I work as a teacher at a girls' school in Tokyo

Chapter 329 Kuta Moshu finally made a decision... Let me be her
The hour of dusk has passed, the setting sun has faded, the sky is gray, and Tokyo has entered night.

Walking with the pace, the cool evening wind blows in front of you.Beside him, the figure walking slowly brought a sweet fragrance in the wind.

Hirakawa Tetsubun glanced to his right.

The eyes of Kuta Moshu collided.

The darkness of the night can set off the brightness of the gaze, and the gaze of the female teacher beside her, in the slightly dim night, passed through the barrier between the two and went straight to the heart.

Hirakawa Zhewen looked away a little uneasily.

"how?"

"...What?" Hirakawa Zhewen asked in a low voice.

"Why don't you dare look at me, are you guilty?"

"..."

"..."

"That's right." After a moment's pause, Hirakawa Tetsufumi turned around again, smiled reluctantly at Kuta, and admitted.

Kuta Moshu never left his eyes.

Sadness, sadness, disappointment... Looking into the eyes with such emotions, how can you not feel guilty.

Hirakawa Zhewen no longer knew how he should face her.

What's next?

do not know.

In fact, until now, Kuta Moshu has not given her answer—the answer about what will happen to the two of them next.

However, since at this time, after arguing with the three female high school students, Hisada called him out, so he wanted to talk about this topic, right?
Looking at the gentle and gentle face in front of him under the soft light, Hirakawa Tetsubun thought silently.

Kuta Moki interrupted his contemplation.

"Zhewen." She called his name.

"Yes." Hirakawa Zhewen refocused his attention.

He is a little nervous now, just like a long time ago, when he was still in school, he was suddenly called by the teacher in class.

The sight of the teacher standing on the podium and looking down at him is such an oppressive force.

"I'm very disappointed in you." There was no deviousness, Hisada Moshu's first words were very direct.

"..."

The words uttered plainly in the ears, the evening wind blowing on the face, and the eyes staring at the eyes.

Tetsubun Hirakawa nodded stiffly as if his old computer had been stuck for a long time.

"Yes...you should be disappointed."

"Do you remember what I told you when I left the coffee shop?"

"remember."

"Look at me and repeat."

There was no escape from the eyes.

Feeling the twinkling eyes, Hirakawa Tetsuwen spoke dryly.

"...No matter what, I hope I won't fall like this again."

"Yes, you still remember." Kuta Moshu nodded, and then asked again, "Then Zhewen, what is your answer to me?"

"..."

Hisuna Moshu answered the unanswerable question for him.

"I gave you time to think clearly, but your reply... was all such absurd answers. Even, in just a few days, my boyfriend, not only did not repent, but also found another girlfriend."

"..."

An apology would only seem powerless at such a time, and Hirakawa Tetsuwen didn't know what he could say at this time, except for silence, he could only be silent.

Kuta Moshu took a deep breath and didn't speak anymore.

I'm really tired.

Accompanied by the silence of the two one after another, followed by an increasingly suppressed air, which made the body heavy, the footsteps were slow, and the sound of the footsteps became dull.

Hirakawa Tetsubun lowered his gaze and stared at the ground, and walked forward step by step with Kuta Moshu beside him.

……

I don't know where I am going, and the unchanging concrete floor in front of me is not enough for Hirakawa Zhewen to make a judgment.

But he heard a voice, Moshu Kuta's voice, so he finally raised his head.

"Aren't you going to say something?" Kuta Moshu asked him.

"Say something... what?"

"your thoughts."

"..."

"What does silence mean?" Kuta Moshu looked at him.

Hirakawa Zhewen hesitated and shook his head: "...I don't know."

"I don't know. There are many meanings. One is that I really don't know, and the other is that I know that my answer is not suitable, so I can only say that I don't know. Zhewen, which one are you?"

"..."

"It seems to be the second type."

In this regard, Hirakawa Tetsuwen could not deny it.

……

Kuta Moki felt very sad.

After all, the teacher beside her could not escape the path of degeneration.

The current situation cannot be changed by a speech or an emotional vent by her.

