Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 786
"Aren't you going to class?" Zhao Bai'an turned to ask Morishan.

Moriyama's tone sounded extremely dejected: "You go first, anyway, my grades are just like that."

Zhao Bai'an tilted her head, she noticed that Morishan's emotions were wrong, for some reason, she was suddenly not in a hurry to go to class, she turned her head and sat beside Morishan and continued to ask: "Morishan, what's the matter with you?"

The successive inquiries made Mori Shan frowned. He is not an extrovert, so he really didn't want to say anything at this time, but facing Zhao Bai'an, he decided to avoid the important thing and take the lightest step: "I'm really fine, you should go first Go to class."

But the strange thing is that Zhao Bai'an, who is usually afraid of Moriyama's breath, now obviously feels that something is wrong, so she is not in the mood to go to class.

For her, Moriyama's current state made her really worried, so she changed her attitude. She knew that Moriyama didn't want to talk about it, so naturally she didn't bother with that, but she felt that it didn't mean she couldn't be with him. Moriyama spoke.

She changed her face and said with a smile on purpose: "Oh, Moriyama, let me stay with you for a while, in fact, I have long wanted to skip class, and I have long wanted to experience this feeling!"

Mori Shan was still silent and did not speak, but Zhao Bai'an was not in a hurry, she talked to herself about her feelings and encounters today.While speaking, she also slightly exaggerated the facts and her own feelings.

She put herself in Moriyama's position, regarded herself as Moriyama, and used the borrowed perspective to drive Moriyama while expressing her emotions.

She deliberately complained a lot, and deliberately said a lot of bad things about the teacher. Of course, she also intentionally blamed everyone, directly showing herself as a lost lamb who fell into the abyss.

Even Zhao Bai'an used his most powerful acting skills and squeezed out two tears from time to time, which convinced Mori Shan.

Seeing her like that, Mori Shan, who has been unmoved, finally ended his silence and began to respond to Zhao Bai'an.

"Why are you so pessimistic? In fact, your academic performance is far higher than mine, isn't it?"

Zhao Bai'an was secretly happy, she knew that as long as Mori Shan was willing to talk to her, it would be a good thing.

So she hurriedly followed up and said: "Moriyama, don't say that, no matter how good my grades are, I was still sent to the office by the teacher? You just gave me a good meal."

Mori Shan is not a person who can comfort others, he is not good at rhetoric, he just responded casually driven by Zhao Bai'an: "Alas... Actually, I am the same too."

At this moment, two words flashed in Zhao Bai'an's mind: There is a door!

Then she hurriedly said to Moriyama: "Moriyama, to be honest, what is your reason? I was distracted in class, but I also saw that you are very serious, and...to be honest, I really think your Chinese score is very good."

Moriyama originally didn't want to say it, but sometimes it was like this, and the words had already reached his lips, so he followed the trend.

He followed Zhao Bai'an's words and said: "That's right, she just thinks that my grades are not good, and she thinks I'm embarrassing for her."

Zhao Bai'an was taken aback after hearing this: "What? Why do you say you are ashamed? I remember that you were the third Chinese score in the class last time!"

Seeing Zhao Bai'an's indignant look, Mori Shan shook his head: "You know she belongs to my mother, don't you? Everyone knows about it, right?"

Mori Shan's voice was not loud, but at this moment, his words seemed to penetrate Zhao Bai'an's celestial spirit cover, and her brain began to become chaotic, inexplicably, many scenes suddenly flashed in her brain like a movie.

But she couldn't grasp it at all. It felt like she was floating in the sky, like a body whose soul had been drawn out and then entered by the soul again, that floating feeling.

It's just that she couldn't say it at all, but she was suppressed by that feeling and had a headache. There was a feeling like a world away, and everything around her couldn't hear or see clearly.

But Mori Shan didn't realize all of this, he was immersed in his emotions, and under Zhao Bai'an's mobilization, he finally said a little bit of what was on his mind.

"Actually, you don't know. Everyone wants to go to a good school, and I am no exception. Especially my mother, I hope so."

"Can you understand this feeling? Can you imagine this feeling? From the first day of enrollment, the first day you step here, you are always in the sight and observation of others, In the mouth."

"Look, what happened to so-and-so's son!"

"I didn't do well in the exam, they said I was idle; I did well in the exam, hehe, and they said that because my mother is a Chinese teacher, it's a matter of course... Ha!"

At this moment, Mori Shan uttered some words that were backlogged in her heart. Although Zhao Bai'an was in the middle of waking up from a dream, she was still worried when she heard it.

But the heartache surged round and round in his chest, Zhao Bai'an finally just sighed: "Sen Shan, I actually think you are really good already."

She spoke the truth, with great seriousness.

The sadness on Moriyama's face loosened a bit: "Thank you, but I know myself."

"I'm different from you. You have been a good student in the top ten since the preparatory class, but my grades are not that good, basically hovering in the top fifty."

"So I'm not the best, I'm poor, I don't have the ability, and I don't have the confidence to get the kind of results they want to see in their hearts."

"It's even more impossible... to satisfy them all."

As he spoke, Moriyama lowered his head and fell into extreme depression.

At this moment, Zhao Bai'an further understood Mori Shan's knot, she thought about it, and began to comfort her.

"Moriyama, don't act like this. In fact, I think your grades are already very good. Even if you feel dissatisfied now, there is still room for improvement. We can work hard together, okay?"

"We can learn together, and if there is something we don't understand, we can also make up for each other."

"Moriyama, you believe me, grades only represent a moment, not a lifetime, and there is nothing difficult in the world, as long as you work hard, you will succeed."

Hearing what Zhao Bai'an said, Mori Shan felt various emotions stirred up in his heart.

He couldn't deny that what Zhao Bai'an said was right, and he also knew the proverb, nothing is difficult in the world, as long as there is a heart, but this sentence really didn't apply to him.

Moriyama truly felt that no matter how hard he tried, the final result would be disappointment.

Because he really tried.

But after trying, the illusion of failure still overwhelmed him.

In the reincarnation again and again, in the helplessness again and again, he was forced to walk into a dead end.

He didn't just start to feel depressed and restless from today. He had endured his emotions for a long time, and he was really driven crazy by this emotion.

But in the end, he couldn't find a way out.

(End of this chapter)