Turn over from love
Chapter 279 Dream 5 Reborn from the Fire
Chapter 279 Dream 5·Rebirth from the Fire
Super Robot shows Lu Zhou the contents of every diary entry it has read, and each entry has a heavy impact on his memory.
"July 12th
My eldest brother told me that because of my efforts, my father’s troubles have basically been eliminated.
I could finally breathe a sigh of relief, but my heart still felt like a big stone was weighing on me, and I could no longer be happy.
My world has undergone earth-shaking changes, and it is no longer the world I long for..."
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"July 2th
Gao Ting'an came back tonight. He smelled of alcohol and was a little unconscious. The driver and Secretary Wu helped him into the house.
Embarrassingly, they got him into the master bedroom…
I really want to remind them: Gao Tingan usually doesn’t sleep in the master bedroom...
But I can't say.
Not even my family knew that Gao Ting'an and I slept in separate rooms after our marriage.
As for why he never set foot in the master bedroom after getting married, Gao Ting'an never had a serious conversation with me, and I didn't care. Neither of us mentioned this matter to anyone, and it seemed that it had become some kind of tacit agreement. They kept it secret to the outside world and acted like a real couple in front of others, but behind closed doors they were even more fake than a fake couple.
I guess there is probably another person he loved deeply living in his heart, just like me, right?And our marriage is just a transaction.
He doesn't want to touch me, and I don't want to touch him, which is great.
But if outsiders are present, you still have to pretend.
I pretended to be the hostess and sent Secretary Wu and others away. When I came back, I found Gao Ting'an lying on the bedside holding a trash can and vomiting.
I asked him if he felt better, but he ignored me. He probably hadn't woken up yet and fell back to sleep after vomiting.
It was the first time I saw him sleeping. His brows were furrowed. There were traces of crow's feet at the corners of his eyes. There were two or three silver threads on his forehead. Obviously, his appearance had traces of time. He was not awake when he was asleep. That unfathomable feeling...
I don't know if I was blinded, but I saw tears falling from the corners of his eyes.
Maybe there is something sad.
Otherwise, why would you drink like this?
But he never told me, and I wouldn't ask.
I couldn't control him too much, and after confirming that there were no safety issues with him, I planned to leave.
His hand was suddenly held by him, which startled me. I looked back at him and found that he didn't seem to be awake and was muttering something.
I leaned closer to listen curiously, but I could only hear three words clearly: "...it has begun..."
what started
The rest was intermittent and incomprehensible, so he stopped talking.
A strange and enigmatic man. "
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"July 4th
April Fool's Day, how I hope everything that happened today is fake and God is playing tricks on us.
But the fact is not...
It's so scary, my dad was taken away!
I can't believe this is true...
Didn't brother say before that Gao Ting'an has settled this matter?
How could this happen...what went wrong?
Is it really just one wrong step and one wrong step after another?
The mother couldn't control her emotions and cried while calling her parents' home to find a relationship; the eldest brother called Gao Ting'an angrily.
My brain was buzzing, and I had an indescribable feeling. At that moment, it seemed as if a familiar voice kept repeating in my ears: It has begun...
so tired...
What should I do this time? "
……
"...
exhausted.
Regarding my father's matter, we have tried all possible methods, but there is nothing we can do to fix it.
This time it was not just my father who entered, but also a large group of people behind him.
This matter was so big that it implicated many important people and alarmed the entire circle. The most terrifying thing was that the evidence was so irrefutable that it caught everyone off guard and left them unable to fight back.
I went to beg Gao Ting'an, but Gao Ting'an said that there was nothing he could do this time. He had already taken care of the matter. Who knew that my father had not settled the people within the Ye family, and there was a mole. He could only blame himself for this.
This is information that I don't know at all. I know that someone reported my father, but I haven't gotten the source of the information to confirm that it was an insider. From Gao Ting'an's words, it is obvious that he already knows who reported it.
I asked him who was betraying him.
He said Yu Xingyang.
I don't have any impression of this name. I don't know anyone inside the Ye family at all.
But at this moment, Gao Ting'an said: "I don't know how deep the hatred between father and son is, which made him finally choose to send your father to prison with his own hands."
At that moment, I wished there was something wrong with my ears.
I stared at him in surprise, "What are you talking about?!"
The way Gao Ting'an raised his eyebrows when he spoke makes me feel extremely uncomfortable even when I think about it.
He said: "Yu Xingyang, deputy director of the Financial Analysis Department of Xingda Group, is your father's illegitimate son and your half-brother. He has a lot of evidence of your father's illegal crimes. It was he who personally reported your father. . Or I say that your father can only blame himself for what he is today? He didn’t take care of his own son, right?"
At that moment, something seemed to crack in my brain.
Yu Xingyang...
His surname is Yu...Yu...
Some bad memories from my childhood came back, and my father's voice appeared in my mind: "Feifei, you're rude. Why don't you call out to your elders when you meet them? This is Aunt Yu."
Aunt Yu...Yu...
My father, he is just a woman who loves my mother deeply. I have accidentally known this information since I was a child...
But I never thought that he was not just trying out new things occasionally, but that he would go so far as to have a child with a woman outside!What's even more shocking is that he also arranged for his illegitimate son to be placed in a high position in the group!
This incident deeply impacted my heart.
After listening to Gao Ting'an's words, my hands were shaking.
"You didn't tell my mother about this, right?"
My first reaction was to ask this question.
"I didn't say it, but I think she must have known it for a long time, right? Your mother and your father have been sleeping in the same bed for so many years, so it's impossible not to notice that he has someone outside, right?" Gao Ting'an said.
No, although my mother eats more salt than I eat, she has been extremely favored by my father since she got married. As a result, she has been living in the love dream that my father weaved for her, and she is emotionally attached to my father. With unconditional trust, in my mother's mind, her husband would never betray her.
In terms of love, over the years, although she has grown old, she has always lived like a little princess.
Her brothers, sisters, relatives and friends all praised her marriage and envied her choice of candidates.
I used to think that my parents' love was the most beautiful love in the world. They were loving, passionate, and loyal to each other, and I was proud of that.
Until one day, I accidentally caught my father kissing a strange young aunt. The moment I saw that scene, I was scared.
Many thoughts flooded into my little mind, and I couldn't digest that picture. Then I ran away secretly, sealing this secret in my heart.
That wasn't the first time I met that woman.
The second time I met her was when I was going to my grandpa’s house for a dinner after school.The driver sent me to my father's company. My mother and brother hadn't arrived yet. I saw the woman again in my father's office.
I didn't say hello, I just stared at her. I saw her appearance clearly. She was young and beautiful, but I didn't think she was as beautiful as my mother. I can only say that she and my mother were two different women.
She smiled at me and took the initiative to bend down and wave to me. I ignored her, and then my father said I was rude.
The woman said a few words to her father and left.
An unprecedented sense of panic hit me again, and at that time I blurted out to my father: "Dad, are you going to divorce my mother?"
Dad spanked me for the first time and severely criticized me.
Since then, I have never seen that woman in front of my father again.So many years later, I occasionally thought that maybe I was hallucinating and seeing things wrong. It seemed that my father had never betrayed my mother.
But now, Gao Ting'an's words were like a bomb exploding in my heart, and a more terrifying and bloody fact emerged.
Gao Ting'an said that Yu Xingyang was my half-brother.
elder brother……
That is to say...
When I accidentally discovered that my father was with that woman, they already had a child... No, it should be said that before there was me, he had already had an illegitimate child outside...
Coming to this conclusion, my whole body was shaking.
My father has always doted on me, my brother, and my mother. There is no doubt that. Because of this, I was afraid of losing this beautiful happiness. At that time, I chose to forgive him for the mistakes he had made and pretend that nothing happened. You know, keep the secret deep in your heart.
Because of this, I laid the root of my mental disorder.
I even took the initiative to make excuses for my father's mistakes in my mind: everyone makes mistakes, and as long as he makes timely corrections and improvements, he deserves to be forgiven.
I brainwashed myself over and over again just to continue to have this happy and complete family.
But the cruel truth told me: everyone makes mistakes, but not all mistakes can be repaired.Some principled mistakes are made once they are made, and there is no way back.
What kind of father would he be to his other son?
It's probably not good, right?Otherwise, how could his son have the heart to send him to prison with his own hands?
