he was rescued by his companions and taken to a dry cave.

The little cynic who fell together injured his leg and fractured his tibia.Gu Zeyu suffered soft tissue bruises on his hands and face, and seemed to have a slight concussion.

The cave is not big, besides them, there is another group of people.It is said that they are serious tourists who seem to have bought a fake travel guide, which is why they got lost.

There were six people in that group, a family of three, a young couple, and a girl who looked like a college student.Compared to the restlessness of others, she was obviously too calm and quiet.Sitting alone in a corner leaning on the stone wall, with a notebook spread on his propped up knees, he was writing something seriously with his head down.

She was dressed in white, down jacket, jeans, and suede cotton boots. Many places on her body had been rubbed so that the color could not be seen.But Gu Zeyu looked at her, but he didn't feel dirty.At that time, he thought, it was probably the girl's breath that was clean.So pure and beautiful, so spotless.It's like the purest and most beautiful lotus in the pond.

Gu Zeyu was a little curious, what was she writing under such circumstances?He kept looking at her without a trace.

After a while, the girl finished writing, closed the book and stuffed it into her backpack.She happened to be facing him, and the moment she raised her head, Gu Zeyu felt his heart suddenly become peaceful, and then there were only four words left in his mind... Time is quiet.

Maybe there is probably such a person in this world who can make another person's heart feel peaceful and peaceful.

However, Gu Zeyu didn't think too much about it at the time.

He has been in the intriguing Vanity Fair for too long, and his heart has become muddy and numb.He didn't know if it was her clear and quiet that attracted him, but he knew that he had an urge to get close to her and understand her.Even if it's just talking to her, chatting is fine.

He walked slowly to the girl's side and sat down, took out two bottles of energy drinks from his backpack and handed one of them to her.She didn't accept it, didn't say "thank you" but didn't get up and leave right away.She only turned her head and glanced at him, then continued to look ahead in a daze.

But her intuition gave Gu Zeyu an affirmative answer...she didn't reject him.

The two were so close that he could smell the fragrance of her shampoo clearly just by breathing hard.This made him uncontrollably, a little relaxed and happy.

Gu Zeyu unscrewed the drink bottle, raised his head and took a sip, but was accidentally choked and coughed violently.

He hastily and painfully patted his chest to breathe, and when he was infinitely annoyed, a half-pack of tissues suddenly appeared in front of him.Gu Zeyu was slightly surprised, and while reaching out to take the tissue, he noticed that she had frostbite on almost every finger.The severity varies, some are red and swollen, and some have scabs.So he subconsciously blurted out: "Why are your hands so frozen?" His tone was very aggressive, and even vaguely carried some anger that he himself hadn't noticed.

The girl was taken aback, and frowned her beautiful eyebrows, but her tone was still calm and indifferent: "It's cold, so it's frozen like this!"

Gu Zeyu also realized that he was reckless, he gave a dry laugh apologetically, and abruptly changed the subject: "My name is Gu Zeyu, what about you?"

"Yan Qing."

"Yan...Qing..." Gu Zeyu repeated it gently, and there seemed to be an indescribable lingering feeling in his heart between his lips and teeth, "Do you have any explanation?"

"Explanation?" Yan Qing finally turned his head and gave him a straight look. The doubtful look in his big black eyes was really cute, "What explanation?"

"Yeah. For example, water gathers to form a lake for me. 'Yu' means territory, which means broad. My parents gave me this name basically because they hope that I will be lucky and have a big heart!"

"Oh, that's it!" Yan Qing nodded, her eyebrows frowned and she began to think seriously, "My mother chose my name. Later, I seemed to overhear my father mentioning it... It seems that my mother was obsessed with it when she was pregnant. Romance novels, I hope I can find a man like the hero in the story in the future. Yan Qing...romance probably means this!"

"Uh..." How could there be such convulsive parents?Gu Zeyu choked, and was quite shocked by the argument, "Your father actually agrees? Is it true?!"

"Hehe..." Yan Qing suddenly laughed briskly, looked at him with contempt and teased, "Of course it's fake! The most popular thing in those days was foreign literature, how could there be so many romance novels to read?" ! Just believe it!”

Gu Zeyu shook his head and laughed too.This girl can be so direct and pure even in playing tricks.

The atmosphere became more relaxed in this way, and the two of them chatted about some meaningless topics.Later, Gu Zeyu looked at the ballpoint pen she had been playing with, and finally asked the doubt just now: "I saw you writing something just now. Can you tell me what you are writing? Diary? Or experience in distress?"

