Doomsday Paradise

Chapter 1811 Xie Feng's Choice (2)

In the ten years since Xie Feng became an evolutionary, he has never been near the sea.

The phrase "time is the medicine to forget everything" is only said by those who benefit from the medicine of time.In addition to this sentence, I don’t know how many people still yearn for liberation day after day because they cannot be forgotten or relieved.

Xie Feng can write down her experience, she can express her feelings in the sea, she can speak earnestly and exaggerate... But she has no way to make others feel it. Feeling empty.

Whether it is the world or oneself, chaos has been shattered.Before that moment, she never knew that such absolute and endless pain existed in the universe.

She forgot who she was and where she was.

The last conversation between the two, the patrol ship at sea, the mutated snake head... were all too far away from her, as if they were hallucinations.The world is blank, there is nothing, except for one thing, which is to let Dong Luorong float to the surface of the sea and open his eyes again.

Only at that time, the world will re-exist, and Xie Feng will re-exist.

Since the two met, it seems that the same situation has been repeated, and that night was no exception: Even after his life left him, Dong Luorong still saved Xie Feng again.

This point, Xie Feng didn't think about it later.She had just evolved at that time, floating in the middle of the ocean, facing the patrol ship and the fallen species, without Dong Luorong, she couldn't imagine how she would have survived that night.

But as time passed, she felt more and more that it would be great if she died that night.

Isn't it the most ideal ending for her to follow Dong Luorong and sink to the bottom of the sea?
Even if she still lost Dong Luorong, at least she didn't have to see her later self, and she didn't have to get along with her later self.

The most important thing is that you don't have to see Dong Luorong later.

The biggest weakness and limitation of Xie Feng's newly evolved ability at that time was: a thing, as a special item, only exists for a very short time.When its "special item effect" expires and disappears, the item itself will not disappear.

The desk lamp she used in the hotel turned back into an ordinary desk lamp after the expiration date, and it was still in place; but Xie Feng, who was in an extraordinary state at the time, naturally did not think of this, let alone think that when the object When it is not a desk lamp but a person, that person will continue to exist in the form of an object even after the "expiration" - since it is an object, of course there is no difference between life and death, only the difference between intact and damaged.

At that time, she just wanted Dong Luorong to come back.

At that time, she just couldn't understand why she couldn't have Dong Luorong in her life.

So every day of Xie Feng's life was like atonement for that night's decision, but he could never alleviate it a little bit.

She wandered and struggled in the doomsday world with Dong Luorong. No matter what happened or what kind of situation she fell into, Xie Feng never let her skin get scratched, and no one else touched her. root hair.However, Dong Luorong itself, which can exist in the storage props, is a cross that presses on her day after day and is about to crush her into pieces.

...if only she could forget her decision that night, no, if only it could get out of her head.

"I thought... you, like everyone else, were forcibly transformed and erased by the shark system." Lin Sanjiu said in a low voice.

The memoirs in the entire dungeon are almost all from the owner who was plotted against by the shark department but knew nothing about it; how could she have thought that Xie Feng would do it voluntarily?

Whether it was the woman Ah Quan met later in the alley, or the eight-headed virtue that Pengping failed to attack, they were all targeted and fell into dungeons unknowingly; Wu Yiliu, who knew about it afterwards, did not deny the nature of the whole matter: the Shark Department used the copy of Ah Quan to forcibly transform one valuable evolutionary after another, driving them to use for itself.

"I'm sorry." Lin Sanjiu thought for a while, and found it difficult to say the next words—at least, she found it difficult to say them clearly.She hesitated for a while before saying hesitantly: "If... there is anything I can do..."

Xie Feng didn't say anything.

After finally recovering from the uncontrollable howling, she seemed to have let out all her strength, her resentment towards Lin Sanjiu, her desire to fight, her original position...all with tears.She sat on the ground with her back leaning against the reception desk, staring at the tiles at her feet with a blank expression. At first glance, she seemed to have become an object.

Didn't she think that even the memory that was accidentally restored today can be removed again?