Hehe, what a sarcasm.
For a moment, I suddenly felt that it would be nice for dad to be here.The irreparable mistake he made went too far.
I realized that I had such thoughts in my heart, and I felt that I was quite scary. There might be a devil living in my heart.
But he was once a father I was proud of, and when I think of him staying in that kind of place after being accustomed to a wealthy life, I feel very pitiful for him.
But is it really pitiful?If the mistakes he made were judged by the public, no one would feel sorry for him, right?But as his daughter, I can't help but pity him.
poor person must have something mean.
I couldn't help crying again.
I know that it is inevitable that my father will suffer. Now all we can do is try our best to get a lighter sentence for him.
I vaguely feel that Gao Ting'an has an idea. The backing behind him now is not simple. As my wife, I beg him to help my father again.
He wiped my tears gently, but the words he said made me feel cold all over.
"There is no point in wasting energy to protect your father now. It is better to use resources to protect your brother."
His words were like a thunderbolt to me, and my voice trembled: "What's wrong with my brother?"
"Your dad is like this. Are you so naive that you think your brother will be clean? I know it will be difficult for you to face what happened to your dad in the short term. You want to do your best to save him. I understand how you feel now. .”
"But Feifei, the more critical the situation is, the more we must learn to take the overall situation into consideration. In this world, we will inevitably encounter some desperate things that make us miserable and powerless. Sometimes we have nothing better. The only way is to get through it.”
Even though my father's problems couldn't be solved, he actually told me that my eldest brother was also in danger.
It seemed that overnight, the Ye family was about to break up. "
……
"...I couldn't help but go see Yu Xingyang, my so-called half-brother.
I had no recollection of him and I was sure I had never met him.
If you look closely, you can see that his eyebrows are similar to his father's, but I think he inherited more from his mother.
He seemed to be in a bad state of mind, as if he hadn't slept for several days. His beard hadn't been shaved for who knows how many days, and his eyes were bloodshot, like a sloppy living ghost.
Seeing him like this, I was confused. Could it be that after he personally reported his father, he still had a fierce inner struggle?
I couldn't hold it back, so I went up and slapped him.
I don’t know what my motive was for slapping him. My emotions were very complicated.
But instead of getting angry, he rubbed his face and smiled.
"Little sister, you have no right to hit me." He said this, which made me feel even more angry.
"Why are you doing this? Do you hate him?" I asked him almost through gritted teeth.
"Hate? Just say hate, it's too simple." He smiled again, and the curve of the corner of his mouth looked particularly dazzling to me. "He did something wrong, so he should be punished. He deserves it. , if you are here to talk to me about those secular truths, then forget it, I am not interested in listening, and you are not qualified to educate me."
His tone was unflattering, but it seemed that in truth, what he said was correct.
"I just want to ask you, is he not good to you?" I only came here for this answer.
"Okay?" He laughed louder this time, as if he had heard a big joke.
"My existence is proof of the dark history of his life. For decades, I have been like a gutter rat that he has hidden in a corner and will never see the light of day. In Ye Genghua's understanding, I can only be found in the belly of his wife. The children who come out are the real children in his eyes. Do you think he treats me well? Do you want to think back to the life you lived before and compare it with the life I lived? "
He was not hysterical, but his tone was relatively calm.
He clearly had no regrets about what he had done.
"When he died, I had a chance to see the light of day, didn't I? Sister, although my surname is Yu in the household registration book, but according to the DNA certificate, I am also a descendant of his Ye Genghua. What you and your brother have, I should also have. "
"If you are just looking for money, it would be foolish for you to send him in. If the Ye family falls, how many points do you think you can get?" I couldn't understand his behavior.
"Stupid? Haha, Ye Fangfei, you are the stupidest one in the Ye family. You are a little princess who thinks you are smart. You live in an ivory tower built for you by others. You don't understand the dangers of the world. You don't even know the father you admire most. Once you see who he is, don't express your opinions in front of me."
Yu Xingyang was no longer polite when he spoke. He looked at me as if he was really watching a joke, as if he knew a lot of things that I didn't know.
His words were unpleasant, but I was not offended.
After all, Yu Xingyang was right about one thing. I do live in the ivory tower built for me by my family.
Yu Xingyang and I are not destined to be in the same camp. What he wants is profit, and what I want is family.Therefore, I stopped communicating with him and left.
Before leaving, I heard him say: "I did nothing wrong, you have no right to hate me."
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"...
These days, we have looked for everyone, but no one is willing to lend a helping hand.
There are too many things involved in my father's affairs. In this sensitive period, no one wants to cause trouble, so they all choose to retreat in self-protection, fearing that they will be avoided.
I thought of that sentence again: There are no eternal friends in this world, only eternal interests.
This is true for friends, but what about relatives?
Recently, I have truly experienced what it means to be in troubled times.
My mother went back to her parents' house and begged her all over, but my grandfather was old and had lost his power. Even if he doted on my mother, he was still powerless now.The uncles, on the other hand, were all looking for excuses to evade. Even if their help was inconsequential, it was not considered a helping hand.
My mother, who used to be famous in the Fang family for so many years because of her good marriage, has recently become humbled in the Fang family because of her father's experience.
And this is nothing to her. As long as she can help her father, she will do whatever it takes.
But when she found out that her father had cheated on her, and even had an illegitimate child outside the family, and had hidden it for so many years, and was finally betrayed by her own illegitimate child, her psychological defense completely collapsed, and she cried in tears every day at home.
For her, her husband has always been her god.
Now, even the trust between husband and wife has been trampled on, and she probably feels that she is living like a joke.
I suddenly thought, if I had told my mother what I saw, would there be a different result today?
Am I doing something wrong?
Am I wrong?
Because I was selfish and because I was afraid, I chose to keep the secret in my heart.Now, am I also responsible for my mother’s collapse?
I am so sad.
My eldest brother has also become extremely grumpy recently, and he and his sister-in-law have quarrels from time to time.
This family became torn apart because of my father's accident.
The beauty it once had was like an untouchable illusion. "
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"...
Today, my mother and I went to meet my father.
I have never seen such a haggard father, and I feel very uncomfortable.
The first words my mother spoke to my father seemed very weak. She choked and said: "I forced my precious daughter to use her marriage to save you, but you turned around and were betrayed by your illegitimate son. Ye Genghua, you are really good. .”
"I really didn't expect that you have been betraying me and this family for so many years, but I stupidly thought like an idiot that you were the most worthy of my trust in the world."
"Why didn't you tell me earlier that you don't love me anymore! Are you still a man?! Who the hell do you want to disgust by bringing an illegitimate child to a high position in the group! Ye Genghua, you are just a bitch! You deserve what you have today!"
The more she talked, the more excited she got. Mom couldn't hold back and finally got angry. She raised her hand and slapped dad hard, as if she was using all her strength to vent her anger.
The caretaker came and grabbed my mother, and I cried silently.
The red handprints on Dad's face were obvious. He lowered his head silently and endured it without saying a word to defend himself.
Mom finally calmed down.
"Just think about it inside. I won't help you anymore, and neither will the Fang family. Now your good son Mingzhe refuses to listen to me and is still tormenting for you. He goes around begging for help every day and lives without dignity. , are you satisfied?"
She said harsh words to her father and left.
Dad lowered his head, and his trembling shoulders betrayed his suppressed emotions.
I cried.
Dad wiped away his tears and tried to smile at me. He apologized to me for the wrong things he had done, saying that he would not deny the mistakes he had made and that he deserved them. But over the years, he had never stopped loving his mother and this family. .On the contrary, it was because I cared too much and was afraid of losing that I failed to handle the matter well, making every wrong step.
He said sorry over and over again.
I have never seen such a humble father.
No matter what difficulties I encountered, he would calmly help me deal with them and say to me: Don't worry, Dad is here.
He used to be my sky and the sky of our family, but now, the sky has fallen...
He told me that if we are not happy together with Gao Ting'an, we can separate if we want. My father is no longer a problem and there is no need for me to sacrifice my happiness for the rest of my life to save him.
He finally warned me not to trust Gao Ting'an completely. Although we are a couple, we should be careful sometimes and be a smart girl. "
...After reading this in the diary, Lu Zhou's eyes were already red.
