my wishful wolf

Chapter 19 Lu Dongning, Do You Love Me? (1)
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He would always send her home, see her open the door and enter the room, and wait a little longer before leaving, so considerate, logically speaking, she should be gratified.

When she got home, she watched Huangshi's car drive away, the headlights disappeared into the dark night, and when she looked up, the moonlight was so beautiful, but her heart felt uneasy.

Empty, there always seems to be something wrong.

The phone rang, reminding the schedule, take a look, heh, three days later, it will be Lu Dongning's wedding.

She is ready to go, really ready to go, she is a fate that will not admit defeat, Su Hui has already provoked the door, how can she give in, just go openly, even if she is unwilling in her heart, on the surface, Still want to bless him.

Opening the door and entering, the room was cold. After entering the bedroom, he fell down and habitually looked at the lamp beside the bed, but suddenly found that the pendant hanging on it was gone.

Sitting up suddenly, she leaned over, but saw a note on the table, "It's better not to remember it!"

It was Lu Dongning, he still had the key to the room, and while she was away, he came in and took the things away.

She stood up and looked at the empty room, she couldn't imagine that he came in alone, in her world, looked at her room silently, opened her closet, inside were her conservative and ugly clothes, she After leaving him, he didn't keep all the clothes he bought for her.

Opening her drawer, there was a notebook neatly placed inside. Her handwriting on it was printed in his mind, neither far nor near.The book she likes to read is placed on the table, and the page she has read is opened, with her meticulous annotations on it.The dish she bought was placed on the TV cabinet. On lonely nights, she wrapped herself in a quilt and sat on the sofa, watching the love-hate parting in the movie alone.

He stroked the bed where she was sleeping, with her short hair on it, delicate and soft, he held it in the palm of his hand, and he could still imagine the beauty of his fingers swimming in her hair.

……

Yet he had to let her go, and that was a choice with no turning back.

She gritted her teeth, tears had slowly crept into her eyes.

How can he be so selfish and self-righteous, he decides everything, and she can only listen to his orders.

She picked up her clothes and ran out with all the resentment towards him.

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Outside his villa, she knocked on the door without hesitation. After a few times, someone came out and saw her. He was taken aback for a moment, then bowed his head respectfully to her, and said, "I'm sorry, Mr. Lu is not here now."

She nodded, "Okay, then I'll wait here, tell him, I will wait... until he is willing to see me."

The man was embarrassed, but closed the door anyway.

She stood by the side of the road, looked at the closed door, and really waited silently.

Yue Chanjuan silently shone silver light on the black velvet-like sky, leaning at her feet, the spring night, filled with the faint scent of evening primrose, she stood there, looking ahead, that door has been open for a long time. Opening it again, her waiting heart was finally shattered, and she slowly gave a wry smile, this cruel man, this ruthless man...

Turning around silently, inadvertently, tears flowed from the corners of her eyes, not because of his cruelty, but just remembering, although she didn't want to admit it, but because she had feelings for him, those pains were so sensitive...

At this moment, the door behind him slammed open.

Turning around, she suddenly fell into a pair of clear and clear eyes, she couldn't even extricate herself, and then fell into that pool of melancholy, that kind of vague sadness, entangled her in every thread, and gradually became tighter.

She stopped there, looking at his tall figure, which was two meters away, but seemed to be separated by a gap that would never be bridged. He looked at her, through the moonlight, deep pupils like a deep pool, filled with a little sadness , looking at her faintly.

The corners of her mouth moved, and finally she lowered her head and wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes. To this day, she still doesn't want him to see her weakness.She bit her lip and looked at him questioningly, "Why do you act like a master, enter my house at will, and take away my things."

He looked at one side, with a perfect side face, with a melancholy arc, "I gave it to you, and now, it's just taken back."

She sneered, "Since you gave it to me, it's mine. How can you take away what belongs to me?"

He paused and looked at her with a ripple in his eyes.

He just wanted to see her life with his own eyes when she was not around. In three days, he would completely forget the past. He said to himself that after marrying Su Hui, he couldn't go on like this anymore. He just wants her to live a better life, and when he sees her well, he will get married with peace of mind.

