One way to go north

Chapter 323
Her son was conceived in October and she worked so hard to give birth, why should he be taken away by him!

However, no matter how much she yelled, the voice was sealed in the ice, so it couldn't get out...

She really wanted to cry, but even her tears were frozen...

Lu Xiangbei, you bastard!super hooligans...

The only thing that can be done is to curse, even though it is so weak and powerless...

I don't know how long I have been in a coma, but I woke up vaguely, and when I became conscious, there seemed to be someone talking beside me, it seemed to be the voices of Lu Xiangbei and Aunt Tan, did Lu Xiangbei finally come to see her?She was pleasantly surprised, and was about to open her eyes when she heard Aunt Qin saying, "What the hell are you and Niannian having trouble with? I've felt something was wrong with you since the Spring Festival, so go and work as an undercover agent, what are you doing?" For the sake of the Liang family, I can't stop you. The case was finally solved. Wouldn't it be better for you to find a job in the Beijing police department than there? How many people are overwhelmed and want to be transferred to Beijing? Get out of Beijing! I thought you were doing it for your great love, so I left it up to you, but now you look like this, and the children are not with you, and the two of you are awkward, tossing and torturing each other, what are you doing!"

"Is she better!" Lu Xiangbei replied in a low voice.

Hmph, it turned out that it was the first time to see her, and she was holding her breath again...

"Since you just left her behind like this, why do you care if she's okay? Why are you so cruel?" Aunt Tan still spoke on Tong Yinian's side, her tone a little angry.

He sighed, "Teach her a lesson!"

"Lesson? Since you have made your own choice, you must cherish her! Only you can think of letting her suffer! I said, what are you thinking? What is the situation between you two? What am I asking you?" You don't talk about it, okay, you don't talk about the case, I understand, but you kid, don't talk about anything, I haven't been schizophrenic by you in the past ten years, it's already my way It’s different now, I’m getting older, and my heart function is not as good as before. If you want your mother to live a few more years, you can tell me clearly, don’t let my heart hang on all the time, okay? What is the plan? Remarriage? Is there a future? Don't be like your father and I are now!" Aunt Tan was a little excited when she said that, as if she was about to cry.

He finally couldn't bear his mother's behavior, so he frowned, looking a bit painful, "Mom... I'm starting to wonder if I was wrong..."

"Wrong? What's wrong?" Aunt Tan asked suspiciously.

He smiled wryly, "I don't know now whether she loves me or not..."

Tan Wan was taken aback, "Son! Is this you? Are you so confused?" For her, he gave everything, but in the end, he couldn't figure out whether she loved him or not?Is it worth it!

"I really don't know!" He smiled wryly and shook his head. "At first, she didn't love me. Later, I felt that she cared about me and loved me. She also said that she loves me...but , now I wonder if she really understands what love is..." Does she love him?Looking back on all the roads I have traveled, from the first acquaintance, to the subsequent torture, to his endless and shameless entanglement, those traces of her loving him are like the stars at dawn, becoming more and more indifferent Going down, what keeps expanding and brightening is his wishful thinking...

It seems that this is really the case...

What she wants is her independent life, without his intervention, without his meddling.He has always been the one who pesters her shamelessly, and she hates him every time and wants to drive him away...

People, when they are depressed, are often like this, thinking of the worst of everything, as if blinded by an invisible fog, what they see is concealment and confusion, and the beautiful sunshine can no longer penetrate...

What has she done for him?A shirt, a meal of hand-rolled noodles, so little...

But for Kang Qi, she can even sacrifice her life...

I don't want to compare, and I don't want to ask her to do anything for him. Loving her is a matter of no turning back. As long as she enjoys the clear sky he gave her comfortably under his wings, it is enough. She doesn't need anything in return. The same kind of love, but, people, always tired, always let him see a little trace of her loving him, so that he has the courage to continue loving...

Tan Wan couldn't help looking at him sympathetically, "Son...then why are you bothering...you're doing it for her..."

"Mom..." He took a deep breath and smiled, "I'm sorry for her. She was originally an innocent girl, she should have married a good boy normally, maybe it was her childhood sweetheart, maybe it was someone who appeared later An excellent boy, and then live a happy and peaceful life. Even if her father falls down, Tong Shi falls down, she can still get through the difficulties with her boy. It's all her burden. But it's just that I broke into her life and disrupted everything about her, preventing her from having a normal marriage, normal family, and normal love. Mom, I feel so guilty... "

Listening to Tong Yinian, there was a black hole in his heart, and he was slowly sinking in this black hole. It turned out that everything he gave her was only because of guilt; it turned out that he regretted it; it turned out that he wanted her more There's another boy, living a normal life...

"But didn't you say that she was the only one in this life?" Tan Wan felt sorry for her son, after all, for his relationship, both she in France and the Lu family had done a lot Many things come to fruition.Hearing his son's tone, he wanted to give up...

There was a layer of sadness in his bitter smile, "Mom, I am also a human being, a person of flesh and blood, and my heart is also made of flesh. There will be times when I am tired, and there will be times when I can't bear it. Mom, I am really tired……"

too tired to love...

As long as she puts him or the child in her heart a little bit, his courage will be multiplied a hundred times and a thousand times. Unfortunately, he can't see it, really can't see it...

It's fine if you don't care about him, why in his eyes, she doesn't even care about her children?
"Hey...why is this necessary...At the beginning, your father and I didn't approve of you being with her again. After all, there was hatred between you...It's not like you don't know how difficult it will be for you to continue. ...but you are so stubborn...and she has a child again, we can't help it...you...if you had listened to us back then, stayed in Beijing, obediently listened to your father's arrangement, and married Ouyang Yan, then now I don’t know how happy life is. We are all in Beijing, and the distance is also close. I got married at that time, and I’m afraid I have children now. It’s great to celebrate the New Year happily! Now you’re a trapeze, and you’re too tired to die Say, if the family is not together, what does it look like if the family is not at home..." Tan Wan said in a low voice.

Hearing this, Tong Yinian felt that the sockets of his eyes were hot, and tears would flow down soon...

She loves him, how could she not love him?She had already made it very clear to him that what she wanted was just a period of time...

But, it turned out that he was tired, too tired to continue... It turned out that his family wanted him and Ouyang Yan, and only accepted him because she was pregnant with his child... Was it because of guilt?Because of children?
And Tan Wan, how much she supported her when they first met, and told her that women just want to live out their own world.Why do you always scold Lu Xiangbei, and treat her like your biological mother last night... But it's also because she was the mother of Lu Xiangbei's child at that time, right?Once the critical moment came, she would definitely be on her son's side...

This, she understands.

Naturally, she would not blame Tan Wan, nor would she blame anyone.Love and marriage are both matters between two people. She has known this for a long time...

However, that feeling of desolation still couldn't help climbing up from the bottom of my heart, and soon, it enveloped the entire sea of ​​hearts...

Faintly, there was a feeling that he was going to give up on her...

He will never say anything to her like before...

If it was like this at the beginning of the divorce, maybe she wouldn't feel anything, but now, after he has been stalking him for so long, and then he said such inexplicable words, how could she be embarrassed?

(End of this chapter)