It was like hearing Ye Fangfei whispering about his heavy past in his ear, making his heart so clogged that it was difficult to breathe.
During the days when he was not with her, she endured too much on her own.
And that's not all. Every page of the diary that follows makes Lu Zhou even more suffocated.
"...How could it be? Please, someone tell me this is just a nightmare?
How could he commit suicide in prison? Impossible!He is not such a person, he will never do such a stupid thing!
No, it can’t be this far, there must be something wrong, there must be something wrong here..."
……
"...I have really lost him forever, what should I do?
It hurts, what should I do?
I was wrong, Dad, I was wrong. I shouldn't have thought you deserved it. Are you punishing me?
I know I was wrong, can you come back?
... "
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"...I suffer from insomnia every day, and when I close my eyes, I see him as he used to be.
I can't describe my situation in words, it's terrible.
The investigation results came out and confirmed that he committed suicide.
I don’t believe it. I always feel something is wrong. Someone must be killing people and silencing them. I have to find a way to find out..."
……
“…I’ve been able to sleep a little bit these days, but nightmares haunt me every day.
My mother's condition is worse than mine. She lives in self-blame every day. She always feels that it was the harsh words she said to her father that time that made him no longer want to live.
She became less energetic and had to be prescribed sleeping pills by the doctor to fall asleep. Her hair turned a lot white..."
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"...I woke up again tonight, covered in cold sweat.
I'm so tired. I miss my dad so much. It would be great if I could still cuddle up on his shoulder and act like a baby like before.
There is no going back.
Recently, my mother's mental state has become worse and worse. It is harder for her to get over her father's death than any of us.
The elder brother, on the other hand, uses an overloaded workload every day to numb the pain in his heart.
It’s not easy for any of us…”
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"...Today at dinner, I heard my brother and sister-in-law talking about the group.
There seemed to be quite a lot of disputes within the group recently. My brother seemed to have lost at least ten pounds. I asked him if there was anything I could do to help.
He said I couldn't help.
But my sister-in-law interrupted and said to me in a sinister tone: "If you really want to help, then ask your husband to stop. He is just a son-in-law of the Ye family. Don't have a big appetite and covet things that don't belong to him. .”
This is the first time I have heard this kind of information. Is Gao Tingan moving to the Xingxing Group?
Since my father's accident, I rarely see him, and I rarely go back to that home.I didn't expect that Gao Ting'an would do this kind of thing when his father was gone.
My eldest brother seemed dissatisfied with my sister-in-law revealing this information to me and scolded her in front of me.
My sister-in-law cried and said that my brother is stupid!Now that her father is gone, if she doesn't protect the family business ruthlessly, it may fall into whose hands it will fall, so she left home in tears.
My mother was silent the whole time, and I didn’t even know if she had even taken two bites of the rice in her bowl. She lost a lot of weight, sighed softly, said she was full, and went back to her room.
This home feels less and less like home. "
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"...I thought about it over and over, and finally went to talk to Gao Ting'an in person. I asked him bluntly if he was planning on Xingda Group.
He always looked gentle and gentle, smiling at me slowly.
I thought he would explain and find a reasonable excuse for himself.
Unexpectedly, he replied to me very bluntly: "Can't I make this idea?"
I was extremely unhappy with his reaction and almost blurted out: "Of course you can't, you've gone too far!"
He took off the frame from the bridge of his nose and wiped it slowly, "No one is getting further away, but I am not getting further away."
There was an indescribable certainty in his tone, as if he already had a share in the Xingda Group.
I frowned and was about to tell him that even if he was my nominal husband, he shouldn't have such thoughts.
But Gao Ting'an's words beat me to it:
"You are the heir to the Ye family, and Xingda Group should have your share. I know that after your father left, you have no intention of taking care of these troublesome things. But Xingda Group is currently in internal turmoil, and I won't take action for you now. You will suffer a big loss then, and I am fighting for the benefits that my wife deserves."
Excuse, such a big "for my own good" excuse.
"Thank you for your kindness, but it's not necessary. I will discuss my family's affairs with my brother myself. Besides, I have no interest in the group. I have already expressed my opinion that I will not interfere in the group's affairs."
I said to Gao Ting'an.
Gao Ting'an: "Do you mean that you want to give up your share to your father's illegitimate son Yu Xingyang? Do you want to go back and ask your mother-in-law first if she wants you to do this?"
My heart skipped a beat, "Even if I want to get back the part that belongs to me, I should handle it myself without you having to worry about it."
"Feifei, do you treat me too much as an outsider? I know how to operate business better than you, so you should trust me."
What my father once said to me sounded in my mind: Don’t trust Gao Ting’an too much.
"Thank you, but I still think it would be more appropriate for me to negotiate with my family about this matter."
"Am I not your family?" Gao Ting'an raised his eyebrows, "When you ask for help from me, you keep saying that you are a family, but now that you no longer need it, do you draw a clear line?"
I felt like he was deliberately misunderstanding what I was trying to say, "You know that's not what I meant."
"It's best not to mean this, Feifei, let me remind you, don't forget that when your dad went in, your brother was able to escape unscathed, who was behind it to protect him."
Of course I could hear Gao Ting'an warning me.
"Since we are husband and wife, what is the difference between you and me? You agree?" He looked at me with a smile and said, his black pupils were bottomless.
At that moment, it was like a basin of cold water drenched me from head to toe, and a strong premonition welled up in my heart.
How does this sound like a conspiracy?
Did he come prepared?
If so, why would he do this?
... "
The subsequent words in the diary made Lu Zhou feel sad.
Obviously, Ye Fangfei finally became suspicious of Gao Tingan.
If you have doubts, you will definitely find a way to investigate.This was also the beginning of Ye Fangfei's subsequent discovery of Gao Ting'an's true face.
The content at the back of the diary revealed that after a lot of internal fighting, the Xingda Group was finally controlled by Gao Ting'an. This incident was another fatal blow to the Ye family after Ye Genghua's accident.
There was a lot of discussion in the circle about this, and no one thought there was anything wrong with a son-in-law of the Ye family taking over the power of the Xingda Group, because everyone agreed that Gao Ting'an could make this move only with Ye Fangfei's permission.
Everyone thought that this was just an internal property division struggle that his children would inevitably have after Ye Genghua's death. In the end, Ye Fangfei relied on her husband's means to win the battle more beautifully.
In fact, did Ye Fangfei allow it?It can be said that it was forced to allow it.
Because at that time, she believed that these properties, status, and interests were not as important as her brother's safety.
If others want it, let them go. If the money is gone, you can earn it again. If your status is gone, you can strive for it.
Why worry about having no firewood to keep the green hills behind? His brother is still young and can make a comeback one day. He is so good. It may not be a dream to create a great glory like his father one day. But once a person is gone, everything will be lost. It's all in vain.
Even if she is criticized by her sister-in-law or criticized by outsiders, Ye Fangfei doesn't care.
And through this incident, Ye Fangfei finally got a glimpse of the game Gao Ting'an played against their family.
For example, why did he insist on her marrying him before he was willing to help his father.
Looking back and thinking about it carefully, Ye Fangfei became more doubtful whether the "gang" Gao Ting'an called at the beginning was really a gang, or whether he was digging another big hole for their family.
But there was one thing she couldn't figure out.
If it was just to promote a large group, why did Gao Ting'an spend so much time?
He has the leverage to destroy his father and eldest brother, and he also has a backer. If he really wants to prosper the group, he can just use this condition in exchange for his father.Why take such a big step to marry her?
What is Gao Ting'an planning?Is it possible that she is just overthinking it?
This is a point that has puzzled Ye Fangfei for a long time.
Ye Fangfei pondered over and over again amid doubts and contradictions.
She has also been secretly looking for someone to find out the truth behind her father's suicide in prison.
In the end, it was difficult for her to avoid doubting Gao Ting'an with all the clues.
Until another incident happened that completely broke Ye Fangfei, and the style of her entire diary began to go to extremes.
The incident that destroyed her was that her mother Fang Xinlei took too much medication before going to bed and was sent to the hospital to save her.
The day before Fang Xinlei's accident happened to be a family dinner day, and Gao Ting'an went to the Ye family mansion to meet Fang Xinlei first because his work place happened to be close that day.
What a coincidence?
Ye Fangfei mentally determined that Gao Ting'an must be related to her mother's death.
