The days of being a spiritual mentor in Meiman.

Chapter 1126 Father and Son (53)
The snow in Asgard is always more romantic than that on the earth, and the rootless water that falls on this empty island floating in space is lighter than other places.

When the fluttering snowflakes fell on the window, the ice flakes spread from the edge of the window frame, and the shadows of several people could be seen dimly.

Wearing armor and cloak, only Loki, who didn't wear a crown, looked very indifferent. He said to the two attendants and an etiquette officer in front of him: "I'm sorry, but what I said is true, Asgard is not You don't need so many attendants anymore, you can go home."

The two attendants looked down at each other, and the ceremonial officer looked up at Loki's wink, and then he asked in a deep voice, "Your Highness, I'm sorry, but may I ask, whose order is this?"

"You are my attendants, of course this is my order." The expression on Loki's face began to look a little impatient, but he still explained patiently, but the three people opposite him had no intention of leaving at all. .

Loki didn't say any more "Can't you understand what I'm saying?" or similar threatening words, he directly took out the hammer from his waist, weighed it in his hand, and said: "I'll return it later Something, if you don't leave here again, I can only change another way, please leave."

The three people in front of Loki glanced at the hammer in his hand, then looked at each other, then saluted and left.

Loki could even hear their whispers as they left.

But Loki was not angry, he just weighed the hammer in his hand, then looked at the hammer and said: "Now I understand that the hammer is really useful."

He sighed and turned to leave. As soon as he walked out the door, he saw another figure in a robe and a crown waiting for him at the end of the corridor. It was the old Loki.

Loki walked over and said, "Why are you here?"

Old Rocky shook his head and said, "I'm different from those brats, I have to remind you, do you know what you're doing?"

Loki lowered his head and smiled, then looked up at the old Loki and said, "It seems that you have adapted to staying here, much better than others."

Old Loki's eyes were calm, he turned around, stood by the window, looked at the heavy snow outside the window and said: "I haven't been home for too many years, even if this is not my home, it is better than the barren end of time, Much better."

After speaking, he turned his head back, looked at Loki with a serious face and said: "This is not what you should do, you can't order them to leave here, and you shouldn't order them, you are not the king of Asgard. "

Old Loki sighed and said: "In your universe, Thor has become the new king of Asgard. He has always protected Asgard's warriors. You treat his subordinates like this, except for giving you two It will serve no purpose other than to create contradictions."

"Do you think Thor is stupid?" Loki asked back.

Old Loki sighed and said, "Thor is the stupidest man in the world, but at the same time, he is the smartest man."

"He always behaves stupidly, doesn't care about details, doesn't know how to wink, as if he can't see anything, but I know that it's not that he can't see it, it's just that he doesn't care."

"You really underestimated your weight in his heart." Loki looked at the old Loki and said, "Do you think Thor won't care that these people treat you poorly?"

"Isn't this always the case?" Old Loki smiled wryly and said, "I'm not the heir, so who cares about me?"

"But you are still Asgard, one of the only two princes." Loki looked at the old Loki. Although he used the second person, he seemed to be talking to himself: "You are Odin's son." Son, Thor's brother, why do you think they don't care about you?"

"But in their hearts, I am not as important as their subordinates." Old Loki stared into Loki's eyes and said, "Whenever I conflict with the Asgard warriors, whose side is Thor on? Who do you think is a vexatious person?"

Old Loki looked at Loki with a mocking look and said: "Your reputation in Asgard is so bad, half of the credit comes from your good brother, he never understands you, he only thinks you are naive , and then apologize to someone else instead of you."

"It's the most naive idea to expect everyone to understand you sincerely." Loki said unequivocally:
"Everyone has everyone's suffering, and everyone has everyone's rush. If someone is willing to take a second to understand your suffering, it means that he loves you."

"Why can't you ask for more?" Old Rocky said bitterly, "Why, you will never be the most important person to others?"

When an old Loki and a young Loki stand face to face, they seem to be looking in a mirror, and every word they ask is not asking each other, but asking themselves.

"Maybe, it's just my bad luck." Loki's tone seemed a little light.

But when he heard his answer, Old Loki seemed a little sluggish, and then he asked in a broken voice: "You just accepted your fate like that?! You still have so many opportunities! You are very young! Can you still go back to the world?" Asgard! Why can't you fight for it?!"

"What to fight for?"

"You have to be the most important person in someone's heart! Rocky! Ask yourself!"

"Why, you will always be second? Why, there will always be someone more important than you? Why, no one values ​​you the most?!" Old Rocky's tone was like waves in the wind. higher.

"Why do you always want to be someone in the eyes of others?"

Just a short sentence, let the waves in the storm suddenly subside.

The old Rocky looked at his young self, with tears in his eyes, the corners of his mouth wanted to rise, but he couldn't control it, and tremblingly said: "I always think, if I didn't leave at the beginning, maybe , I have already got everything I want, but I understand that even if I don't leave, I won't get it..."

"Why do you want to be the person in the eyes of others?" Loki repeated the question again, but this time, he was no longer asking the person opposite.

"Loki, since you were born, you have been an orphan abandoned by the world. You shouldn't have existed. Only when they love you and pay attention to you, do you feel that you are not superfluous." Loki murmured softly.