However, he saw this hanging on the lamp beside her bed.

Looking at the chain, his heart moved. What does she mean by putting this here?
Originally, I thought that this cruel woman had separated him so clearly even when she divorced, so she turned around with a smile without a trace of hesitation, but it turned out that she was just pretending to be strong...

He took the chain with him at that time, since he could never go back, then don't let the past leave a little trace, right?
"It's just that, since it's over, let everything end..."

She stared at him, "So, what do you want to know about paying my friend for the operation? Do you know the future of Chinese medical care? Help me get rid of my tenant because I don't want that person to buy you Is your house messed up? Why are you paying attention to me so much? Tell me, how many reasons do you have?"

He was stuck there, she knew about it, she even knew about it...

She smiled, "Do you really think I'm a fool? Do you really think I don't know about this..."

He turned his head and said lightly, "I just want you to live well..."

There was a faint blush on her face, it was because she was angry, she looked at him, "While marrying another woman, wish me a good life, Lu Dongning...do you like me?"

He raised his head, under the moonlight, the faint blush on her face was so beautiful, a pair of star-like eyes shone brightly on her palm-sized face.

He said, "Gu Minmin..."

She came forward and despised him, "Is it because you fell in love with me, that's why this happened?"

He actually backed away because of a woman's questioning.

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She looked at his sad and fearful face, but suddenly laughed, stopped there, and looked at him, "Why are you so afraid...it's not that I like you too, it's just that I like you..." Her voice slowly closed Little, she seemed to sigh, then raised her head again, she smiled, but there were tears in her eyes, "I just like it, it won't hinder you from getting married, it won't prevent you from being with your woman, nothing will hinder it, What are you afraid of..."

The long night sky in the distance is getting darker and darker like ink, the moonlight is faint, like flowing water, the quiet spring night exudes a seductive smell, he and her look at each other, there seems to be a raging sigh in his eyes, his hands Clenched slowly by his side, he said to himself...no...

She looked at him, and suddenly smiled melancholy, with a bitter taste, and slowly lowered her head, looking at her feet, "Okay... I wish you a happy wedding... I... go first." She turned around silently, not daring to look into his eyes.

The moment she turned around, she strode forward, as if she wanted to leave the past behind, abandon it forever, let the wind linger in her ears, and blow away all the worries overnight. In this way, she I will never think of it again.

The back was decisive, and he suddenly had a feeling that once she left, she would definitely never look back...

Stepping forward suddenly, he took her hand.

She was in a daze, and before she had time to turn around, he pulled her and walked straight forward.

Riding in the night, he didn't know where he was going, so he just took her with big strides, going all the way forward, never looking back.

From the big strides to the last trot, she was pulled by him, looking at his wind-blown hair and his slightly drunken eyes.

Life is always crazy once, regardless of the consequences, not thinking about the future, only in the present.

He pulled her from the light to the darkness, and she said, "Hey...where are you going?"

He didn't speak, turned around, clasped the back of her head with one hand, and kissed her lips. Such a lingering deep kiss slowly stranded all her thoughts, and he couldn't think of anything anymore, just following him , getting deeper and deeper.

Those cold lips, trembling slightly, blocked all her words in her heart, it doesn't matter, if you don't say it, don't say it, what does it matter where you go?

The two bodies, under the leisurely moonlight, are getting closer and closer, and slowly, they cast pink and ink silhouettes on the ground. Everything is so beautiful, who wants to disturb it?

When she was about to suffocate, he let her go slowly, but he was not willing to really let go. He left a kiss on the tip of her nose and on her forehead in turn. He then pulled her and walked forward.

She finally asked, "Where are you going?"

He looked back at her, "Where do you want to go?"

She tilted her head and looked at him provocatively, "You dare to go wherever I say?"

He nodded and looked at her deeply, with intoxicating tenderness in his eyes.