But there is no actual evidence.
Since Ye Genghua's death, Fang Xinlei's mental state has not been very good, and her sleep quality has been extremely poor. According to the doctor's judgment, she had a tendency to commit suicide, and the case was concluded as "suicide."
This trauma was too painful for Ye Fangfei.
She locked herself in her room for several days without eating or drinking.
Gao Ting'an was afraid that she would starve to death, so he took the key and opened the door.
He didn't give her anything to drink or eat, so he just sat with her.
"No one understands the pain in your heart at this moment better than me."
"I have had a similar experience to you. My father was forced to commit suicide by jumping off a building due to debt. My mother later became mentally ill and followed her, leaving me alone in the world with no relatives. I have hated and suffered, and I have tried to get over it. He died, but he was rescued in the end and did not die."
"Believe me, Feifei, no matter how painful it is, you have to endure it. We can be reborn from the ashes with scars. At least you still have your brother who loves you, and you still have me. It's not that bad. I've survived it, and so can you. OK."
This is how Gao Ting'an comforted Ye Fangfei.
"Who saved you back then?" Ye Fangfei asked hoarsely.
Gao Ting'an was silent for a moment before replying: "Your dad."
Ye Fangfei cried when she heard this answer, heartbroken. She didn't know where the strength came from, and suddenly screamed and punched and kicked Gao Ting'an.
After not eating or drinking for several days, Ye Fangfei's eyes darkened and she suddenly fainted.
She was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment and was in a coma for a whole day before she woke up. When she woke up, she seemed like a different person. She couldn’t remember the painful things and didn’t recognize the people she once knew. She seemed to have returned to the innocent and innocent person she once was. Carefree Ye Fangfei.
A psychiatrist diagnosed her with traumatic personality disorder.After experiencing excessive pain, because he did not want to face the pain directly, he directly awakened his second personality to survive.
Gao Ting'an looked at her in disbelief, "Is this the way you choose to be reborn from the ashes? It turns out that it can still be like this, okay, it's good."
But in fact, judging from the contents of Ye Fangfei's diary, she was pretending all this, and she did not have a split personality.
She pretended very thoroughly and for a long time. Gao Ting'an took her to see a psychiatrist many times, and in the end he really believed that her original personality would not escape easily again.
Precisely because of pretending to have split personality, Ye Fangfei had the opportunity to see the truth step by step.
Gao Ting'an relaxed his vigilance towards her. One time he came home from a late night party and got drunk. When he saw her asleep, he sat by her bed and looked at her for a long time, and couldn't help but utter the truth.
"I know how hurt you will be after I do it, but I just want to see you and your brother in pain. Do you know how many years I have been waiting for this?
Why?
How come you can have enough food and clothing, grow up pampered, have a happy family, and have everything you want?
I could have been as happy as you, but everything was ruined by your parents.
Every cause must have an effect, right?
What I have endured, his children, Ye Genghua, should also endure twice as much.
Did he think that by hypocritically saving my life and sponsoring my study abroad, he could cover up the evil he had done?hypocritical!
Who is the person who used all kinds of tricks to kick my father out of the group under the banner of "justice"?Who is the person who left my father in a desperate situation with no hope of recovery?Who is it that refuses to save anyone?
He must have thought that I was too young to see through this, right?He must think that I have let go of the past because I have been respectful and polite to him all these years, right?
It's ridiculous. It's never too late for a gentleman to take revenge, right?
Feifei, don’t hate me. If you want to hate me, then hate your dad.
What you have in your family today is all caused by your father.Oh, your mother is also an accomplice.
Hey……
Alas...I took my revenge.
I did it, but why don’t I feel happy enough?
I should be happy. Seeing you in agony with my own eyes, I should feel very happy.
But I don’t know why, seeing you like this makes me feel uncomfortable.
So pathetic, you look so pathetic, it reminds me of myself.
I want to hug you, I want to save you.
Do you think I have any illness?
If you want to live or die, I can do a little better, but how can you have a split personality?
Now you are living happily in front of me like a normal person, but I don’t know what to do with you.
I shouldn't have married you.
I thought at first that I married you just to use you, to witness your pain with my own eyes, but I had a strange feeling in my heart.
Hey……
I wonder what my parents would think of me if they knew that I married the daughter of my enemy and were reluctant to let go in the end.
But you are actually innocent.
I watched you grow up, and I know that you are the only innocent person in Ye's family, but who made you his daughter?
I used to love seeing you laugh.
Your cuteness and innocence as a child were endearing and, of course, made me jealous.
Later, as you grew up, you became more unruly and free-spirited, and your smile became more spiritual. I often lamented that you really became what I longed for in my dreams.
Later, when you matured and learned to fall in love, that was the time when I disliked you the least, but that was probably also the time when you smiled the sweetest, right?Although I don’t know what you like about that man.
You are good at everything, but your taste in finding a man is a bit poor. That man is not suitable for you, he is petty and vulnerable.
Since you left him, I have rarely seen you smile.
I feel much better now that you are like this. You are a completely different person. I have forgotten the past. I laugh more recently.
I miss you like this.
Just leave it like this, don't think about the pain in the past, and completely forget the people you loved and hated. Then you will be the reborn Ye Fangfei, and I will feel better.
I have thought about it. From now on, I want to live a good life with you.
Shall we have a wedding?I will marry you again and start our life again.
You have been reborn, I believe my parents will forgive me. "
A sigh expressed how helpless it was.
He lay drunkenly beside her bed and fell asleep. In the darkness, a tear fell silently from the corner of the person on the bed.
According to the diary records, at Ye Fangfei's request, she and Gao Ting'an held a wedding.
Ye Fangfei was personally involved in the wedding preparations, ranging from the location selection of the hotel to the design style of the wedding dress, as well as the selection of small hotel accessories. Gao Tingan had no objection and left the entire process to her.
She acted very happy in those days, as if this was a wedding she had been waiting for for a long time and she was about to embrace happiness. Gao Ting'an's joy level also increased several times with hers. He tasted the feeling of happiness knocking on the door.
On the wedding day, there were many guests. Her red floor-length wedding dress was so beautiful that everyone else's hearts trembled. With the sound of music, she stepped towards Gao Ting'an step by step.
When the wedding ceremony was over, she said to him with wet eyes: "I specially prepared a dance for you. I named it 'Fire'. I want to dance it for you now. Are you willing?"
Gao Ting'an was moved with tears in his eyes, took her hand and kissed her gently, "Of course, this is my honor."
On the top of the mountain, she danced in a red wedding dress.
What a beauty, so stunning that people can't take their eyes away.
With one last movement, she spun and jumped into his arms.
Gao Ting'an was knocked unprepared and staggered, but he smiled heartily. The roar of applause rang out from the guests, wishing them happiness.
He hugged her heartily and subconsciously wanted to lean over and kiss her, but unexpectedly at that moment, a sharp object was violently inserted into his heart.
The next second, Ye Fangfei hugged him tightly and hit the guardrail.
Everyone screamed.
……
The night before the wedding, Ye Fangfei wrote a suicide note, which read:
“I don’t know how long it will take for enemies to be repaid, but I know that if I don’t take revenge, I won’t be able to live anymore.
Then let's die together.
Brother, if we are destined in the next life, I hope we will be born in an ordinary family and be brother and sister again!Or I can be your sister for once, if you don’t mind (*￣︶￣).
Don't blame me for leaving you alone, okay?Because every day I live I feel like I can’t breathe.
Brother, I will take the devil away with me so that he can never hurt you again.In this life, you have protected me countless times. This time, let me protect you.
Promise me to be a good person. Our dad is not a good role model. Don't imitate him.
Lu Zhou, I don’t know if you will see this letter.
In fact, I pray that you will no longer pay attention to my updates, so that you will not be sad because of my departure.
But if you are still paying attention, I want to tell you: the time I spent with you was the happiest stage of my life.
I'm sorry, the hurt you suffered was all because of me. If you had never met me, you might be happier, right?
Can you forgive me?Forget about me.
Don't be sad, because I'm finally free. "
……
After reading the diary to the end, Lu Zhou raised his hand and wiped his face, his hands were wet.
"Super Robot."
He sniffed and said to the AI system.
"Master, I am here."
"Start the shutdown mission."
"Received! Trying to initiate a comprehensive shutdown order for Super Robot without self-protection..."
