What to do with old strange dreams

Chapter 4 Xu Shuyao

The summer temperature in August is abnormally high.

Even if you don't do anything, just sit there quietly, it won't take long for you to sweat.

It was a little dark inside.

The curtains were only opened a gap, which allowed some light in the room, so that nothing could be seen clearly.

Xu Shuyao sat there quietly.

His eyes stayed on the window with the curtains drawn not far away, staring at the curtains that had been drawn open.

I don't know what to think in my mind.

"Shu Yao."

There was a call from outside the room, and the closed door was pushed open in the next second, without knocking on the door or asking if you could come in.

Xu Shuyao's mother walked straight into her room, opened the door, and looked at Xu Shuyao whose back was facing the door.

A trace of loneliness flashed in her eyes, which was soon hidden by her.

Slightly squeezed out a stiff smile.

"It's time to eat, I made your favorite food..."

"Mom... you can eat, I'm not too hungry yet."

Xu Shuyao's voice was very calm, as if he hadn't spoken for a long time, and there was an obvious pause when he spoke.

Speech is also very slow.

These words came to the mother's ears, looking at the figure of her daughter with her back turned to her.

Eyes lowered.

"Then I'll leave a copy for you, and I'll warm it up for you when you're hungry."

There was a hint of disappointment in his tone.

Then, he left the room and closed the door of his daughter's room again.

With the sound of "Kaba", the room returned to darkness again.

Only a ray of light peeped through a gap in the curtains.

Xu Shuyao sat there quietly.

After a while, a pair of hands rose.

Holding the wheel of the wheelchair, she rolled forward vigorously. This seemingly effortless move was very difficult for her.

With a distance of less than three meters, it took her nearly a minute to arrive successfully.

Came to the position in front of the window.

After adjusting the position of the wheelchair, Xu Shuyao removed her left hand from the wheel, lifted it slowly, and opened a corner of the closed curtain.

A light shone in from outside.

After getting used to the darkness, suddenly being exposed to strong light will cause obvious discomfort to the eyes.

Xu Shuyao is no exception.

Under the strong light, he involuntarily closed his eyes. After a while, his eyes gradually got used to the light.

The tightly closed eyes also slowly opened at this moment.

Slightly lifeless, with lifeless eyes, looked out the window.

Looking out the window at the view.

The equipment in the community is not high-end, and most of the elderly live around it.

Some of their children work outside, leaving their elderly people to help take care of the children, so the pace of life is much more relaxed than in other places.

Xu Shuyao just turned 20 this year.

She was supposed to be on the university campus, but because of an accident four years ago, she lost the ability to walk.

From panic at the beginning to numbness now.

Four years had already made her bearish a lot.

There is no attire on the hair, it is simply loosened down.

Because he hadn't been exposed to the sun for a long time, his face was paler than ordinary people.

This is more intuitive under the sunlight.

The former friends came to visit her when she just had an accident, but as time went by, they also had a brand new life of their own.

Made new friends.

Even if they come to visit me again, most of them are not as enthusiastic as they were at the beginning, and more like coping.

Until... in the end it didn't come.

Just like that, only Xu Shuyao was left.

At the beginning, she would ask her mother to take her out to see the outside world.

But every time she was pushed out of the house by her mother and walked on the street, she could always notice the strange eyes of the people around her.

Mostly mercy.

pity her...

【It's so pitiful to be in a wheelchair at such a young age...】

[What's the use of being so beautiful, and you can't walk. 】

[I don't know if I can have children. 】

When Xu Shuyao heard words like this, it would bring great harm to her heart every time.

Unconsciously, she has begun to resist contact with the outside world.

Resist meeting other strangers.

Resist talking to other people.

Just sitting quietly in the wheelchair, staying in his room.

The books she used to like most were also dust-sealed on the bookshelf, and she never opened a book except that her mother would come to tidy up for herself.

The expectation of life is getting less and less.

She didn't know when it started, but she suddenly had an idea of ​​"living in this world is boring".

The beautiful moments in the memory of the past have become more and more blurred with the passage of time.

I can't remember more and more.

He could only stay in a small room, hiding in his last fortress.

Through the window, looking at the world outside the window.

No one can bear loneliness. The moment human beings survive in the world, they are destined to be social animals.

Look out the window.

Looking at the cat hiding in the shade on the lawn not far away.

I don't know who raised it, or it was a wild cat.

Xu Shuyao has been observing this cat for two months, as if it appeared suddenly, it appeared in her world two months ago.

A fat orange cat with white feet.

Perhaps because of the frequent feeding of the elderly and children nearby, its body is much fatter than that of normal cats.

In Xu Shuyao's observation, the orange cat named "Little Orange" by her has no other recreational activities, and will lie down in the shade of the lawn and sleep all afternoon after eating and drinking.

When the sun is not so hot, they will leave this place slowly.

I don't know where to go.

From Monday to Friday, it can hide in the shade and have a good rest, but on Saturday and Sunday, the good days of [Xiaoju] will come to an end after the grandchildren of the nearby old people have a double break.

The little girl might tease it curiously, while the boy would poke him with a small wooden stick he picked up from nowhere.

After it made an impatient cry, the group of children would laugh.

This is the case at this moment.

Keeping the move of opening the curtain with her left hand, Xu Shuyao looked at the cat lying on the lawn.

Not far away, a group of children ran over. Although they couldn't hear what they were shouting, each of them held a long wooden stick in their hands.

After a while, the cat was surrounded.

The hand that opened the curtain clenched subconsciously.

Holding the curtains.

After a while, she heard 【Xiaoju】annoyed yelling and the laughter of those little boys.

Watching the boys keep poking it with little sticks...

That was Xu Shuyao's friend.

She couldn't tolerate Xiaoju being treated so unfairly.

Perhaps it was the behavior of those children that angered her, Xu Shuyao subconsciously bit her lip with the tip of her teeth.

After thinking about it, he slammed the window open with his right hand.

He opened his mouth...but he couldn't make any sound.

She really wanted to yell at the group of children, telling them not to bully Xiaoju anymore.

But she has not talked to outsiders for a long time, and she has gradually forgotten how to communicate with others.

How should I tell those children that it is wrong to bully small animals...

Although she wanted to stop it, she couldn't say it.

Can only sit helplessly in a wheelchair.

Looking through the window, full of worry.

Listening to Xiaoju's [Meow Meow] cry.

Who……

can help it...

(End of this chapter)