Lin Sanjiu wanted to propose this method as a remedy, but for some reason, she felt that she couldn't say it out loud, and she was also afraid that Xie Feng's mental balance, which he had managed to recover with great difficulty, would be shocked.After all, the real question is not whether Xie Feng remembers, that is just a way to escape; the real question is whether Xie Feng can forgive himself.

When she managed to lift Xie Feng up from the floor just now, she also suffered a few injuries because of it—fortunately, Xie Feng was in a state of confusion, and his lethality was not strong—after thinking about it, she was by his side He sat down not far away, and continued to bandage the wound silently, without saying anything.

It took only half a day to sit here; the sunlight outside the rental shop went from bright to dark, the shadows changed from short to long, and the sky was gradually soaked in a faint orange red.I don't know when it started, Xie Feng would suddenly murmur a few words without beginning or end.

Lin Sanjiu will do her best to respond.

"...I can't die because she will be left alone. But I really can't live anymore. I don't know how that woman found out about my situation... I have never been as desperate as that day. When she asked When I would like to step into the dungeon and forget everything, I immediately agreed."

Lin Sanjiu straightened his back.The first "she" naturally refers to Dong Luorong; but who is "that woman"?
"Sharks?" she asked, though she didn't think she'd get an answer. "The person who transformed you with the copy of Ah Quan was a woman?"

In the past half a day, Lin Sanjiu has talked to Xie Feng frequently, but Xie Feng has never talked to Lin Sanjiu, and he hardly answers her questions—the occasional soft explanations and fragmentary memories of the past are even more important. It seemed to be talking to himself; Xie Feng still seemed to be resisting Lin Sanjiu, but after losing all his strength, this resistance turned into ignorance, as if as long as he ignored it, the latter would not exist.

But this time, she surprised Lin Sanjiu.

Xie Feng still didn't look at the woman beside him, just asked his hands: "Do you know why I didn't kill you?"

This is not an exaggeration; if she wanted to go all out and die with her, then Lin Sanjiu would not be able to get out of this rental company.

Lin Sanjiu shook his head hesitantly.

"Because I remembered everything." Xie Feng still looked at his hands and said, "I not only remembered the past...I also remembered the mood when I decided to delete the memory, and the first time I saw it after I walked out of the dungeon. world time feeling."

She fell silent suddenly.

Lin Sanjiu just waited for her to slowly collect her thoughts.

"It's not... the relief after being freed." Xie Feng frowned, his voice as soft as a sigh. "That's right, I don't remember what I was carrying before, so when it disappears, I naturally don't feel relieved. It is because of this that I am not relaxed and happy. I am still me, but it seems less It was empty, and I stood there for a long while, not knowing where to go.

"Before that, I felt that my life was too painful to bear. But after that, my life became a..." Xie Feng frowned, as if he didn't know how to describe it. "It has become an insignificant, meaningless thing, but there is no difference. It is indeed not painful, but now I look back and have a comparison, only to find...'Not painful' itself, there is nothing I thought as important as that."

Lin Sanjiu knew that he was just a person who happened to be here, and just happened to hear Xie Feng's words - if it was someone else, or if the person sitting here was a cat or a dog, Xie Feng would probably behave in the same way.

But since she heard it and felt it, she naturally expressed it.

"Although it was painful... your life at that time was still closely related to her, right? Every minute and every second was because of her, and she was there." Lin Sanjiu said softly: "I I understand. If you lose your memory, you will also lose contact. So what is the difference between yourself and a speck of dust floating in the boundless universe... There is no source, no destination, and no place to stay."

After a few seconds, Xie Feng finally turned his head and took a long look at her, as if seeing her existence for the first time. "……Yes."

"So, I didn't do anything to you, and you don't expect me to be grateful to you." Xie Feng said hoarsely: "However, now that I think about it, I'm not sure if she...that woman deliberately used, even It promoted my mental state that day. If you want to go to the shark department, I will not stop you, nor will I help you."

She paused, and then said: "In any case, that woman found her final home. What's more, what the shark department is doing now, I believe it is right. Even if there is helplessness, there is no way to feel sorry for others. I also think it's going in the right direction."

(End of this chapter)