The days of being a spiritual mentor in Meiman.

Chapter 229 Loki

Loki admitted that he had always resented Odin for being eccentric, but when the subject of eccentricity became himself, he felt a well-deserved fear, and now, this fear turned into deep confusion, Because an alien medical examination machine told him that he wasn't even an Aesir.

Odin's great reputation does not come from sitting on the throne. He conquered the universe, leveled the Nine Realms, and traveled to every branch of the World Tree. All enemies trembled under his thunder. If you start from those conquered From the perspective of the tribe, Odin is definitely a tyrant.

Odin can also be called a racist, and he treats people outside the Aesir without mercy, at least in Loki's perception.

So here comes the question, he is not Odin's own son, not even the Asa protoss, so why is Odin suddenly treating him so well?
Loki was leaning on the head of the bed with one arm on his forehead. He himself felt that this question of his was ridiculous. He would actually question why Odin was so kind to him one day.

In the living room of the apartment, Thor finally figured out the electric clothes hanger, and then successfully hung his work clothes on it. At this moment, he heard the door of Rocky's bedroom slammed, and turned around to see Rocky standing on the door of his bedroom. under the door frame.

"What's the matter with you?" Thor asked very puzzled.

"I want to ask you a question." Loki looked at Thor and said, "I obtained the priesthood of the righteous god before you, and I can freely enter and exit Asgard without being deprived of divine power or weapons. I even have the energy to laugh at you..."

"When you learned of this fact, did you feel that Odin was biased?"

"Of course!" Thor stared at Loki and said, "I really can't figure it out, how could you be the first to get the priesthood of a righteous god? Do you have any military exploits?"

He grabbed the collar of his overalls and shook it violently, as if he was venting his anger, and said angrily, "I am stronger than you in terms of divine power and military exploits. How could the father of the gods..."

He breathed out fiercely through his nose, paused for a while, and suddenly seemed to be discouraged, and said: "Well, I actually figured it out, I caused trouble, right? He was very angry, so he put me I was exiled here, and then gave you the priesthood of the righteous god, and asked you to come and laugh at me..."

Thor lifted his arm up and said: "Very well, he succeeded. Now the question I think about every day is, can I buy an extra case of beer with the salary I receive next week? I am no different from these ordinary mortals." , even worse than them, even dare to order a small portion of fried chicken..."

"You won, okay?"

Loki stood by the door, looking at Thor's expression, speechless.

"Why hasn't your rather intelligent brain managed to convince you for so many years that he really is a single-minded idiot?" Venom asked him.

"The physical examination report shows that there are some problems in your brain." Venom's tone suddenly became a little brisk, and he said, "It just so happens that I know a very good psychiatrist, who may be able to solve the entanglements and questions in your mind. Anyway, idle is idle……"

"Psychiatrist?" Loki's tone was a little puzzled, "Asgard doesn't have such a profession."

"Trust me, it will work."

Half an hour later, Schiller took a new medical record from a nearby shelf and asked, "Name?"

Loki was a little distracted, and Schiller asked again before he replied: "Rocky."

"What about the last name?"

Loki hesitated and said, "Odinson."

"Your pronunciation of this surname is a bit peculiar. Judging from your current English level, this should not be a pronunciation error. Do you have any opinions on this surname?"

"So your so-called psychiatrists just keep asking questions for me to answer?"

"If you feel that you need treatment, try to cooperate with me instead of trying to turn against the customer." Schiller wrote on the medical record without looking up: "This is not a business negotiation, you don't need it." Fight for the initiative, I am not your enemy, you don't have to use words to interfere with me."

"This is very novel." Loki put his hands on the table, leaned forward slightly, and made a confident gesture.

"You seem to get used to this way of speaking, wanting to gain the initiative no matter who you are talking to, which is beneficial in most cases, but there may be exceptions."

Loki opened his mouth and said, "No, not all of them, at least in the face of..."

He shook his head, as if he didn't want to say the name.

"Why don't you say your father's name?"

Schiller saw that when Loki heard the word father, his fingertips moved slightly, and then he heard Loki say, "Because it might not be..."

"Not what?"

"He may not be my father." Loki's tone was pretending to be relaxed, but the muscles in his neck trembled, and even his entire shoulder became stiff, and Schiller glanced up at him.

"How did you feel when you said this sentence?" Schiller looked at him: "Maybe there is the answer you want hidden in it."

The trembling in Loki's fingertips began to spread to the back of his hand, followed by his wrist and forearm, but disappeared in an instant.

"You seem unwilling to admit this fact, but you feel that you have no reason not to admit it, but you just don't want to admit it, why?"

"I don't know." Loki's voice was a little hoarse.

"Although I don't need you to tell all your secrets, you can't say nothing, especially at this moment, you should have a lot to say and a lot of questions to ask."

"Why, are you still fantasizing about a better listener than me? Then maybe I can call Strange and ask him to ask if Odin is awake..."

"No, no..." Luo Ji instinctively denied.

"Every time you mention Odin, you seem to be a little afraid, why?" Schiller tilted his head, looked at him and said.

