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Chapter 21
In the second half of the semester, Song Zihe really never came to Wen's house until she entered the second year of high school, and Wen Xin'ai's grades remained at a moderate level, so her father gave up her plan to hire her a tutor.

Life remains the same. If we must say, the schoolwork is becoming more and more heavy. Even the physical education class that can be relaxed occasionally is often occupied by teachers of other classes. They will not miss any time to teach them, review and then go to class.

Wen Xinai only saw Song Zihe when she was doing radio gymnastics in the morning, and saw him among tens of thousands of people when she was doing the turning exercise, but he still had an indifferent expression.

Many times, Wen Xinai felt that Song Zihe had met her eyes, but then moved away in a blink of an eye. Everything seemed to be an illusion.

Du Ning will often appear. Since then, he has been wearing my bald head. After a while, it has become brighter. He has always said that this is the hairstyle he is most satisfied with. Wearing sunglasses looks like a gangster. .

He is very obsessed with gangsters. According to him, he has a whole set of Chow Yun-fat’s gangster movies, as well as a whole set of "Bewitched Boy". Whenever there is a gangster movie or a gunfight movie in the cinema, he will take her to watch it together. Keep talking about whose gun is so handsome, what if he is the protagonist in the film?
Wen Xin'ai was not interested in these things, but she was not very good at expressing her opinions. Du Ning dragged her away, so she had no choice but to follow, but anyway, she became familiar with Du Ning.

Du Ning always told outsiders that she was his girlfriend. She corrected her several times, but Du Ning refused to change. In the end, Wen Xinai also gave up, but Du Ning didn't do anything wrong with her. He seemed to know Wen Xinai didn't think of him as a boyfriend, he was just waiting for a suitable opportunity for Wen Xinai to accept him. For this reason, the buddies who played with him laughed at him for changing from a carnivorous Tyrannosaurus Rex to a herbivorous Qiong Yao Uncle, he didn't take it seriously, and always laughed and scolded: You know nothing.

The winter of this year is colder than in previous years, and today is New Year's Eve, and next year will be a new year. Wen Xinai listened to the sound of firecrackers in the community and looked at the snowflakes floating outside the window. When it was snowing, Song Zihe said that he would never come to make up lessons for her again.

It’s been a year, time is really so fast, the gala is broadcasting on TV, and after singing and dancing, it’s a skit, like a weekly quiz, it’s the same to numbness, dad is in another room using the phone to give Some old superiors paid New Year's greetings, and they kept answering the New Year's greetings calls from their subordinates, and they were all the same.

Wen Xinai yawned, thinking that the New Year is like this every year, and it is boring.

She went back to her room and took out her mobile phone to check. There was no text message of blessing. She still had no friends after the first half of the second year of high school. Even Fatty, the only good friend in junior high school, gradually lost contact. On the contrary, it would be strange if someone sent her a blessing message.

The mobile phone turned to the address book and stopped on a number. In fact, she could recite it upside down, but she still read it religiously according to the number on it every day.

Never made a phone call to him, not even a text message. Wen Xinjia once tried to call him with several difficult math problems, but he lost the courage when he pressed the call button. I don’t know why, but I just lost the courage .

And today is such a good opportunity, it shouldn't matter to send him a text message of blessing, right?

Her fingers moved on the keyboard, desperately thinking about what to say to bless her.

A firework outside the window suddenly exploded in the air, with a "bang", the most beautiful bright spot bloomed, Wen Xin'ai was attracted to turn her head to look, and then the phone rang unexpectedly.

She was stunned for a moment, thinking that Song Zihe was calling her because she had a heart-to-heart with her, but when she looked at it nervously, it was Du Ning's phone number displayed on the screen.

"Come out, my love, I'm downstairs at your house." The voice of Du Ning on the other end didn't match the joy at this time, as if he was trapped in a death-like predicament and couldn't break free.

She just felt something was wrong, and when she wanted to ask again, Du Ning had already hung up the phone.

She put on her coat and told her parents that she wanted to go to the smokehouse, so she hurried outside, and then saw not far from her downstairs, Du Ning was sitting on the flower bed with her head down, smoking a cigarette fiercely.

