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Chapter 1112 Emotional Problems
The thing that gave Ma Yongfang a headache was not just the complicated blood pressure adjustment of the patient in his hands.Her own private emotional life... made her uncomfortable even more.

Physicians have always had a more... difficult emotional life than any other profession.Maybe it can be slightly better than the soldiers who take care of everyone at home, and the line patrol workers and civil engineering personnel who spend more than 360 days in the wilderness for more than [-] days a year.

But only a little better.

The work of a doctor determines that Dr. Ma Yongfang is unlikely to have a regular weekend like everyone else.It is normal to be on night shift at every turn, to be on duty 24 hours a day, and even to have to work overtime.When she was still in Yunhe's outpatient clinic before, she was more tired than on the night shift in the inpatient department-the number of outpatients in the endocrinology department was much more than that of inpatients.At that time, in the outpatient clinic, it was normal to add [-] or [-] numbers a day.

The work pressure is extremely high, and the work intensity is so great that people question life.All day long, I deal with patients who are not very compliant and have their own ideas. Dr. Ma Yongfang's temper can be called a ghost.

When a doctor told the patient "not to drink porridge", the patient replied "I feel uncomfortable in my stomach, drink porridge to nourish my stomach" and also insisted on drinking white rice porridge, and when I can't mix any miscellaneous grains... A doctor who doesn't scold the street when he goes home They are all very cultivated and qualified.

Under such a working environment, Dr. Ma Yongfang never fell in love again.When she was still in graduate school, she once talked about a subject.But the other party failed when applying for a doctorate, and wanted to let Ma Yongfang, who had already applied for a doctorate program, go to work with him.

So the smart Dr. Ma Yongfang broke up with him immediately.You may have no way to continue your studies, or you can just go to work as a doctor-but it is too much to ask your girlfriend to stop your further studies to become a doctor yourself.

It is normal for people to have their own thoughts and ideas.But to interrupt a PhD because of personal selfishness, this has seriously stepped on the red line.

You can't be so selfish, or...don't get too involved with such a selfish person.Dr. Ma Yongfang made a decisive decision, and then devoted himself to study and work.No way, although I have seen the nature of the other party clearly, but the emotional investment in the past two years is not fake.The collateral damage of timely stops is still there, and she has to get all her attention elsewhere so she doesn't collapse right away.

When Ma Yongfang came to her senses, she was already an attending doctor.

The director of the Department of Endocrinology, who is also her doctoral supervisor, is very concerned about her students.Under her arrangement, Ma Yongfang had several fellowships with several other fellow doctors, as well as other "children of relatives" of her mentor.Among the blind dates arranged by the teacher, there was an accountant surnamed Huang who got along well with her.

But in the process of getting along with him, there has been a problem that has been bothering her-although she and her accountant boyfriend got along very well, Accountant Huang has always had little idea about the relationship between the two.

Accountant Huang was born in a divorced family. He has been living with his mother since he was six years old.Later, the biological parents divorced again after reorganizing their own families. After repeated several times, Accountant Huang developed a deep fear of marriage.He may not have noticed this fear himself at first.He still has the ability to love others, and he is willing to show his sincerity.But...he seemed to have no idea that there was something called "marriage" in the world.Accountant Huang has never considered whether to marry Ma Yongfang, he has no intention of breaking up with Ma Yongfang, and he has never been unfaithful.

But he just seemed to be ignorant of this concept, never considering that two people need a kind of certification called "marriage" after they have been together for a long time.

Ma Yongfang is different from Accountant Huang. Although she has studied all the way and obtained the highest degree that the education system can confer, she is still a relatively traditional person in her bones.Ma Yongfang has always hoped that she can be like Teacher Du, not to mention having someone who can support each other in career, at least she must have a partner who can always accompany her in life and emotion.

After Ma Yongfang voluntarily signed up to support the medical team in his hometown, such conflicts erupted suddenly.

