The days of being a spiritual mentor in Meiman.

Chapter 1063 Shocking the Worldly People (38)

As the lights came back on, Steve's movements began to reverse, and he kept backing away, back to the door of Stark Tower, before he entered the door, he looked up.Looking through the glass curtain wall of the Stark Building, into Stark's laboratory.

In the laboratory, Jarvis manipulated the robot's body and replaced his arm with a strange electric shock device.

Stark, who was lying on the experimental table, seemed a little silent. There was only the sound of "sizzling" electricity in the laboratory. It seemed that this place was not like a science center, but more like a prison full of torture instruments.

Suddenly, a portal appeared in the laboratory, and Loki and Strange walked out of it together.

"You came at the right time..." Stark said, but Loki looked a little shocked. He looked at Stark and asked, "Do you have to use suicide to find death?"

Stark, who was lying on the experimental table, nodded, and seemed confident, without any intention of wavering.

Stark turned his head to look at Strange, Strange looked at Loki and said, "Look, I've said it all, my mouth has worn out these two days, I just can't persuade him!"

After finishing speaking, he scrambled a little anxiously by the experimental table, and then said, "I said, he and Schiller are both lunatics, what is there to commit suicide?!"

Loki, who had just received the news, looked at Stark with a frown, and began to figure out his psychology. He thought much more deeply than Strange, so he also had a certain understanding of Stark's motives. understand.

A few days ago, Stark found Strange, hoping that Strange could help him complete the next plan, but the first step of the plan surprised Strange, and Stark wanted to The way to kill yourself is to find death.

Of course, Stark doesn't have to use such extreme means to find death. Perhaps he can ascend to the universe and search carefully to find traces of death.

But on the one hand.He must act decisively to complete this matter as soon as possible, otherwise, it is impossible to hide it from Steve or Professor X. This group of people with a high moral bottom line will never allow him to take such a risk. If the goddess of death does not allow him to come back, the loss It's not just the Stark Group.

And the fastest way is to die directly. From the daily communication with Schiller, Stark can also understand that the goddess of death is not completely fair, and special souls will receive special reception and attention. He believes that , as long as you die, you will definitely see the goddess of death.

On the other hand, Stark and Schiller can be said to be the same. Schiller does not accept any imperfection because of mental problems, while Stark does not allow any friend to sacrifice for him because of his natural sensitivity and sense of responsibility. .

And once such a thing happened, guilt and self-blame would make him restless until he had to pay for it with his own injuries and bloodshed, so that he could feel better.

Stark knew that every time Schiller went to the Goddess of Death to negotiate terms, he committed suicide directly on the spot. He also knew very well that even if Schiller was a mental patient, he would face the pain and fear of death. Say, in order to save them and the entire human civilization, Schiller died many times.

That being the case, why can't he die once?

He is also the savior of mankind, the most talented genius in the world, why can't he sacrifice others?Why was it someone else who was sacrificed and not him?This is Iron Man, he's always been thinking that way, and he's always been tormented by that thought.

During the period of helping Schiller to withdraw, Schiller was not the only one suffering. These superheroes and Schiller tortured each other.

Schiller felt sad, and the superheroes who were burdened with the double pressure of morality and friendship were not much better. Stark, who was already mentally unstable, became more anxious.

Various reasons prompted Stark to make such an extreme decision. Moreover, Strange tried to persuade him for several days, and he had exhausted all the reasons, but he could not shake his decision. Stark was very angry this time. firm.

But this does not mean that when facing death, he will not feel fear. This is not the front line of life and death on the battlefield. When the adrenaline has soared to the point of not feeling pain in order to survive, just listening to the electric shock equipment Starting to operate, Stark has already begun to feel extremely nervous.

In the dark and cramped caves of Afghanistan, when the first-generation mecha, whose safety was not perfect, fell to the ground at night when he manipulated the machine alone to perform surgery on the chest reactor, Stark always gritted his teeth alone, without telling anyone. People, he is actually afraid of both the dark and pain.

Schiller is playing Schiller, Stark is playing Iron Man, and Steve is playing Captain America. Everyone can see each other's abnormality, but they all seem to be unaware of each other. poke yourself.

Stark sighed, looked at Strange and Loki, and said, "If you treat me as a friend, then you should support my decision at this time..."

Strange put away the bandage in his hand, frowned and said, "I've said it, I've persuaded it, my mouth has been worn out these days, but you just don't listen, you must commit suicide, What can we do?"

"I've said it all, I didn't commit suicide!" Stark emphasized again: "I want to go to the goddess of death and get back the price Schiller paid. This matter must be resolved, right?"

Stark curled up his legs and put his arms on his knees and said: "Schiller paid a huge price in exchange for Howard and Maria. I can't simply tell him that what you are doing is wrong, so cancel the deal immediately. Lose."

