Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 814
Zhao Bai'an knew that this long dream was real, it was the pain she had really experienced, and it was a memory that she had finally forgotten and suppressed.

But now, they are all vividly remembered again.

Zhao Bai'an remembered, the situation at that time was like this:
It turned out that after Moriyama hung up the phone with her, she was still stimulated by her mother, and when she was young at that time, the emails she received were sent regularly.

Although she saw the email as soon as it was sent out, in fact, Moriyama had been taking medicine for a while before that.

What really happened that day was that Moriyama was discovered in time after taking the medicine and was sent to the hospital for gastric lavage.

At that time, she was actually waiting in the hospital with Moriyama's parents. She still remembered that Moriyama's mother had collapsed and cried, and Moriyama's father had a conversation with her.

His father was not as emotional as his mother, but he actually told her clearly that he hoped she would leave his son.

At that time, Zhao Bai'an did not agree to Mori Shan's father in a daze, but stubbornly waited until Mori Shan woke up.

The first thing Mori Shan did after waking up was to find Zhao Bai'an, and his parents did not stop him from doing so.

Zhao Bai'an was able to enter the ward smoothly. After many days of waiting, expecting, and hesitating, she finally saw Mori Shan.

The first thing she did when she saw Moriyama was to hug him, gently but firmly.

Zhao Bai'an wanted to be small, but he couldn't hide his trembling voice when he opened his mouth: "You know what? You scared me to death! You know how worried I am about you!"

"It seems to have failed..." Moriyama murmured in an extremely small voice, then focused his eyes, and apologized again and again, "I'm sorry for making you worry."

Sitting next to Morishan, Zhao Baian squeezed his hand, as if begging: "Senshan, don't do such stupid things again, okay?"

Mori Shan was silent, while Zhao Bai'an managed his emotions and had an in-depth conversation with Mori Shan.

She poured out all the grievances, fears, fears, and worries in her heart for so many days.

On this basis, she looked directly at Moriyama very seriously, and then told him that if he had anything to do, or if he did such a thing again, she would accompany him and would accompany him to do the same thing.

Zhao Bai'an told Mori Shan how important he is to him and what he means to him.

Mori Shan was listening on the side, facing Zhao Bai'an's eyes, his cold heart trembled unexpectedly.At the same time, he also confirmed his position in Zhao Bai'an's heart.He knew better what kind of pain his self-isolation these days had brought to Zhao Bai'an.

He couldn't help but raised his hand and touched Zhao Bai'an's cheek.

Although Mori Shan didn't say anything, Zhao Bai'an was deeply touched at the moment, and her emotions had already reached their peak.

She was in a state of not accepting Moriyama's consolation at all, restraining herself but bursting out a voice from the bottom of her heart to him hysterically: "Moriyama, what I want is not an apology or comfort, what I want is your guarantee .”

She unconsciously clenched Morishan's hand, and said in a begging tone: "Morishan, I beg you, please promise me, don't do stupid things anymore, okay? Don't make me worry about you anymore."

Moriyama couldn't hide the emotions in his heart at this moment, and his eyes were red.

In fact, he didn't really look forward to death, he just couldn't bear the deep pressure from the bottom of his heart.He was unable to fight against the pressure, nor was he able to refute anything. In the end, he could only be submerged in the emotional tide.

But now Zhao Bai'an seemed to suddenly reach out to his oar, he really wanted to raise his hand to grab it, but the emotional fluctuations were so violent, he was still trapped there.

In fact, he didn't want Zhao Bai'an to be so worried, nor did he want to make her sad.But he was not sure, even if he agreed, would he be able to keep his promise?
He couldn't help but cast a glance at Zhao Bai'an out of the corner of his eye, only to find that tears welled up in her eyes.

Mori Shan couldn't bear it anymore. Although he doubted himself, he was forced to agree to Zhao Bai'an in the end, and responded to her words with an uncertain tone: "I...promise you, I will never have the idea of ​​committing suicide again."

Zhao Bai'an listened from the side, his long-strained emotions finally got a little relief.

She just hugged Moriyama again, but Moriyama didn't respond, but he didn't refuse either.

It was as if he had ossified like that, in Zhao Bai'an's arms, he couldn't recover for a long time.

And Zhao Bai'an also expressed all the emotions that had been hidden in his heart for many days in such an absolutely quiet environment.

She held Moriyama in her arms like this, crying bitterly.Tears were like broken pearls, she couldn't hold back anymore.

Time passed by in a hurry, she didn't know how long it had passed, and she didn't know how long it had passed.All she knew was that her eyes were dry and she felt an unusual pain.

Zhao Bai'an stopped crying, slowly let go of Mori Shan, and then wiped his face with the back of his hand.

Only then did she realize that Moriyama had already burst into tears, and her heart tightened again.

But soon, Zhao Bai'an realized that the atmosphere between the two seemed wrong.

Her purpose this time is to enlighten Moriyama.Although it's all right now, it doesn't change her original intention, nor can she change her original state of mind.Of course, she couldn't immediately mobilize her emotions to the best state, but she forced herself to force an ugly smile.

She said to Moriyama in a positive and brisk tone: "Moriyama, let's stop crying, okay? We have to laugh, we have to face every day bravely with a smile, we have to look forward to a better future, we have to Turn all your moods and thoughts into motivation to spur us on, okay?"

Zhao Bai'an spoke like this, while she was speaking, she didn't have much confidence, but she still tried to be relaxed.

Mori Shan understood Zhao Bai'an's thoughts, and then he agreed as before and said: "Okay..."

Zhao Bai'an finally relaxed, in order not to disturb Mori Shan, after saying goodbye to Mori Shan, she slowly walked out of the room.

And Mori Shan's mother finally showed her fangs. Although she had calmed down at this time, she still said something to Zhao Bai'an with a gloomy face.

In the end, she could only run out of the hospital quickly to avoid making things difficult for Moriyama's mother.

Zhao Bai'an still remembered that time when she was in a particularly embarrassing situation. She felt heartbroken once again when she thought about it. The sky was not beautiful, but at that time it started to rain lightly, and the blow of the light rain made her feel extremely cold.

Just like her heart now.

(End of this chapter)