One way to go north

Chapter 241: Cheap Love 2
He had already arranged his clothes and was about to leave. When he heard this, he paused for a moment, and said indifferently, "Call it whatever you want, just... a police officer's advice!"

She closed her mouth and remained silent.

Yes, the relationship between them should be that simple, he is a policeman, she is just an ordinary citizen.

So much the better……

After he finished speaking, he left without looking back. She watched his figure disappear outside the door, breathed a sigh of relief, her whole body softened, and collapsed on the bed, as if she had experienced a great battle...

Every time I face Lu Xiangbei, I feel like I am facing an enemy. I have to be fully armed to beat him back. Really, I am so tired...

Lying back on the bed, I don't want to think about anything anymore. This is the exhausted state after the war. The quilt is soft and warm, and there is still a hint of alcohol that he didn't take away...

She then thought of last night, she had an unusually peaceful sleep, without even a dream...

Although the recent sleep has been greatly improved, but the quality is only mediocre, I always have a lot of dreams, only last night, I really felt like I found my mother's arms, like sleeping in my mother's arms, solid and warm .

Tired, she wanted to go back to sleep again, but her heart was uncontrollable, always wandering and lingering in the warm memories of last night, unable to settle down...

She is looking forward to a kind of warmth, a kind of stability, is there no substitute in this world?
She thought of that bear, the oversized plush, it looks soft and fluffy, it must be very comfortable to hold, right?
She immediately got up and went back to the bedroom, holding the bear in her arms, trying to find the feeling she wanted, the feeling of being warm and satisfying when she closes her eyes; as if she was willing to indulge in such warmth all her life. The feeling of waking up again; that feeling called happiness...

happy.

She was shocked by these two words. She felt terrified and ridiculous. After being held in Lu Xiangbei's arms all night, did she think of the word happiness?Her happiness is so small and humble?
No!definitely not...

She hugged the bear tightly, wanting to prove to herself, that is not happiness!If that is also called happiness, wouldn't it be too cheap?Bears can give too!

She desperately used her face to stick this furry toy, this bear is so hairy and soft, it must be much more comfortable than Lu Xiangbei's hard body!Most definitely!
However, no matter how close she was, no matter how she squeezed herself against Xiong Xiong, she couldn't find that feeling.Is it because there is no breath of him?Then she doesn't breathe!She held her breath, tried to hold her breath, as long as she didn't breathe, she would forget his breath, right?

As a result, instead of getting the warmth and satisfaction she wanted, it was extremely uncomfortable.

In the end, she couldn't help it, the tightness in her lungs made her break her powers, and took a big breath.

She was flustered and at a loss for what to do. This early morning disturbed by Lu Xiangbei made her lose her soul...

Disturbed, she picked up the bear and threw it away. The bear's huge body knocked down a lot of things, including the desk calendar on the bedside table. She lowered her head and found that the desk calendar had been altered.

Pick it up, in the direction of the arrow, there are a few words: Mrs. Lu, I still love you.

His chest felt as if he had been punched hard, tears fell suddenly without warning, and it seemed that he was saying these words himself, "Mrs. Lu, I still love you... Mrs. Lu, I still love you." Love you……"

Over and over again, with a slightly raised ending sound and a smile on the brow...

"Lu Xiangbei! I hate you!" She slammed the desk calendar angrily, crying and shouting, but it was only a few words, which made her cry uncontrollably.

The desk calendar hit the wall and fell again. One page fell off and scattered on the ground.

Her heart twitched suddenly, and she quickly ran over to pick up the desk calendar, and what fell off was exactly the page he had written on...

My heart hurts for no reason...

Picking up that page, staring at his beautiful calligraphy, tears fell, one by one, dripping on the desk calendar, blurring those handwriting...

As those handwriting gradually faded away, my heart ached even more. I stuck that piece of paper to my chest, where I felt the most pain, and wept uncontrollably. The only cry echoed in my heart was that sentence: Lu Xiangbei , I hate you, I hate you to death...

However, it was only at this time that she felt so clearly that she still loved him so much. The so-called hate is just an unspeakable substitute for love...

She never thought about what it meant to be unscrupulous, she just expressed her feelings in the strongest language...

She told him to go away, begged him to let her go, told him not to appear in front of her again, and even... said that he was hurting her... When these most intense and hurtful words came out of her mouth without thinking, they were actually To put it bluntly, it was only because she was afraid...

Afraid that she would not be able to resist his approach, afraid that she would fall into his web again, afraid of his fatal charm to her, afraid of that... fatal love...

Therefore, she could only erect all the thorns all over her body, and use the sharpest and most hurtful one to stab him hard, so that he dared not approach, and made him run away...

And would he know that while stabbing him, she herself was also hurting fiercely behind her back, in a corner he couldn't see?
It's not that I don't love, it's that I dare not, I can't...

Dare not to go back to the previous life, can't, love this person who shouldn't be loved again, otherwise, she won't forgive herself, she can't face her father...

She had already made up her mind to seal up the past and start her life again, but damn Lu Xiangbei, why did he come to disturb her?Wouldn't it be nice to have a fresh start for each other?

She cried and scolded him over and over again in her heart, and asked him over and over again.So, when He Zixiang came to look for her, he happened to see her sitting on the ground crying.

"Niannian? What's wrong with you? Why are you crying so early in the morning?" He was shocked, and impulsively picked her up from the ground.

Subconsciously, she stuffed that page of desk calendar into the pocket of her pajamas, cried and shook her head, speechless.

How could this small movement be hidden from his eyes?However, since she didn't want him to see her, he just pretended not to see her, put her on the chair, knelt down by himself, and stretched out his fingers to wipe her tears.

With tears in her eyes, she stared at He Zixiang's face, and after a while she changed into Lu Xiangbei's appearance again. Once upon a time, he wiped his tears like this, right?No, he, not only that, he seems to prefer to kiss away every teardrop of her with his lips...

"Niannian?" He Zixiang tried to call her by her name when he saw that she was in a daze, she was crying but not making a sound.

She was awakened by his voice, the person in front of her was He Zixiang, not Lu Xiangbei...

She stared at him blankly, and suddenly said in a hoarse voice, "He Er, hug me."

She thought, maybe it's because Xiong Xiong is not a living thing, so she can't find the feeling she wants, but He Zixiang is not, he is also a man, has a man's breath, and is a man who knows how to be a woman, can he give her, The "happiness" she wants?
He obviously didn't expect it, but, she said, he would follow suit, stretched out his arms, and hugged her into his arms.

In the first official hug, he was gentle and careful, and he grasped the scale and strength quite well. There was no ambiguity, no... lust, only the gentleness he tried his best...

Tong Yinian closed her eyes, pressed her face against his chest, and tried her best to find the feeling she was expecting...

But...but...why didn't she feel the way she wanted?
Her tears fell again big and big, and she left He Zixiang's embrace, shaking her head desperately.

He Zixiang didn't know why, so he held her shoulder and asked lightly, "Nian Nian, what's wrong with you? What's wrong?"

She burst into tears, but still shook her head, choked up and murmured, "No...not...not..."

"What isn't it?" He Zixiang was at a loss.

not him!He is not him!There is only one Lu Xiangbei in the world!No one can replace it!No……

"He Er, I'm sorry! He Er, you go first..." She covered her face, tears overflowed from between her fingers, and flowed down the back of her hand, winding into a river...

Lu Xiangbei is always her own wound, no one can heal her, and no one can accompany her at this time...

Even if he, He Zixiang, knows women well, he can't comfort her at this moment. Perhaps, subconsciously, what she wants is just Lu Xiangbei...

(End of this chapter)