"There is none who does not fear the Father of the Gods."

"Listen, this is not an exam. I'm not asking you to find a perfect answer to my question." Schiller said helplessly.

"When I ask you a question, you can use this question to ask yourself, and then give yourself the answer in your heart. If you are willing to tell me the real answer, the treatment will be more effective. If you are not willing, then does not matter."

Loki was silent for a long time, but still sank his shoulders, let out a breath, and said, "I am indeed afraid of him, because of his majesty and strength, and more importantly...I am not Thor."

"Thor can certainly not be afraid of him. No matter what he does, the father of the gods will clean up the mess for him, and this time will be the same,"

"...But I can't." Loki's fingertips rested on the table, leaving a shallow reflection, he looked at his fingers and said, "I can't make mistakes like Thor, especially, I can't make such stupid mistakes. mistake."

His lips moved, and then he said, "He won't put up with me."

"I have to stay in awe." Loki's voice began to break free from that complicated emotion, and his mind seemed to get back on track, and he began to become more engaged.

"I'm not special to the All-Father, and I'm not even sure if I'm as important to him as those brave Asgardian warriors."

Schiller held the pen in his hand, changed his posture, and said: "Because the relatives you value are unwilling to give you definite feedback, so you can only keep lowering your own expectations and convince yourself that as long as he treats you Without overt hostility, you just get by."

"But that's not the answer, especially when there's a contrasting example, self-deception doesn't last long,"

Loki supported the edge of his eyebrows with one hand, and said in a daze: "But the problem now is that during this period of time, I became the one who was eccentric, and then I just discovered that maybe he originally did That's right, because I'm not his own..."

Schiller shook his head and said: "There is a concept that has caused some confusion. Whether there is a blood relationship or not is not necessarily directly related to whether he is partial."

Schiller explained: "The superficial logic is that if you are not his biological, then it is only natural that he treats you badly, but the question is, if you are not his biological, how did you become his son? "

"The background story may be very complicated, but one thing must remain the same, that is, your father should have picked you up from somewhere, and we have no idea what kind of mood he had in picking you up. I know, but there is a fact that, knowing that you are not his own, he still raised you up to such an age."

"If his purpose in raising you is to favor your brother and ignore you, why on earth would he pick you up?"

"Well, I'm assuming that there is a certain interest in it, such as the benefits of raising you, which will drive him to pick you up and raise you, and he doesn't want to have another son in his heart, so that's why Deliberately eccentric, thus ignoring you."

"If this is the case, then you don't need to worry about it, as long as you find out what conspiracy is behind this, and then find a way to get back at them."

Schiller propped his cheekbones with one hand, then looked at Rocky and said, "You should have thought of this possibility the moment you learned this fact, so ask yourself, what are you still struggling with?" ?”

Loki was silent.

His eyes began to calm down, and he said: "I tried to convince myself that he was good to me during this period of time, but he was just a small favor. I speculated on many possible conspiracies, and even made several plans to investigate my real life experience. Now , I should have appeared on the Rainbow Bridge..."

Rocky's eyeballs moved down, as if thinking about something, and he said: "But the reason I'm here is because when I'm about to put these plans into practice, when I want to go in the opposite direction. When I took that step, I found..."

His voice was extremely low, like a stone blown to the edge of a cliff by the wind, his fists were slowly clenched, and then he said in disbelief: "...I don't seem to want to do that."

"Why do you think this is?"

Rocky shook his head, looked at Schiller and said, "You're the doctor, aren't you?"

Schiller took the pen and twirled it in his hand, and said: "This is the misunderstanding that most people have about psychiatrists. Most of the time, we are a listener, and we are not responsible for giving answers."

"In other words, in fact, many people already have the answer in their hearts, but they don't want to admit it, so they ask the doctor, hoping to get a different result. Sometimes, we see this, but we don't expose it, just because Not everyone can take the thrill."

"Do you think you can?"

"I..." Loki tilted his head and murmured, "I think, of course I can..."

"Well, maybe you should have discovered it too." Schiller looked at Loki and said, "Your resentment for Odin's injustice and jealousy for Thor can't cover up your desire for family affection."

"Whether kinship really exists or not, you have been deceiving yourself for so many years, and blood relationship is precisely an important pillar of this self-deception."

"Today, after this pillar was shattered, you found that your instinctive action was not to uncover the truth and take revenge on these people, but to find another pillar in a panic..."

"You suddenly find that you are weaker than you thought, easier to compromise, indulge in some illusions woven for yourself, unwilling to wake up, not as smart, decisive, and vicious as you thought, even if it is a possible shocking conspiracy Neither hatred nor hatred made you make up your mind."

"As long as those relatives in name give you a little sweetness, you are willing to desperately find some reasons to deceive yourself and get by..."

"You find that, compared to a god who never makes mistakes, you are more like the ordinary people you have always looked down upon."

"Or, compared to ordinary people, you are more like a dog chasing a little bit of minced meat..."

"enough."

　The main character finally went to work.

If only I could go to work at this frequency.

　
(End of this chapter)