Before Ma Yongfang set off that afternoon, she called accountant Huang who was staying in Yunhe.On the phone, she told Accountant Huang very carefully not to go out, and to take precautionary measures.Then, she said on the phone, "When we win, you have to comfort me."

Accountant Huang readily agreed, "Tell me, what comfort do you want? If you want the moon in the sky, then I will go to Florida to steal the rocket right now."

At this point, Ma Yongfang, who had no intention of continuing to say anything, suddenly felt moved, and she said half-jokingly, "Then you marry me."

In Ma Yongfang's cognition, her boyfriend should just say hello first, and deal with things first with words such as "Okay, okay, I'll start preparing now".Then I started to prepare for arranging the meeting of the parents of the two families, and then started to buy a diamond ring and other preparations for a series of marriage proposals.

After all, the two have been together for more than four years and almost five years, and there is a foundation for their relationship.In Ma Yongfang's view, marriage should be a matter of course and natural.

As soon as the half-joking words were uttered, accountant Huang remained silent for a long time as if the electricity had been cut off.Ma Yongfang said "Hello" on the phone for a long time before Accountant Huang said, "Let's talk about it later." Then he hung up the phone.

Accountant Huang's "Let's talk about it later" took a total of [-] days.Until Ma Yongfang couldn't take it anymore, she called again during the two days when the medical team was resting.

"I never thought about getting married." On the phone, Accountant Huang expressed his thoughts very straightforwardly, "It's not that I don't think you're suitable, it's not that I don't like you...I'm afraid of getting married."

These words hit Ma Yongfang's head like a bolt from the blue.As a normal person, her first reaction was that her boyfriend cheated.He must have fallen in love with someone else, otherwise how could he suddenly say such a thing?

But she calmed down quickly. After all, the two of them had a relationship. Even after she went to work in Ningyuan, accountant Huang still took the high-speed train to Ningyuan to visit her almost every other week.If there had been any emotional changes during this period, Accountant Huang should have proposed a breakup long ago, instead of delaying it until now.

"Why?" Ma Yongfang asked into the phone, "Is there a place for me in your planned future?"

"I've never thought about the future." The other party replied confidently, "I only look at the present, and I like you, but I beg you, don't force me. I really don't want to get married, I'm afraid of getting married."

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Every time Ma Yongfang thinks of this sentence, her teeth itch with hatred.If she had a time machine, she would definitely have to go back to the noon when the two met for the first time four years ago, and then give herself a hard kick at that time.

So stupid, so childish!This man never planned to be responsible from the very beginning!

She even asked Sun Li'en about this issue, and after a few days of wild thinking, she even had a glimmer of hope - it wasn't that there was anything wrong with Accountant Huang, it was just his experience that brought about the current result.Unexpectedly, Sun Lien's answer directly shattered her fantasy, "I am also very afraid of getting married, but if it is with Hu Jia, I think I have the courage to try it."

Ma Yongfang didn't know what was wrong with her, that's why accountant Huang didn't even have the courage.Or from the very beginning, those days of sweet talk about you and me were all scams.No matter how she thought about it, she couldn't feel better.

After returning to Yunhe for so long, she didn't even contact her family once.She really didn't know how to deal with this situation - before when her parents asked about her marriage, she would directly take the matter to herself, saying that she had no time to think about personal matters due to work reasons.

But now?What about in the future?

After talking with Sun Li'en, Ma Yongfang sat in the corner of the green zone, depressed and extremely irritable.She closed her eyes and wanted to cry hard, but she couldn't squeeze a single tear from her eyes.

After a while, Xu Yourong stepped out in high heels.She sat next to Ma Yongfang in silence for a while and then said suddenly, "I actually envy you."

Ma Yongfang was taken aback for a moment, her sad and sad emotions were still lingering in her heart, so her tone of voice was not very good, "You are already married, what else is there to envy?"