Looking at the tearful old Rocky, Rocky's tone sank, like a piece of music played to the end.

"But if someone says he loves you, you'll think he's lying, because you know you're redundant."

"If someone loves you with actions, you will feel unworthy, because you know that you are redundant."

"When will I be able to reconcile with my own existence?" Loki's green eyes shone with moist light, like emerald stones at the bottom of a spring. He suddenly changed his person, looked at old Loki and said:

"How much love do I have to get from others to prove to myself that I should exist, and how much response do I have to get before I can convince myself that I will always get a response..."

"...I don't know." Loki shook his head and said, "All the greed in this world is pessimistic in nature—if you don't have it now, you don't think it will happen in the future; if you can't have it all the time, you think it will Never."

Loki looked down at the hammer in his hand again, and said, "Even if I had it once, I still resent why it's not enough, why I can't always have it, why others have it, but I don't have it."

"Greed is the curse of all intelligent beings. It makes us want endlessly from others and never be satisfied. We love and hurt at the same time."

Loki took another half step forward, looked into the cloudy eyes of the elderly Loki, and said, "And I can be more calm than you because I admit it."

Loki smiled, but it looked like he was crying.

He looked at old Loki and asked seriously: "Too many people have told me with his actual actions that the end of the road to greed is to lose everything."

"Have I reconciled with myself? No, don't I want to prove my existence? No, have I recovered from my illness? No, it's just that when I think that I will lose everything, I am reconciled."

Old Loki pinched the window frame with his fingers, and his veins were clenched. Where his fingers touched the window, the ice flakes slowly melted.

Loki sighed and said: "And you are not reconciled because, as long as you don't go back, you can assume that they will exist forever, but will they really exist forever?"

"Stop talking." Old Rocky's Adam's apple trembled violently, but Rocky continued speaking quickly: "It's not like you have to hang out with those brats, and it's not like you don't have the ability to leave there. A barren land..."

"It's just that you know that Ragnarok is bound to come, and you are powerless to change everything, but as long as you don't go back, Asgard in your memory will always be so beautiful and brilliant."

The tearful old Loki fell silent.

After a while, he looked at Loki's immature face, but suddenly showed a smile, and then said:

"You're right, I remember everything there, every cloud, every drop of water, every twilight, every thunderstorm that swept across the sky."

"Perhaps, I will never be able to return to my hometown, but perhaps, I have never left my hometown." The elderly Loki smiled while crying,
When Loki looked up at him, in his eyes, he saw the evil smile unique to the evil god Loki.

"Perhaps, what you said is right." The old man Loki lowered his arms, stood in the light reflected from the snow, and said briskly, "But there is only one thing wrong."

"I can't do anything about Ragnarok? No, Ragnarok will never come..."

Old Loki stretched out his hand, and Loki slowly opened his eyes wide because he saw a spot of light appear in Old Loki's hand.

The light spot gradually became larger, emitting a soft light, and when the light dissipated, there were endless cosmic stars in the tiny cold light.

In the cold radiance seeping through the heavy snow, Loki's attention was attracted by the small universe. When he looked in through the stars in the universe, Asgard, which was no different from reality, was also descending. It snowed heavily.

Thor led his comrades rolling in the snow, Odin was patrolling his fleet, Frigga cast magic and restored the frozen fountain to its original state...

When Loki saw the gleam in their eyes, he understood that this was not an illusion, not magic... this was a real universe.

When Loki looked up at the old Loki again, he disappeared, even the traces left on the ice flower disappeared, as if he had never existed.

Following his instinct, Loki slowly stretched out his hand and pushed open the window in front of him.

But outside the window is not Asgard under heavy snowfall, but a warm study room.

An old man was sitting in front of the table. When the fire from the fireplace shone in his eyes, it was like the rays of the setting sun on a piece of green moss.

He blinked sleepily, picked up the quill, and began to write an ending to a story.

But Loki stood in front of the window, shouting towards the empty snow field.

"Who are you?!!"

The birds in the distance were startled, and the small black spots fluttered and turned into ashes and fell. The firewood in the fireplace was about to burn out.

The last word was written, but the creator seemed to have more to say, so he picked up the pen again and added a comment to his favorite story recently.

And amidst the wind, Loki heard a voice coming like a hallucination.

"Unfortunate people don't need to look for their own existence in others. What can best prove their existence is their beautiful and gorgeous inner world."

"The roar of an angry person is like a song, the tears of a sad person are picturesque, and the unfortunate person should write a wonderful story about their tenacious life overcoming misfortune and suffering."

"Let go of your inferiority complex, erase your unwillingness, and throw away all self-pity and self-pity. I only hope that the knife and pen are clanging, the wind and clouds are thundering, and wherever you look, you can hear my cry."

"If one day, I become a small spark in the boiling furnace that casts others' iron will, those emotional voices that stir up and down for wonderful stories, will regard suffering as thin as paper, and choke the throat of fate, Prove my existence."

"who am I?"

"I am a child, a child who loves stories, and a father, the father of all stories."

I am... the god of stories, Loki. "

(End of this chapter)