endless debt

Chapter 800 The Stranger

"Dennis! Dennis!"

The familiar shouts echoed in his ears, and Dennis could feel someone pushing his body, but he didn't want to respond, he just pretended that he couldn't feel anything, closed his eyes tightly, and curled up in the trench.

The roaring explosion sounded beside him, and the sand and dust repeatedly slapped on his body. He could feel the warm liquid flowing over his skin, and he could even feel that in the dark and muddy depths of the trench, there were some fat mice The flock is crawling quickly.

"Dennis!"

The shouting sounded again, and every call from the other party was like a heavy hammer, hitting Dennis's heart, knocking his will, heart, and dignity full of cracks.

"Shut up!" Dennis closed his eyes tightly, and kept roaring in his heart, "Shut up! Burrogo!"

"Dennis?"

The shout suddenly became softer. Dennis squinted his eyes. In his blurred vision, he could see a thin figure standing in front of him. His clothes were tattered and blood-stained, and the steel helmet on his head Covered with scratches and dents, he held a bayonet-mounted rifle in his hand, and blood trickled slowly from the tip of the knife.

Dennis couldn't see his face clearly, but he knew that the other party must be looking at him with eyes full of disgust and contempt.

Yes, my disguise is really ridiculous. I pretended to be unconscious, but my body trembled uncontrollably. Thinking of his self-deception, Dennis felt deeply ashamed and ashamed. When he got up, he didn't have the courage.

"Don't disappoint me, Dennis," the man continued.

What Dennis responded was still trembling and silence, the man was completely disappointed.

"Bologo! Where's Dennis!" bellowed another voice.

"He was knocked out by the bomb," Burlogo lied for Dennis. "Looks like he's knocked out...I can take over for him."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure."

"it is good."

Under the command of the commander, the soldiers began to gather. They will launch a charge to penetrate the enemy's defense line. This is an offensive to the death, and many people will fall on the way of the charge.

When the loud horn sounded, Dennis heard overlapping roars, and overlapping footsteps were moving away from him. He opened his eyes, only to see the familiar figure moving away quickly, until Disappeared in the thick smoke raised by the shells.

This was the last time Dennis saw Borrog. Later, I heard that their charge was successful. Not only did they break through the enemy's line of defense, but they also advanced all the way, reaching deep under the high walls of the sacred city...

"Dennis."

The calling sounded again, and it overlapped with the voice in memory. After a trance, the scorching air dissipated, and the scorched land of madness disappeared. There were only cars moving steadily forward, and Ivan sitting opposite Dennis.

"Bologo Lazarus," Dennis murmured, "I thought I'd never hear that name again."

Ivan asked, "Can you tell me the story between you and him?"

"This happened more than 60 years ago, and he is dead," Dennis didn't understand. "We are all just little people, forgotten by history..."

"No one has forgotten you," Ivan said solemnly, "I can't tell you the reason, but we want to know the story between you and him, which is very important."

Ivan bit his voice hard, and Dennis was stunned. In his eyes, Ivan's eyes became extremely bright, like crystal gems.

For a moment, the pressure that filled his heart disappeared, and Dennis felt an inexplicable sense of security from Ivan, as if all the secrets could be revealed to him.

Ivan asked, "The existence of Bologo seems to make you very painful. Why?"

Dennis said almost dreamily, "Probably...probably because of the difference between my expectations and my real self, which brings about a sense of separation."

Ivan nodded to himself, "Self-division."

As an interrogation expert, Ivan is well aware of this psychological syndrome. There is a contradiction between an individual's attitude and emotion towards himself and his own behavior and performance.

A person may think they have certain traits or values, but their behavior and performance are not consistent with those traits or values.This self-inconsistency often leads to inner conflict and distortion, negative feelings such as low self-esteem, anxiety, depression, self-doubt and fear.

Ivan didn't expect that Burlogo would cause such psychological problems to Dennis.

This is like an extreme perfectionist, full of exorbitant expectations of himself, leading to a huge gap between inner feelings and external performance, which in turn leads to a person's inability to accept his own shortcomings and inadequacies, and even collapse.