"Yes. I'm married." Xu Yourong smiled bitterly for the rest of his life, "It's not easy for a person like me to get married. But I still think that before getting married, there should be... There should be some process."

Xu Yourong actually didn't have extravagant hopes for marriage.After all, the domestic situation is special, and Rachel is not Chinese yet.If she wants to marry Rachel, she has to overcome three difficulties in a row—the K1 visa she applied for in the United States, the marriage registration between her and Rachel in the United States, and the Q1 visa for Rachel to come to China.

The biggest difficulty is the Q1 visa. Xu Yourong doesn't know whether his and Rachel's marriage certificate can be recognized by China.But at the time in America, the immediate priority was to get Rachel out of the correctional mental institution.She really can't care about other things.

If she is not in such a hurry, she wants to arrange a marriage proposal ceremony, order a proposal ring, have the witness of relatives and friends, and get the blessing of her parents.She wanted to take out the ring in the Provence lavender fields where lavender bloomed all over the mountains, and then asked Rachel with a smile on her face if she would like to support each other for the rest of her life.

Although the partner she likes is a woman, Xu Yourong herself is also a girl.What girl doesn't like such a ceremony?
"I can understand that my situation is different from other people's. I can also understand that the situation at that time did not allow me to engage in these rituals." She told Ma Yongfang her story, "For me , as long as Rachel can be rescued from the mental hospital, I can accept it. But after the two of us secretly found a registration point and completed the registration, I still feel regretful. This is not a conflict."

Ma Yongfang looked at Xu Yourong in surprise, she had never said these things before - Xu Yourong was indeed not in the country for more than a month at that time, she thought Xu Yourong was on vacation at the time.

"Sun Li'en asked me to persuade you, and I agreed. But I'm actually not very good at persuading people." Xu Yourong stretched his waist and said, "My core idea is only one, you have to figure out what you want What is it. Is it an ordinary marriage like everyone else...or you just settled for a person, and you don't want anything in your life except this person. "

"For me, the most important thing is Rachel. I have identified this person, so I can find a way to overcome other things." Xu Yourong said to Ma Yongfang, "What about you? What do you want? "

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Ma Yongfang finally breathed a sigh of relief after working until the end of get off work.I don't know if the method of controlling sodium intake has finally worked. The blood pressure of the patients is still acceptable today.

She packed up her things silently, changed her clothes in the buffer zone, then went back to the green zone in silence and sat down in a daze.Xu Yourong's persuasion was not useless, but she still couldn't make up her mind so quickly.

Unlike the ex-boyfriend when he was still in graduate school, Accountant Huang is essentially... seems to be a nice person.His fear of marriage was justifiable, not because of empathy or anything else.

On the other hand, Ma Yongfang felt that she had given accountant Huang the last few years of her youth, and she had also given away all her feelings.She is already 31 years old, even if she meets the right person...does she still have a chance to live in peace with him?

Sun Li'en changed his clothes and walked to the green area, and then saw Ma Yongfang who was frowning.When people are depressed, it seems that even the surrounding light will be dimmed a lot.And the huge "sorrow" and "anxiety" status bars on her head seemed to remind Sun Li'en that he should think of a solution quickly.

Hey... What's so good about being a team leader?Not to mention that I am tired and stupid, I still have to take time to care about the situation of other doctors in the group.Then who will comfort me?

Oh yes, I can go to Hu Jia.Thinking of his fiancée, Sun Li'en immediately felt better.He shook his head to try to wake himself up, and then walked to Ma Yongfang's side.

"If you don't stop, you will suffer from it." He said with a very straight man's point of view and tone, "Since he is also in Yunhe, why don't you just call him now and ask him out—it's not convenient for him to come out , I’ll find a car to take you there. In short, let’s solve this problem as soon as possible. It’s not a solution for you to lose your mind all day long. If something goes wrong in the red zone if you lose your mind, then I can Can't bear it."

　Just an update today. Caven has been too serious recently, so I have to adjust it a little bit.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)