Seeing the bus stop, he didn't look at which way it was, so he pulled him into the bus. It seemed that he was not used to taking the bus for the first time. On the last bus, there were not many people. They sat at the end, in the dim and warm Under the lamp, he continued to kiss her.

I sat until the last stop before reluctantly letting go.

The last stop happened to be the train station.

She took him and got out of the car under the driver's contemptuous gaze.

Then at the ticket gate, I bought whichever train I saw, and jumped on the train directly. There were many people on the long-distance bus. He pulled her, hesitantly in his eyes, "Do you want to take this?"

She tilted her head, "Why, it's not too late to go down now."

His hand gripped even tighter, this time, let's go crazy to the end.

I took him into the car and found a seat according to the number. The two of them were not together, but they had the same number, but there was an aisle between them.

She looked at him miserably, and he held her hand, unwilling to let go.

She then said to the people around her, "Can you change the seat? We are together and want to sit together."

But the aunt on the right said, "Oh, I can just sit by the window here."

The person over there said, "We are also together."

Finally asked around, but no one is willing to change.

She was even more mournful, pouted and looked at him.

His young master got angry and stood up, wanting to lose his temper.

But she pressed him down, leaned over the aisle, and whispered in his ear, "Don't make trouble, it's okay, if they don't give up their seats, we'll disgust them to death and make them regret it."

Then, before he understood, he held his face and kissed him actively.

He grabbed her politely, and the two of them stuck to each other as if there was no one else around. The person on the side who was looking directly was in a daze, and it took a long time to realize that all kinds of eyes shot like arrows, but what does it matter?No one knows them, and they are surrounded by strangers. Since they are strangers, even if they are despised, scolded, talked about, and gossiped, what does it matter?

His face is so pretty, his lips are so soft, not at all like him, how can someone with such a hard personality have such soft lips?She stroked his cheek, he hugged the back of her head, the two kept kissing, the kissing sounded, and when someone walked through the aisle, they temporarily separated, and then they couldn't wait to mix together again.

He grabbed her hand and gently moved it from her lips to her chin, and there was a downward trend. The eyes of the people around seemed to not interfere with the couple at all, but he was not satisfied at all, if it weren't for the presence of so many people , he must hold her in his arms.

At this time, the people around couldn't take it anymore, and someone on the opposite side said, "Let's change positions, don't let the two people who are close and sweet be so far away." Although they had a mocking tone, they didn't care, Gu Minmin stood up happily, and said with a smile, "Thank you, sir!"

After the war of resistance against Japan was won, they finally sat together, she smiled like a flower in spring, she got a bargain, nestled beside him, he smiled and hugged her, kissed the corner of her lips, she fell into his arms, The two were close to each other, and he looked around and sized up, like a child who was excited about riding in a car for the first time.

She said, "Have you never been on a train before?"

He narrowed his eyes, "Let's sit there... when I was very young."

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She shook her head with a look of contempt, "bureaucracy, capitalism, and trains are public transportation. When I was young, my grandfather taught us to keep things simple. When I went to Beijing to play, he was such an old man. It takes more than ten hours to go by train.”

As she spoke, she leaned into his arms, "Grandpa loved me very much before..."

Speaking of it, it is inevitable that there will be some melancholy.

He hugged her tightly, and slowly, the two of them talked about things when they were young, many things that were too naive, but now they talk about it one by one, but it feels like they are talking about other people's things, and they don't care about it before, just With some nostalgia.

As she talked, she told the people around her that the long-distance bus was moving forward without knowing the direction, and the night was even longer. Everyone was chatting, and she quickly got along with people, chatting about favorite topics , but he didn't adapt to this environment, he didn't say a word, just listening there.

In the middle of the night, someone finally got sleepy and lay there to sleep.

She stopped talking, hugged him, and he said, "Are you sleepy? Sleepy sleeps here." He pointed to his arms.

She shook her head, if possible, hope to keep looking at him like this, sleep?What a waste of time?

She leaned on him and raised her head to look at him. His eyebrows were not thick, but they were majestic when they were drawn down. His lips were thin, and when they were pursed, they were so severe. His eyes were pitch black. Looking at it from a close distance, it still reflects her shadow. Every curve of his face is so perfect that if you look closely, it is impeccable.