Yan Qing's smile froze for a moment, and he didn't speak for a long time.

Gu Zeyu scolded herself secretly, thinking about how to heat up the atmosphere, but she opened her mouth softly, and gave him a surprising answer...

"A will. I'm writing a will."

Gu Zeyu's mind went blank for a moment, then he shook his shoulders and couldn't help laughing: "Little sister, we just got lost in the fog in the mountains. It wasn't an avalanche and earthquake, the rescue team couldn't get in. As long as we slow down Just wait and see, as for making a will?"

"What if there is no rescue? Or...they came too late and couldn't wait?"

"Heh..." Gu Zeyu laughed again, and the laughter was unconsciously tinged with conceit and contempt.The emergency signal he sent was answered, and even if there was no official news, rescuers would arrive as soon as possible.

Gu Zeyu wanted to say, "It's impossible." But when he met Shang Yanqing's crystal-clear eyes, all his sense of superiority and arrogance disappeared.It seemed that these things would look mundane in front of her, so she changed her words: "It's okay, even if there is no rescue. When the sun rises tomorrow and the fog clears, it is not impossible for us to touch it back."

Yan Qing looked at him for a moment, as if thinking about something: "The weather forecast seems to say that there will be no sunny days in the next week."

Gu Zeyu was completely speechless this time, and shook his head amusedly after a long time: "Beauty, do you read too many romance novels, and you always think that you can meet some life-shattering events, which are considered romantic and perfect!"

Yan Qing slowly looked away, then lowered her head and stopped talking.She is not looking forward to the romance of life and death, but has just experienced the betrayal of her lover and best friend, and the blow of her best friend's schizophrenia.She just learned to be prepared for the worst changes at any moment.

And her silence made Gu Zeyu's heart ache for no reason.In a daze, he read from her side face the sadness that was so thick that it could not be dispelled.

He comforted softly: "It's okay. Believe me, someone will come to save us!" He held her cold and swollen hand mysteriously, as if he wanted to pass his body temperature and strength to her.

The hand she held froze for a moment, and then she shook him lightly, out of gratitude or because people become emotional when they are in danger.

It was at that moment that he made a decision based on the deepest feeling in his heart... He wanted her, and then he sheltered her under his wings, loving and pampering her, so that she would not be sad at all.

Time passed little by little.

In order to avoid frostbite or even freeze to death after falling asleep due to exhaustion, all the people gathered together and started chatting with each other to get rid of sleepiness.

But maybe because of the concussion, Gu Zeyu felt a dull pain in his head, and his vision became more and more blurred.Finally, I couldn't help it anymore, and closed my eyes in a daze.

At two o'clock in the morning, rescuers finally arrived at the cave where everyone was staying.And together with the rescue team, Gu Zeyu's third uncle's secretary and two security guards also fell from the sky.

The third uncle of the Gu family happened to be in Sichuan to attend the meeting.I heard that Gu Zeyu was also in Sichuan, so I wanted to make an appointment before leaving so that the uncle and nephew could have a good talk.As a result, this contact not only failed to find anyone, but also got the news that he was in danger while climbing the mountain.Angry, anxious and worried, he immediately sent his secretary and guards into the mountains with the rescue team.

The rescue operation was carried out in an orderly manner, and everyone was rescued from the mountain and moved to a nearby safe place.

At this time, Gu Zeyu was already unconscious, and only snorted when Yan Qing handed him over to his third uncle's secretary, and then fell into a coma.

Gu Zeyu was rushed to the military hospital.After that, because of congestion in the area of ​​responsibility of the brain, he was issued three critical illness notices in a row.When he woke up again, it was already 24 hours later.

And the girl he was thinking of had long since disappeared and was nowhere to be found.During that period of time, he had been persistently sending people to find her whereabouts, but ultimately to no avail.

Later, as time passed, Gu Zeyu thought that he would soon forget that brief encounter.But when he dreams back at midnight or when he is exhausted, the pure and beautiful little white lotus will always appear in his mind unconsciously.

Later, he almost thought it was just a dream, when he met her in a dream, Yan Qing suddenly appeared again.It turned out that she was in the same city as him, and it turned out that she was so close to him.

It was a business reception for the New Year in T City. Although it was just a glimpse, he recognized her immediately. He could almost hear his heart beating.