(End of this chapter)
Super Robot shows Lu Zhou the contents of every diary entry it has read, and each entry has a heavy impact on his memory.
"July 12th
My eldest brother told me that because of my efforts, my father’s troubles have basically been eliminated.
I could finally breathe a sigh of relief, but my heart still felt like a big stone was weighing on me, and I could no longer be happy.
My world has undergone earth-shaking changes, and it is no longer the world I long for..."
……
"July 2th
Gao Ting'an came back tonight. He smelled of alcohol and was a little unconscious. The driver and Secretary Wu helped him into the house.
Embarrassingly, they got him into the master bedroom…
I really want to remind them: Gao Tingan usually doesn’t sleep in the master bedroom...
But I can't say.
Not even my family knew that Gao Ting'an and I slept in separate rooms after our marriage.
As for why he never set foot in the master bedroom after getting married, Gao Ting'an never had a serious conversation with me, and I didn't care. Neither of us mentioned this matter to anyone, and it seemed that it had become some kind of tacit agreement. They kept it secret to the outside world and acted like a real couple in front of others, but behind closed doors they were even more fake than a fake couple.
I guess there is probably another person he loved deeply living in his heart, just like me, right?And our marriage is just a transaction.
He doesn't want to touch me, and I don't want to touch him, which is great.
But if outsiders are present, you still have to pretend.
I pretended to be the hostess and sent Secretary Wu and others away. When I came back, I found Gao Ting'an lying on the bedside holding a trash can and vomiting.
I asked him if he felt better, but he ignored me. He probably hadn't woken up yet and fell back to sleep after vomiting.
It was the first time I saw him sleeping. His brows were furrowed. There were traces of crow's feet at the corners of his eyes. There were two or three silver threads on his forehead. Obviously, his appearance had traces of time. He was not awake when he was asleep. That unfathomable feeling...
I don't know if I was blinded, but I saw tears falling from the corners of his eyes.
Maybe there is something sad.
Otherwise, why would you drink like this?
But he never told me, and I wouldn't ask.
I couldn't control him too much, and after confirming that there were no safety issues with him, I planned to leave.
His hand was suddenly held by him, which startled me. I looked back at him and found that he didn't seem to be awake and was muttering something.
I leaned closer to listen curiously, but I could only hear three words clearly: "...it has begun..."
what started
The rest was intermittent and incomprehensible, so he stopped talking.
A strange and enigmatic man. "
……
"July 4th
April Fool's Day, how I hope everything that happened today is fake and God is playing tricks on us.
But the fact is not...
It's so scary, my dad was taken away!
I can't believe this is true...
Didn't brother say before that Gao Ting'an has settled this matter?
How could this happen...what went wrong?
Is it really just one wrong step and one wrong step after another?
The mother couldn't control her emotions and cried while calling her parents' home to find a relationship; the eldest brother called Gao Ting'an angrily.
My brain was buzzing, and I had an indescribable feeling. At that moment, it seemed as if a familiar voice kept repeating in my ears: It has begun...
so tired...
What should I do this time? "
……
"...
exhausted.
Regarding my father's matter, we have tried all possible methods, but there is nothing we can do to fix it.
This time it was not just my father who entered, but also a large group of people behind him.
This matter was so big that it implicated many important people and alarmed the entire circle. The most terrifying thing was that the evidence was so irrefutable that it caught everyone off guard and left them unable to fight back.
I went to beg Gao Ting'an, but Gao Ting'an said that there was nothing he could do this time. He had already taken care of the matter. Who knew that my father had not settled the people within the Ye family, and there was a mole. He could only blame himself for this.
This is information that I don't know at all. I know that someone reported my father, but I haven't gotten the source of the information to confirm that it was an insider. From Gao Ting'an's words, it is obvious that he already knows who reported it.
I asked him who was betraying him.
He said Yu Xingyang.
I don't have any impression of this name. I don't know anyone inside the Ye family at all.
But at this moment, Gao Ting'an said: "I don't know how deep the hatred between father and son is, which made him finally choose to send your father to prison with his own hands."
At that moment, I wished there was something wrong with my ears.
I stared at him in surprise, "What are you talking about?!"
The way Gao Ting'an raised his eyebrows when he spoke makes me feel extremely uncomfortable even when I think about it.
He said: "Yu Xingyang, deputy director of the Financial Analysis Department of Xingda Group, is your father's illegitimate son and your half-brother. He has a lot of evidence of your father's illegal crimes. It was he who personally reported your father. . Or I say that your father can only blame himself for what he is today? He didn’t take care of his own son, right?"
At that moment, something seemed to crack in my brain.
Yu Xingyang...
His surname is Yu...Yu...
Some bad memories from my childhood came back, and my father's voice appeared in my mind: "Feifei, you're rude. Why don't you call out to your elders when you meet them? This is Aunt Yu."
Aunt Yu...Yu...
My father, he is just a woman who loves my mother deeply. I have accidentally known this information since I was a child...
But I never thought that he was not just trying out new things occasionally, but that he would go so far as to have a child with a woman outside!What's even more shocking is that he also arranged for his illegitimate son to be placed in a high position in the group!
This incident deeply impacted my heart.
After listening to Gao Ting'an's words, my hands were shaking.
"You didn't tell my mother about this, right?"
My first reaction was to ask this question.
"I didn't say it, but I think she must have known it for a long time, right? Your mother and your father have been sleeping in the same bed for so many years, so it's impossible not to notice that he has someone outside, right?" Gao Ting'an said.
No, although my mother eats more salt than I eat, she has been extremely favored by my father since she got married. As a result, she has been living in the love dream that my father weaved for her, and she is emotionally attached to my father. With unconditional trust, in my mother's mind, her husband would never betray her.
In terms of love, over the years, although she has grown old, she has always lived like a little princess.
Her brothers, sisters, relatives and friends all praised her marriage and envied her choice of candidates.
I used to think that my parents' love was the most beautiful love in the world. They were loving, passionate, and loyal to each other, and I was proud of that.
Until one day, I accidentally caught my father kissing a strange young aunt. The moment I saw that scene, I was scared.
Many thoughts flooded into my little mind, and I couldn't digest that picture. Then I ran away secretly, sealing this secret in my heart.
That wasn't the first time I met that woman.
The second time I met her was when I was going to my grandpa’s house for a dinner after school.The driver sent me to my father's company. My mother and brother hadn't arrived yet. I saw the woman again in my father's office.
I didn't say hello, I just stared at her. I saw her appearance clearly. She was young and beautiful, but I didn't think she was as beautiful as my mother. I can only say that she and my mother were two different women.
She smiled at me and took the initiative to bend down and wave to me. I ignored her, and then my father said I was rude.
The woman said a few words to her father and left.
An unprecedented sense of panic hit me again, and at that time I blurted out to my father: "Dad, are you going to divorce my mother?"
Dad spanked me for the first time and severely criticized me.
Since then, I have never seen that woman in front of my father again.So many years later, I occasionally thought that maybe I was hallucinating and seeing things wrong. It seemed that my father had never betrayed my mother.
But now, Gao Ting'an's words were like a bomb exploding in my heart, and a more terrifying and bloody fact emerged.
Gao Ting'an said that Yu Xingyang was my half-brother.
elder brother……
That is to say...
When I accidentally discovered that my father was with that woman, they already had a child... No, it should be said that before there was me, he had already had an illegitimate child outside...
Coming to this conclusion, my whole body was shaking.
My father has always doted on me, my brother, and my mother. There is no doubt that. Because of this, I was afraid of losing this beautiful happiness. At that time, I chose to forgive him for the mistakes he had made and pretend that nothing happened. You know, keep the secret deep in your heart.
Because of this, I laid the root of my mental disorder.
I even took the initiative to make excuses for my father's mistakes in my mind: everyone makes mistakes, and as long as he makes timely corrections and improvements, he deserves to be forgiven.
I brainwashed myself over and over again just to continue to have this happy and complete family.
But the cruel truth told me: everyone makes mistakes, but not all mistakes can be repaired.Some principled mistakes are made once they are made, and there is no way back.
What kind of father would he be to his other son?
It's probably not good, right?Otherwise, how could his son have the heart to send him to prison with his own hands?
Hehe, what a sarcasm.
