Prehistoric Calendar

I went to the hospital for a checkup today, and I felt really bad.

Haven't I been depressed and mentally tired the past few days?

I thought it was just caused by mental reasons and lawsuits, but after a long time, it was still the same. My wife suggested that I go to the hospital for a check-up. I went today, and finally found out what was wrong with me.

Sure enough, I also got diabetes, and it was still very serious. My blood sugar was 20 after a meal, and my fasting blood sugar was close to 11, which was very scary.

My mother has diabetes, and all my relatives on the maternal side have diabetes. I knew that I might have the diabetes-prone gene, but I didn't expect it to come so suddenly and so abruptly.

There is no cure for this disease, and the only way to maintain it is to take medicine all the time.

On my 39th birthday this year, I was lamenting that I am old. Today, when I was diagnosed with diabetes, I felt the emptiness of birth, old age, sickness and death.

Once upon a time, I still remember the excitement when I was in the first grade of primary school, the excitement of exploring in the primary school garden with my friends, and the nervousness when I played electronic horror games with my good friends during the summer vacation of junior high school...

All of a sudden, I'm turning 40, my kids are five years old, and I have the same diabetes my mother had over 20 years ago.

The whole person is at a loss, with a kind of discomfort that the world is boundless and where to go.

Is my life worth it?
What are my regrets?
What am I reluctant to do?
What have I left behind?
After I came back, I suddenly remembered the author who died suddenly at Qidian. I went to check the news at that time, but I didn't know what to say.

Suddenly, I want to hear about Luo Dayou's childhood again. Everyone, if there is a time machine, if you can go back to your childhood, will people not have regrets?
Today, I finally know that I am old.

(End of this chapter)