She wore a conservative little black dress that day, and she was even thinner than when they first met.He followed closely behind the leader, a little cautious.But he felt that she was more beautiful and dazzling than any of the ladies or stars present.

For the whole night afterwards, his mind and eyes never moved away from her.

Taking advantage of her going to the bathroom alone, he hastily followed her out, trying to pretend that he met her by chance in the corridor.However, she was like a stranger, she just nodded politely when she met his eyes, and then passed by without hesitation, not even giving him another look.

At that moment, Gu Zeyu suddenly felt unprecedented loss and resentment.For the first time in his life, he was completely ignored.

She doesn't remember him anymore, and there is not even a trace of him in her memory.But he missed her so much for two years. After missing her for two years, his heart began to ache when he missed him.

Gu Zeyu wanted to rush up to stop her, ask her "how could he just forget him like that", and even hug her and kiss her.But he was afraid of scaring her, and even more afraid of arousing her resentment.So in the end, all he could do was stand motionless and clenched his fists tightly.

After the banquet that day, he did the most despicable thing in his life... He investigated her current situation and address as quickly as possible, and followed her for a long time.

Until that day, she was forcibly taken to a nightclub to celebrate her colleague's birthday, and was pestered by several people.He rescued her, sent her home, took her emotionally abnormal to the bar, and watched her get drunk.

At that time, he thought, the two of them could finally have a good start.But I never expected that things would develop in another direction.It was not his intention to have that kind of relationship with her so soon.But his involuntary feeling and uncertainty finally prevailed.

The moment the two were united, he felt a kind of satisfaction and joy that he had never had before.Even though she murmured another man's name over and over again, which made him extremely sad, he couldn't resist that joy.

She is his now, and she is connected with him with the most intimate relationship, and she can't escape in this life.Even if there is another one in her heart, he has a lifetime to drive that person out and let himself fill her heart.

He was full of joy and planned to establish a relationship with her, but he never thought that the woman would leave him alone the next day without saying a word, and leave again...

Ever since he met Yan Qing, Gu Zeyu would often ask himself this question... Did he owe her in his previous life, so he came to pay it back in this life!
He has lived for more than [-] years, and almost all his thoughts, grievances, heartaches, sense of loss and frustration have been dedicated to Miss Yan Qing.

After that night of intimacy, the two returned to their previous patterns.

She pretended it was a dream, that nothing had happened.And he, because he was afraid of being too urgent and self-defeating, had to continue to work underground.Only this time, Gu Zeyu began to feel restless and restless.

Finally, his patience was completely exhausted, and he decided not to hide in the dark anymore.He wants to have a complete showdown with her, he can't bear this kind of life like a thief, invisible and intangible anymore!

However, just when Gu Zeyu was about to ask Yan Qing out to have a frank and honest talk, an accident happened...

At that time, Yan Qing's qualifications were still relatively young, and she had just left the state of being a second-hand employee in the company she was working for, and began to contact clients and design projects independently.However, her first client after officially entering the workplace turned out to be someone with a bad personality.

The boss of a certain culture company, with a prominent family background, saw Yan Qing's youthful beauty and made a wrong idea.After being politely rejected, he stalked him endlessly under the pretense of pursuing him.In fact, that guy can't be said to be a particularly rare top product. Although he is a bit older and has been married twice, he can be regarded as a single person after all, and he looks good.

At that time, Zuo Sha's condition in the nursing home was getting worse, and Yan Qing needed a lot of money to pay her medical expenses.If this case is completed, she will have a considerable performance commission.Moreover, it was the first case she took charge of independently after joining the company. Even if she put aside her interests, she always felt that it was special.So no matter how bored she was, she had to grit her teeth and persevere.

But when the case was about to end, the man somehow found out about Zuo Sha's existence.

He asked Yan Qing out in the name of revising the design plan, and threatened and lured her.He said, "If you follow him, your friend's medical expenses are trivial." He also asked Yan Qing to set his own conditions, as long as they were not excessive, he would satisfy them.He also threatened that, with his connections, if she dared to refuse, he would leave Zuo Sha without medical treatment, and make Yan Qing unable to find a job cleaning toilets in T City.

Yan Qing was so angry that he was trembling at the time, thinking that he would smash the cup in front of him on his dog's head.But she was quite calm, she just sneered and wrapped herself up, gritted her teeth and said "garbage", then turned and left the box.

But it never occurred to him that the man became angry and chased him out.

