Siren Blade

Chapter 241
Blue Bird is forcing me to live with his own life as a bet, and I really can't turn a blind eye to this.

What she showed was no longer normal behavior, nor normal feelings, but a radical, heavy, sick love.

She wasn't originally like this.At the beginning, her feelings for me were undoubtedly normal love feelings, but as time went by, her love for me seemed to be gradually distorted and deformed, like a dry sponge slowly absorbing cold water under the eaves of a rainy day, the color gradually darkened, and it became damp and heavy.She encouraged me to violate and accept blood-biting, threatened and lured me to resurrect "it", and even got involved in life transfer technology, all of which originated from her distortion.

How can I not know.It's not her who is really twisted, it's me.It was my existence that made her have to twist her mind.Just like a seriously ill patient gradually wears down his family, I was too sick in my relationship with her, and even she was forced to suffer from heart disease.

Once, I swore to my heart that I must be honest with Jade Bird.Try not to hide anything from her, let alone lie to her.And in the small town outside Shangshen City, I lied to her in order to conceal the missionary's life transfer technology, which is undoubtedly a breach of the precept.

I thought it would be my first time breaking the precept, and it would also be the last time I broke the precept, but today, I broke the precept I set again.I verbally said that I wanted to resurrect "it" with my own hands, but in fact I didn't have that plan at all. This was just a lie I told to prevent the Jade Bird's service life transfer technology.

Since the purpose is to prolong my remaining life, it is ten times stronger to resurrect "it" than to use the semi-finished life transfer technology, presumably Jade Bird will give up the former for the time being.

The only problem with the latter plan is that although we have said the phrase of resurrecting "it" very lightly, the method of resurrection is in the hands of Baiju. To resurrect "it" means that I have to kill Baiju and get its memory. This challenge is really very difficult.It's just that in the end I have to find a way to stop the white horse anyway, and even the blue bird can't persuade me not to act.Rather, she also knows how important it is to stop Bai Ju, so it is even more impossible for her to actively dissuade me, an important combat force, from staying away from the battlefield.So she can only think about the future on the premise that I will survive.

It's just that, just as I know Jade Bird well, Jade Bird also knows me well.How far can the lies I told her work?

"So, after resurrecting the siren, how do you plan to arrange her?" She asked as if to test whether I was really thinking about the future, "For example, how do you solve her eating problem?"

"Just use my heart," I said.

"Heart?" She was taken aback.

"I don't intend to continue to let 'it' eat other people, no matter who they are. From now on, just let 'it' eat me alone." I racked my brains to weave my own lies.

Actually not completely lying.Although I consciously control myself not to think in that direction, I still can't help but imagine a few times what it would be like if I really resurrected "it" with my own hands.

First of all, "it" will only eat the fresh life that I just killed.And if "it" is allowed to eat living things by itself, "it" will definitely start eating at the deadly part of the prey.It's just that because they can't eat too much flesh and blood, some warlocks with very tenacious vitality may not have time to be eaten to death when "it" is full. This is something that has been said before.In the past, I didn't know the fundamental motive of "it" to do that. Now, combined with Bai Ju's explanation, it should be "it"'s instinct to spread death as a ghost from another world.

In other words, as long as I take the initiative to open my chest, "it" will eat my internal organs, especially my heart.And because I have the ability to regenerate super fast, I won't really die. An organ like the heart can regenerate as much as it needs, and I can keep "it" full every day even without going out.

And since my current super-speed regeneration ability comes from the Siren Blade, it will not consume "it" and become a waste of money.Although it seems that "it" is not consumed at present, it is only under the influence of the flesh that one thinks that one has it.In short, this approach generally works.

As for the pain caused during this cycle, I don't care about it until now.I'm used to physical pain.Not only the injuries I experienced after joining the Security Bureau, but I also suffered countless injuries that normal people can't imagine in the five years as a majin.

Qingniao obviously doesn't think it's indifferent, but on the other hand, I can use this to convince her that this kind of insignificant pain is my punishment, making my lie more authentic.

This level of punishment is still too light, I think.

Jade Bird seems to believe it for the time being, or is it that she still has doubts, and just thinks that making me at least verbally agree can be regarded as a gain?

"It's not just about eating, you also need to satisfy the sea monster's needs in the future so that she can't spread 'pollution' to the outside world..." As she spoke, she became more silent.

After a while, she suddenly asked tentatively: "In your eyes, which one is more important, me or the sea monster?"

"Or, if you can only choose one between me and the sea monster..." She hesitated again and again, and finally asked, "...Who do you want to choose?"

"I..." This question caught me off guard.

At the same time, I am also deeply aware that this is indeed a problem that I absolutely cannot escape.From the perspective of me in the past, who was just acquitted, "it" is obviously more important, so no matter how much the blue bird persuades me to give up, I will insist on chasing "it"'s severed hand.

And what about me now?I know very well that I should not appear unclear on such an important issue.

I was about to answer on the spot, but Jade Bird couldn't help but stop me, "Wait... Sure enough, forget it, you don't have to answer immediately. I don't want to force you to answer on the spot, what I want is your answer after careful consideration."

Hearing this, I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut.At the same time, a question emerged in my mind.

Although it seems contradictory to say so on the premise of giving up resurrecting "it", I still love "it" deeply.But, where exactly do I love "it"?