He had fallen into the mire of depravity, and two hands on his body held him and prevented him from escaping.

One hand is Shiori Shinohara, and the other is Reya Hazuki.

His mind and body were bound by them.

Unless the two students can take the initiative to let go, then he still has a little chance of escaping.

However, Kuta Moshu also knows that some things cannot be turned back when they reach a certain point.

Hirakawa couldn't go back, neither could Shinohara and Ye Yue.

The holding hands are inseparable.

They plunged into the abyss of the same depravity together, and they were going to sink completely.

What can she do?

Seeing this teacher who used to be proud of his identity completely sink and degenerate?

To be honest, Kuta Moshu didn't want to do this.

After all, she still can't forget the phrase "Teaching good students is the bounden duty of a teacher"... Although this sentence is a great irony for the current situation.

But she still thought about this sentence, hoping that the teacher beside her could recall her original intentions, and recall the time when he stood on the podium.

They haven't broken up now, she is still his girlfriend, and she still likes him...the former him.

The sound of footsteps walking under the night light, sounded like a non-stop heartbeat, beating.

In Kuta Moshu's heart, she was making some kind of decision.

Make up your mind to end it, or...

"..."

Kuta Moki took another look at Hirakawa Tetsufumi.

He stared at the ground silently, no emotion could be seen from the profile of his face, but he followed her step by step, walking with her like a robot.

A robot waiting to be manipulated by humans makes one wonder whether the robot will be scrapped if it is kept away from him.

Kuta Moshu just kept watching.

……

The perception of the passage of time became dull, and Hirakawa Zhewen didn't know how long he had been walking like this. He only knew that there was almost no sound in his ears, just the monotonous reciprocating and depressing footsteps.

Finally at a certain moment, Hirakawa Zhewen still noticed the gaze that was always watching him.

He caught his gaze and put it in his eyes.

"..."

"..."

"Moshu." Looking at each other, Hirakawa Zhewen opened his mouth.

So he saw Kuta Moshu's eyes fluctuate.

The moment he called out his name, like a predestined coincidence, a look called "Determination" flashed in her eyes.

Did she already want to know what to do next?
Guessing, Hirakawa Tetsubun looked at this look, like a prisoner waiting for the final trial.

Kuta Moshu took a deep breath, and the cold winter air entered her mouth and nose, she let herself wake up a bit.

"Zhewen, let me ask you one last time."

She looked at him carefully, not letting go of the slight expression on his face.

"Tell me, what exactly are you thinking?"

"..."

Hirakawa Zhewen didn't respond again, his eyes became tangled - can he turn back now?
Go back and say to Shinohara Shiori: It's nothing, we're done, so be it.

Then, she said to Ye Yue: "Ye Yue, it's okay, the jokes about nurturing and so on are over, and there is no relationship between us anymore."

Can he do it?
The answer in his heart was so obvious that Hirakawa Tetsuwen didn't need to think too much, the answer immediately came to mind.

He absolutely can't do it now.

"..."

Kuta Moshu swallowed back the follow-up question.

You can know the answer just by looking at it, the follow-up questions, those persuasion, are useless...

——But as expected, human beings are, after all, creatures who will try their luck even if they know the answer.

He walked a few steps forward, raised his face again, and met Hirakawa Tetsufumi's eyes, Hisada Moki couldn't help it.

"Zhewen, do you really want to go on like this? Just get further and further away from your previous goal and remain indifferent?"

Hirakawa Zhewen was silent for a moment, and the words he uttered were difficult.

"...But, what can I do now?"

"Be firm and break free from them." Hisa Moshu's words were very firm.

"Get rid of them..."

"Yes." Kuta Moshu said, "After all, you don't owe them anything."

"Perhaps for them, you are a very important part of their life. You have changed them and are a salvation they cannot give up."

"But what about yourself?"

"For yourself, do they really make it impossible for you to break free?"

"I don't think you have that much responsibility to them."

"Prior to this, you have done your best. You have helped them, and you have a clear conscience."

"As for some accidents that happened during the period..."

"That was just an accident."

"You don't need to be responsible for the rest of their lives because of this."

