Cannon fodder to save the male god

Chapter 609
The ending of the original owner and Fei Yifan:

Watching my brother kill Zhuo Yuanfei with his own hands, and watching the Zhuo family go to extinction step by step, I don't feel much relief in my heart.

Although I took revenge, my family members are all dead.

Apart from my brother, I have no relatives in this world anymore.

The sky and the earth are big, and for a while, I felt like I had nowhere to go.The Mu family has been destroyed, and there are wars and displacements everywhere in the troubled times.

It seems that no matter where I go, I can no longer settle down, I don't have a home anymore.

My brother comforted me, saying that home is where he is.
I can only smile, yes, anyway, I still have one relative left, and we can still rely on each other.

After that, we started to wander around, like duckweed without roots. No matter where we went, there would always be a deep loneliness in my heart.

I don't know if my brother is the same as me, if he will feel this way.

I never asked, and dared not ask.

'Cause it brings back bloody memories of each other
Troubled times are not a place suitable for sad spring and autumn, what we need is strength.

Every time in the dead of night, I would always think of Fei Yifan's cold but gentle face towards me. He always told me affectionately: Mumu, I will always wait for you.

Obviously such a beautiful sentence, but every time I wake up from my dream crying.

I don't deserve him, and I don't have the face to see him again.

I did so many wrong things in my previous life. I personally destroyed everything about him and took his life. How can a woman like me be worthy of him!
The things in my previous life are really unimaginable, but I somehow firmly believe that those memories are real, and I have experienced them.

Although he doesn't know, he has no memory of his previous life, and he doesn't know how I hurt him.

But I know that I can't get over the condemnation of my heart, I can't get over the hurdle that I have personally ruined his family, so even though I know that he has me in his heart, even though I miss it, I miss it every day and night, I don't intend to see him again.

Later, my brother and I went to join the army.

Maybe it's because I'm tired of such a troubled world, or maybe it's because I don't want to live such a timid life anymore.

Such a war will not be successful overnight, and perhaps it will not be successful even on the day I die.The world will not usher in real peace, and many people would rather abandon their conscience for the sake of comfort because this victory is too far away.

But the people at the bottom have no choice, they don't want to be beaten passively, they can only stand up and use their flesh and blood to resist.

If they win, they can usher in a bright and prosperous world for their future generations. If they fall, they will die worthy and honorable!Dead worth it!
My brother and I feel honored to be a part of them!
Although tired, although it may die at any time
But we all feel fulfilled and happy.

I began to gradually find the value of my life, the beliefs I should have, and the meaning of my existence.

It was obviously a precarious day, but in the end I gradually fell in love with this kind of life.

Maybe it's because of the trust and hope among comrades-in-arms, maybe it's because of our common vision and hope for a peaceful and prosperous future
These things made me feel the most pure and beautiful things between people in this chaotic world, in this chaotic world with complicated and dark hearts, and made me feel that life can be so beautiful!
It was already five years later when they met Fei Yifan again, and he became the supreme helm of the Fei family.

And because I have been in the army all the year round, because of the war, I am also afraid that my daughter's body will be discovered and become vicissitudes, and my skin will no longer be delicate and white.

We met again after five years, our faces already have traces of time, he has become a lot of vicissitudes, and I am no longer the young and beautiful girl back then
But at the moment we met each other, he and I recognized each other with just one glance.

Although his face is no longer young, it is more attractive than when he was young, exuding the charm of a mature man.

I am old, but I am really old, and I am no longer beautiful.

This is the natural difference between men and women.
A woman is like a flower, once it withers, it will no longer be beautiful.
But men are like wine, the longer the age, the more mellow
In order to steal a piece of information from the enemy, I ventured deep into the enemy's belly. Although I succeeded in getting what I wanted, I was discovered when I left.

A sword pierced my abdomen, and I fled into Fei Yifan's room in a panic.

At that time, I was in such a state of distress, I was wearing a gray sackcloth that only old ladies would wear, and my hair looked gray and without a trace of luster.

There was also a layer of dust on his face, and he looked like a middle-aged woman.

But he still recognized me at a glance, the me who is no longer young.

He said, "Are you Mu Mu?"

I didn't speak because I had passed out.
My identity was completely exposed in front of his eyes, and he hugged me excitedly after I woke up.

He said that he missed me very much and had been waiting for me for so many years. He said why I should be so cruel and never appear in front of him again!

He talked a lot, and even cried with excitement at the end.

I've never seen Fei Yifan cry, such a man of iron and blood will cry one day, for me
My heart was full of mixed feelings at that moment, and tears fell uncontrollably.

I wanted to hold back, but I missed him so much that I couldn't control the tears that fell down at all.

He said he misses me, but why don't I miss him deeply
Every time I dream about the happy time between him and me in the past, I can't help crying quietly after waking up.

but i don't deserve him
After recovering from my injuries, I quietly slipped out of his side.

I started to deliberately keep myself busy, tossing myself until I was exhausted before falling asleep.

I kept myself so busy that I didn't even have a chance to miss him, although in my dream he would still come back.

But as long as I'm awake, I force myself not to think about him.

It wasn't until later that I couldn't bear to inquire about his news that I found out that he fell ill, very seriously.

I don't know if this news is true or not...

After hearing the news, I couldn't bear it anymore, I left everything and went to his side to see him.

But I haven't seen him for ten days, his face is haggard and thinner a lot.

I felt very distressed when I saw it, the pain was thick and thin, and the tears fell one by one like beads with a broken thread.

"Why are you so stupid? Is a woman like me worth it?" I couldn't help roaring angrily.

But he just smiled at me tenderly: "I don't know if it's worth it or not, I just know that without you, my heart will be very painful, very painful, deep into the bone marrow."

"Although I can live a good life even if my heart hurts, but that would just become a walking dead."

"I never believed it when others said they loved me before. It wasn't until I met you... that I realized that there is a kind of feeling that once touched... will never be able to let go..."

I don't know what to say, we are separated by too many things, no matter what the reason is, I will never have a possibility with him again.

But he was so smart that he had already thought of everything.

He said: "Mu Mu, I miss you so much, I miss you like a torrent, my heart is never without torment"

I don't know why I should refuse such a man.

The moment he approached, I didn't refuse.

If I miss him in this life, then I will never find another man who loves me so much.So I just hugged him tightly.

Let him know that I, too, have loved him all these years.

I still went back to Fei's house and returned to him.

Life like this doesn't seem to change much.

but different
There is one more him by my side, and the deepest emotion in my heart has found a sustenance
I finally have a home again...

　Christmas is coming, Mu Mu posted a prize event post on the top of the book review area, friends with a fan value of 500 or more can go and take part in it, and those who win the prize will have red envelopes to send, okay?

　　
　
(End of this chapter)