For a moment, I suddenly felt that it would be nice for dad to be here.The irreparable mistake he made went too far.
I realized that I had such thoughts in my heart, and I felt that I was quite scary. There might be a devil living in my heart.
But he was once a father I was proud of, and when I think of him staying in that kind of place after being accustomed to a wealthy life, I feel very pitiful for him.
But is it really pitiful?If the mistakes he made were judged by the public, no one would feel sorry for him, right?But as his daughter, I can't help but pity him.
poor person must have something mean.
I couldn't help crying again.
I know that it is inevitable that my father will suffer. Now all we can do is try our best to get a lighter sentence for him.
I vaguely feel that Gao Ting'an has an idea. The backing behind him now is not simple. As my wife, I beg him to help my father again.
He wiped my tears gently, but the words he said made me feel cold all over.
"There is no point in wasting energy to protect your father now. It is better to use resources to protect your brother."
His words were like a thunderbolt to me, and my voice trembled: "What's wrong with my brother?"
"Your dad is like this. Are you so naive that you think your brother will be clean? I know it will be difficult for you to face what happened to your dad in the short term. You want to do your best to save him. I understand how you feel now. .”
"But Feifei, the more critical the situation is, the more we must learn to take the overall situation into consideration. In this world, we will inevitably encounter some desperate things that make us miserable and powerless. Sometimes we have nothing better. The only way is to get through it.”
Even though my father's problems couldn't be solved, he actually told me that my eldest brother was also in danger.
It seemed that overnight, the Ye family was about to break up. "
……
"...I couldn't help but go see Yu Xingyang, my so-called half-brother.
I had no recollection of him and I was sure I had never met him.
If you look closely, you can see that his eyebrows are similar to his father's, but I think he inherited more from his mother.
He seemed to be in a bad state of mind, as if he hadn't slept for several days. His beard hadn't been shaved for who knows how many days, and his eyes were bloodshot, like a sloppy living ghost.
Seeing him like this, I was confused. Could it be that after he personally reported his father, he still had a fierce inner struggle?
I couldn't hold it back, so I went up and slapped him.
I don’t know what my motive was for slapping him. My emotions were very complicated.
But instead of getting angry, he rubbed his face and smiled.
"Little sister, you have no right to hit me." He said this, which made me feel even more angry.
"Why are you doing this? Do you hate him?" I asked him almost through gritted teeth.
"Hate? Just say hate, it's too simple." He smiled again, and the curve of the corner of his mouth looked particularly dazzling to me. "He did something wrong, so he should be punished. He deserves it. , if you are here to talk to me about those secular truths, then forget it, I am not interested in listening, and you are not qualified to educate me."
His tone was unflattering, but it seemed that in truth, what he said was correct.
"I just want to ask you, is he not good to you?" I only came here for this answer.
"Okay?" He laughed louder this time, as if he had heard a big joke.
"My existence is proof of the dark history of his life. For decades, I have been like a gutter rat that he has hidden in a corner and will never see the light of day. In Ye Genghua's understanding, I can only be found in the belly of his wife. The children who come out are the real children in his eyes. Do you think he treats me well? Do you want to think back to the life you lived before and compare it with the life I lived? "
He was not hysterical, but his tone was relatively calm.
He clearly had no regrets about what he had done.
"When he died, I had a chance to see the light of day, didn't I? Sister, although my surname is Yu in the household registration book, but according to the DNA certificate, I am also a descendant of his Ye Genghua. What you and your brother have, I should also have. "
"If you are just looking for money, it would be foolish for you to send him in. If the Ye family falls, how many points do you think you can get?" I couldn't understand his behavior.
"Stupid? Haha, Ye Fangfei, you are the stupidest one in the Ye family. You are a little princess who thinks you are smart. You live in an ivory tower built for you by others. You don't understand the dangers of the world. You don't even know the father you admire most. Once you see who he is, don't express your opinions in front of me."
Yu Xingyang was no longer polite when he spoke. He looked at me as if he was really watching a joke, as if he knew a lot of things that I didn't know.
His words were unpleasant, but I was not offended.
After all, Yu Xingyang was right about one thing. I do live in the ivory tower built for me by my family.
Yu Xingyang and I are not destined to be in the same camp. What he wants is profit, and what I want is family.Therefore, I stopped communicating with him and left.
Before leaving, I heard him say: "I did nothing wrong, you have no right to hate me."
……
"...
These days, we have looked for everyone, but no one is willing to lend a helping hand.
There are too many things involved in my father's affairs. In this sensitive period, no one wants to cause trouble, so they all choose to retreat in self-protection, fearing that they will be avoided.
I thought of that sentence again: There are no eternal friends in this world, only eternal interests.
This is true for friends, but what about relatives?
Recently, I have truly experienced what it means to be in troubled times.
My mother went back to her parents' house and begged her all over, but my grandfather was old and had lost his power. Even if he doted on my mother, he was still powerless now.The uncles, on the other hand, were all looking for excuses to evade. Even if their help was inconsequential, it was not considered a helping hand.
My mother, who used to be famous in the Fang family for so many years because of her good marriage, has recently become humbled in the Fang family because of her father's experience.
And this is nothing to her. As long as she can help her father, she will do whatever it takes.
But when she found out that her father had cheated on her, and even had an illegitimate child outside the family, and had hidden it for so many years, and was finally betrayed by her own illegitimate child, her psychological defense completely collapsed, and she cried in tears every day at home.
For her, her husband has always been her god.
Now, even the trust between husband and wife has been trampled on, and she probably feels that she is living like a joke.
I suddenly thought, if I had told my mother what I saw, would there be a different result today?
Am I doing something wrong?
Am I wrong?
Because I was selfish and because I was afraid, I chose to keep the secret in my heart.Now, am I also responsible for my mother’s collapse?
I am so sad.
My eldest brother has also become extremely grumpy recently, and he and his sister-in-law have quarrels from time to time.
This family became torn apart because of my father's accident.
The beauty it once had was like an untouchable illusion. "
……
"...
Today, my mother and I went to meet my father.
I have never seen such a haggard father, and I feel very uncomfortable.
The first words my mother spoke to my father seemed very weak. She choked and said: "I forced my precious daughter to use her marriage to save you, but you turned around and were betrayed by your illegitimate son. Ye Genghua, you are really good. .”
"I really didn't expect that you have been betraying me and this family for so many years, but I stupidly thought like an idiot that you were the most worthy of my trust in the world."
"Why didn't you tell me earlier that you don't love me anymore! Are you still a man?! Who the hell do you want to disgust by bringing an illegitimate child to a high position in the group! Ye Genghua, you are just a bitch! You deserve what you have today!"
The more she talked, the more excited she got. Mom couldn't hold back and finally got angry. She raised her hand and slapped dad hard, as if she was using all her strength to vent her anger.
The caretaker came and grabbed my mother, and I cried silently.
The red handprints on Dad's face were obvious. He lowered his head silently and endured it without saying a word to defend himself.
Mom finally calmed down.
"Just think about it inside. I won't help you anymore, and neither will the Fang family. Now your good son Mingzhe refuses to listen to me and is still tormenting for you. He goes around begging for help every day and lives without dignity. , are you satisfied?"
She said harsh words to her father and left.
Dad lowered his head, and his trembling shoulders betrayed his suppressed emotions.
I cried.
Dad wiped away his tears and tried to smile at me. He apologized to me for the wrong things he had done, saying that he would not deny the mistakes he had made and that he deserved them. But over the years, he had never stopped loving his mother and this family. .On the contrary, it was because I cared too much and was afraid of losing that I failed to handle the matter well, making every wrong step.
He said sorry over and over again.
I have never seen such a humble father.
No matter what difficulties I encountered, he would calmly help me deal with them and say to me: Don't worry, Dad is here.
He used to be my sky and the sky of our family, but now, the sky has fallen...
He told me that if we are not happy together with Gao Ting'an, we can separate if we want. My father is no longer a problem and there is no need for me to sacrifice my happiness for the rest of my life to save him.
He finally warned me not to trust Gao Ting'an completely. Although we are a couple, we should be careful sometimes and be a smart girl. "
...After reading this in the diary, Lu Zhou's eyes were already red.
It was like hearing Ye Fangfei whispering about his heavy past in his ear, making his heart so clogged that it was difficult to breathe.
