Roaming Collector

The days in the afterlife are basically unchanging, and Huazhen's life has also been unchanging for half a month.

Half a month ago, he retrieved the key memory, but he felt more confused and hesitant.

Now, he has spent half a month of peaceful life as an ordinary student, but this confusion and hesitation still remain in the depths of his heart, and he has not been able to expel them.

In the past, the realm of true self that he was proud of has now become a hurdle that he has to cross.If he can't pass this hurdle, he will be trapped in this afterlife world forever, losing his future and not being able to rebirth.

Pick it up again?Or let it go completely?

Hua Zhen couldn't help but find out that he would also be trapped between these two choices, maintaining an embarrassing situation where he couldn't afford it and couldn't let it go.

Originally, he wanted to live a peaceful life so that his mentality could return to peace.But now, the mentality has become so peaceful that it cannot be more peaceful, but still unable to make a choice.

Keep picking it up, or put it down completely.

These two seemingly simple choices are extremely difficult for Hua Zhen.

Follow his heart, follow his original intention, he will choose the former without hesitation.But even if he could face that experience indifferently, that real experience has left an irreparable wound on the state of mind called "true self".That is a contradiction, an endless loop that cannot be untied.

It's like being overwhelmed by water.

As for letting go...

After letting go, what can I do?Make a choice against your will, leave with a hypocritical smile, and then give up the truth, put on a hypocritical mask, and stop being the original self?

People need to grow, and growth requires a price.If you make a mistake, correct it; if you are in pain, endure it; adjust your pace in the rough, even if you are bruised, you must move forward step by step.

You only get what you pay for.There is no result without any effort.Don't you know that those glamorous people, who can see the hard work behind them?Don't you know that the so-called "second generation" and "third generation" would have inherited what they would have inherited without the overdraft-like contribution of the "first generation"?

Moreover, living a life envied by ordinary people also means giving up and abandoning the "ordinary" life.Just as a beggar does not understand the life of an emperor, the emperor cannot imagine the life of a beggar at all.

The emperor who knows the life of a beggar is the founding emperor, the eternal Mingjun.

Brother Pan's cheating device gave Hua Zhen a way to quickly improve his strength, but for this, he also paid for "equality".As he becomes stronger and stronger, he will only push the people around him farther and farther away. The road to the strong is doomed to be lonely.

Then, he became the Devil Emperor.Leading his army to siege cities, usher in victories one after another, expand the country, and consolidate power.As the devil emperor, Hua Zhen is no longer alone.However, this also inhibited his pace of becoming stronger.Within a year, he changed from an ordinary person to a strong man with a 7s evaluation, but during the years of being a devil emperor, his strength improvement slowed down disproportionately, and he was only 7max before his death.

Similarly, the price Hua Zhen paid for realizing the realm of "true self", which should not be comprehended by human beings, is also inhumanly heavy.

In addition to the protective film called hypocrisy, he also put aside his own life experience, the long memory that does not know whether it exists, and the confusion caused by losing these.With an incomplete self that cannot be called a human being, he has firmly reached the place that no one can reach—the depths of the soul, the source of the self, simply by relying on will and knowledge.

Therefore, if he puts aside everything, if he even let go of his true self, then what is left is not just an empty shell called sex?

I can't pick it up, and I can't put it down.

……

Soft, warm, like creamy smoothness.The tactile sensation enveloping the palm draws Hua Zhen's attention away from his thoughts.

Bending his fingers, he held back the pair of small hands wrapped around his palms with moderate strength, and Hua Zhen showed a gentle smile on his face: "What's the matter? Play sauce."

The girl at the front desk shook her head, said nothing, but increased the strength in her hands.

Although the break time is only 10 minutes, whether it is the student council president or Hua Zhen, the latest officially recognized campus idol, will be the focus of attention of ordinary students, that is, npcs.

The picture of the two "holding hands tightly and gazing affectionately" will naturally cause a lot of noise in the classroom.However, Hua Zhen, who can calmly deal with the noise all over the world, has an attitude of ignoring the noise in the classroom. , and why?

In this way, in the eyes of ordinary students, the two people's "love each other" seems to be getting worse.

Of course, this misunderstanding is also because the noise covered the conversation between the two.otherwise……

"Want to eat mapo tofu?" Feeling the force on the palm of his hand, Hua Zhen was a little confused, and asked a question that was enough to shock the whole class.

Because there was a Shana in the family, the only thing he could think of, and only the big killer of the same level as the pineapple bun-Ma Po Tofu, could cause a certain Sanwu president to lose his temper.

However, even after hearing the word Mapo Tofu, the girl still shook her head, even with a worried look on her face.

"Hey? Could it be that you are bullying you with new abilities? Impossible, your character template has been updated by me, hasn't it?"

That's right, Li Huazuo's character template has been remodeled by Hua Zhen from beginning to end.Otherwise, how could he generously send the modified angel_player to the free ion?

Hua Zhen has always been very defensive, and Zou Jiang has been recognized by him, how can he allow Zou Jiang to be bullied?

You know, in this wonderful world where as long as you have enough knowledge, you can think of it, as long as you give Huazhen time, he can even create artificial angels out of thin air that are not weaker than Icarus, the level that angel_player can achieve, It's really weak for him.

"No, everyone has been quiet recently." Zuo finally spoke.

"Then what's the reason?" Hua Zhen shook the little hand in his heart.Zao's hands are surprisingly small, reminding him of a certain Wannian loli with flaming hair and scorching eyes.It's just that compared with Shana's hand, Zuo's hand is whiter, tender and smooth, as if boneless. In terms of feel, it surpasses Shana's level by a level, and it is very comfortable to hold.

"...Is it a very unhappy memory?"

Zhuo suddenly uttered a sentence without beginning or end, but Hua Zhen was stunned, and the strength in his hand was slightly relaxed.

"How do you know that I recovered my memory?" Hua Zhen smiled wryly.In order not to worry Qin Ping, he did not tell the other party about the memory recovery, but now it seems that the truth has been revealed?

"You've been too honest recently." It was still expressionless face, still those big amber eyes without any impurities.However, at this moment, Hua Zhen saw You's reflection in those eyes... The standard three-no-belly black complaint, my wife, your unique skills have broken through the barrier of dimensions and spread to the vast world!

"Zou Jiang, what you said is too honest..." A black line hung down Hua Zhen's head.

"?" Zuo tilted his head in confusion, and it was clearly written in his eyes-did I say something wrong?

Hua Zhen almost burst into tears... In other words, he has not been in this world for long, and he has been a devil emperor for several years. He already has the necessary calmness in his character, so why does he still have the image of a "troublemaker" deeply rooted in the hearts of the people?

"It's okay." Pulling out his hand, Zou leaned forward and patted Hua Zhen's head: "Everyone who came to this world has a bad memory. But it will pass."

"..." Hua Zhen suddenly felt that he became more active and went back.

However, this feeling is really not bad at all.

Seeing the petite girl stretching her body hard, touching her head to comfort herself, a smile appeared on Hua Zhen's face.It hadn't changed at all since the memory of him existed. Rather than saying it was free and easy, it was better to say it was a smile with a unique "rough style": "Anxin, how can this matter trouble me?"

That's right, it's not his Huazhen style to be hesitant like this.Conversely, he was comforted by this stupid girl, and he really went back to living more and more.

Hua Zhen knew that it was time for him to make a choice.No, in fact, he has only had one choice all along. All he needs to do is...