I am very clear about what I love about Blue Bird, but for "it", I have peeped into a field that I have never penetrated in the past.That's right, I love the part of "it" that seems human but not human, but if I ask more deeply, why do I love the part of "it" that is "human but not human"?
After living with "it" for so many years, I still can't understand "it".Obviously so, but I am here to tell the pale and empty love, just keep saying that the charm of inhumanity makes me fascinated.It's fine if it's just poor expression skills. In fact, I find it difficult for me to describe the deeper things of this emotion carefully.Even I myself gave up understanding "it".

Suddenly, I had a sudden, unprecedented, and impossible to ignore idea.

I am talking about loving "it" while refusing to understand "it", so what I really want to love is "it" or myself?
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Since I decided not to resurrect "it", I still have a crucial problem to solve, and that is how to ensure that the siren can live after I die.I already had a solution to this problem last time I mentioned it, so let's say it now.

That's what turned me into a Stage [-] undead before I died.

In this way, I will be in a form that cannot die or survive, and suffer endless pain in the darkness of losing all consciousness.

The Siren and my life are bound, and if I can't die, she won't die, or even die.Even if this is not the case, considering that the relationship between me and her is different, it is very likely that the "pollution" will be transmitted to her.

Because I didn't really die, she can still continue to manipulate the power of the true spirit through me.As promised in the past, I will become her weapon here.

She can move freely in the outside world, and when she feels that she has lived enough, she does not need to worry that she will not be able to die due to the existence of "pollution".The power of the true spirit can kill the undead in the second stage. Whenever she wants to end it, just kill me with her backhand.

She had taught me how to hide my thoughts from her gaze before, so she probably didn't notice when I was thinking about this matter.At the same time, if it is not necessary, she will not take the initiative to spy on my memory.I also tested her a little during this time, but she really didn't know.

In order to continue to hide my plan, it is inconvenient for me to transform myself into an undead right now. If I want to do it, I have to save it until the last moment.

I have considered this method very seriously, and there should be no mistakes or omissions in the practice itself.If there is any problem, it is that although I came up with it myself, even I am afraid.

I'm genuinely terrified of the despair and pain of being undead, and even I can't help but wonder if I've gone too far.

Bai Ju thinks that I have the eyes of a demon warlock, and Li Ming also said that I look like a person who wants to die, so let's assume that I have a heart like a demon warlock who pursues self-destruction.

And becoming an undead is something that even true demon warlocks would taboo.

The so-called disillusionment is to destroy the complete things and defile the beautiful things. It is the moment of transition from hope to despair.The end of immortality is eternal static despair, even a half-breed demon like Bite Blood will be afraid from the bottom of his heart.The original loser was also a demon warlock who pursued the destruction of his surroundings and himself, but once he became an undead, he immediately became ashamed, which is why.

But looking at it from another angle, would this be the right thing to do for me?Bai Ju once pointed out to me that I do not want to die all the time, thinking that it is my own punishment. This is because I want to escape from all pain through my own death, and I am trying to escape the "real punishment".

I can't deny his words.Compared with so many people I have killed in the past, such a simple death is really not enough to be called "real punishment", and I can't justify sending me to hell.What's more, punishment should not be something you want on your own initiative, but something you want to resist from the bottom of your heart.Since I'm so afraid, doesn't it just mean that it's something I have to bear?

There's also the question of whether the Sirens themselves will accept this.

I have no doubts about her intentions for me. If I switch positions with her and feel that it is unacceptable for her to bear such a huge price for me, then she will definitely not be able to accept my actions.Maybe after I become an undead person, she who appears in the real world will not live a free life outside as I wish, but will end my life and her own life on the spot.

What can I do to convince her to live?

And, I still need to find Bite Blood later, and let her send "it"'s severed hand beyond the earth's gravitational circle and orbit—although I was planning this, but the latter matter still hit a wall.

When I was leaving the blue bird's residence, she suddenly grabbed me.

"Give me the key. It's the storage item in the space where the Kraken's severed hand is stored." She said seriously.

"Why?" I had a bad feeling, and added, "This key is bound to my spiritual fluctuations, and you won't be able to use it even if you get it."

"A super master warlock like Bite Blood who is good at space transfer can teleport the severed hand of the Kraken to outer space. Although you promised that I would resurrect the Kraken, I still have to take some insurance measures in order to prevent you from entrusting Bite Blood to do so." Sure enough, she still had doubts about my words.

"If the key is with you, someone who covets the severed hand may attack you." I tried to find a reason to refuse.

"They don't know where the severed hand is. If they attack me, they will attack regardless of whether the key is with me." She refuted logically.

I can't find a reason to say no.If I continue to refuse, she will be convinced that I really want to use the power of biting blood to deal with the severed hand.

So I had to hand over the key.

After that, I returned to the task of exterminating the remnants of the previous night, and continued to investigate the whereabouts of Baiju and Liming.

And two weeks later, a letter signed "biting blood" entered my e-mail.

This is the first time I've gotten information about her after the dawn dream battle.

Due to the intervention of the blue bird, I have lost the reason to use the blood-biting power, and then I only need to concentrate on thinking about how to kill it.I admit that I am still a little soft-hearted about Bite Blood, and perhaps because of the blue bird’s idea of ​​making Bite Blood its own sharp blade, sometimes I can’t help but imagine Blue Bird standing majestically at the front line, and Bite Blood standing next to Blue Bird instead of me after I die.

Is it because I have reflected myself on the blood-biting body, so I can't help fantasizing about such a scene?

But that's just fantasy after all.When I think of the countless deaths and tragedies that she has personally created, I am even more determined to kill her.

I checked Bloodbite's letter.

But just looking at it, I fell into shock.

Her first sentence at the beginning of the letter reads:

"If you got this letter, I'm probably dead."

(End of this chapter)