Didn't he say he quit smoking?At least she hadn't seen him smoking a cigarette before, she felt a little timid suddenly, thinking that something serious must have happened to Du Ning, so she approached him slowly.

"Duning." She called out in a low voice, brushed off the snow from the flower bed, and sat beside him.

Du Ning's hand trembling while holding the cigarette, raised his head to look at her, Wen Xin'ai saw that his eyes that were originally as bright as stars were now bloodshot.

"What's wrong with you?" She asked anxiously.

Du Ning threw away the cigarette, and suddenly stretched out his hand to hug her whole body, his face was stuffed in her hair, and his lips stuck to the tattoo: "My grandma is dead, she is dead."

The voice was like a mournful moan, which seemed to be suppressed for a long time. At this time, the vocal cords and nasal cavity were squeezed and it was about to burst out. A warm liquid slid down from the tattoo and was sucked up by the neckline. Suddenly blank, I don't know what to do.

She reached out to hug Du Ning, but he hugged him even tighter because of this. She didn't struggle at all, but just patted his back at a loss, what should she say, he must be very sad, but Wen Xinai didn't know at all What should I say, I feel that what I say at this time is wrong and useless, I just cry with Du Ning, and keep saying: "It's okay, it's okay."

The snow suddenly became heavy. Wen Xinai cried and saw the large snowflakes passing by in front of her eyes. Once again, she felt that the snowflakes in front of her were not happy at all, but only cold and endless.

On New Year's Eve, Du Ning's grandmother passed away, and the same day was his new mother's birthday. Hearing the news of Du Ning's grandmother's death that day, Du Ning's father didn't even put down the wine glass for celebration, and everyone went home when the old man was there. During the Chinese New Year, walking is extraordinarily lonely.

From the whole winter vacation to one month after school started, Du Ning never showed up again. Wen Xinai called his cell phone several times, but he didn't answer it, as if he disappeared all of a sudden.

For most of the time before this, Wen Xin's world was full of loneliness and forbearance, as if imprisoned in a glass room, the pain and sorrow belonged to her alone, no one would understand her, and she didn't want to let this happen. Let others know about his pain and sorrow, but she suddenly felt that Du Ning also had such a glazed room. She didn't know how painful he was, and he didn't want to show all his pain to others. Even if he accidentally talked about sad things, he would Indifferent, or outright angry, but never vulnerable.

Then one day, Du Ning finally appeared in front of her. His hair had grown out on his bald head, and he was unexpectedly thin. He was not wearing the uniform of Zhiheng Technical School, but a red jacket and a large black backpack.

"Wen Xin'ai, I'm leaving." He stood in the sunset and smiled at her, his smile was no longer as bright as before.

"Where are you going?" Wen Xinai stared at the red jacket on his body, feeling that the red was too dazzling.

"I don't know, anyway, I don't want to stay here, I don't want to see that person again," Du Ning narrowed his eyes, "Actually, I wanted to wander around the world alone, but I can't let go of my grandma, and now I'm fine." He said Shrugging his shoulders, he seemed to have nothing to worry about.

"Wandering around the world?" It seems that the four words are too far away, but it makes Wen Xin'ai's heart beat hard.

"Yes, leave here, and no one will hurt me anymore," he said seriously, his thin face was facing the sunset, covered with a layer of beautiful gold, but lonely and lonely for no reason, "Would you like to come with me?" , Wen Xinai?"

Wen Xinai was startled, looked at his face, and didn't speak.

"Just kidding, no one hurt you, right? You are happier than me, so there is no need to leave," he smiled again, showing his white teeth, "then you wait here obediently, maybe one day, I will come back Marry you." He reached out and stroked her head, ruffling her hair.

Wen Xinai let him do whatever he wanted, and after hearing him say "goodbye", she turned around and left.

There is only a smear of red in front of my eyes, which burns Wen Xinai's eyes. Did no one hurt me?Who am I happier than?Wen Xinai watched the blush finally disappear, and the four words echoed in her mind for a long time: Wandering around the world.

(End of this chapter)