During the days when he was not with her, she endured too much on her own.
And that's not all. Every page of the diary that follows makes Lu Zhou even more suffocated.
"...How could it be? Please, someone tell me this is just a nightmare?
How could he commit suicide in prison? Impossible!He is not such a person, he will never do such a stupid thing!
No, it can’t be this far, there must be something wrong, there must be something wrong here..."
……
"...I have really lost him forever, what should I do?
It hurts, what should I do?
I was wrong, Dad, I was wrong. I shouldn't have thought you deserved it. Are you punishing me?
I know I was wrong, can you come back?
... "
……
"...I suffer from insomnia every day, and when I close my eyes, I see him as he used to be.
I can't describe my situation in words, it's terrible.
The investigation results came out and confirmed that he committed suicide.
I don’t believe it. I always feel something is wrong. Someone must be killing people and silencing them. I have to find a way to find out..."
……
“…I’ve been able to sleep a little bit these days, but nightmares haunt me every day.
My mother's condition is worse than mine. She lives in self-blame every day. She always feels that it was the harsh words she said to her father that time that made him no longer want to live.
She became less energetic and had to be prescribed sleeping pills by the doctor to fall asleep. Her hair turned a lot white..."
……
"...I woke up again tonight, covered in cold sweat.
I'm so tired. I miss my dad so much. It would be great if I could still cuddle up on his shoulder and act like a baby like before.
There is no going back.
Recently, my mother's mental state has become worse and worse. It is harder for her to get over her father's death than any of us.
The elder brother, on the other hand, uses an overloaded workload every day to numb the pain in his heart.
It’s not easy for any of us…”
……
"...Today at dinner, I heard my brother and sister-in-law talking about the group.
There seemed to be quite a lot of disputes within the group recently. My brother seemed to have lost at least ten pounds. I asked him if there was anything I could do to help.
He said I couldn't help.
But my sister-in-law interrupted and said to me in a sinister tone: "If you really want to help, then ask your husband to stop. He is just a son-in-law of the Ye family. Don't have a big appetite and covet things that don't belong to him. .”
This is the first time I have heard this kind of information. Is Gao Tingan moving to the Xingxing Group?
Since my father's accident, I rarely see him, and I rarely go back to that home.I didn't expect that Gao Ting'an would do this kind of thing when his father was gone.
My eldest brother seemed dissatisfied with my sister-in-law revealing this information to me and scolded her in front of me.
My sister-in-law cried and said that my brother is stupid!Now that her father is gone, if she doesn't protect the family business ruthlessly, it may fall into whose hands it will fall, so she left home in tears.
My mother was silent the whole time, and I didn’t even know if she had even taken two bites of the rice in her bowl. She lost a lot of weight, sighed softly, said she was full, and went back to her room.
This home feels less and less like home. "
……
"...I thought about it over and over, and finally went to talk to Gao Ting'an in person. I asked him bluntly if he was planning on Xingda Group.
He always looked gentle and gentle, smiling at me slowly.
I thought he would explain and find a reasonable excuse for himself.
Unexpectedly, he replied to me very bluntly: "Can't I make this idea?"
I was extremely unhappy with his reaction and almost blurted out: "Of course you can't, you've gone too far!"
He took off the frame from the bridge of his nose and wiped it slowly, "No one is getting further away, but I am not getting further away."
There was an indescribable certainty in his tone, as if he already had a share in the Xingda Group.
I frowned and was about to tell him that even if he was my nominal husband, he shouldn't have such thoughts.
But Gao Ting'an's words beat me to it:
"You are the heir to the Ye family, and Xingda Group should have your share. I know that after your father left, you have no intention of taking care of these troublesome things. But Xingda Group is currently in internal turmoil, and I won't take action for you now. You will suffer a big loss then, and I am fighting for the benefits that my wife deserves."
Excuse, such a big "for my own good" excuse.
"Thank you for your kindness, but it's not necessary. I will discuss my family's affairs with my brother myself. Besides, I have no interest in the group. I have already expressed my opinion that I will not interfere in the group's affairs."
I said to Gao Ting'an.
Gao Ting'an: "Do you mean that you want to give up your share to your father's illegitimate son Yu Xingyang? Do you want to go back and ask your mother-in-law first if she wants you to do this?"
My heart skipped a beat, "Even if I want to get back the part that belongs to me, I should handle it myself without you having to worry about it."
"Feifei, do you treat me too much as an outsider? I know how to operate business better than you, so you should trust me."
What my father once said to me sounded in my mind: Don’t trust Gao Ting’an too much.
"Thank you, but I still think it would be more appropriate for me to negotiate with my family about this matter."
"Am I not your family?" Gao Ting'an raised his eyebrows, "When you ask for help from me, you keep saying that you are a family, but now that you no longer need it, do you draw a clear line?"
I felt like he was deliberately misunderstanding what I was trying to say, "You know that's not what I meant."
"It's best not to mean this, Feifei, let me remind you, don't forget that when your dad went in, your brother was able to escape unscathed, who was behind it to protect him."
Of course I could hear Gao Ting'an warning me.
"Since we are husband and wife, what is the difference between you and me? You agree?" He looked at me with a smile and said, his black pupils were bottomless.
At that moment, it was like a basin of cold water drenched me from head to toe, and a strong premonition welled up in my heart.
How does this sound like a conspiracy?
Did he come prepared?
If so, why would he do this?
... "
The subsequent words in the diary made Lu Zhou feel sad.
Obviously, Ye Fangfei finally became suspicious of Gao Tingan.
If you have doubts, you will definitely find a way to investigate.This was also the beginning of Ye Fangfei's subsequent discovery of Gao Ting'an's true face.
The content at the back of the diary revealed that after a lot of internal fighting, the Xingda Group was finally controlled by Gao Ting'an. This incident was another fatal blow to the Ye family after Ye Genghua's accident.
There was a lot of discussion in the circle about this, and no one thought there was anything wrong with a son-in-law of the Ye family taking over the power of the Xingda Group, because everyone agreed that Gao Ting'an could make this move only with Ye Fangfei's permission.
Everyone thought that this was just an internal property division struggle that his children would inevitably have after Ye Genghua's death. In the end, Ye Fangfei relied on her husband's means to win the battle more beautifully.
In fact, did Ye Fangfei allow it?It can be said that it was forced to allow it.
Because at that time, she believed that these properties, status, and interests were not as important as her brother's safety.
If others want it, let them go. If the money is gone, you can earn it again. If your status is gone, you can strive for it.
Why worry about having no firewood to keep the green hills behind? His brother is still young and can make a comeback one day. He is so good. It may not be a dream to create a great glory like his father one day. But once a person is gone, everything will be lost. It's all in vain.
Even if she is criticized by her sister-in-law or criticized by outsiders, Ye Fangfei doesn't care.
And through this incident, Ye Fangfei finally got a glimpse of the game Gao Ting'an played against their family.
For example, why did he insist on her marrying him before he was willing to help his father.
Looking back and thinking about it carefully, Ye Fangfei became more doubtful whether the "gang" Gao Ting'an called at the beginning was really a gang, or whether he was digging another big hole for their family.
But there was one thing she couldn't figure out.
If it was just to promote a large group, why did Gao Ting'an spend so much time?
He has the leverage to destroy his father and eldest brother, and he also has a backer. If he really wants to prosper the group, he can just use this condition in exchange for his father.Why take such a big step to marry her?
What is Gao Ting'an planning?Is it possible that she is just overthinking it?
This is a point that has puzzled Ye Fangfei for a long time.
Ye Fangfei pondered over and over again amid doubts and contradictions.
She has also been secretly looking for someone to find out the truth behind her father's suicide in prison.
In the end, it was difficult for her to avoid doubting Gao Ting'an with all the clues.
Until another incident happened that completely broke Ye Fangfei, and the style of her entire diary began to go to extremes.
The incident that destroyed her was that her mother Fang Xinlei took too much medication before going to bed and was sent to the hospital to save her.
The day before Fang Xinlei's accident happened to be a family dinner day, and Gao Ting'an went to the Ye family mansion to meet Fang Xinlei first because his work place happened to be close that day.
What a coincidence?
Ye Fangfei mentally determined that Gao Ting'an must be related to her mother's death.
But there is no actual evidence.