She didn't want to make things big in public, so she quickened her pace and wanted to leave quickly.But he grabbed her and said a lot of nonsensical and extremely ugly things.

Yan Qing had never been a good-tempered person, so he was so angry that he swung the purse in his hand to hit someone.But someone beside her moved faster than her.

A tall man approached her with a strong wind.Before she could clearly see how he moved, the person who was pulling her was already screaming and lying on the ground one meter away.

She had never seen a man who could burst out with such cold evil spirit.

Yan Qing was frightened and froze on the spot, when he came back to his senses, the people on the ground didn't even have the strength to scream.She was afraid of killing someone, so she hurried up to stop him, but the one who didn't want to hit someone was even more arrogant, grabbed her arm, and pulled her into his arms.

Then he pointed at the person moaning in pain on the ground, and warned with a cold face: "Next time you go out, put your eyes on me, you dare to touch my woman. If you don't agree, come and challenge me! I, Gu Zeyu, am always here!" After finishing speaking , leaving behind a crowd of stunned people, he dragged Yan Qing away.

Yan Qing hadn't turned the corner from the previous question, but was shocked by his last sentence: "We?" She pointed her slender finger to her nose, her eyes were full of astonishment and puzzlement, "What's wrong with the two of us!?"

"What do you think?" Gu Zeyu asked with a chuckle, with a hint of danger in his expression, "Don't say you don't remember who I am?"

again?
Yan Qing grasped this word sensitively.However, before he had time to doubt, he heard Gu Zeyu speak again: "That night..."

"Stop talking!" She interrupted him shrillly in embarrassment, feeling the blood all over her body rushing to her face, "That day... I can pretend nothing happened. Anyway, everyone They're both grown-ups... Let's both forget!"

forget?This is definitely not the answer he wants.

A trace of coldness was fleeting in his dark eyes: "You are right, everyone is not a child. So you should know that no matter what it is, no matter how you want to ignore or obliterate its existence, you can What happened, it happened. And..." He paused, and then he said every word, "And... I really can't help it, as if it never happened!"

Yan Qing's slender eyebrows gradually gathered together, and raised slightly: "So?"

"So... I suggest you think about it, the two of us might as well establish a long-term relationship."

Yan Qing huffed and stood up from the sofa, glared at him angrily and gritted his teeth and said two words: "I'm sick!"

Gu Zeyu still had a good-natured smile on his face, and suddenly something ambiguous appeared in his expression: "Whether I am sick or not, you know best, don't you?" As he spoke, his tall body suddenly got up.

Startled, she subconsciously bent down and reached out, grabbing the wine bottle from the ice bucket in her hand.He raised his head like a chicken, and warned him in a cold voice, "Don't come here!"

"Uh..." Gu Zeyu was also startled by her quick and skillful movements, seeing her expression of "If you dare to take a step forward, I will die with you", he smiled helplessly, "Hey, beauty! You don't need to be so bloody Alright! Well, I’m just going to stay.” He raised his hand as a sign of surrender, and sat back on the sofa, “I’m serious! With me, there are definitely many unexpected benefits! Why don’t you think about it! That night , don't we two have a tacit understanding! I..."

"Shut up!" Yan Qing stomped his feet angrily, picked up the wine bottle and threw it at it, but he stretched out his hand and easily caught it.

"It's dangerous, it's dangerous!" Gu Zeyu hugged the wine bottle into his arms, showing a very frightened look, "It's so violent, fortunately, I don't have a boyfriend!"

"Crazy!" Yan Qing felt that he was going to lose his temper soon, "Who said I don't have a boyfriend! My aunt and grandma have many boyfriends!" After speaking, he picked up his bag angrily, turned around and left , but at the moment when the door was about to be opened, he heard his deep voice resounding lightly...

"Even if you have a boyfriend, after going through that night with me, can you still face him calmly?"

Yan Qing trembled slightly uncontrollably, but insisted back: "That's none of your business!" Then he slammed the door and left.

But Gu Zeyu went and looked at the direction she was leaving, holding the already warm wine bottle, smiling extremely rippling.

It's okay... Such an ending is not too far away from what he expected.

He didn't intend to talk to her today about being ugly, but he just put on a formal gesture of intervention and gave her a vaccination.Save when the time comes when he makes a quick decision and the shot is too fierce, it's time for her to rebound.

After all, when two people get along for a long time, harmony is still very important!

Harmony... Harmony... Damn girl, looking back, he didn't get along with her!

(End of this chapter)