Weird recovery, I can't hide my god's identity

Chapter 33 Your ordinary daily life is an unattainable luxury for others

Some people are born in Rome, some people are born only as cattle and horses.

others,

I can't even be a cow or a horse if I want to, I can only be the mud under the feet of a cow or a horse.

……

Li Pingan got up early in the dark to cook, so that the old man would have a stutter when he came back from working in the field.

Breakfast is porridge.

Put more rice, and eat this at noon, beat an egg, pour some soy sauce and sesame oil into the porridge, and wash some sauerkraut pickled by yourself, it is enough for the two of you to eat for two meals.

"It's good not to be hungry."

Li Pingan, who was full and hungry when he was a child, understood how rare it is to be able to eat well, and thanked the country from the bottom of his heart.After all, as poor households, my father and I would starve to death without the help of the state and the monthly subsistence allowance of 1170 yuan.

As for mother...

Dead, before he could remember.

The old man didn't want to mention it, and he didn't dare to ask.

He just learned from occasional gossip in the village that his mother was mentally ill, and when she fell ill, she ran to the public pond and drowned herself.

The above family background has formed Li Pingan's withdrawn and taciturn character, and he is a bit sloppy. No one wants to play with him since he was a child.

Li Pingan sometimes thinks that if he is like other people’s homes, he can have a mother to shout, a house to live in without leaks, a TV to watch when he comes home from school, a mobile phone and various toys to play with. Just eat the meat.

Unfortunately, I can only think about it.

The reality is that he can only squeeze together with the old man in this adobe tile house that looks like a pigsty. It is dark, narrow, full of mosquitoes in summer and freezing in winter.

Li Pingan likes school.

Because the school classrooms are spacious, bright, and have fans, there are many students of the same age.

Although none of them like to play with him.

The teacher is also very good, at least I don't hate him.Of course, I can't say that I like it.

After all, Li Pingan is not smart, he has inherited the stupidity of the old man, so it is not bad to pass the exam.

Who would be impressed by such a student who doesn't have any bright spots?
The old man said that he would try to let him finish junior high school, but not high school. He is not suitable for studying, and his family doesn't have the money.

When Li Pingan heard this, he just silently picked up the porridge in the bowl.

He wants to study.

If life goes on like this, Li Pingan will probably be like many children from rural areas who go out to work after finishing junior high school.Find a black factory, work 10 hours a day, and get two to three thousand wages.Although it is less than others, it is better than only receiving subsistence allowances.

"Maybe I can save some money and buy two mobile phones, one for me and one for the old man."

He had a sweet dream.

But God, this fucking thing, often fails to fulfill your wishes.

The old man is dead.

die in the ground.

Going out to work in the sun, he fell on the ridge of the field and couldn't get up again.When they were discovered, they were already frozen.

Li Pingan wailed loudly. After crying, he stared blankly at the old man's body, looking at his dark, thin, wrinkled face, gray hair, severely crooked and curved spine, and his eyes closed tightly.

Everyone believed him when he said it was his grandfather.

Anyway, dad is gone.

The funeral was very simple. After all, Li Pingan didn't have the money to do it. Several older cousins ​​helped him bring his ashes back from the crematorium. A Feng Shui master chose a cemetery, buried it, and covered it with soil.

Looking at the round soil bag, Li Pingan didn't know what to say.

"Study hard, at least finish junior high school, and let Brother Hui help you find a job, so that you can at least support yourself. Although your father doesn't say anything, he always hopes that you will have a better life than him in the future. He told me I am a worthless person, at a young age, I don't know anything, I can only turn over an acre of land in my life, and being able to raise you is the most proud thing in my life..."

Li Pingan listened to his uncle rambling in silence.

The children of my cousin's family hid in the house under their mother's scolding, looking at him as if avoiding them like snakes and scorpions.

……

Books still need to be read, and life must go on.

It's just that only one person ate the egg porridge later.

"Do you want to go to school boarding?"

The old village chief came to ask.

"If you live in the school, you don't have to worry about leaking wind and rain in the dormitory, and there are fans. Although you live with other students, you can make friends."

I'm afraid that if he stays alone for a long time, he will easily cause problems.

Alas, no matter what, they are all from their own village. After several generations, they are all family members.

I can help a little bit.

"Don't worry about the money. You are an orphan. I will tell the brigade and your principal to help them apply for the reduction of tuition, accommodation, tuition, miscellaneous fees, etc. If you can be admitted to high school and university, you can continue to study. There are also bonuses in the village for undergraduates. .”

"Your family's land is reserved for you. When you work and save money, one day you want to come back and build a house. It will be used. Uncle will help you look after it, and it won't be taken away."

The old village chief chatted with him a lot before leaving.

……

After all, Li Pingan chose to move to the school, but he didn't move completely.

He hated the old man.

Rest in the school dormitory at noon, come back to sleep at night, and cook at home to take to school.

Lying on the simple wooden bed at night, he would talk to himself about what happened in school during the day, such as who made the teacher angry, who was mischievous and scribbled on the little girl's exercise book.

It seems that the old man is still around.

If things go on like this, Li Pingan will grow up day by day, stop studying one day, go out to the society to find an ordinary job to make a living, learn to save some money, build a house and marry a wife in the future, it will be very good.

But oh my God, it doesn't always do what you want it to do.

I don't know from which night, Li Pingan felt a little uncomfortable.

It's just a stomachache.

To be precise, it was the upper right abdomen, below the ribs, and the pain made him unable to sleep at night.

At first I thought it was a gastrointestinal problem, so I went to the pharmacy to grab some medicine, but it still hurt after taking it, it hurt at night, and it started to hurt during the day.

"Just be patient."

It's not that he doesn't want to go to a big hospital. It costs a lot of money to see a doctor in a big hospital. He has never entered the gate of the County People's Hospital in his life.

Li Pingan became thinner and thinner, as thin as skin and bones, and began to lose his hair.

The uncle asked him if he didn't eat.

In fact, no, Li Pingan was hungry and scared when he was a child, and would eat it every day, but what he ate seemed useless.

Until one day, he passed out in the classroom and shocked everyone.

My cousin came in a hurry, and together with the teacher, sent him to the ambulance.

The test results came out, liver cancer is advanced.

You said that a 14-year-old child has advanced liver cancer?
Everyone can't understand.

"In the future...do I have no books to read?"

Li Pingan stared blankly at the birds flying by outside the window.

The cousin was silent.

Terminal cancer, anyone who has heard it knows what it means.

Li Pingan only stayed in the hospital for two days before returning home.

My cousin helped him pack his school stuff, especially his books, and then called in sick.

"After I recover from illness, I will still go to study."

Li Pingan barely propped himself up, sat in front of the simple table and chair, and slowly flipped through his books under the dim light.

The handwriting is so ugly, if I had known it earlier, I would have asked Li Fang how to make the handwriting look good.

I don’t know how to do this question. If I knew it, I would be bold and ask my math teacher.

What does this passage mean?It would have been better if I had known that I would not be distracted during class.

……

"Teacher, why didn't Li Pingan come to class?"

Finally, some students couldn't help but ask.

Although Li Pingan had no sense of presence in the class, and everyone was unwilling to talk to him, the students who came to study here were all children from several nearby villages, and they knew each other's details. They had also heard about Li Pingan's family situation.

"Li Pingan is sick, and he will come back when he recovers." The head teacher squeezed out a smile.

It's a pity that when the new semester began in the spring of the next year, everyone couldn't wait for that dark, thin and taciturn boy.

After graduation, the whole class took a group photo together, but I didn't see the boy.

boy he...

Probably to be a carefree bird.

(End of this chapter)