"That's not fair to him!" Stark looked into Strange's eyes and said, "During the process of seeing Schiller for treatment, I expressed too much nostalgia for my parents, which led to , He thinks that I haven't been able to accept the death of my parents, that's why I took such extreme measures and paid a huge price to change them back."

"So, there's no way I'm going to find him now and say 'you're crazy, I didn't want to do this at all, it's all because of you, I didn't ask you to hurt yourself to help me, so cancel the deal immediately'!"

"Taking a step back, as a friend, I didn't realize that his extreme psychology and abnormal mental state are also my problem, and I have to take responsibility."

Stark sighed slightly and said: "Besides, if I ask Schiller to cancel the deal, then Howard and Maria may die again. Facing the fear of death, once is enough."

"What about you?" Strange couldn't help but said aloud, "You said that one time is enough to face the fear of death, so what are you doing now? That trip to Afghanistan that narrowly escaped death has not yet Let you understand how terrible death is?"

Loki, who is the most proficient in psychology among the three, folded his arms and looked into Stark's eyes and said, "Although you think this is a rational decision, I want to tell you that you didn't realize that you have been self-destructive all the time. Tend to?"

"You're always putting all the blame in the world on yourself for not being able to use the full potential of your genius brain, Schiller is driving yourself to self-harm, you're driving yourself to suicide, you're the same .”

Stark sat on the spot, bowed his head silently, and said tens of seconds later: "It should be said, you, me, Stephen and Schiller, the four of us are like carved out of a mold, and no one should Say who."

"You, Rocky Odinson, an Asgardian who is not Odinson, not even an Asgard, insists on finding a perfect way out for Asgard, without allowing any loss or sacrifice, even for this goal , ready to sacrifice yourself at any time."

"And you, Stephen Strange, never allow yourself to make mistakes, never leave yourself any escape route, and hold an artifact like the Time Stone, and you are not willing to give yourself a second chance for surgery."

Stark took a deep breath and said: "We are all constantly pushing ourselves, never accepting any imperfections, and all the pain we get for this is what we deserve."

The three people in the room fell silent. Loki, who was good at sophistry, and Strange, who was always stubborn, couldn't find any more reason to refute Stark at this time, because they knew in their hearts that in the glory In the league and even the entire superhero circle, the four people mentioned by Stark are the most similar.

Wisdom, calculation, patience, perseverance, greed, and arrogance, has been pursuing the endless road of perfection, and will definitely embark on a road of self-destruction in the end.

Strange sighed and decided to talk about some practical issues, so he said, "I have to remind you that the fear of death is on the one hand, on the other hand, it will definitely hurt..."

"Even if you don't know any medical knowledge, as long as you think about it with your brain, you should know that the stoppage caused by the current breakdown of the heart will bring unparalleled pain. Do you still remember the pain you had when you performed nerve interventional surgery? ? It will only be worse than him, not to mention, you still have to face death!"

"Facing death..." Stark murmured in a low voice, then closed his eyes, his body began to tremble gradually, before Strange could ask Stark, he gritted his teeth and said, "I feel a little cold……"

Strange just wanted to refute. This was obviously not the trembling caused by the drop in body temperature, but the limb twitching caused by extreme tension and anxiety.

But Stark didn't look at him, but looked at Jarvis, feeling Stark's gaze, and Jarvis said, "Sir, I'll get you a piece of clothing."

After Jarvis turned and left, Stark lay back on the bed a little weakly, tears began to accumulate in his eyes, just like a father who was full of pain but refused to show weakness in front of his children.

Loki sighed, looked out the window, and said, "Thor often taught me to learn to accept bloodshed and sacrifice."

"But the fact is that the most courageous thing in this world is to calmly accept the sacrifice of the one you love on the way to achieve your goal, and after that, you have to muster up the courage to go on the road again."

"Guilty is a good knife. Those who are pierced into the heart by this knife and can continue to move forward are the most fearless warriors in the world."

Loki closed his eyes, sighed and said:
"The only thing I admit that Thor is better than me is that he can not be overwhelmed by guilt and sadness after the sacrifices and deaths of countless comrades in arms, and he can rush forward bravely and forever."

Loki's tone was unexpectedly calm, this little prince who never seemed to bow his head, his arrogance made him never say such words in front of people like Thor.

"When we face Ragnarok, I am not afraid to be the first victim like Thor, but that does not prove that I am more courageous than him, because Asgardians have never been afraid of death."

Loki closed his eyes, and in his expression, there was no depression like when he talked about this topic in the past, only calm and distant.

If there were Asgardians here at this time, he would be amazed as to what it was that made the God of Deceit, from his tone, reveal the same loyalty and firmness as every Asgardian.

"Asgardians, I hope they have a father of the gods who will charge forward and sacrifice bravely."

"And I only respect the last god who has the courage to die, as the new king of Asgard."

(End of this chapter)