From the moment they got in the car, they noticed that the girls on the opposite side were all looking at him.

She stared at him like that, with fiery emotions in her eyes, and he couldn't help feeling amused, pinching her nose, "What are you looking at?"

She said truthfully, "It's only now that I feel that you are really pretty."

He deliberately lowered his face, "Didn't you think so before?"

She snorted, "I didn't notice it before!"

He held her hand angrily, "Okay you, Gu Minmin..."

She giggled in his arms, that smile was a beauty he had never seen before, he couldn't help it, and kissed her again, her taste was so good that he lingered on it and was reluctant to let go.

She grabbed his front collar like a frightened little rabbit.

After a long time, he let go of her panting, because if he didn't let her go, he might not be able to bear it.

Her cheeks were red, as if the sun was about to rise in the sky, he said, "Then, in the past, she never thought of seeing me, did she?"

She pouted, "You used to be so bad, why should I look at you."

He narrowed his eyes and looked at her threateningly, "Say, when did you pay attention to me?"

She said bluntly, "Today."

"Okay, Gu Minmin, did you give me courage?" He scratched her itch, and she hurriedly begged for mercy, and then said, "You can make me tell lies, right? I said, I never saw you. At the first sight of you, I fell in love with you deeply, do you think it is possible?"

He sighed, what a stubborn woman.

He hugged her, "Were you so stubborn before?"

She was stunned for a moment before she realized it, then she lowered her head and said, "My grandfather is also stubborn, and my second brother Gu Minyu is also stubborn. My elder brother looks good on the surface, but in his bones, he is stubborn as hell. So, it's hereditary. Gene..." After thinking about it, she suddenly felt something was wrong, she was no longer from the Gu family...

Seeing a slight change in her face, he said, "It's very stubborn. Instead of worrying all the time, it's better to go for an appraisal. Why bother with the family."

She shook her head, "That's not a problem that a few numbers can solve. I'm disappointed in them, because I always suspect that I'm not the Gu family, so they treat me like that... Don't you think, this is the most hurtful thing? "

Maybe it is... He hasn't experienced it, but he respects her.

She arched into his arms, and said quietly, "I used to feel nothing, but after knowing that, I started to face it, I shouldn't live like that anymore, don't you think, participating in those banquets, day after day Daily entertainment, drinking, seeing the same and different people, more and more I found that their faces are all the same. Compared with ordinary people, how fresh are they after birth? Although I am still slowly getting used to it , get used to not relying on the power of the Gu family, and live well by myself, sometimes I still feel powerless, why I am so miserable... But, I am much better than before, at least, looking at myself now, I feel that this is life. " She tapped the tip of his nose, "So, don't help me, look at myself, I want to live a decent life so it's not in vain."

He narrowed his eyes slightly, feeling sorry for such a strong and stubborn her.

"Help you...I don't want to make you work so hard."

She tilted her head, "You can't think like this. You have to think about it. After the captive wild animals return to nature, although at the beginning, there are still human beings to help, so they won't starve to death. When people gradually forget about them, finally , I still can’t escape death, at this time, it’s useless to rely on anyone but myself, don’t tell me, do you want to see me being kept in captivity by you, and finally, die miserably outside?”

He sighed, looking at her face, she lightly bit the tip of his nose, "Don't look at me like that, I've thought about it for a long time, but I don't know how to tell you." In fact, there was no chance to say it.

He hugged her and thought about something quietly.

The two of them were silent for a while, and she hugged him again, and fell asleep after a while.

He held her like that for the whole night, afraid that if he moved, he would wake her up, so he remained motionless, like a sculpture.

When she woke up the next day, she lost all feeling in her legs because she always kept the same posture. The sun shone in from the large window of the train. Through the green shoots, it passed by in a flash, still stained with the morning dew, squinting, stretching, and saw that his eyes were still wide open.

She looked at him pitifully, "I'm sorry...it's you."

(End of this chapter)