Since Ye Genghua's death, Fang Xinlei's mental state has not been very good, and her sleep quality has been extremely poor. According to the doctor's judgment, she had a tendency to commit suicide, and the case was concluded as "suicide."
This trauma was too painful for Ye Fangfei.
She locked herself in her room for several days without eating or drinking.
Gao Ting'an was afraid that she would starve to death, so he took the key and opened the door.
He didn't give her anything to drink or eat, so he just sat with her.
"No one understands the pain in your heart at this moment better than me."
"I have had a similar experience to you. My father was forced to commit suicide by jumping off a building due to debt. My mother later became mentally ill and followed her, leaving me alone in the world with no relatives. I have hated and suffered, and I have tried to get over it. He died, but he was rescued in the end and did not die."
"Believe me, Feifei, no matter how painful it is, you have to endure it. We can be reborn from the ashes with scars. At least you still have your brother who loves you, and you still have me. It's not that bad. I've survived it, and so can you. OK."
This is how Gao Ting'an comforted Ye Fangfei.
"Who saved you back then?" Ye Fangfei asked hoarsely.
Gao Ting'an was silent for a moment before replying: "Your dad."
Ye Fangfei cried when she heard this answer, heartbroken. She didn't know where the strength came from, and suddenly screamed and punched and kicked Gao Ting'an.
After not eating or drinking for several days, Ye Fangfei's eyes darkened and she suddenly fainted.
She was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment and was in a coma for a whole day before she woke up. When she woke up, she seemed like a different person. She couldn’t remember the painful things and didn’t recognize the people she once knew. She seemed to have returned to the innocent and innocent person she once was. Carefree Ye Fangfei.
A psychiatrist diagnosed her with traumatic personality disorder.After experiencing excessive pain, because he did not want to face the pain directly, he directly awakened his second personality to survive.
Gao Ting'an looked at her in disbelief, "Is this the way you choose to be reborn from the ashes? It turns out that it can still be like this, okay, it's good."
But in fact, judging from the contents of Ye Fangfei's diary, she was pretending all this, and she did not have a split personality.
She pretended very thoroughly and for a long time. Gao Ting'an took her to see a psychiatrist many times, and in the end he really believed that her original personality would not escape easily again.
Precisely because of pretending to have split personality, Ye Fangfei had the opportunity to see the truth step by step.
Gao Ting'an relaxed his vigilance towards her. One time he came home from a late night party and got drunk. When he saw her asleep, he sat by her bed and looked at her for a long time, and couldn't help but utter the truth.
"I know how hurt you will be after I do it, but I just want to see you and your brother in pain. Do you know how many years I have been waiting for this?
Why?
How come you can have enough food and clothing, grow up pampered, have a happy family, and have everything you want?
I could have been as happy as you, but everything was ruined by your parents.
Every cause must have an effect, right?
What I have endured, his children, Ye Genghua, should also endure twice as much.
Did he think that by hypocritically saving my life and sponsoring my study abroad, he could cover up the evil he had done?hypocritical!
Who is the person who used all kinds of tricks to kick my father out of the group under the banner of "justice"?Who is the person who left my father in a desperate situation with no hope of recovery?Who is it that refuses to save anyone?
He must have thought that I was too young to see through this, right?He must think that I have let go of the past because I have been respectful and polite to him all these years, right?
It's ridiculous. It's never too late for a gentleman to take revenge, right?
Feifei, don’t hate me. If you want to hate me, then hate your dad.
What you have in your family today is all caused by your father.Oh, your mother is also an accomplice.
Hey……
Alas...I took my revenge.
I did it, but why don’t I feel happy enough?
I should be happy. Seeing you in agony with my own eyes, I should feel very happy.
But I don’t know why, seeing you like this makes me feel uncomfortable.
So pathetic, you look so pathetic, it reminds me of myself.
I want to hug you, I want to save you.
Do you think I have any illness?
If you want to live or die, I can do a little better, but how can you have a split personality?
Now you are living happily in front of me like a normal person, but I don’t know what to do with you.
I shouldn't have married you.
I thought at first that I married you just to use you, to witness your pain with my own eyes, but I had a strange feeling in my heart.
Hey……
I wonder what my parents would think of me if they knew that I married the daughter of my enemy and were reluctant to let go in the end.
But you are actually innocent.
I watched you grow up, and I know that you are the only innocent person in Ye's family, but who made you his daughter?
I used to love seeing you laugh.
Your cuteness and innocence as a child were endearing and, of course, made me jealous.
Later, as you grew up, you became more unruly and free-spirited, and your smile became more spiritual. I often lamented that you really became what I longed for in my dreams.
Later, when you matured and learned to fall in love, that was the time when I disliked you the least, but that was probably also the time when you smiled the sweetest, right?Although I don’t know what you like about that man.
You are good at everything, but your taste in finding a man is a bit poor. That man is not suitable for you, he is petty and vulnerable.
Since you left him, I have rarely seen you smile.
I feel much better now that you are like this. You are a completely different person. I have forgotten the past. I laugh more recently.
I miss you like this.
Just leave it like this, don't think about the pain in the past, and completely forget the people you loved and hated. Then you will be the reborn Ye Fangfei, and I will feel better.
I have thought about it. From now on, I want to live a good life with you.
Shall we have a wedding?I will marry you again and start our life again.
You have been reborn, I believe my parents will forgive me. "
A sigh expressed how helpless it was.
He lay drunkenly beside her bed and fell asleep. In the darkness, a tear fell silently from the corner of the person on the bed.
According to the diary records, at Ye Fangfei's request, she and Gao Ting'an held a wedding.
Ye Fangfei was personally involved in the wedding preparations, ranging from the location selection of the hotel to the design style of the wedding dress, as well as the selection of small hotel accessories. Gao Tingan had no objection and left the entire process to her.
She acted very happy in those days, as if this was a wedding she had been waiting for for a long time and she was about to embrace happiness. Gao Ting'an's joy level also increased several times with hers. He tasted the feeling of happiness knocking on the door.
On the wedding day, there were many guests. Her red floor-length wedding dress was so beautiful that everyone else's hearts trembled. With the sound of music, she stepped towards Gao Ting'an step by step.
When the wedding ceremony was over, she said to him with wet eyes: "I specially prepared a dance for you. I named it 'Fire'. I want to dance it for you now. Are you willing?"
Gao Ting'an was moved with tears in his eyes, took her hand and kissed her gently, "Of course, this is my honor."
On the top of the mountain, she danced in a red wedding dress.
What a beauty, so stunning that people can't take their eyes away.
With one last movement, she spun and jumped into his arms.
Gao Ting'an was knocked unprepared and staggered, but he smiled heartily. The roar of applause rang out from the guests, wishing them happiness.
He hugged her heartily and subconsciously wanted to lean over and kiss her, but unexpectedly at that moment, a sharp object was violently inserted into his heart.
The next second, Ye Fangfei hugged him tightly and hit the guardrail.
Everyone screamed.
……
The night before the wedding, Ye Fangfei wrote a suicide note, which read:
“I don’t know how long it will take for enemies to be repaid, but I know that if I don’t take revenge, I won’t be able to live anymore.
Then let's die together.
Brother, if we are destined in the next life, I hope we will be born in an ordinary family and be brother and sister again!Or I can be your sister for once, if you don’t mind (*￣︶￣).
Don't blame me for leaving you alone, okay?Because every day I live I feel like I can’t breathe.
Brother, I will take the devil away with me so that he can never hurt you again.In this life, you have protected me countless times. This time, let me protect you.
Promise me to be a good person. Our dad is not a good role model. Don't imitate him.
Lu Zhou, I don’t know if you will see this letter.
In fact, I pray that you will no longer pay attention to my updates, so that you will not be sad because of my departure.
But if you are still paying attention, I want to tell you: the time I spent with you was the happiest stage of my life.
I'm sorry, the hurt you suffered was all because of me. If you had never met me, you might be happier, right?
Can you forgive me?Forget about me.
Don't be sad, because I'm finally free. "
……
After reading the diary to the end, Lu Zhou raised his hand and wiped his face, his hands were wet.
"Super Robot."
He sniffed and said to the AI system.
"Master, I am here."
"Start the shutdown mission."
"Received! Trying to initiate a comprehensive shutdown order for Super Robot without self-protection..."
(End of this chapter)
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