Ivan wondered why Dennis felt this way.

"I was very popular in Sequoia when I was young. I was big and mighty, talkative and active, and Burlog...he was a lonely kid, always alone."

Dennis continued, "I didn't have anything to do with him, but I hated him."

"why?"

"His eyes."

Dennis tried to describe the emotion, but as time passed and the situation evolved, he could hardly remember why it all happened. Looking back, it was so absurd.

"Others praise me a lot, but only him, he always has that indifferent look in his eyes," Dennis smiled self-deprecatingly, "Young and energetic people always think about other people's opinions, and when he looks like that When I was, it was like a blow to my pride."

"What brought you together?"

"War, crazy scorched earth fury, I joined the army with Bologo, and was lucky to be assigned together. Although we were separated in the middle, we still saw each other alive."

Dennis paused in his narration, as if he was organizing his words, he suddenly described his feelings, "Have you ever felt that way? Under the excessive self-confidence and arrogance, I have a feeling that I am the 'protagonist' .

I am like this. I have experienced countless battles. Under the interweaving of blood and fire, my military rank is gradually rising. I often imagine the scene after the war. I will be regarded as a hero and return with honor. "

Ivan said, "You become more and more arrogant."

"Yes," Dennis said approvingly, "I'm headed for ruin."

"It was a terrible battle. We just captured the Mistpit Fortress and marched towards the Holy City. The enemy's firepower was fierce. The trenches were like scars all over the scorched earth. We entangled there for several months. , the trenches are full of corpses, carrion, foul liquid, and rats eating the corpses."

Dennis' pupils gradually expanded, as if his soul had gone out of his body, and the depths of his eyes were filled with uncontrollable fear. Even after so many years, the nightmare was still clearly visible.

"I can often hear a huge buzzing sound. It is a swarm of flies flying over the battlefield. We piled countless corpses outside the trenches and fired as a cover. Sometimes the heads of the dead are facing me. He The pupils of his eyes disintegrated into gray turbid jelly, and the edges of the corners of his eyes were covered with white maggots...

My proud mind was completely crushed in that meat grinder hell, and when the commander ordered us to charge, I realized that this is a mortal advance. "

Dennis said softly, "I'm scared."

"go on."

The voice was stuck in Dennis' throat, and his expression gradually distorted, as if something was about to crawl out of his throat, and he looked like he was about to vomit.

"I closed my eyes and pretended to be stupefied, hoping to avoid the charge, but Burrog found me, and he called me to rise and lead them forward, but I had no such courage.

I was trembling with fear, this could not deceive Bologo, according to the law, Bologo should have shot me, but he didn't, when the commander called, he lied for me, and then he didn't look back left. "

Dennis suddenly laughed hoarsely, "Everyone knows what happened after that. Those who broke through the defense line and stepped into the sacred city died, but I survived by luck. I have been praised and decorated with medals. "

"But I know that I should also die in that light. I am not a hero, but a complete coward."

Dennis' voice was full of pain and pleading, "But they all call me a hero..."

Ivan looked at Dennis indifferently. Just as he guessed, Dennis had a great self-split, and the deviation between his personal expectations and actual actions distorted his spirit and became his nightmare. to date.

It is also through Dennis's real performance that Ivan can be sure that Bologo's past is real, and he is indeed from the town that has been destroyed.

"I thought about making up for Burlogo, trying to find his hometown, and telling others," Dennis said in agony, "I'm so stupid, Sequoia Town is gone, everyone is dead, how could I find him hometown."

Ivan wondered, "Hometown? Isn't he from Sequoia Town?"

"Bologo did grow up in Sequoia Town, but at the beginning, his family was not a member of Sequoia Town, but from the outside world. As for where he came from, his family never said, Burlogo I also thought that I was born in Sequoia Town. About this part, I also knew it from the mouth of the old people in the town."

Dennis' words darkened the clear mystery again.

"Bologo is a stranger."

(End of this chapter)