"What happens to them afterwards is their own business."

"What do you think?"

"..."

"..."

"Moshu..."

"Okay, I know."

Hirakawa Tetsufumi just opened his mouth, and Kuta Moki knew what he was going to say.

She interrupted him, turning her face away sadly.

Sure enough, since you know it's useless, you shouldn't try it. The answer is in line with your expectations, and it has no effect except to make yourself sad again.

...It's just that everyone understands the truth.

Feeling the emotions and fluctuations in her heart, she slowed down her pace as she stared at Moshu Kuta, who was staring at the street lamp.

Most of the truths are actually understood by many people. Could it be that Pingchuan didn't know what she said?

I think I know it.

However, human beings are like this. Individual differences and the existence of sensibility make everyone face the same thing and make various choices.

Human beings are not completely rational creatures——find their own direction on the road of rationality according to the guidance of sensibility.

The most [correct] decision of Kuta Moshu at this moment should be to leave Hirakawa Zhewen and leave. From now on, whether this person is depraved or not, it has nothing to do with her.

But she can't.

Perceptual thinking and still existing emotions guide her direction.

In the wind at night, the wind that calms the mind, Kuta Moshu suddenly stopped in his tracks.

Hirakawa Tetsuwen also stopped.

"Moshu..."

"You can't listen anymore, can you?"

Kuta Moshu didn't give Hirakawa Zhewen a chance to speak, she stared into his eyes.

After a slight pause, he made his own judgment.

"Yes, you really can't listen anymore."

"It's too late, you're already stuck in it."

"The you now are not something I can convince you with a few words."

"I……"

"No, you don't need to speak." Hisata Moshu shook his head a little lonely, and interrupted Hirakawa Tetsufumi's speech again, "Listen to me next, okay?"

"..."

Hesitating, Hirakawa Tetsuwen nodded.

Along with the sound of the wind passing by, Hisada Moki's voice, the light voice of his voice, also blew into Hirakawa Zhewen's ears.

This is the last words Kuta Moshu left to him tonight.

……

"Zhewen, I know."

"The feeling of liking is not broken just because you say it. You won't give up just because of a few words from me. Even if it's me, I'm not such a determined person."

"Even though before I came here, I thought countless times, let's just call it a day...but I'm really sad."

"I don't like you now, but I still can't let go of you before, the one who can say with a clear conscience that you are an upright teacher."

"It's always hard for me to accept that you will become like this."

"I am very depressed."

"That's it, relying on the last trace of my liking for you...or, in other words, my nostalgia for the former you. This made me stand here, in front of you, and say these words to you."

When she said this, the female teacher in front of her paused for a moment, and her tone became more solemn and serious.

"Zhewen, I always think that it's okay to make a mistake."

"No one can guarantee that they will never make mistakes. Those 'problem students' in the eyes of ordinary people may also have a satisfactory life after many years."

"It's just that, in this, the guidance of others is needed."

"You need someone to pull you out."

"Did you also say that the former bad boy became the teacher of today, and the teacher who said in front of you that you can still be saved is because of her that you are what you are today."

"Now, let me be her."

"I also tell you that you are still saved, or rather, I hope you are still saved."

"Those who stretch out their hands to drag you into the mire, if you can't get rid of them, let me pull you out."

"You've always been saving other people's lives, now it's my turn to save yours."

……

"But, as you know, I'm the only one who can't do anything."

"In the final analysis, this kind of thing still needs you, and you want to come out yourself."

"Last chance, don't let me down again."

"I can't hold you forever."

"Whenever I'm tired, when I'm too tired to hold you and don't want to hold you anymore, it's time for me to give up."

"Remember?"

"The identity of a teacher is an honor. As a teacher—as a former teacher, you should understand this sentence."

"Recall carefully the first time you stood on the podium and faced the students. At that time, what were you thinking?"

"Don't let them ruin a life you should be proud of."

"The life in which I should have puffed out my chest and said I was a teacher."

"..."

Kuta Moshu left, turned around with red eyes, under the gaze of Hirakawa Tetsuwen, his back disappeared in the night wind.

(End of this chapter)